The wagon left me at the bottom of the road that led up the hill to my house, the gray-brick parsonage. Although I was nearly ill from exhaustion, my heart was lighter than it had been since the day I’d seen Slade in Bedlam. The stimulating essence of inspiration flowed, and suddenly I knew what my next step should be.
In order to find Slade, I must first find Niall Kavanagh. In order to find Kavanagh, I must go back to the point where this whole business had started.
Unfortunately, that was not to happen without complications.
As I toiled up the hill, I met Arthur Bell Nicholls, my father’s curate. He lumbered along beside me. A tall, heavily built man, he had heavy features in a square face adorned with thick black eyebrows and side-whiskers. “Back from London, are ye?” he said in his strong Irish brogue.
He often seized on opportunities to talk to me, and more often of late. I didn’t understand why, since we had little in common. Mr. Nicholls was a stolid, conventional man of the cloth, while I hardly led a conventional life. I didn’t much care for him, and today I was in no mood for his dull attentions.
“If I weren’t back, you wouldn’t be seeing me here, would you?” I said.
He laughed heartily, as though I’d made a joke. I had the grace to feel ashamed, for he was a good man, diligent in his duties and a great help to Papa, kind to everyone and loved by the villagers. My terrible experiences in London were no excuse for treating him ill.
I forced myself to smile and make polite conversation. “It’s good to be home. Did anything interesting happen while I was gone?”
“I went to visit friends in Hebden Bridge,” Mr. Nicholls said.
“They’re all reading a book called Shirley, by an author named Currer Bell.” His eyes twinkled. He liked to pretend that Currer Bell’s identity was still a secret-one that we shared. When he spoke the name, he always emphasized the word “Bell.” He seemed to think it meant something special that I’d chose his middle name for my nom de plume. I’d never told him it was a joke that my sisters and I had played on him. “They had much to say about the scenes with the curates.”
Everyone had too much to say about those scenes, which featured characters based on local clergymen. I’d portrayed them as fools. Some people thought my portraits were right on the mark. Others thought me disgraceful for lampooning men of God. Mr. Nicholls had found the scenes hilarious. He read them aloud to anyone who would listen.
“They especially like the character of Mr. Macarthey.” That was the character based on Mr. Nicholls, who paraphrased, “‘Being human, of course he had his faults; these, however, were what many would call virtues. Otherwise he was sane and rational, diligent and charitable.’”
Mr. Nicholls smiled proudly. I regretted that I’d let him off more lightly than the other clergymen. He thought it meant I liked him. When we reached the parsonage, he followed me up the stairs. “I’ll just stop in for a word with your father.” He added mischievously, “Ye’ll find a surprise waiting for ye inside.”
Having had enough surprises to last me the rest of my life, I warily opened the door. My best friend Ellen Nussey came hurrying into the hall. “Charlotte!” All smiles, dressed in a lace-trimmed green frock that complemented her blonde hair, she embraced me affectionately.
“Ellen.” I was glad to see her, but she could have picked a better time. “What are you doing here?”
“I knew you were coming back from London, so I decided to pop in.” She giggled; her light blue eyes sparkled with excitement. Although thirty-four years old, Ellen often behaved like the school-girl she’d been when we’d first met. “I can’t wait to hear all about your trip!”
She had been avidly interested in my literary career since she’d learned that I was Currer Bell. At first she’d been hurt because I hadn’t told her earlier, but her gentle nature couldn’t hold a grudge. She took vicarious pleasure from my doings, perhaps because her own life was dull. Born into a wealthy family, she’d never had to earn a living. Not having married, she occupied herself with visiting her friends, fancy sewing, and caring for her elderly mother. Once I had envied her affluence; now I pitied her dependency and boredom, and I shared as much of my good fortune with her as possible.
She noticed Arthur Nicholls standing in the doorway. “Oh, it’s you. To what do we owe the pleasure of your company?”
Ellen disliked Mr. Nicholls, and not only because she found him sanctimonious. She’d always been possessive, but my fame had increased her tendency to resent other people I knew because she feared they might take her place as my best friend. I should have tried to talk her out of it ages ago, but I was reluctant to hurt her feelings. Ellen was so loyal, so ready to give of herself whenever I needed her. Ellen had helped me nurse Anne during her fatal illness and supported me during the awful time of Anne’s passing. Whatever Ellen wanted in return, she deserved. If she tried to drive a wedge between me and other folk, I couldn’t object, and I didn’t want Mr. Nicholls around, either.
“I happened to see Miss Bronte, so I escorted her home,” Mr. Nicholls said, clearly mystified as to why Ellen didn’t like him. “I thought that since I was here, I might as well have a word with her father.”
“By all means have one.” Ellen waved him toward Papa’s study. “Don’t bother Charlotte anymore. She’s probably exhausted from her trip. Give her some peace!” She put her arm around me. “You’re just in time for breakfast. While we eat, you can tell me everything.”
She took a second look at me, and her eyebrows rose. “Why, Charlotte, you’ve got a new frock. It’s very nice.” A shadow crossed her face. It wasn’t that Ellen didn’t like me to have new clothes; rather, she feared I would change into someone too elegant for the likes of her. “Why, I do believe you’ve bought a whole new outfit. Wasn’t that a bit extravagant?”
I couldn’t tell her that I’d paid nothing for the clothes; that would lead to questions about how I’d come by them. Ellen wasn’t aware that I knew the Queen. Ellen had played a part in my adventures of 1848, but she didn’t know the whole story. Fortunately, Papa emerged from his study and interrupted our conversation. “Ah, Charlotte. Welcome home.”
“Hello, Papa,” I said, as glad to see him as he clearly was to see me. “How are you?”
He was an imposing figure-tall and upright, with thick white hair, broad shoulders, and noble features. At the age of seventy-four, he still walked the moors every day, visiting his parishioners. “Just a touch of bronchitis,” he said, fingering the white silk muffler he wore to protect his throat from drafts even in summertime. He squinted anxiously at me through his spectacles. “But what about you, Charlotte? You look thin and pale. Are you ill?”
Ever since Anne, Emily, and Branwell had died, Papa had been terrified of losing me as well. He constantly searched me for signs that I had consumption. “No, I’m fine,” I said.
If I were to be tried for murder, he would have to know eventually, but I didn’t want to upset him prematurely and tax his health. I was afraid of losing him, too; we were all the family that each of us had left.
“Ellen will take good care of you.” Papa smiled fondly at her, then noticed Mr. Nicholls hovering by the door. “Oh, hello, Arthur. Won’t you join us for breakfast?”
“Yes, thank ye.”
Following us to the dining room, Arthur cast a triumphant glance at Ellen, who pouted and grabbed the chair next to mine so that he couldn’t sit there. Our servant, Martha Brown, brought our oatmeal, eggs, bread, and tea. The others ate heartily, but my stomach was upset, and the tension between Ellen and Mr. Nicholls didn’t help my appetite. Nonetheless, I was glad they were here. They occupied the places at the table that had once belonged to Anne and Emily. It was still hard for me to bear seeing those two vacant chairs.
“Did you meet anybody famous in London?” Ellen asked eagerly.
I told her about Mr. Thackeray and his lecture. That seemed a safe enough subject, but Ellen soon said, “How is your debonair Mr. George Smith?”
“He’s not my Mr. Smith,” I said, vexed because Ellen always teased me about him. She insisted that he had romantic feelings toward me. I had always told her not to be silly. Little had I known that he would prove her correct.
“But he is your special friend. You write to each other so often.” Ellen raised her eyebrow at me and smiled at Mr. Nicholls.
I understood what she was about. She didn’t want me to marry George, or anyone else, because my having a husband would leave me less time for her, but she wanted to serve notice on Mr. Nicholls that I was unavailable. She thought he was interested in me! And she was correct again. That was why he paid me such frequent attentions!
Mr. Nicholls looked startled and abashed, then mortified by the realization on my face. His face turned red. We couldn’t meet each other’s eyes.
“Has Mr. Smith proposed to you, Charlotte?” Papa asked anxiously. He didn’t want me to marry, either. He often said that my health wasn’t strong enough for marriage, and he didn’t want me to go away and leave him all alone.
“No, indeed,” I said. Not yet, at any rate.
“Well, I’m glad he doesn’t have designs on you,” Papa said, relieved.
“Maybe he doesn’t,” Ellen said, “but maybe someone closer to home does.” She bent an accusing glare on Mr. Nicholls.
Papa froze, his teacup lifted halfway to his mouth. “Do you, Arthur?”
He stared at his curate, who sank low in his chair. I wanted to scold Ellen for stirring up trouble. I wanted to put my head on the table and groan.
“I-well, ah-” Mr. Nicholls blushed crimson all the way down to his clerical collar.
Papa set down his teacup. He rose from his chair in such a wrath that he reminded me of God expelling Adam and Eve from the Garden of Eden. Ellen looked delighted but scared. I desperately sought a way to forestall disaster. Noticing a movement outside the open window, I pointed and said, “What is that?”
Papa paused, drawing his breath. We never heard what he meant to say to his curate who’d betrayed his trust by plotting to steal his daughter. He, Ellen, and Mr. Nicholls looked toward the window. There was the head of a man, who smiled cheerily at us.
“Hey!” Mr. Nicholls said. “Who are ye?”
I’d staved off an explosion that would have rocked the parish, but dismay filled me. “Oliver Heald.”
“At your service.” Mr. Heald doffed his hat. “Good morning, Miss Bronte.”
“Do you know this man?” Ellen asked.
“We met in London,” Mr. Heald said. “I’m one of her most fervent admirers.”
“What are you doing here?” I asked.
“I wanted to see where you live.”
Ellen sighed in exasperation. “Not this again.”
Mr. Heald wasn’t the only curiosity seeker who’d ever bearded me in my den. Once, the vicar of Batley had shown up, demanded to see me, bullied Martha into letting him into the parlor, and stayed an hour before consenting to leave. Another time, some society ladies and gentlemen had dropped by. They’d included two Members of Parliament who had literary pretensions and wanted to meet Currer Bell. Their nerve had astounded me, but not as much as Oliver Heald’s did.
“Mr. Heald, this is the third time you have imposed yourself upon me,” I said. “Of all the inconsiderate people I have met, you take the prize! Please go away.”
Mr. Heald ducked out of the window before I’d finished speaking. In a moment I heard the front door open, and Mr. Heald walked right into the dining room.
Ellen gasped. “How dare you?”
Mr. Nicholls rose and put himself between Mr. Heald and me. “Didn’t you hear Miss Bronte? She doesn’t want you here.”
“Sir, you are trespassing,” Papa said.
Mr. Heald just looked around in delight. “So this is your home.” He wandered into the parlor, touching the furniture. “Oh, everything is lovely!”
We rushed after him. Ellen said, “I shall fetch the police!”
Papa hurried upstairs, then came back with the pistol he carried to protect himself when he walked the moors. He brandished it at Mr. Heald. “If you don’t leave at once, I’ll shoot!”
“Oh, dear.” Mr. Heald looked taken aback, then smiled. “You must be the Reverend Bronte. I’m honored to make your acquaintance.” He extended his hand to Papa, who was so surprised that he shook hands. “May I have the pleasure of being introduced to your friends?” He indicated Ellen and Mr. Nicholls.
I said, “No, you may not!” A sudden thought startled me out of my indignation. “How did you happen to arrive in Haworth at the same time as I? Were you on the same train?”
“Well, yes,” Mr. Heald admitted.
“How did you find me? How did you follow me from London?”
“After Mr. Thackeray’s lecture, I followed you to your publisher’s house. I’ve been loitering outside it as often as I could, hoping for a glimpse of you. When I saw you come out last night-well, there you have it.”
That explained how he’d found me at the zoo. I had thought myself adept at spotting people following me, but Mr. Heald had proven me wrong. I began to fear that he and his intentions were not what he purported. He’d accosted me at the zoo moments before the terrifying chase began. Now he’d turned up again, soon after the events that had stemmed from my arrest. How had Wilhelm Stieber discovered that I was in Newgate Prison? He had to have been keeping track of me through his informants. Did they include Oliver Heald? Suddenly the irksome little man didn’t seem as harmless anymore.
“Who sent you?” I demanded. “Was it Wilhelm Stieber?”
“What?” His face was a picture of confusion. “Who?”
In my excitement I forgot to be discreet. “Are you working for Russia? Was it you who chased me at the zoo? Are you helping Wilhelm Stieber find Niall Kavanagh and his invention?”
“I’m afraid I don’t know what you’re talking about,” Mr. Heald said.
Mr. Nicholls and Ellen looked at me as if I’d lost my mind. Ellen said, “My dear Charlotte, what are you talking about?” Papa’s face showed dawning, dismayed comprehension.
“Tell me!” I shouted.
Backing away from me in fright, Mr. Heald said, “Nobody sent me. I came on my own. I only wanted to see you.” He clasped his hands and extended them to me. “I swear!”
“You’ve upset Miss Bronte enough,” Mr. Nicholls said. He seized Mr. Heald by the arm, propelled him toward the door, opened it, and shoved him out. Mr. Heald tumbled down the steps. Mr. Nicholls slammed the door. “Good riddance!”
I went to the parlor window and saw Mr. Heald limp down the hill. He cast a wistful, hurt look at me. I turned to face Papa, Ellen, and Mr. Nicholls.
Mr. Nicholls was puffed up because he’d rid us of the trespasser. “Now, Miss Bronte, would you be so good as to tell us the meaning of what you just said?”
I supposed he had the right to ask, but I couldn’t tell him. “It didn’t mean anything. Please just forget it. I’m so tired that I’m not making sense.” Perhaps I was so tired that my suspicions about Oliver Heald were figments of my mind.
“Don’t make excuses,” Ellen said impatiently. “It’s clear that something bad happened to you in London.” Her eyes shone with excitement. “Did you stumble onto another murder?”
She knew about the murder that had plunged me into my adventures in 1848, for I’d told her about it and let her accompany me on some of my investigations.
“Are you in the sort of trouble that we had three years ago?” Papa said, concerned.
He knew the whole story. The only person present who knew nothing was Mr. Nicholls. “Murder?” All alarm, the curate looked at the rest of us. “What trouble?”
Ellen, Papa, and I exchanged looks. Theirs showed that they remembered that Mr. Nicholls wasn’t in on the story. Mine warned them that they’d been sworn to secrecy.
“We will not talk about this any further,” Papa said.
Mr. Nicholls bowed to Papa’s authority. �
��Very well,” he said, hurt because he’d been shut out of our circle. “But if Miss Bronte is in trouble, I want to help.”
After too many people had lately refused to give me the help for which I’d asked, I liked Mr. Nicholls a little better for his willingness. “Thank you, but there’s nothing you can do.”
“She’s right. She doesn’t need you.” Ellen moved to my side and put her arm through mine. “Charlotte, dear, let’s go upstairs. You can tell me everything, and we’ll decide what we’re going to do.”
“ We aren’t going to do anything.” I stepped free of Ellen. “It’s too dangerous for you.”
She laughed airily. “That’s what you said last time. And we had such fun.” She gave Mr. Nicholls a pointed look. “Haven’t you any duties elsewhere?”
He bristled. “As long as Miss Bronte is in danger, I’m staying.”
“Stay if you like,” I said, “but I must go.”
How I regretted my impulse to return to Haworth! I’d found no peace, and Wilhelm Stieber must have mounted a search for me. He would track me to Haworth-sooner rather than later if Oliver Heald were indeed his spy. I had made a dire mistake by laying my trail to my home; I’d brought the danger to my people. The only way for me to guard their safety was to leave immediately.
“Go where?” Ellen said, upset because she saw that I meant to leave her behind.
Papa beckoned me, “Come into my study, Charlotte.” He said to Ellen and Mr. Nicholls, “I’d like a private word with my daughter.”
We went into the study. He shut the door, sat behind his desk, and motioned me into the chair opposite him. I braced myself for more questions. He thought a moment, then asked one I hadn’t expected. “Do you remember the mask we had when you were a child?”
“Yes, Papa.” I pictured it now-a comical paper goblin’s face.
“I bade you to put it on. Then I asked, ‘What do you think is the best book in the world?’ and you replied…”
“The Bible,” I said.
“I also asked your opinion on other important matters. You spoke up readily and truthfully. The mask made you feel free to speak your mind.”
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