But Nora wanted more than that.
She didn't want to be the dutiful wife who lost herself to her husband's bidding. She wanted to live her life on her own terms.
When she closed her eyes, she saw her perfect man. A man of culture and thought who would read with her and compose poetry and songs.
Not one who stormed off to attack trees with an ax every time he became angry.
But as she stared at Ewan's bare form, she had to admit that attacking trees had certainly done fine things for his body. It had given him powerful shoulders that bulged with strength. Thick, muscular thighs that were dusted with dark, curly hair, and a chest that rippled with masculine beauty.
Suddenly he turned around and caught sight of her standing in the middle of a circle of trees.
Nora froze, unable to move.
Unable to breathe.
Time seemed to have stopped as they stared at each other. But what struck her most was just how gorgeous his face was when clean-shaven. The graceful lines of it…
If not for his size and manly presence, he might even have been called pretty.
But there was nothing pretty or feminine about the man before her.
He was raw masculinity incarnate.
"Did you need something, lass?" he asked.
The deep tenor of his voice shivered through her. Nora swallowed and tried to speak, only to find herself strangely mute.
"Is something amiss?" he asked, taking a step toward her.
Nora squeaked at the thought of his coming out of the water. If she was this affected by nothing more than his bare chest and back, she shuddered at what the sight of him awake and completely unadorned would do to her.
When he'd been naked in his bed yesterday, he hadn't seemed this…
Large!
"I'm fine," she said, spinning around and running back toward the cottage.
Ewan smiled as he watched her haste.
So the lass had caught him bathing…
He smiled even more widely as his body reacted instantly to the thought of her staring at him. She had a bold, unflinching gaze. One that hadn't caused her to blush or giggle.
She had stared at him like a woman who knew her mind and her desires.
The thought made his body jerk awake with desire. Made his blood turn to lava.
Imagine taking a woman such as her to his bed…
The thought was quickly followed by another. He would never know her. Not like that. Even without his promise to Kieran, there was the small matter that she was promised to another.
He'd taken a woman from a man once before. He would never make that mistake again.
Isobail had assured Kieran that her betrothed, Robby MacDouglas, didn't care for her, just as she had convinced Ewan that his brother didn't love her. In the end both Robby and Kieran had been willing to sacrifice their lives for the viperous bitch. While Kieran had chosen to die, Robby had fought a feud that had almost destroyed both the MacAllister and the MacDouglas clans.
No woman was worth that.
Nora belonged to Ryan.
No matter what Ewan felt for her, he would honor her as if she were already the man's wife, his own desires be damned.
Nora spent the rest of the morning avoiding Ewan. Something that proved extremely difficult once they left the brewer's house and were again on their way toward Lochlan's castle.
"You are so strangely quiet, lass, that you've got me fearing for your health. Are you sure you're all right?"
"Quite well," she hastened to assure him. He'd asked that question entirely too many times.
The last thing she intended to tell him was that he was what was the matter with her. Who knew that the absence of his beard would make such a significant change to his face?
He no longer looked quite so off-putting or beastly. There was an elegant grace now to his features. An air of powerful predator.
Why would any man with a face so breathtaking seek to bury it under hair? Surely there should be a law to prohibit such a crime.
And those broad shoulders of his…
They were decadent. Powerful. They rolled with his movements, making her hot and needful as she imagined brushing her hand over his smooth skin.
Touching his ebony hair again.
All day long she'd been trying to banish the images of him that she had in her head.
The sight of him naked and sprawled in his bed. The sound of his deep laugh.
The way he'd tasted last night when they kissed.
And most of all, the sight of him this morning in the stream.
Aye, but it was hard to focus on anything else while she was plagued by such wanton things.
At least he hadn't drunk any ale this morning, nor had he accepted Aenos's offer to take it with him when they left. It appeared he did intend to remain sober while they were together.
That was most definitely a good thing.
They passed the morning quietly until they happened upon a peddler who was coming down the road toward them. The man's wagon was heaped with cloth, boxes and kegs. A small, muscled brown horse pulled the loaded wagon while the man walked before it, holding on to the horse's bridle.
He was a short, pudgy man with kind brown eyes, who smiled and tipped his cap to them.
Nora's heart quickened at the sight of his wares.
"May we stop?" she asked Ewan.
"Why?"
"I wish to look. Please?"
Ewan reluctantly stopped the peddler for her and helped her from her horse. He did his best not to be short with her again, but it wasn't easy.
The lady was much a magpie whose head was turned by any item she found passingly attractive or interesting. But at least today she hadn't made him stop while she dawdled with flowers.
He expected her to grab one of the costly furs that was draped over the back of the wagon.
Instead she approached the side where the peddler had four lutes tied.
She ran her hand over them as if they were the most precious objects on earth.
A chill stole down his spine as he watched her gentle caress and wondered what her hand would feel like gliding down his spine…
"Oh, these are beautiful," she gasped.
"My lady likes the lute?" the peddler asked.
"Aye."
Ewan scoffed at her enthusiasm, even though her bright face enchanted him. "They are only lutes, Nora. They're not even particularly good ones."
She scowled at him. "What do you know of them?"
Her face softened as she looked back at the cheap willowwood lutes. "They are beautiful, aren't they?" she asked the peddler.
Ewan shook his head at her as she plucked one of the strings.
The peddler pulled one of the lutes from the wagon and handed it to her. "Would you like to hold it?"
"Oh aye. Thank you so much." Nora's face beamed brightly, much like the sun itself. She was a beguiling creature. Filled with as much merriment as he was with ill humor.
"Have you played much?" the peddler asked her.
"Nay. My father said I played like a maid wringing a cat's neck. So one night after I went to bed, he used my lute for kindling." Nora cradled the lute in her lap and strummed an ill-fated chord.
The discordant sound made everyone cringe.
Her father was right. It did indeed sound like someone wringing a cat's neck.
"Let me have that," Ewan said, pulling it from her hands before she tortured them further.
Nora started to protest until he took the lute in his own hands and quickly tuned it.
Stunned, she cocked her head and watched the expert way Ewan held and strummed the instrument.
Why, he didn't even need a pitch pipe to tune it like the minstrels she had seen in her father's home.
"You play?" she asked rhetorically.
He answered by playing "Bad Roy's Anthem."
Nora gaped at his expertise. Who knew the big, giant bear would be so talented?
She'd never heard anyone play
better. His large hands made the chords with an ease that bespoke years of tender practice. Fierce and strong hands that had also chopped and piled up wood the night before.
Hands that belonged to a man wholly unrefined.
Wholly unrefined and yet strangely delectable. Even more delectable now that she'd heard his skill.
He handed it back to her.
She smiled up at him as she tested the strings with her hands.
"How much for it?" he asked the peddler.
Nora paused at his words.
"Five pounds, my lord."
Ewan didn't even quibble. He pulled the money out and handed it over to the peddler. "Have you extra strings?"
"Aye, my lord."
"I'll a take two sets of those."
Her heart hammered at his kindness. Why would he gift her with such a thing? He barely knew her, and she had forced herself rather rudely into his life.
He should hate her for what she'd done to him.
Instead he gave her a present. One she had pined for every day since her father had destroyed her original lute.
Once Ewan had paid the peddler for the strings, the man took his leave of them.
Nora stood in the center of the road, looking up at Ewan in awe. At that moment, he was the sweetest man she'd ever known.
She wanted to weep from her happiness and gratitude that he had bought this for her.
It was all she could do not to kiss him for it.
"Why did you purchase this for me?" she asked, her voice filled with her joyful tears.
Ewan swallowed at her question. He still wasn't sure why he had done it. Other than that the look on her face when she had seen it had struck him in the gut like a fist. It was obvious that the cheap lute would bring her untold hours of happiness, and for some reason that didn't bear pondering, the thought of her being happy made his day brighter.
Unable to speak a word of that, he shrugged and headed back toward his horse.
"Wait!"
He turned at her call.
"Can we not stop for a bit and you show me how to play it? Just a little?"
"Nora, we've still got—"
Her face fell.
So did his stomach.
"Very well," he relented. What was a few more minutes when added on to the others they had already wasted?
Besides, he rather liked traveling with her. She was a fetching maid and did distract him from the past.
At least for a bit.
She bestowed a smile at him that dazzled his senses.
She rushed toward a fallen log and took a seat on it while he grabbed the horses' reins and led them to an area where they could rest and graze.
Nora sat with the lute in her lap, held at an awkward angle. Seeking to correct her, Ewan put his arms around her to show her how to hold it and was immediately assailed with the fresh, sweet scent of her blond hair. With the softness of her hands on his. With the way she felt like heaven in his arms.
Deep-seated need tore through him, making him so hard for her that he ached with it. He breathed in her scent, letting it wash over him as her hands touched his.
Och, but the woman felt too good in his embrace.
And she had tasted even better…
Nora was all too aware of Ewan's arms around her. Of his breath falling against her neck.
Of the way his strong hands led hers to the frets and strings to show her how to play.
She savored the warmth of him as dreams of her fictitious courtier evaporated. Gone was the image of her blond minstrel, and in his place, she saw only the face of a man with tormented blue eyes.
A man who could make beautiful music with his hands.
Ewan clenched his teeth as he fought the urge to bury his face into the crook of her neck. He lost all track of time as he sat there with her practically in his lap, as he ran her hands through a series of chords to teach her an easy song.
"Do you know the words to the song?" she asked.
"I do."
"Will you teach me that too?"
"Nay, Nora. You've no wish to hear me sing, I assure you. I've been told a frog's hoarse croak is infinitely superior to my bellowing."
"I don't believe it. I wish to hear you sing."
Ewan cringed at the idea. He'd spent far too many years with his brothers' brutal mockery to have any delusions about his talent.
But as he stared at her and the expectant look she held, Ewan couldn't resist her plea. "Only if you swear not to laugh at me."
Nora looked up over her shoulder to see the sincerity in his eyes. Who would have thought a man like him would be afraid of someone mocking him?
Who would even dare? Better to mock the devil than a man like Ewan MacAllister.
"I promise not to laugh."
He sang a few words and quickly proved that he was right. He sounded dreadful.
But she didn't laugh.
She only smiled at him until she'd learned enough of the song to sing it herself.
"You have a lovely voice, my lady," he said, his tone gentle and tender.
She couldn't remember the last time a compliment had warmed her so much. "Thank you."
Ewan listened to her and let the sound of her voice soothe him.
Before he realized it, he was lacing his fingers through her hair.
She didn't protest.
"Who are you really, Nora?" he asked quietly as he stroked her scalp and fought the urge to bury his lips against her exposed neck.
No doubt her skin would taste like honey, and the salty taste of it would only make him crave her more.
"I can't tell you that, Ewan. You'll summon my father if I do."
Ewan traced his fingers from her hair, down her soft, delicate cheek. He'd never felt skin so soft and smooth.
He'd been so long without a woman. So long without the peaceful release of a tender body close to his that it ached to be close to her now.
And yet he couldn't bring himself to move away. She compelled him in a way he'd never experienced before.
It was on the tip of his tongue to ask her if she would let him make love to her. But he knew better. Bold though she might be, she was a gentle-born lady.
A maiden whose innocence reached deep inside him.
She'd never known a man's touch. Never known the beauty that came from that one moment when two people were naked and entwined, both taking comfort in each other as they reached the ultimate in human pleasure.
Isobail had been the one who had shown him that for the first time. There for a little while, he had felt as if he were something other than the forgotten MacAllister.
Braden was the handsome one. Lochlan the smartest. Kieran had been the charmer, and he…
He'd been the quiet one.
The one his father would look at and shake his head while mumbling under his breath. "There's no telling what will become of that one, Aisleen. Mayhap we should just oblate him for the priesthood and let them deal with his sullenness."
"Och now, keep your voice down before he hears you. Ewan is a good lad and he'll be a fine man."
"He's weak. Do you not see how he bows down before his brothers. Even Braden, who is younger. It's embarrassing. He might as well have been born a daughter. At least then I could understand why he wants to stay hidden in his room. He's no match for the others. He will never be."
His father's condemnation had always burned deep in his soul. He'd never been afraid of his brothers. He'd just never seen the use in fighting with them over every little thing. There was only so much fighting a man could do.
Unlike his brothers, he'd always valued solitude and quietness over a fist in the face.
Mayhap he should have been a monk after all.
But as he watched the lady practice her song, he realized that the priesthood for him would have been a tragic mistake. There was no way he'd be able to keep those vows.
Nora leaned back in his arms, startling him instantly.
"How old were you when you learned to
play?" she asked.
"Ten and two."
She rested her head against his shoulder and tilted her head so that she could look up at him. "What made you decide to learn?"
He shrugged.
She rolled her eyes at him. "I wish you would answer a question once in a while, Ewan. What are you afraid of?"
"I'm not afraid."
"Then why won't you tell me?"
He sighed as he remembered his childhood. The place he'd been relegated to in his family. He seldom ever ventured that far into the past. There was truly nothing much there worth remembering.
But for some reason, he found himself answering her question. "The lute belonged to my brother, Kieran. He'd bought it so that he could write a poem for the lass who held his heart that particular week. He'd attempted to play it, then found himself in love with another lass and left the lute in his room to gather dust. I snuck it out one day while he was off frolicking and taught myself to play it."
"Really?"
He nodded.
"Why? And don't you dare shrug again."
His lips twitched at her commanding tone. "I don't know. It just seemed wasteful to have it there with no one to care for it."
Her lips curved up at his words. "Do you like music?"
"It's all right. I'd rather make my own, though, than listen to someone else."
"Oh," she said, stiffening in his lap, "I'm sorry if my singing bothered you."
"Nay, Nora. I like the sound of your voice." Ewan cringed inwardly as those words left his lips. It was a confession he'd rather not have made to her. No doubt, she would now make even more free with her talking.
But his words relaxed her, and she returned to leaning against him, looking up at his face with her gentle amber eyes inviting him to take liberties he dared not take.
Nora knew she should move away from him, and yet she couldn't bring herself to do it. This was so peaceful being in the circle of his arms. If she were at home, or around any other person, she wouldn't dare do such a thing.
Still, it felt so right to be where she was, looking up at him and the way the sunlight glinted against his dark hair. No man could ever be more handsome.
"Even when I talk too much? she couldn't resist adding.
He glanced at her, then glanced away. "We should probably start back on our journey. I'd like to be at the castle before dark."
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