by Greg Bear
“She’s here!” Mitch said, choking.
Kaye saw Stella and stood up straight and tried to shove her way out of the circle. The youths crowded in to stop her.
Stella stopped outside the gyre, arms crossed, looking this way and that as if she had not found what she had come looking for, or did not want to see it.
Kaye beat at the young people to get free, using no words, just grunts and shrieks.
Stella suddenly dashed forward and grabbed at the members of the gyre.
The old man lifted his hands, the woman did the same, and the gyre dropped back, leaving Kaye and Mitch and Stella at the center of a loose and expanding crowd.
A breeze whispered through the trees and across the gravel turnaround and dispelled the scent. Stella hugged her mother, then reached around Kaye’s shoulder and grabbed Mitch’s arm and pulled him in, as well.
Other youths arrived, curious, waiting to join in and do whatever was necessary.
“See!” Morgan shouted triumphantly. “Would I shit you? Man, let them be! They’re family!”
They said good-bye and thanks to Morgan, and Mitch shook his hand. Morgan was sternly told by the old Shevite man that he was not to return again, ever.
“Hey, it was worth it,” Morgan said defiantly. He waved farewell as Stella led Mitch and Kaye to a small meeting room at the back of the old bowling alley.
“They’re unhappy that you’re here,” she said, pulling out chairs around a battered wooden table. She motioned for them to sit. The window at the back of the room was dark; night had fallen. “They don’t want us to be found.”
“Who are they?” Kaye asked, too sharply, but she could not help herself. “Cult leaders? What are their names, Bo and Peep?”
“I don’t know what you mean,” Stella said.
“They wouldn’t talk with me,” Kaye said, trying to control her agitation. “Do they hate us so much?”
Stella shook her head, unable to answer for the moment. She could not easily explain how complicated an answer to that question might be.
“I sympathize with all of you,” Kaye said. “We both do, Stella. They have a marvelous story, I’m sure of it, but we have been looking for so long, we were so afraid!” She pounded the table hard enough to make the floor vibrate and the window rattle.
Mitch placed his hands over hers. “We’ve both been searching.” He watched Stella with alternating expressions of relief and anger.
“I’m sorry,” Stella said. “Will and I came here after the bus accident. It was for the best.”
“Will?” Mitch asked. “Was he the boy?” John Hamilton had told them about putting Stella and Will in the car with Jobeth Hayden. Hayden had been arrested by state police in Nevada and turned over to the FBI, but she had never been charged with anything.
She had had no idea where the children might have gone. Piles of crumpled paperback pages had been found in her car.
“You saw him in Virginia, in the long building where you found me. Where the girl died,” Stella said.
“I don’t remember much about him,” Mitch said.
“He was my friend,” Stella said. She turned to Mitch, examining his face with shy, flicking glances, her own face turning dark and her pupils dropping down to pinpricks. Mitch had never seen his daughter looking so down, so discouraged.
“Was?”
“He’s dead.”
“How did he die?” Kaye asked.
Stella shook her head and looked away.
“Did he fit in, here?” Kaye asked cautiously.
Stella shook her head once more. “He lived with humans too long. They hurt him. They made him wild. He couldn’t fit with any deme, not even mine.”
“You’ve lived with humans,” Kaye said softly.
“Not the same.”
“Stella, are you pregnant?” Mitch asked, and Kaye jerked as if kicked.
“Yes,” Stella said.
Kaye’s jaw clenched. Mitch moved his hand to Stella’s shoulder. “Will?”
“Yes,” Stella said.
Kaye moaned, then wrapped her hands around her mouth and jaw. Stella stared at the window, unwilling to witness her mother’s anguish.
“He’s the father,” Mitch said.
“I went to wasp so quickly,” Stella said. “It seemed so right, and he was sweet and gentle, with me, when he was away from the others.”
“Did they kill him?” Mitch asked.
Stella shook her head and her cheeks went a lovely shade of sienna, which, Mitch knew, signified a very unlovely emotion: grief. Her cheeks had taken a similar color when they had found Shamus huddled dead in the kudzu, years ago. Lifetimes away. “He stopped eating. Nobody could force him. Nobody would. I don’t know why; we can do so much with some who are ill. I stayed with him. We played games. It was his decision. He said he did not fit. He was in such pain, he became so far away.”
Kaye laid her head on the table. Mitch saw glints of tears falling from her eyes, darkening the scarred wood.
“He couldn’t be with us, and he couldn’t be anything he wanted to be away from us. Something was broken inside of him. He knew he would never be right with us or anybody else. Yevgenia and Yuri—our hosts—they tried everything they knew.”
“There is so much to learn,” Kaye murmured, and turned her head toward her daughter.
“He did not want to live, at the end,” Stella said. “We buried him in the woods.” She shook her head vigorously. “No more talk about Will.”
Kaye got up and stood behind her daughter. “Can we stay for a while?” she asked Stella. “Be with you? Help around here, maybe?”
“I don’t know,” Stella said.
“Do you want us to stay?” Mitch asked.
Stella stroked Kaye’s fingers where they rested on her collarbone. “Yes,” she said.
“Are we the first… from the old kind of people, to come here, to visit?” Kaye asked.
“No,” Stella said. “There are four more. An old man and three old women. They lived at Oldstock when Yevgenia and Yuri bought the place, and they stayed. The man does maintenance and they all work in the cafeteria.”
“So it wouldn’t be unprecedented. Maybe they can explain some things to us,” Kaye suggested.
“I’d like you to be here when the baby comes,” Stella said. “That would be good.”
Kaye lay her cheek on the crown of Stella’s head. “I would be so proud,” she said. “Is there a doctor here?”
“Yevgenia and Yuri were doctors in Russia,” Stella said. “Mine will be the first baby born here.”
“Like mother, like daughter,” Mitch said with a hint of his old reluctance. “Pioneers.” His wife and Stella ventured smiles.
“You could sing to the baby, like you did to me,” Stella said. “You have a good voice, for babies.”
“She’s right,” Kaye said. “What if it’s a boy?”
“It is,” Stella said. “I can smell him. He smells like Will, inside me.”
6
SPENT RIVER, OREGON
Some said the turning point had come. Kaye was not so sure. After all the years of struggle she could hardly imagine a time of reconstruction, of engagement and change. As she sat with her husband and the three girls in the back of the long passenger van, jouncing along the rutted trails beneath the white glare of Mount Hood, what she felt inside was a kind of frozen patience.
She held her husband’s arm and stared between the driver and the Secret Service agent sitting up front. Then she turned to look back at Stella and Celia and LaShawna, and John Hamilton behind them. The girls—young women now—were stiff as dolls, their eyes large. They had watched the landscape change from high arid brush to farms and pear orchards and then to thin forest; saying little, pushed close together on the bench seat. John was looking out the back window at where the long line of vans and cars had been.
He wants to be with Luella, Kaye thought. He’s tired of this fight and he wants to be with his wife. For the next fight.<
br />
No peace. No rest.
Mitch leaned forward to peer through the side window, looking for the first signs of the Spent River and the camp. He had not wanted to return here. “I’ve given up the dead,” he had told Kaye after the visit from Oliver Merton a week ago. “No more dirt and bones for me. Give me the living. They’re trouble enough.”
Mitch did not like the publicity aspect, nor the connection with William Daney, Eileen Ripper’s benefactor at the Spent River dig; it smacked too much of a stunt. None of this junket had appealed to him, and at first Kaye had shared his opinion. Why go forth into the world to help an administration that had come to the table so late, after so much destruction—one of three clueless, terrible administrations in a row?
What good to help the monsters understand? Best to stay in Oldstock, hidden away from everyone and wait for Stella’s baby.
But Oldstock was no longer hidden. Morgan had been doing a lot of talking. Reporters were arriving, pilgrims, parents searching for lost children.
It had taken a visit from Senator Bloch to finally persuade Kaye that this was a good idea. Troublesome gifts sometimes came out of left field; it was unwise to ignore them. Or impossible.
Kaye understood that better than most.
The EMAC schools were closing down or being converted to orphanages. Sandia Pathogenics was fighting for its existence and trying to redefine itself. Eileen’s Spent River site was about to become an object lesson. The president of the United States wanted it as a symbol for a country trying to come together after a long and awful battle between conscience and fear.
“There are always those who fear the future,” Bloch had told Kaye and Mitch. “They fear change, fear being replaced; one thing they do in their fear is kill children. They have to be left completely powerless, or the nastiness will start all over again.
“Either you join in, or you get left behind.” Bloch had said. “I think you should go. Fruits of victory. People want to know what Kaye thinks.” She had added, “You, too, Mitch.”
In the end, it was Stella who had tipped the scales.
“Let’s go,” she had said in the kitchen of the Oldstock cafeteria, wiping her hands on a dish towel and resting them on her prominent stomach. “I’ve always wanted to see where Dad worked.”
The line of cars and vans crested a rise and descended on the rough road to the dry meander of the ancient river bed. A few of the cars, with lower suspensions, were being left behind.
“There it is,” Mitch said. “They’ve taken off the camouflage.” The girls turned their heads to follow his finger. The site had expanded enormously. There were over thirty tents and shelters now on both sides of the old brush-strewn river bed.
Secret Service agents waited for them, checked with the drivers, then flagged them through, diverting the VIP vans to one area and the reporters to another.
The two long vans pulled into a makeshift parking lot marked by crumbling logs and shut off their engines. Senator Bloch waited for them under a white plastic awning. The sun poked through uncertain clouds and illuminated the covered H of the new main dig shelter. Again, linked Quonset huts provided cover. It lay at the end of a fenced pathway leading north.
“Is this where they died?” LaShawna asked.
Secret Service agents opened the van doors. Five photographers, led by a subdued Oliver Merton, surrounded the trucks and snapped pictures and made video. They concentrated on Stella.
Oliver smiled at Mitch and Kaye and stared at Stella with something like reverence. It was a quiet side of Oliver Kaye had never seen before.
“Just a year ago,” a reporter was saying into her lapel mike, staring earnestly into a tiny camera mounted on a curved pole poking from her belt, “the sight of a pregnant Shevite female would have caused panic. Now—”
Kaye turned away and refused to listen.
Mitch spotted Eileen Ripper walking along the trail from the big new shelter. He would have recognized her slow, deliberate saunter even had she worn a mask. She did not like this any more than he did, but it was indeed a triumph. A federal circuit court judge had ruled just three months before, after almost twenty years of litigation, that the Five Tribes had no standing—could claim no legitimate relationship to the remains of peoples physically and temporally so far from their own. The Department of the Interior would no longer halt these digs or return any remains found to the complaining tribes.
Thus had ended a long nightmare for North American archaeology.
Strange that Mitch did not feel any sense of victory.
The bones he had found, goaded on by Eileen’s challenge, had been just part of the story. He had not, after all, completely understood the motives of the ghosts flitting over the landscape.
Perhaps ghosts also lied to get their own way.
Eileen pushed through the photographers and past Bloch’s entourage with hardly a nod. She came straight to Mitch and Kaye, and her eyes lingered for a moment on the girls as she held out her hand to Kaye.
“Welcome,” she said with a broad, nervous smile. “And welcome back. Glad you could bring the family.”
She set about introducing the others, all moving forward with varying degrees of shyness or confidence or diffidence in front of the cameras.
Mitch was sure this was going to turn out badly.
At the airport, LaShawna and Celia had been glad to see Stella again. Breaking from John Hamilton’s protection, LaShawna had grabbed Celia and then Stella and they had all gone off together to the closest women’s restroom—a frightening place for them all, even more than the airplane, with the smells of so many humans.
LaShawna had dragged Stella into a stall and whispered fiercely at her, “What are you doing, girl, going wasp and getting yourself puffed! Was it that boy Will?”
Celia had called through the closed door, “She’ll explain later. Let’s go! I don’t like it in here.”
But there had been little time for talk, much less clouding and conveying the full story. The ride in the truck had made them all a little quiet, even with Kaye and Mitch and John along. LaShawna had whispered in Stella’s ear, “Your mother looks good.”
Stella had pulled back and looked LaShawna full in the face.
“Momma has it,” LaShawna had said sadly, dropping her chin to her chest and pulling up her knees, propping them against the seat back. “She’s in a wheelchair.”
Stella brushed the short hair from her eyes as the wind blew in her face. She stepped down from the truck and blinked at the cameras. Celia and LaShawna seemed to fall in place behind her like ducklings. Being pregnant gave her seniority, she wondered why; it was stupid the way it had happened, stupid losing Will. She had left Oldstock to come here in part to get perspective; she wondered how much longer she would live at the compound.
Without Will, she doubted she would ever find the childish freedom that had once seemed so important. As she smelled and felt the baby inside her, she thought of responsibility and getting things done.
Meeting with a senator and with all these other folks was a start.
The landscape around the dry river bed was somewhere between bleak and pretty and it smelled much like Oldstock though cooler; the trees knew less sun than the trees around Lake Stannous. Quiet, cool pines poked up through gray brush and hard, crusty dirt with broken pieces of purple-black and gray rock overlying.
There was something going on between the woman archaeologist, Eileen, and her father. They were old friends. Something had happened between them along ago; Stella was sure of it. She watched her mother, but Kaye did not seem bothered. In fact, Kaye and Eileen seemed to walk alike and to look around with the same dignified curiosity.
That pleased Stella.
Mitch put an arm around her shoulder. Stella leaned into his embrace and cameras whirred and flashed all around.
“They’re affectionate,” said a male newscaster to unseen eyes. “Isn’t that wonderful?”
Mitch gently squeezed Stella. “Never mind,
” he said in a low voice. “We’re going to visit the bones.” He sounded as if that would be like entering a church.
And it was. They walked down into the big shelter, following long plywood sheets, and reporters were instructed to turn off their bright lights. A large sunburned man, about thirty years old, in muddy jeans and a sleeveless T-shirt, with dirty forearms and a bandanna around his head, and dental tools and brushes slung on his belt, made the reporters pass through inspection and a shoe scrub. They all donned plastic booties. “Dirt is important here,” the man explained, his voice a rich tenor. “We don’t want to add anything that doesn’t belong.”
Eileen broke from a small group of reporters and introduced him. “This is Carlton Fierro,” she said. “Carlton the Doorman. We call him that because he can hardly fit through most doors. He’s in charge of this dig now.”
Stella smiled at Carlton.
“Glad you could make it,” he told the girls.
Connie Fitz walked around a sculpted pillar of dirt and hooked arms with Eileen. “We need big boys to protect us when there are reporters around,” she said, and winked at Mitch.
Stella did not understand any of this. She focused on Carlton, who was shaking hands with Mitch. “We’ve got the biggest grouping over here,” Carlton said, and led them all along the boards and through a connecting corridor to the second wing of the shelter. They turned right and stood before a wide excavated mesa, sheared off about ten feet below the datum—the level of the surrounding land. Scaffolds had been erected around the mesa and filtered sunlight fell on them all through milky fiberglass sheets.
“Eight at a time,” Carlton instructed, “and that includes me.” The reporters pushed around him, trying to keep the girls and Kaye in direct view.
