to house, took up nearly half of Dorothy's day. Every day of her
life, except on Sundays, she made from half a dozen to a dozen
visits at parishioners' cottages. She penetrated into cramped
interiors and sat on lumpy, dust-diffusing chairs gossiping with
overworked, blowsy housewives; she spent hurried half-hours giving
a hand with the mending and the ironing, and read chapters from the
Gospels, and readjusted bandages on 'bad legs', and condoled with
sufferers from morning-sickness; she played ride-a-cock-horse with
sour-smelling children who grimed the bosom of her dress with their
sticky little fingers; she gave advice about ailing aspidistras,
and suggested names for babies, and drank 'nice cups of tea'
innumerable--for the working women always wanted her to have a
'nice cup of tea', out of the teapot endlessly stewing.
Much of it was profoundly discouraging work. Few, very few, of the
women seemed to have even a conception of the Christian life that
she was trying to help them to lead. Some of them were shy and
suspicious, stood on the defensive, and made excuses when urged to
come to Holy Communion; some shammed piety for the sake of the tiny
sums they could wheedle out of the church alms box; those who
welcomed her coming were for the most part the talkative ones, who
wanted an audience for complaints about the 'goings on' of their
husbands, or for endless mortuary tales ('And he had to have glass
chubes let into his veins,' etc., etc.) about the revolting
diseases their relatives had died of. Quite half the women on her
list, Dorothy knew, were at heart atheistical in a vague
unreasoning way. She came up against it all day long--that vague,
blank disbelief so common in illiterate people, against which all
argument is powerless. Do what she would, she could never raise
the number of regular communicants to more than a dozen or
thereabouts. Women would promise to communicate, keep their
promise for a month or two, and then fall away. With the younger
women it was especially hopeless. They would not even join the
local branches of the church leagues that were run for their
benefit--Dorothy was honorary secretary of three such leagues,
besides being captain of the Girl Guides. The Band of Hope and the
Companionship of Marriage languished almost memberless, and the
Mothers' Union only kept going because gossip and unlimited strong
tea made the weekly sewing-parties acceptable. Yes, it was
discouraging work; so discouraging that at times it would have
seemed altogether futile if she had not known the sense of futility
for what it is--the subtlest weapon of the Devil.
Dorothy knocked at the Pithers' badly fitting door, from beneath
which a melancholy smell of boiled cabbage and dish-water was
oozing. From long experience she knew and could taste in advance
the individual smell of every cottage on her rounds. Some of their
smells were peculiar in the extreme. For instance, there was the
salty, feral smell that haunted the cottage of old Mr Tombs, an
aged retired bookseller who lay in bed all day in a darkened room,
with his long, dusty nose and pebble spectacles protruding from
what appeared to be a fur rug of vast size and richness.
But if you put your hand on the fur rug it disintegrated, burst and
fled in all directions. It was composed entirely of cats--twenty-
four cats, to be exact. Mr Tombs 'found they kept him warm', he
used to explain. In nearly all the cottages there was a basic
smell of old overcoats and dish-water upon which the other,
individual smells were superimposed; the cesspool smell, the
cabbage smell, the smell of children, the strong, bacon-like reek
of corduroys impregnated with the sweat of a decade.
Mrs Pither opened the door, which invariably stuck to the jamb, and
then, when you wrenched it open, shook the whole cottage. She was
a large, stooping, grey woman with wispy grey hair, a sacking
apron, and shuffling carpet slippers.
'Why, if it isn't Miss Dorothy!' she exclaimed in a dreary,
lifeless but not unaffectionate voice.
She took Dorothy between her large, gnarled hands, whose knuckles
were as shiny as skinned onions from age and ceaseless washing up,
and gave her a wet kiss. Then she drew her into the unclean
interior of the cottage.
'Pither's away at work, Miss,' she announced as they got inside.
'Up to Dr Gaythorne's he is, a-digging over the doctor's flower-
beds for him.'
Mr Pither was a jobbing gardener. He and his wife, both of them
over seventy, were one of the few genuinely pious couples on
Dorothy's visiting list. Mrs Pither led a dreary, wormlike life of
shuffling to and fro, with a perpetual crick in her neck because
the door lintels were too low for her, between the well, the sink,
the fireplace, and the tiny plot of kitchen garden. The kitchen
was decently tidy, but oppressively hot, evil-smelling and
saturated with ancient dust. At the end opposite the fireplace Mrs
Pither had made a kind of prie-dieu out of a greasy rag mat laid in
front of a tiny, defunct harmonium, on top of which were an
oleographed crucifixion, 'Watch and Pray' done in beadwork, and a
photograph of Mr and Mrs Pither on their wedding day in 1882.
'Poor Pither!' went on Mrs Pither in her depressing voice, 'him a-
digging at his age, with his rheumatism THAT bad! Ain't it cruel
hard, Miss? And he's had a kind of a pain between his legs, Miss,
as he can't seem to account for--terrible bad he's been with it,
these last few mornings. Ain't it bitter hard, Miss, the lives us
poor working folks has to lead?'
'It's a shame,' said Dorothy. 'But I hope you've been keeping a
little better yourself, Mrs Pither?'
'Ah, Miss, there's nothing don't make ME better. I ain't a case
for curing, not in THIS world, I ain't. I shan't never get no
better, not in this wicked world down here.'
'Oh, you mustn't say that, Mrs Pither! I hope we shall have you
with us for a long time yet.'
'Ah, Miss, you don't know how poorly I've been this last week!
I've had the rheumatism a-coming and a-going all down the backs of
my poor old legs, till there's some mornings when I don't feel as I
can't walk so far as to pull a handful of onions in the garden.
Ah, Miss, it's a weary world we lives in, ain't it, Miss? A weary,
sinful world.'
'But of course we must never forget, Mrs Pither, that there's a
better world coming. This life is only a time of trial--just to
strengthen us and teach us to be patient, so that we'll be ready
for Heaven when the time comes.'
At this a sudden and remarkable change came over Mrs Pither. It
was produced by the word 'Heaven'. Mrs Pither had only two
subjects of conversation; one of them was the joys of Heaven, and
the other the miseries of her present state. Dorothy's remark
seemed to act upon her like a charm. Her dull grey eye was not
capable of brightening, but her voice quickened with an almost
jo
yful enthusiasm.
'Ah, Miss, there you said it! That's a true word, Miss! That's
what Pither and me keeps a-saying to ourselves. And that's just
the one thing as keeps us a-going--just the thought of Heaven and
the long, long rest we'll have there. Whatever we've suffered, we
gets it all back in Heaven, don't we, Miss? Every little bit of
suffering, you gets it back a hundredfold and a thousandfold. That
IS true, ain't it, Miss? There's rest for us all in Heaven--rest
and peace and no more rheumatism nor digging nor cooking nor
laundering nor nothing. You DO believe that, don't you, Miss
Dorothy?'
'Of course,' said Dorothy.
'Ah, Miss, if you knew how it comforts us--just the thoughts of
Heaven! Pither he says to me, when he comes home tired of a night
and our rheumatism's bad, "Never you mind, my dear," he says, "we
ain't far off Heaven now," he says. "Heaven was made for the likes
of us," he says; "just for poor working folks like us, that have
been sober and godly and kept our Communions regular." That's the
best way, ain't it, Miss Dorothy--poor in this life and rich in the
next? Not like some of them rich folks as all their motorcars and
their beautiful houses won't save from the worm that dieth not and
the fire that's not quenched. Such a beautiful text, that is. Do
you think you could say a little prayer with me, Miss Dorothy? I
been looking forward all the morning to a little prayer.
Mrs Pither was always ready for a 'little prayer' at any hour of
the night or day. It was her equivalent to a 'nice cup of tea'.
They knelt down on the rag mat and said the Lord's Prayer and the
Collect for the week; and then Dorothy, at Mrs Pither's request,
read the parable of Dives and Lazarus, Mrs Pither coming in from
time to time with 'Amen! That's a true word, ain't it, Miss
Dorothy? "And he was carried by angels into Abraham's bosom."
Beautiful! Oh, I do call that just too beautiful! Amen, Miss
Dorothy--Amen!'
Dorothy gave Mrs Pither the cutting from the Daily Mail about
angelica tea for rheumatism, and then, finding that Mrs Pither had
been too 'poorly' to draw the day's supply of water, she drew three
bucketfuls for her from the well. It was a very deep well, with
such a low parapet that Mrs Pither's final doom would almost
certainly be to fall into it and get drowned, and it had not even a
winch--you had to haul the bucket up hand over hand. And then they
sat down for a few minutes, and Mrs Pither talked some more about
Heaven. It was extraordinary how constantly Heaven reigned in her
thoughts; and more extraordinary yet was the actuality, the
vividness with which she could see it. The golden streets and the
gates of orient pearl were as real to her as though they had been
actually before her eyes. And her vision extended to the most
concrete, the most earthly details. The softness of the beds up
there! The deliciousness of the food! The lovely silk clothes
that you would put on clean every morning! The surcease from
everlasting to everlasting from work of any description! In almost
every moment of her life the vision of Heaven supported and
consoled her, and her abject complaints about the lives of 'poor
working folks' were curiously tempered by a satisfaction in the
thought that, after all, it is 'poor working folks' who are the
principal inhabitants of Heaven. It was a sort of bargain that she
had struck, setting her lifetime of dreary labour against an
eternity of bliss. Her faith was almost TOO great, if that is
possible. For it was a curious fact, but the certitude with which
Mrs Pither looked forward to Heaven--as to some kind of glorified
home for incurables--affected Dorothy with strange uneasiness.
Dorothy prepared to depart, while Mrs Pither thanked her, rather
too effusively, for her visit, winding up, as usual, with fresh
complaints about her rheumatism.
'I'll be sure and take the angelica tea,' she concluded, 'and thank
you kindly for telling me of it, Miss. Not as I don't expect as
it'll do me much good. Ah, Miss, if you knew how cruel bad my
rheumatism's been this last week! All down the backs of my legs,
it is, like a regular shooting red-hot poker, and I don't seem to
be able to get at them to rub them properly. Would it be asking
too much of you, Miss, to give me a bit of a rub-down before you
go? I got a bottle of Elliman's under the sink.'
Unseen by Mrs Pither, Dorothy gave herself a severe pinch. She had
been expecting this, and--she had done it so many times before--she
really did NOT enjoy rubbing Mrs Pither down. She exhorted herself
angrily. Come on, Dorothy! No sniffishness, please! John xiii,
14. 'Of course I will, Mrs Pither!' she said instantly.
They went up the narrow, rickety staircase, in which you had to
bend almost double at one place to avoid the overhanging ceiling.
The bedroom was lighted by a tiny square of window that was jammed
in its socket by the creeper outside, and had not been opened in
twenty years. There was an enormous double bed that almost filled
the room, with sheets perennially damp and a flock mattress as full
of hills and valleys as a contour map of Switzerland. With many
groans the old woman crept on to the bed and laid herself face
down. The room reeked of urine and paregoric. Dorothy took the
bottle of Elliman's embrocation and carefully anointed Mrs Pither's
large, grey-veined, flaccid legs.
Outside, in the swimming heat, she mounted her bicycle and began to
ride swiftly homewards. The sun burned in her face, but the air
now seemed sweet and fresh. She was happy, happy! She was always
extravagantly happy when her morning's 'visiting' was over; and,
curiously enough, she was not aware of the reason for this. In
Borlase the dairy-farmer's meadow the red cows were grazing, knee-
deep in shining seas of grass. The scent of cows, like a
distillation of vanilla and fresh hay, floated into Dorothy's
nostrils. Though she had still a morning's work in front of her
she could not resist the temptation to loiter for a moment,
steadying her bicycle with one hand against the gate of Borlase's
meadow, while a cow, with moist shell-pink nose, scratched its chin
upon the gatepost and dreamily regarded her.
Dorothy caught sight of a wild rose, flowerless of course, growing
beyond the hedge, and climbed over the gate with the intention of
discovering whether it were not sweetbriar. She knelt down among
the tall weeds beneath the hedge. It was very hot down there,
close to the ground. The humming of many unseen insects sounded in
her ears, and the hot summery fume from the tangled swathes of
vegetation flowed up and enveloped her. Near by, tall stalks of
fennel were growing, with trailing fronds of foliage like the tails
of sea-green horses. Dorothy pulled a frond of the fennel against
her face and breathed in the strong sweet scent. Its richness
overwhelmed her, almost dizzied her for
a moment. She drank it in,
filling her lungs with it. Lovely, lovely scent--scent of summer
days, scent of childhood joys, scent of spice-drenched islands in
the warm foam of Oriental seas!
Her heart swelled with sudden joy. It was that mystical joy in
the beauty of the earth and the very nature of things that she
recognized, perhaps mistakenly, as the love of God. As she knelt
there in the heat, the sweet odour and the drowsy hum of insects,
it seemed to her that she could momentarily hear the mighty anthem
of praise that the earth and all created things send up
everlastingly to their maker. All vegetation, leaves, flowers,
grass, shining, vibrating, crying out in their joy. Larks also
chanting, choirs of larks invisible, dripping music from the sky.
All the riches of summer, the warmth of the earth, the song of
birds, the fume of cows, the droning of countless bees, mingling
and ascending like the smoke of ever-burning altars. Therefore
with Angels and Archangels! She began to pray, and for a moment
she prayed ardently, blissfully, forgetting herself in the joy of
her worship. Then, less than a minute later, she discovered that
she was kissing the frond of the fennel that was still against her
face.
She checked herself instantly, and drew back. What was she doing?
Was it God that she was worshipping, or was it only the earth?
The joy ebbed out of her heart, to be succeeded by the cold,
uncomfortable feeling that she had been betrayed into a half-pagan
ecstasy. She admonished herself. None of THAT, Dorothy! No
Nature-worship, please! Her father had warned her against Nature-
worship. She had heard him preach more than one sermon against it;
it was, he said, mere pantheism, and, what seemed to offend him
even more, a disgusting modern fad. Dorothy took a thorn of the
wild rose, and pricked her arm three times, to remind herself of
the Three Persons of the Trinity, before climbing over the gate and
remounting her bicycle.
A black, very dusty shovel hat was approaching round the corner of
the hedge. It was Father McGuire, the Roman Catholic priest, also
bicycling his rounds. He was a very large, rotund man, so large
that he dwarfed the bicycle beneath him and seemed to be balanced
on top of it like a golf-ball on a tee. His face was rosy,
humorous, and a little sly.
Dorothy looked suddenly unhappy. She turned pink, and her hand
moved instinctively to the neighbourhood of the gold cross beneath
her dress. Father McGuire was riding towards her with an
untroubled, faintly amused air. She made an endeavour to smile,
and murmured unhappily, 'Good morning.' But he rode on without a
sign; his eyes swept easily over her face and then beyond her into
vacancy, with an admirable pretence of not having noticed her
existence. It was the Cut Direct. Dorothy--by nature, alas!
unequal to delivering the Cut Direct--got on to her bicycle and
rode away, struggling with the uncharitable thoughts which a
meeting with Father McGuire never failed to arouse in her.
Five or six years earlier, when Father McGuire was holding a
funeral in St Athelstan's churchyard (there was no Roman Catholic
cemetery at Knype Hill), there had been some dispute with the
Rector about the propriety of Father McGuire robing in the church,
or not robing in the church, and the two priests had wrangled
disgracefully over the open grave. Since then they had not been on
speaking terms. It was better so, the Rector said.
As to the other ministers of religion in Knype Hill--Mr Ward the
Congregationalist minister, Mr Foley the Wesleyan pastor, and the
braying bald-headed elder who conducted the orgies at Ebenezer
Chapel--the Rector called them a pack of vulgar Dissenters and had
forbidden Dorothy on pain of his displeasure to have anything to do
with them.
5
It was twelve o'clock. In the large, dilapidated conservatory,
whose roof-panes, from the action of time and dirt, were dim,
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