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by Angela Smith


  “That’s exactly what I believe.”

  “It sounds pretty crazy.”

  Jake continued to pace the yard, but his strides grew lighter and less aggressive. His shoulders, though tight, relaxed. Winona stood, watching, waiting.

  Amy opened the door. “Jake? I’m all packed and ready.” She said it like she had no care in the world, like she had no concern for her safety because she could trust her Uncle Jake to do the right thing.

  Winona hoped taking her back was the right thing, but they had no other options.

  Jake faced Winona and spoke lowly, his voice a growl of warning. “Okay. Fine. We’ll take Amy home like I have to do. We’ll make the best out of this impossible situation. But if Lillian harms one hair on the head of that little girl, she’s dead.”

  Chapter Seventeen

  “Before you go, I have something to give you girls,” Reagan said as she clutched two gift sacks.

  Amy dropped her luggage and ran to Reagan. “A gift for me?”

  Reagan nodded and handed her a bag with pink elephants stuffed with lime green tissue. “Uh-huh. This one is yours, and this one is Winona’s. You wanna go sit on the couch and open it?”

  “Yes!” Amy zipped through the kitchen and disappeared into the living room.

  Winona furrowed her brow as she accepted the bag. “I’ll be back in a few days.”

  “I know.”

  Winona followed them into the living room, Jake a few steps behind. Amy landed on the couch and patted the seat beside her. “Sit here, Winona.” She patted the other side. “And you here, Reagan.” She grabbed Reagan’s stuffed moose that sat where she wanted Reagan to sit, hugged him, then handed him to Reagan once she was seated.

  “Do you want to go first?” Amy asked Winona, her face scrunched and body teeming with excitement.

  “No, that’s okay. You go.”

  Amy dug into the bag and pulled out a stuffed moose and several pieces of clothing to fit him. She squealed and hugged him. “He’s so cute.”

  “That’s to remember your time here. And I thought you’d like to have your own moose. I know he isn’t exactly the same, but—”

  “But I love him!” Amy bounced into Reagan’s arms. “Thank you thank you thank you.” Jumping from the couch, Amy whirled and tossed the moose in the air. “I think I’ll call him Rooroonay.”

  “Rooroonay?” Jake asked, his deep voice plugging the pinpricks that had lanced Winona’s skin from the emotional moment.

  “Yes. For Reagan, and Winona, and Naomi.” Amy jumped back on the couch. “Will you save the other dolls for me? And the chalkboard? So when I come back next time they’ll be here for me?”

  Reagan’s gaze skipped to Jake and back to Amy again. She ruffled Amy’s hair. “Of course I will. If you’d like to take them with you—”

  “No, that’s okay. I’d rather keep them here.”

  “Okay.”

  “It’s your turn,” Amy told Winona.

  Winona smiled and peered into the sack, pulling out a stuffed eagle wearing a war bonnet. “Oh wow, he’s beautiful.” Tears burned her eyes and she smiled at Reagan before hugging her.

  “I remember your Native American name was Dancing Eagle.”

  “Yes. Yes, it was,” she said, emotion clogging her throat. Her mother’s tribe had given her the name before she’d been given up, and still called her that to this day.

  “What’s my Native Merica name?” Amy asked, her words running into each other.

  Winona glanced at Jake.

  “Water Dancer,” Jake said.

  “Ooh, I love it. And I bet Reagan’s name is Walks with Moose.”

  Reagan laughed. “That’s a good one.”

  “And Naomi’s is Running Bear.”

  Everyone laughed at that one. Winona thought it was too bad Naomi wasn’t around to hear her new name. Only now could they all laugh about Naomi being chased by that bear.

  “We’d better hit the road,” Jake said as he stood.

  “Okay, let me say bye to the kittens,” Amy said. “Where is Snowbound?”

  “She’s at my house,” Winona said. “Reagan is going to go get her and bring her here to take care of her while we’re gone.”

  “But I have to say bye to her, too. And I can’t leave without saying bye to Chay and Nay.”

  Everyone giggled at her use of names.

  “We can make a stop at Winona’s,” Jake said. “Then we can bring Snowbound back here so Reagan doesn’t have to go get her. Will that work?”

  Winona caught Reagan’s smile and smiled in return, but the emotion in the room was growing too thick for her. She’d already felt a lot of emotions this morning, and she needed time to process it all. Amy was leaving, and that meant Jake would soon leave.

  They all said their goodbyes and made their way to Winona’s condo. Amy hadn’t ever been to the condo, so she found the cat and carried her as she explored, oohing and aahing. Winona knew Jake was ready to get on the road, but he didn’t rush Amy.

  Winona gathered the cat food and carrier, then stood in the living room as Amy bustled through the rooms.

  Jake stopped beside Winona and clutched her hand. “I’m sorry I got so upset with you earlier.”

  Heat flushed her body and she smiled and nodded. “It’s okay.”

  “No, it’s not okay. I never should have overreacted like that.”

  “You weren’t overreacting. I can understand why you’d be upset.”

  “I shouldn’t have blamed you.”

  “Well, I won’t disagree with you there,” she said and smacked a kiss on his cheek.

  Chayton and Naomi came over to say their goodbyes.

  “Hi, Running Bear!” Amy flew into Naomi’s arms.

  “Hey yourself.” Naomi grinned and squinted her eyes at Winona. “Running Bear?” she asked.

  “It’s your Native Merica name.”

  “Oh.” Naomi laughed.

  “Mine is Water Dancer. Jake says. And Winona’s is Dancing Eagle. Pretty cool, huh? We both have dance in our name. What’s yours, Chay?”

  Chayton’s chest puffed and he smiled. Months ago his mouth would have been turned into a scowl. “Red Falcon.”

  “That’s cool. You and Winona both have birds in your name.” Amy soared away and grabbed the cat again.

  Winona and Naomi hugged and another set of heartfelt goodbyes were said. Winona caught Chayton and Jake talking. She wondered if Chayton was lecturing him about keeping his sister safe.

  Chayton shook Jake’s hand and then they hugged. Chayton walked over to Winona. “Be careful and call if you need anything,” he told her.

  “Yes, brother.”

  “I mean it. You have a family now. You don’t have to do everything alone.”

  “All I’m doing is going with Jake to take Amy home. Then we’re turning around and coming home. It’ll be about a week, and I won’t be alone.”

  “Call me and update me.” Winona rolled her eyes and Chayton continued. “I mean it. I already told Jake to make sure you call me every day.”

  “Every day?” Winona shrieked.

  “Okay, every two days. Just make sure to call and check in. Or at least send a text, let me know where you are.”

  “Yes, brother.”

  Chayton chuckled and took her in his arms. She savored the warmth of her little brother’s embrace. Despite her eye-rolling brush-offs, she appreciated that he cared and she knew he’d do everything he could to keep her safe. He was her family now; the only family she had that would last. Jake and Amy were fleeting, a part of her life she would always remember, but Chayton and his family would remain hers for life.

  She often wished she could take her brother’s last name as hers so she didn’t have to share it with the man who had given it to her. She had never known her real father as he had died when she was a baby. Her mother had hooked up with a violent man, and Winona had been given his surname. As her mother told it, he had insisted, and it was the only name Winona had ev
er known. She’d often wondered why her mom would allow her to keep the name of the man from whom she was trying to hide, but that remained an unsolved mystery.

  Winona Inman sounded good on the lips, but Jake would be gone soon. And why was she thinking of marriage anyway? She’d be alone for a while, considering she wasn’t interested in anyone in Tanyon and didn’t plan on leaving. And Jake … she didn’t want to think about being with anyone else.

  He had told her they could have a relationship without being tied down, but she wasn’t going to play that game. For her, it was all or nothing.

  • • •

  They drove a few hours, stopping to play and explore every few miles before deciding to stop for the evening. Jake found a quaint hotel for the night. They ate at a small sandwich shop for dinner, then strolled past town and up a forested hiking path on the mountains.

  Twilight dusted the summer sky with the promise of cooler weather. Winona shivered as a breeze whistled through the forest. She’d brought a light jacket, but it wasn’t heavy enough as the sun lowered.

  “Do you see those clouds?” Winona asked Amy as she walked along the path beside her. “Don’t they look like marshmallows being roasted in a fireplace? The sky is the hearth with the orange-blue flames of the setting sun.”

  Amy laughed. “What an imagination you have, Whiny!”

  “Whiny?”

  “Yep,” Amy stated matter-of-factly, her steps keeping up with Winona and Jake. Her chest puffed out. “That’s my new nickname for you.”

  “Why? Because I whine a lot?”

  Amy shrugged. “Not really. But I thought it sounded cute. Ooh, we could call you Whining Eagle.” Amy guffawed at her joke and Winona’s heart swelled.

  Jake chuckled and ruffled Amy’s hair. Looping his elbow with Winona’s and taking Amy’s hand, he said, “Let’s head back to the room before it gets dark and cold.”

  “It’d be fun to roast marshmallows.”

  “Yes, it would,” Jake said. “And the hotel has an outdoor fire pit. Maybe we can do that.”

  “Yes! Can we?” Amy broke free of Jake and skipped along the path a few feet ahead, flapping her arms like a butterfly.

  Winona went to the convenience store around the corner for s’mores makings, and Jake had the fire ready when she returned. They sat outside under the moonlight, and Amy had more fun roasting the marshmallows than she did eating them. Soon she dozed off on the chair beside them. As soon as they stood to go in, she bounced out of her chair, wide awake.

  “It’s time to go in, babe,” Jake said. “You want me to carry you?”

  Amy nodded. “Can I take a shower in the morning? I’m too tired tonight.”

  “Of course,” Winona said, glancing at Jake for approval. He smiled, and her heart lifted out of her chest much like those butterfly wings Amy had mimicked earlier.

  What would it be like to have a child together? And why in the world was she thinking such thoughts? They seemed to want the same things, agree on the same issues. For the most part. But they’d never discussed a relationship outside of what they had right now. The time spent with Jake and Amy filled a hole in her chest she’d never thought to seal, but it wasn’t a solid fill. Amy would be gone, and Jake right after. That seal would break, seep, explode, and there was nothing she could do to keep it mended.

  She didn’t want this to end. How must Jake be feeling?

  She knew how Jake was feeling. He fought this down to the last second, imagining ways he could fix this situation to his advantage. He’d called Lillian and asked for a few more days, but she’d told them it was time for Amy to come home. School would be starting soon, and she needed to be ready.

  So here they were. Taking Amy home. Jake had managed to hide his anxiety from Amy and make the best of their last few days together.

  Amy wanted Winona to stay in bed with her until she fell asleep. And where else would she go? She didn’t feel right being in bed with Jake, and there were only two beds. Jake showered and as she lay beside Amy with the lamp burning, darkness nearly consumed her.

  She thought about the family who had hired her to find their missing child. Many, many families lost their children, but this family had trusted her to find their daughter. She had failed.

  Jake said it wasn’t her fault. Maybe she hadn’t kidnapped the child, but she’d let her emotions take over when she should have stifled those emotions to search for a little girl.

  She’d gotten good at stifling emotions.

  She’d fallen in love with Amy. Losing Amy was like losing a large piece of herself, and that was only losing her back to her mom, where Amy would live. Didn’t mean she wouldn’t see her again. Or did it? When Winona and Jake parted, which she suspected would happen soon once he returned to his life, she’d never see either of them again. She’d go back to her life and play along in a persona of contentment.

  She’d gotten good at that, too.

  Her chest ached. Her nose burned. She heard the water shut off. Jake stepped out of the shower. She imagined him toweling off. Imagined herself meeting him in the bathroom for a fun romp on the counter.

  She sniffled, heat swelling her chest. Even if she wanted to cry, her tears had long since dried up. Reality was that she had to face reality, and crying wasn’t an option. Tears wouldn’t fix things, heal things, or make her feel any better about what was inevitable. Tears would only clog her throat, stiffen her chest, and give her a raging headache.

  Winona stroked Amy’s hair and studied the child as she snored softly beside her. She prayed Jake wasn’t right about Lillian. Prayed Amy’s mother only had her best interests at heart. She knew bad parents existed, but it was hard to believe Lillian was one when Amy was such a beautiful, well-mannered, and loving child. That couldn’t have been all Jake and Brandon’s doing.

  Jake emerged from the bathroom, wearing only shorts. Winona turned her head to meet his gaze. His eyes glittered. He bounced into the other bed and grabbed the remote.

  “Mind if I watch TV a bit?”

  “Not at all.”

  “Want to come lie with me awhile and watch with me?”

  She rolled out of bed and into his. He spooned her, laying his chin on the top of her head as he flipped through the channels. Snuggling in bed and watching movies was something couples did together. It made her feel like a couple. Her heart trotted a path to her toes.

  “A zombie flick?” Winona squawked in a loud whisper when he landed on a movie with corpses walking around.

  “Yes. Isn’t this perfect?” He snuggled closer and bumped his hips to hers. “This one is when zombies were like stupid dead people and not superhuman killing machines.”

  “Ugh. Who watches this crap?”

  “Woman, if you’re gonna hang around me, you’re watching this crap.”

  He chuckled at something on the screen. She closed her eyes and reveled in his rumble. Her heart rumbled in turn.

  She woke later that night to find the TV off and the light still on. Jake snored softly beside her. She shifted out of his arms and crawled out of his bed to the other. She didn’t want Amy to wake in the morning and find them like that.

  If Jake was right, Amy would have plenty of bad influences. Winona didn’t want to be one of them.

  • • •

  They were inseparable over the next few days. Jake took them to Glacier National Park and other state parks along the way. They went sightseeing, hiking, camping, and shopping. Amy didn’t want to buy herself anything except a pair of flip-flops. She picked out gifts for Reagan, Garret, Chayton, Naomi, and her mother. She chose something for Winona when she wasn’t around and Jake when he wasn’t around. They ate more marshmallows and sang campfire songs.

  And then it was time to take her home.

  That morning, Amy insisted on fixing herself up for her mother and begged Winona for hairspray to fix her hair. Jake’s heart grew heavy as he watched Winona helped Amy curl her hair. Then they spent another thirty minutes doing a photo-shoot with
Winona’s phone. Jake put the inevitable off for as long as he could but finally, after three texts from Lillian asking when he was going to arrive, they checked out of the hotel.

  Jake slowed the truck as they neared Lillian’s house. Amy chattered on about staring school soon; her only woe was she hadn’t spent much time with her school friends this past summer and she hoped everyone at school still liked her. She sounded like a well-adjusted kid who hadn’t been kidnapped, just lost her father, and was about to lose Jake.

  Jake’s heartbeat grew heavy and sluggish with every mile. Maybe she wouldn’t remember her dad. Maybe she wouldn’t remember Jake. But Jake would never forget her.

  Winona laughed with her, asking her about her favorite subjects, assuring her that the kids would be just as happy to see her as she was them and those kids were just as nervous. Their chatter kept him grounded, kept him from pulling over, turning around, and running.

  He did not want to do this.

  His truck smelled like marshmallows and hairspray. Leftover marshmallows were smooshed into the package Jake hadn’t had the heart to throw away when Amy said she might still want some. His gut twisted at the combined scent of his truck, Amy’s powder clean smell, and Winona’s musky lavender fragrance.

  They pulled into the drive, and Lillian stepped out the door and waved. Amy didn’t rush out of the truck to greet her mother like he’d expect a child to do after being away for a couple of weeks. Then again, her life had been a mess ever since Brandon and Lillian’s break-up.

  Jake’s head constricted, spiraling into terrors of what might happen, trumping into a black void.

  Amy wasn’t his child, and there was nothing he could do to keep her with him. Never mind the fact he’d been a part of Amy’s life since birth. Even though Brandon had been the one to mend him, Amy’s birth had been a contributing factor. He wanted to be a part of something special, like being an uncle to this little girl. In his drunken daze, he would never have considered having a child but after Amy’s birth, he’d realized he would like a child of his own one day.

  Too late. Grief consumed him, overwhelmed him, and there was no going back to a future he might have had. All of Brandon’s ministrations were for naught. As soon as Amy walked out of his life, all bets were off.

 

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