Social Blunders

by Tim Sandlin

  “Sammi?”

  “Sammi with an i and no e. She’s seven hours older than Sam.”

  I had a funny feeling. “Who is Sam?”

  “Babs’s baby, of course. We’re going to raise them like twins with different mothers. Sam and Sammi.”

  This seemed like good news, but I wasn’t sure. For certain, it was odd. “Are you girls going to tell the kids who their real fathers are?”

  “Are you kidding? Here, Babs wants to talk.”

  More giggles. More confusion. At least I’d made someone happy. If I have a choice, I’d rather make people happy some way other than giving them money, but I’ll take goodwill however it comes.

  “You’re not mad at us, are you, Mr. Callahan?”

  “Why would I be mad? I’m honored you named your babies Sam and Sammi.”

  “There’s more.”

  “Tell him,” Lynette chirped in the background.

  “Tell me what?”

  “The birth certificate lady said we could write down anyone we wanted as the fathers, so long as he didn’t mind.”

  Uh-oh. “Both of you?”

  “We hope you don’t mind.”

  ***

  When I walked into Tex and Shirley’s Pancake House an embarrassed scarecrow stood beside the Please wait to be seated sign, clutching a stack of menus to her breasts. Behind the cash register, King Kong made change for a postman who didn’t seem a bit nonplussed to be receiving money from the paw of a gorilla.

  I’ve been disoriented often enough that I know it doesn’t pay to draw attention to the fact. Just keep your head down, pretend everything is normal, and hope that with time the chaos will sort itself out.

  “Morning, Mr. Callahan,” Judy said as she poured my coffee. Judy wore long whiskers, pointed ears, and a tail. She said, “I’m a cat.”

  My chronic disorientation is triggered by a daydream mentality. Throughout the drive to Tex and Shirley’s, I’d been pretending on their sixteenth birthday Sam and Sammi apply for driver’s licenses and spot my name on their birth certificates. They bolt the license bureau and rush to the Manor House, where I embrace my newfound family and give birthday presents.

  Maybe the moral thing would be to adopt them, more or less, right now. Take fatherhood seriously, even though it seemed strange to suddenly have two children by teenage girls I hardly knew. Not that I minded, but it was a major commitment to take on without forethought. I’m prone to quick commitments, probably a reaction against Lydia. She’s so afraid of commitment that back when I was young and she smoked cigarettes, she wouldn’t buy the same brand twice in a row.

  I felt sweet breath on my cheek, and when I turned to track down the source, Gilia kissed me. Smack. Right on the lips. Her mouth was supple and soft, yet controlled, with a faint taste of Carmex.

  “I’m sorry,” she said. “I was uptight last night. I have to remind myself there’s a difference between being careful and closing up shop completely.”

  With her face close to mine, the situation clicked. “Today is Halloween. That’s why people are in costume,” I said.

  “Right.” She slid into her chair. “So what do you say? Can you handle a relationship where you kiss but don’t fuck?”

  The suddenness with which Gilia went frank always took me off guard. This wasn’t a woman who wasted time saying “Good morning.” Judy came by with the coffeepot to take our order—cheese blintzes for me and Swedish pancakes for Gilia. I like a woman who eats real food instead of dry toast and skimmed milk.

  After Judy left, I said, “Are there kiss limits?”

  Gilia pulled her blond hair into a doughnut-shaped bungee cord sort of thing. I forget what they’re called. “Like French?”

  “More like necking. Are you talking kiss-hello, kiss-good-bye or a thirty-minute make-out session?”

  “I won’t set rules. My only request is I’m not ready to make love, so if we ever do neck to the point where I say okay, you have to ignore me and stop.”

  That’s definitely defining parameters. I looked at the hair on her arms and thought of lemon meringue pie. Waking up beside Gilia would be like waking up in a mountain meadow next to a bubbling brook, only without the hay fever.

  “I can do that,” I said.

  “Great.”

  When Judy brought our food Gilia dug right in with butter and syrup, but I only pretended to eat. What I really did was watch her face. Watching Gilia’s face was like watching a time lapse movie of the sky. She registered everything. When I said father, her skin tone darkened. Jack-o’-lantern caused crinkles to dance. After looking at Gilia a few minutes, I didn’t know why I had ever thought Wanda’s face was interesting. Wanda had three basic looks—drunk, sober, and PMS. Gilia had hundreds.

  I concentrated on the freckle between her nose and right eye. It was like one of those little thermometers that pop out of turkeys when they’re done. Gilia’s freckle glowed as she approached passion, such as when she raged at Ronald Reagan and the invasion of Grenada. She really cared about current events. Lydia used to be a news junkie, after she stopped drinking and before she went into feminist literature. Now, she’s a single-issue newshound. I’ve never followed the world that closely myself.

  “Clark Gaines tried to kill himself in my garage last night,” I said.

  Her head did the sudden cock to one side thing. “How hard did he try?”

  “He made a Polish joke out of it.”

  The freckle kind of spread toward the eye. That was her introspective look. “Poor kid.”

  “I think I’ll call Billy this afternoon. All Clark wants is attention, but he’s liable to slip up and waste himself trying to get it.”

  Gilia put both hands around a coffee cup. “I remember Clark from company picnics when I was young. He was the kid the other boys depantsed in the woods.”

  “I’ve been that kid. Makes for a tough puberty.”

  Judy came over to pick up our plates and tell us about the other Judy’s pinworms. We listened with interest and Gilia even asked a consistency question. Everyone needs someone who is interested in their problems, especially career waitresses, but I for one was glad I’d finished my blintz.

  While I nursed a final cup—my fifth of the day—Gilia stared out the window at the damp Carolina morning. Rain had been threatening all week, and now it looked ready to dump.

  “I’m free tonight,” Gilia said. “Care for a movie? Terms of Endearment is playing at Four Seasons Mall.”

  It was my turn to pay. “A movie?”

  “Like a date, sort of. We’ll go Dutch so neither one of us worries about strings attached.”

  I studied the check closely, making certain Judy added right. “I’d love to, but tonight I can’t. There’s this CEO in from Nebraska whose country club might buy a hundred ten Shilohs, and I’m stuck with the wining and dining. If it’s over early, I’ll call.”

  Gilia cocked her head and studied me a moment. Then she said, “Sounds good. Maybe we’ll hit the movie tomorrow night.”

  22

  Okay, I lied. Crucify me. There was no CEO from Nebraska to wine and dine, and if there had been, I sure as heck wouldn’t be the winer and diner. Schmoozing was Ambrosia’s turf.

  All I can figure is maybe I was falling in love, because my strictest ethical rule is never, ever lie to a woman. Let them lie to you. Maurey wrote a letter back in college in which she explained honesty, love, and sex. She wrote: “Sam, I’ve discovered how to seduce anyone I want. If you don’t love them, act like you do, and if you do love them, act like you don’t.”

  So, by lying to Gilia, what I actually did was prove my love for her. I only hoped she saw it that way when I got caught.

  ***

  The direct cause for my lie was Katrina Prescott’s birthday. Within minutes after Skip threatened me by phone Saturday, he and Sonny left for
the Sport Shoe Trade Show in Atlanta. Every year they spent the first week of November in Atlanta, staying abreast of new developments in footwear—and drink and fornication, according to Katrina—and every year Katrina threw a hissy fit because Halloween was her birthday.

  And Friday, in a moment of post-orgasmic pity, I’d promised Katrina she didn’t have to spend another birthday alone. The poor woman wanted a spark of out-front, formal celebration—something more traditional than bondage stunts with a stranger in a Ramada Inn motel room. She wanted to dress nice and eat in a public place with civilized lighting and table service. That’s not asking so much for a birthday.

  She applied pressure and I said yes. I haven’t said no to a woman yet. No reason to think I’d start on a birthday wish.

  ***

  Gaylene stormed across the Magic Cart Company parking lot, demanding to know who this Vernon Scharp was who’d shown up saying I promised him a job.

  “He’s a process server.”

  “And how does serving processes qualify him to build golf carts?”

  “I felt sorry for him,” I said. “Bringing people bad news must be a sad way to make a living.”

  Gaylene stared up at me and twitched. She’s fifty or so and about four ten, and the plant workers are scared to death of her. Much of my fear of fiery little women stems from Gaylene.

  “You plan on hiring every sad case you feel sorry for?” she asked. “Because if you are, I’m going to work for R. J. Reynolds.”

  I’d hoped to mention Babs and Lynette, but this didn’t seem the time. “I won’t do it again.”

  “Write the checks, Sam. Leave running the shop to me.”

  ***

  Mrs. Gaines told me Billy was in Atlanta at the Sport Shoe Trade Show. I’d never met the woman and didn’t know if Billy had told her my story, so I felt funny about saying, “I’m your husband’s bastard son and your legitimate son tried to kill himself in my garage last night.” There’d been enough life-shattering conversations lately; I couldn’t handle another one.

  “What should I tell Billy this is in reference to?” she asked.

  “His name came up as a possible judge in the Coke versus Pepsi competition.”

  “Billy only drinks root beer. Caffeine makes him irritable.”

  “I’ll make a note of that.”

  ***

  Moses Cone Hospital was only too happy to accept my credit card. I talked to a woman in patient billing and I’m not sure but I thought I heard a smirk behind her voice. The whole staff was probably gossiping about the man who fathered two babies in one day.

  She asked my relationship to the patients and I said, “Benefactor.”

  ***

  Next I called the Dyn-o-Mite Novelty Company to cancel the As-God-Is-My-Witness bumper sticker. So much for my anti-monogamy pledge. From now on side sex would be fraught with guilt, which is how it should be, I suppose.

  ***

  Wanda’s voice crackled. “Have you no gratitude?”

  “Hi, honey.”

  “After all I sacrificed for us as a couple, you have the unmitigated gall to break into my home and steal my property.”

  “My property, actually.”

  “You did me wrong, Sam, and now you owe me.”

  “I notice you saved the autographed copy of The Shortstop Kid. Freud would take that as a sign you still love me.”

  “The novels are trash, Sam. Only a whore writes genre fiction.”

  “I saw your little video setup.”

  Wanda’s controlled breathing oozed over the line. “My Art Erotica is none of your business.”

  “Haul me into court and we’ll let the judge decide who’s creating art and who’s a whore.” I couldn’t help but wonder how charging Sam’s and Sammi’s births on my credit card would go over at a divorce hearing. Didn’t take a writer’s imagination to foresee messiness.

  “I know you too well, Sam. You don’t have the balls to fight me.”

  “Want to bet?”

  She hung up.

  ***

  Shirley poked her head through my office door.

  “A man’s roaming the halls, looking for you.”

  “I’m not here. Send him to whoever I would send him to if I was here.”

  She scowled as if I’d insulted her intelligence. “I already did. He says he has to meet with you, personally. He looks like a politician.”

  “Oh, God, it’s Cameron Saunders.”

  “Should I tell him to go away?”

  “Hell.” My mind raced through the boundless implications. Unlike Skip Prescott, who ran on heat and steam, Cameron wasn’t the type you could dodge until he lost interest. “Send him in.”

  Tall, bald Cameron glided in on Cole Haan shoes. I own a pair, but I’m not pretentious so I don’t wear them. Cameron wore a three-piece suit that fit him perfectly and a tie so tasteful I could spit.

  He said, “Mr. Callahan.”

  I said, “Mr. Saunders.”

  He stepped forward and spread a deck of Polaroid prints across my desk. I picked up the one on my far left, carefully, by the borders, so as not to smudge the picture of Katrina and me entering room 247 of the Ramada Inn. They all followed the same vein—Katrina and me coming out of room 247 with her hand on my butt, Katrina in her red-and-white cheerleader outfit, walking into the Manor House, a through-the-window shot of Katrina dancing while I hang naked on the wall with a pom-pom on my crotch. In each photo, she was smiling and I wasn’t.

  “You hired another detective,” I said.

  Cameron flashed his ice blue smile, smug as a snake on a rat. “Frankly, my man was following Katrina. You came as something of a bonus.”

  I stood up and moved to the window. From behind a row of pines, a Piedmont Airlines plane lifted off, headed west, where I should have been.

  Cameron spoke to my back. “My ambition is to run for Congress, for a start.”

  “I knew you were a politician.”

  “And I cannot afford a business partner whose wife causes scandals.”

  “What does Skip think of you spying on his wife?”

  “Skip doesn’t think.”

  “He doesn’t know.” I watched the weather and waited for whatever was coming next. The problem, as I saw it, was I’d let myself fall into the hands of an unethical man who hated me while I loved his daughter. I smiled at my reflection in the window; that was nice, I loved his daughter.

  Cameron leaned forward with three fingers forming a tripod on my desk. “Bottom line, buster. You are to leave Greensboro. You are never to speak of the incident in question to anyone. No newspapers. No TV. You better not even tell a priest, because I will find out and I will destroy you.”

  One last look at the plane disappearing west, then I turned to face him. “Did you think to ask politely? I never intended going on TV.”

  “This matter cannot be left to a bastard’s discretion. Politics is expensive, the party cannot risk you turning wise-ass the week before an election.”

  “That’ll be the Republican Party?”

  He said, “I needn’t spell out the consequences.”

  “Spell them out anyway.”

  “Skip Prescott.” Cameron’s upper lip glistened with a light film of sweat. I’d seen the same film on Gilia and thought it lovely.

  “To tell the truth, Mr. Saunders, I’m not afraid of Skip. What exactly could he do?”

  “His money can hire you a gob of grief.”

  “My money can sue his shorts off.”

  Cameron strummed his fingers as he studied the photos. His eyes came up to meet mine. “Gilia.”

  Got me cold. “Why would Gilia care what I do?”

  His laugh was bitter. “Nothing in my political career is being left to chance.”

  “You’re spying on your own d
aughter?” No way could a man this sleazy be my father.

  “For some inexplicable reason, she has developed a trust in you. Consider how these photographs will affect that trust.”

  Since the bald buzzard wasn’t Dad, that cleared up the incest problem, at least as far as sister went. She could still be a cousin. None of it would mean squat when Cameron showed her the pictures.

  “That’s a lousy way to use your daughter.”

  He shrugged. “I am protecting her.”

  “If I had proof my daughter’s boyfriend was a pervert, I wouldn’t blackmail him. I’d tell her.”

  He smiled again. “That would do away with my leverage, wouldn’t it?”

  ***

  The numbness started in my solar plexus and spread in and up until all the major organs were desensitized. This sort of thing happens when you live by your own private version of right and wrong and say to hell with everyone else’s values. I’d justified Katrina on the grounds that I was not yet promised to Gilia, but when it came time for Gilia to know the score, my justification stank.

  I made it into the executive bathroom, fully intending to vomit, but as I knelt over the toilet bowl I remembered my novel Bucky on Half Dome in the tank. Even though a few pages had curled about the flush mechanism to the point where they disintegrated on touch, most of the manuscript surfaced more or less whole. I cradled the sopping mess in my arms and carefully carried it to my desk, where I cleared a space by tossing Wanda’s picture in the trash.

  Shirley poked her head back through the door. “What did the politician want?”

  “Blackmail.”

  “I should have thought of that years ago.” When I didn’t laugh, Shirley went away.

  The typewriter ink hadn’t smeared, but my handwritten notes in the margins had. I read the page where Bucky assures Samantha’s mother that their trip holds no danger. Tension between Samantha and her mother runs through all the Bucky books.

  Peeling the sheets apart required concentration—not my strong suit, at the moment. Fifteen minutes’ work brought back six legible pages, then I gave it up as a waste of time. Even nauseous, I knew I was only pulling the past out of the toilet because Cameron had mangled the future. And the past itself was shot; the book had gone underwater in the first place after Wanda spoiled my memories. Which left nothing but the present, and right now the present wasn’t so all-fired wonderful either.