by Natavia
After the fights were over, everyone ended up in the parking lot. I felt like I sprained my ankle. I saw Osari but I could tell he was looking for Tassana. She must have gotten lost in the crowd. He saw me limping. “Ay, shorty, you good?” he asked sincerely.
“Yes, I’m fine. How about you?” I asked him. He had blood dripping from his eye. I used a tissue to wipe it off.
“Good looking out. Are you sure you good, though? Shimmy and that big-ass woman were rolling all over you,” he said chuckling.
I playfully pushed him. “Fuck you. That shit ain’t funny, nigga,” I said blushing. Osari’s eyes were beautiful, even the simplest stare gave me goosebumps.
“Nigga, I know you know better,” Tassana said walking through the crowd with the girl Kanae.
“Chill the fuck out. It wasn’t even like that,” Osari said.
“You know the bitch is delusional,” I spat.
“You still talking shit? Like really, Kyree? How did my ass look when I was shaking it? I’m starting to think you want a lil’ taste of this. You was drooling all over me,” Tassana said. Even the bitch’s voice irked me, she had one of those fake proper voices that tried to be hood.
“I was not looking at your ass, I was looking at someone else,” I said smirking. She didn’t have a comeback after that. She rolled her eyes at Osari then walked away.
“You better not leave her with your man,” Kanae said to Tassana.
“Mind yo’ business, bitch,” I said to Kanae.
“Honey, you don’t want to go there with me, you seriously don’t. I whip bitches asses like you just for fun,” Kanae said, getting loud with me.
“I want to see you try it, bitch,” Shimmy said, strutting through the parking lot.
“Don’t worry about her, Kanae. Like always, baby sis has to fight big sis’ battles. Unlike Shimmy, you have a career. All that little hoodrat does is steal fucking clothes all damn day. I wouldn’t waste my time. Let’s just leave before I show these bitches how my aim be looking when I’m at the gun range,” Tassana said.
“Take yo’ ass home, Tassana,” Osari said.
“That would be your best bet because I’m fittin’ to tap that ass,” Shimmy said to Tassana.
“Well, get to tapping because, bitch, I’m ready,” Kanae said to Shimmy.
“Let’s go, Shimmy. You can’t get into any trouble. You already know that. Let that miserable bitch be. She just mad because her man couldn’t stay from between my thighs,” I spat. Osari grilled me, but I didn’t care. It was the truth. At one point in time he couldn’t resist me, but he was pretending for her.
“Even I have never been a side chick. At least get paid for the shit. You are still driving around in that busted up Accord. You still live in the hood doing hair out of your kitchen. Yeah, bitch, it’s time to be asking for some change. No nigga should ever fuck for free. I know for a fact he didn’t spend not a dime on your simple ass. Free meals and drinks are included in the sidec hick package deal, so we are going to let that one pass,” Tassana said, sounding like a proper version of Tokyo.
“I have a JOB. Bitch, don’t act like you are familiar with it because last time I checked, you was fucking for money,” I said to Tassana, getting mad.
“Yeah, you are absolutely right. You have a job and still don’t have shit to show for it. Bitch, impress me for a change,” Tassana spat. Osari tried to pull Tassana away, but she was still fussing and cussing me out. She even went as far as calling me a ‘Crack baby’. Everyone in the hood knows my parents are somewhere strung out on drugs.
“Shimmy, you can kiss my ass too, bitch! I’m not scared of you! You got these lil’ bitches scared of you, but I’m not, bitch! Now, try me, hoe! You thieving-ass bitch! Your sister is fittin’ to get your young ass into something that you are not ready for!” Tassana shouted, trying to break away from Osari, but he had a firm hold on her. Kanae rolled her eyes at us, then followed behind them.
“That bitch just turned gangsta on us real quick. She even talks like her baby’s father, slick mouth and all. They said when your bitch starts talking like you then that means she is your bitch,” Shimmy said.
“Shut the hell up, Shimmy,” I said, walking to her car.
“Where is Dez?” I asked her looking around.
“He went to the hospital with Desiree. She got hit with a bottle. I need to smoke because my nerves are bad. I feel like running Tassana and that flat-ass bitch she is with, over. I filled my tank up today too. I swear if it wasn’t for the parking lot cameras I would have,” Shimmy said getting mad.
I got Shimmy to drop me off at Pernell’s house. Surprisingly, he was home. When I walked inside he was sitting on the couch. He looked at me then grilled me.
“So, you beefing with Tassana over that lame-ass nigga still? I heard how you and your lead-poisoning-having-ass sista showed y’all asses in the parking lot. I been kissing your ass for weeks, catering to you, and showing you how much I love you. I get it now, I did my dirt and I’m paying for it,” he said getting up and walking away from me.
“What are you trying to tell me?” I asked him choking up. He ignored me. I was very confused at this point. I wanted to be with Pernell but my body yearned for Osari. I was so caught up and I didn’t know what to do. My life wasn’t dandy, but the moment I met Osari it had changed. I still remember his words when I asked him to sleep with me months back. He told me that once he slid in, my life wouldn’t be the same and that I was about to get myself into some shit I wasn’t ready for.
Osari warned me, but I still wanted him sexually. I gave in anyway, and when I did, I caught feelings for him. I caught feelings for a man who has feelings for another woman. I didn’t plan on being a side chick. I followed how I felt for him and that’s what lead me to being one. I dislike what I have become, but my feelings are my feelings and I cannot control them. I need closure from Osari. My feelings won’t die until he tells me how he really feels about me. He might love Tassana, but I know for a fact that he has feelings for me.
“How is your son doing?” I asked Pernell. I no longer called him No Hands because that was the old him. He is trying to become a better man.
“He is fine, he has an ear infection, but I was only there for ten minutes. Rica almost made me fuck her ass up. I hate that broad, man. Tears come to my eyes every time I think about how I knocked her up. I was supposed to get hit by a car for that shit. My son looked like her when he was a baby. I cried like a bitch around the hospital. Babies are naturally supposed to come out cute or sumtin’. Yo, no lie, when she showed him to me, I almost slapped her ass. I told them I didn’t want to see the afterbirth and to show me where my son was,” Pernell said.
“That is just wrong,” I said to him.
“I love you, Kyree. I really do. I know I have to work hard for the shit. I’m not going to give up on us,” he said staring into my eyes. He sat down next me.
“I love you too, I will always love you, but all I can think about is your cheating and lies. You killed a piece of me. I’m not whole and I haven’t been for a while. I want that peace back that you took from me,” I said with tears running down my face. He wiped my tears away.
“When I took from you, I took from myself too. I didn’t just hurt you, I hurt the both of us,” he said.
I leaned in then kissed him. I wrapped my arms around him then held on to him for dear life. I can’t remember the woman I used to be. All I know is the woman I became. I needed to find myself.
Osari
“Shut your ass up, Tassana, damn, I knew I shouldn’t’ve let you drink that Henny. You been acting real gangsta all damn night,” I said to her, as I took my shirt off. Tassana got drunk at the party, and since that big fight broke out, she had been going in on a nigga. She even swung on me a few times. I had to slap her ass. I’m getting tired of these broads swinging on me just for the fun of it.
“You was flirting with her in my face,” Tassana said, falling on the floor as she tried to pull her pants off
. She hit her head on the dresser.
“That’s what you get. You shouldn’t have worn those tight pants anyway. I hope you get a knot on your head too. You was wrong for saying that shit to Shimmy though. You lucky Shimmy thinks like a nigga when it comes to the law. If it wasn’t for those parking lot cameras, I would’ve been pulling her off of you. Matter of fact, you are wrong for all of that shit,” I said.
“I’m sick of these bitches threatening me whenever they feel like it. Kyree did that shit to get under my skin and you let her. Why was she so close to you? She was wiping your face off like you are her man. You was smirking all in her face. Kanae and I saw everything,” Tassana said.
“I’m out,” I said to Tassana. We were at my crib since it was closer to the party. She and I were both too drunk to drive to her house. Kanae’s mother was watching our son. Tassana better hope my son is okay; I had never met Kanae’s mother.
“Where are you going?” Tassana asked me stumbling.
“You are getting on my nerves, shorty,” I said to her.
“Okay, Osari, I’m sorry, I apologize. I embarrassed you tonight, I got out of character, but I have always felt like everyone was against me and sometimes I get like that. Can you hold me?” she asked, pouting. I bit my bottom lip because she knew I was a sucker for that.
“Damn, you know a nigga, don’t you?” I asked her, pulling her into me. She unzipped my pants then got down on her knees.
“You going to let me taste it?” she asked, referring to my sperm.
“Yo, I swear you a freak.” I smirked. Tassana pulled my dick out then started giving me the best head I have ever received. I couldn’t help but to pump into her mouth like it was pussy. The way she drooled on me, sucked on me, licked on me almost made me fall down to my knees. She pushed me back on the bed. She climbed on top of me then started riding me as I gripped her hips.
“Slow the hell down,” I grunted ready to bust early. “What the fuck!” I shouted out because she was putting it on me too well.
“Oh, shit. Gooooottttt dammmnnnnnn!” I hissed when she put her feet down onto the mattress. She started hopping up and down on my dick. Her walls squeezed me, I got harder as her wetness started flowing down my testicles. She had every single inch of me in her. She leaned forward sucking on my neck. Usually I’m in control, but she was doing something else to me. She was taking control for the first time. Usually she doesn’t come until I tell her to, doesn’t move until I give her permission. Sometimes I tell her to just lay there and take the dick and she does.
“Slow down,” I said tensing up. I had to catch my eyes from rolling into the back of my head.
“Baby, I’m so wet,” she moaned. Her pussy made swooshing sounds, sounding like something wet was splashing against a wall every time she came back down on me. I tried to control her hip movements so I wouldn’t bust too early. She started bucking on me harder like she was riding a bull. The headboard banged into the wall. I couldn’t hold it in any longer when she reached behind her and started playing with my balls.
“SHHIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!” I let loose inside of her and my dick started jerking wildly. According to the clock on the wall, she was only riding me for about two minutes.
“Seriously, Osari?” she asked pissed off.
“You damn right. What you want me to feel bad that you didn’t come? That’s your problem, Tassana. I’m not embarrassed neither. That was the best two damn minutes of my life,” I said pushing her off me, laughing. I went into the bathroom to take a shower. Tassana came in and moments later she was throwing up on the floor.
I slid the shower door back. “Yo, you good?” I asked her, but she kept throwing up. She threw up nothing but liquor.
I hurriedly rinsed the soap off of me then grabbed a towel. She was on the floor laying in her vomit. “I don’t feel good,” she said. I took her clothes off then stuck in her the tub. I wrapped a t-shirt around my nose because my stomach was weak. After I cleaned off the floor, I had to wash her up.
When I was getting her into bed my cell phone rang. It was Lee calling me. “Yooooo,” I answered, pulling the covers over Tassana.
“Come get me! Yo, hurry up!” Lee shouted into the phone.
“Where are you?” I asked him.
“I’m running down the sidewalk! Ivanka is chasing me with a bat and a stun gun! Nigga, I just got out of the shower! She is trying to electrocute my ass!” he shouted into the phone. I hung up with Lee then threw on some sweats. I locked up my crib then headed to Lee’s neighborhood.
I pulled up at the end of the corner like he told me to in the text he sent a few minutes ago. I tried to call his phone, but he wouldn’t answer; it went straight to voicemail. I rolled my window down to blow the smoke out from my blunt.
“Pssst,” I heard someone call out. I started looking around, but I didn’t see anybody.
“PSSSTTTT.” The noise was louder. “Over here in the bushes, nigga,” Lee called out. I put my window all the way down.
“What you think you Ezelle? I know you ain’t over there taking a shit, nigga,” I said to Lee.
“Do you see her out there?” Lee whispered.
“Naw, now come the fuck on. I’m tired and my shorty ain’t feeling good,” I said to Lee. That nigga was playing too many games. I felt like pistol-whipping him. Lee stepped out of the bushes and I roared in laughter. Lee was butterball naked. “Yooo, what type of funny shit y’all got going on over here?” I asked him, wiping my eyes.
“Motherfucker!” I heard Ivanka scream out.
“Oh, shit,” Lee said running towards my truck. A gunshot rang out. My blunt fell out of my mouth. I grabbed my pistol from under my seat then got out of my truck.
Lee was rolling around on the ground holding his ass. “This bitch shot me, she fucking shot me,” Lee said holding his ass. Ivanka aimed at his head.
“Put that shit down, Ivanka. You cool as a fan, but, shorty, this my right hand. I’m not going to let you do it. You shot him in the ass, that’s good enough,” I said to her. I prayed to God she didn’t shoot Lee because I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself if I watched him get merked.
Tears ran down Ivanka’s face as she threw a pregnancy test on the ground next to Lee’s face. “I found out I was pregnant the same day I had to find out my man was fucking everything that walks. I gave him my life, Osari. I moved to this city because this is what he wanted to do. I put my life on the line for him. I have been there and this is the thanks that I get?” she asked, hurt. I put my gun in the back of my pants.
“You fucking shot me!” Lee spat.
“Fuck you. I should’ve shot you in the fucking head, but I can’t risk giving birth behind bars. Now, get your fucking shit out of my home. You was planning on leaving me anyway, right?” Ivanka asked.
Lee stood up with blood running down his leg. “I’m not getting shit, I pay the bills there,” he said to her.
She cocked back then punched him the eye. “Go to hell. Osari, get this nigga away from me. I’m a college graduate. I make good money every fucking year. I’m up for a raise next month. I don’t need you for a damn thing. You want a retired hoodrat? Go ahead and be with her. I’m not keeping no nigga that doesn’t want to be kept,” she said walking away.
“I told you a while back, you teach a woman how to shoot then you are teaching her how to kill you,” I said helping him up.
“That bitch told the police she had an intruder trying to break into her house. That gun is registered. If she would’ve killed me in the house, she would’ve got away with it. I thought that crazy bitch had a stun gun but it was an actual gun. That bitch was really going to kill me if I didn’t run out of the house,” Lee said in shock.
I heard sirens coming nearby, the police must have been coming to check out their house. I hurriedly helped Lee into my truck then sped off.
“It finally caught up to you, my nigga, you might as well cut the bullshit out,” I said to Lee.
“Ivanka and I been low-key having
problems for a minute,” he said.
“Look, nigga, I’m not a relationship expert, but I hope what everyone was saying ain’t true. Don’t get me wrong, I know you disagree with me being with Tassana. She shot you and took my money, but I still saw something in her, but Desiree is thirty-three now and is still doing the same shit. Nigga, that woman is set in her habits. She cannot be saved at all. You got your dick wet, let that shit ride, my nigga,” I said to him.
“You a hypocrite, nigga,” Lee said.
“Naw, nigga, I’m not a hypocrite, you just dumb. I didn’t have a shorty when I got involved with Tassana. I could do what I wanted to do. You, on the other hand, have a good woman who you are willing to leave for an old run-down hoe. Nigga, that’s dumb. If you didn’t have a woman, I wouldn’t be telling you this shit. I thought I had to merk a woman who I have known for years. You have more to lose than what I did when I started dealing with Tassana. Ivanka works, she held you down when you was locked up for eighteen months. She was missing school and all of that just to see you. Get locked up while fucking with Desiree, she would spend your lawyer money and have the next d-boy bending her over in the bathroom,” I said to Lee as he hissed in pain.
