The others in the little procession did not enter the clearing but stood at its edge, outside the cordon of soldiers. Among them I saw Gaius Verres, who crossed his arms and tilted his head at a rakish angle, smiling smugly. Beside Verres I saw Publicius and Minucius and a great many other men in togas, whom I took to be their fellow Catilinarians in exile. At the sight of Caesar extending his hand to accept the eagle standard from Meto, they practically swooned. They threw their arms in the air, cried out, dropped to their knees, and wept with joy.
Wanting a better look at Meto, I had gradually drawn closer to the clearing until, like the Catilinarians, I stood just outside the cordon of soldiers. It was not Meto who noticed me—his gaze was for Caesar only—but the imperator himself. When Caesar at last took his eyes from the eagle to survey the cheering crowd, his gaze came to rest on me. We had met only a few times and always briefly, yet he recognized me at once. His lips curved almost into a smile. When he leaned over to hand his helmet to Meto, I saw him speak into Meto’s ear.
Meto stepped back. Looking dazed, he peered in my direction. It took him a moment to find me. When he did, he stepped toward the cordon and told the soldiers to let me through. The soldiers looked to Caesar, who discreetly nodded.
I stepped reluctantly into the clearing. Before me, Caesar sat astride his white charger, holding aloft the eagle standard that had once belonged to Marius. What did this moment mean to him? Now Caesar was conqueror of Gaul and Spain; now he had transcended even his mentor, for Marius had never become dictator of Rome. Nearby, the acclamations of the Catilinarians had become even wilder and more ecstatic. Here at the very center of the uproar, the cheering of the crowd was thunderous.
A curious revelation had come to me when I decided to enter Massilia by tunnel: with age I seemed to have grown not less impulsive, but more so, not more cautious, but less. Was it because, from accumulated experience, I no longer needed to tortuously think a thing through before I acted? Or had I simply lost all patience with slow reason and fearsome hesitation, and come full circle to act as a child acts—as gods act—from pure, spontaneous willfulness?
I had not planned beforehand to do what I did in that clearing. I had not even imagined such a moment.
Meto stepped toward me. He was holding Caesar’s helmet with one hand. With the other he was stroking the red horsehair plume, as one might stroke a cat. He grinned, shook his head, and raised his eyebrows. “It’s all a bit overwhelming, isn’t it, Papa?”
I simply stared at him, resisting a sudden impulse to knock the helmet from his hand.
“Papa, when all this is over…when I finally come home—”
“Home, Meto? Where is that?” I found myself shouting, simply to be heard. My heart pounded in my chest.
He wrinkled his brow. “Your house in Rome, of course.”
“No! My home is not your home, Meto. Not now. Not ever again.”
He laughed nervously. “Papa, what in Hades are you—?”
“‘When all this is over,’ you say. And when will that be, Meto? Never! And why should you want it to be over? You thrive on it! Trickery, lying, betrayals—for you, they’re not means to some glorious end. They’re an end in themselves.”
“Papa, I’m not sure—”
“First you became a soldier, and you thrived on it, killing Gauls for the glory of Caesar. Burning villages, enslaving children, leaving widows to starve—it always sickened me, though I never spoke against it. Now you’ve found a new calling, spying for Caesar, destroying others by deceit. It sickens me even more.” I had raised my voice so much that even Caesar overheard. Atop his charger, he glanced down at the two of us with a puzzled frown. Meto’s face was ashen.
“Papa, I don’t understand.”
“Nor do I. Is this how I raised you? Did I pass nothing of myself on to you?”
“But, Papa, I learned everything from you.”
“No! What matters most to me? Uncovering the truth! I do it even when there’s no point to it, even when it brings only pain. I do it because I must. But you, Meto? What does truth mean to you? You can’t abide it, any more than I can abide deceit! We’re complete opposites. No wonder you’ve found your place at the side of a man like Caesar.”
Meto lowered his voice. “Papa, we’ll talk about this later.”
“There is no later! This is our last conversation, Meto.”
“Papa, you’re upset because I…I wasn’t as forthcoming…as I might have been.”
“Don’t talk to me like a politician! You deceived me. First, you let me believe that you were part of a plot to kill Caesar—”
“That was regrettable, Papa, but I had no choice—”
“Then you flaunted your disguise as the soothsayer in my face! You let me think that you were dead!”
Meto trembled. “When this is over…when we’re able to talk—”
“No! Never again!”
“But, Papa, I’m your son!”
“No, you are not.” Speaking the words made me feel cold and hollow inside, but I couldn’t stop them from spilling out. “From this moment, you are not my son, Meto. I disown you. Here, before your beloved imperator—excuse me, your dictator—I disown you. I renounce all concern for you. I take back from you my name. If you need a father, let Caesar adopt you!”
Meto looked as if he had been struck in the forehead with a mallet. If I had wished merely to stun him, I had succeeded. But the look on his face gave me no pleasure; I couldn’t stand to look at him. Caesar, knowing that something was wrong, called to Meto to come to him, but Meto stood unmoving and unheeding.
The crowd continued to cheer. The cheering had taken on a life of its own; people cheered simply for the sake of cheering, as a means to let out all the pent-up emotions inside them. The sound they made was like a roaring waterfall that showed no signs of running dry.
I pushed my way past the soldiers and through the mass of jubilant Catilinarians. Verres threw back his head, laughing. Publicius and Minucius attempted to seize me and swing me about in a joyful dance, but I pulled free and plunged blindly into the crowd. Davus was nearby; I did not see him but sensed his presence, knew that he was staying close to me but keeping out of my way, wondering, no doubt, what in Hades had just happened. How often had I silently ridiculed Davus for his guilelessness and his simple nature? Yet at that moment, how much more like a son he felt to me than the man I was leaving behind!
XXVI
“Go ahead, say it. You think I made a terrible mistake, don’t you?”
Davus frowned but said nothing. We stood side by side at the ship’s rail, looking back at Massilia as it dwindled in the distance. Viewed from the sea, the narrow city within its high walls looked cramped and tiny.
Salt spray stung my nostrils. Gulls followed close behind us, flapping their wings and cawing shrilly. Sailors called back and forth as they lifted oars and hoisted sail. As we threaded a course between the rugged headlands and the islands offshore, Massilia disappeared from view.
The ship was one of the three that Domitius had held in reserve for his escape. Driven by the storm, Domitius himself—always the rabbit eluding the trap—had succeeded in slipping past the blockade, but his two companion ships had been turned back. Now they were Caesar’s ships. This one Caesar was dispatching back to Rome, loaded with treasure and with lieutenants charged with making preparations for his triumphant return.
It was Trebonius who approached me and offered places for Davus and me on the first ship out. It seemed that Caesar’s bountiful generosity extended even to me, despite my actions in the market square. Perhaps Caesar was fulfilling a promise to Meto to see me safely home. More likely, he simply wanted to get me out of the way as quickly as possible, before my unwanted presence could dampen even further the morale of one of his most valued men.
I saw no reason not to accept. The sooner I could leave Massilia, the better, and I had no desire to retrace the long, landward route back to Rome, especially if it meant sharing the road with
Caesar’s legions.
What would become of the proud city now? One thing was certain: Massilia would never be independent again. What Rome takes, she keeps; freedom is a gift she never gives back. The Timouchoi would be reduced to a mere ceremonial body or disbanded altogether; all power now would come from Rome and Rome’s dictator. I could easily imagine Zeno presiding over the city as Caesar’s puppet, obediently taking orders from a Roman governor.
As for the Roman exiles in Massilia, Caesar, exercising a dictator’s largesse, had pardoned them wholesale. Publicius and Minucius and their fellows would be going back to Rome. But Caesar had specified two notable exceptions. Despite his guardianship of the eagle standard, Verres would remain in exile. So would Milo.
I sighed, and hefted the heavy, bulging purse tied at my waist. If nothing else, I was leaving Massilia a richer man than I had arrived. Even as I was boarding the ship, Arausio had sought me out and had insisted on paying me generously for my efforts to discover the truth about his daughter. Rindel was safely back in her father’s house. Apollonides had released her and her parents just as he had allowed Davus and me to go free. The final scene on the Sacrifice Rock had posed yet another puzzle: Did Apollonides intend to revenge himself on Rindel, and had he been prevented only because Hieronymus pulled him, unwilling, to his death? Or did Apollonides intentionally throw himself from the rock, and before his suicide, had he made up his mind to be merciful to Rindel? Having lost his own daughter, perhaps he had no desire to inflict the same grief on Arausio.
For the time being, Rindel was locked in her room, where she would remain, Arausio declared, no matter how much she wept and tore her hair, declaring her love for Zeno. “What grief our children cause us!” he had muttered as he left me. I had not contradicted him.
Apollonides had lost his Cydimache. Arausio had lost his Rindel, and then, to his delight and consternation, had found her again. I had lost Meto, found him, and lost him again forever. I had acted rightly, I told myself. What I did, I had to do. Why, then, did I feel a nagging doubt? I professed to hate all deceit. Was I deceiving myself?
In our wake, the green waves churned and folded in on themselves. Somewhere in their depths was whatever remained of Cydimache and her unborn child, and Apollonides…and Hieronymus! He had been so dignified on the temple steps, so sure of himself, so fearless. What had gone wrong? There had been a struggle—but had Hieronymus struggled to save himself, or to take Apollonides with him? It seemed unfair that I should have resolved the circumstance of one death from the Sacrifice Rock, only to be leaving Massilia with the circumstance of two more deaths unresolved.
The voice, coming from behind me, raised hackles on the back of my neck: “Did you enjoy the figs I left for you?”
Davus and I spun around together. For a moment I was speechless; no breath would come. “Hieronymus!” I finally cried.
Davus laughed, then gasped. “But…we saw you—”
“You saw me go tumbling with Apollonides off the Sacrifice Rock?”
“Yes!” I cried. “I saw you. So did Davus.”
Hieronymus raised an eyebrow. “Never trust your eyes, Gordianus. That bit of confusion between Cydimache and Rindel should have taught you that.”
I reached out and gripped his arms to satisfy myself that he was real. “But, Hieronymus, what happened? What did we see?”
“Everything went according to Apollonides’s plan; overseeing the sacrifice was his last official act as First Timouchos. I was kept in the dark; I didn’t know what Apollonides had in mind until I was actually atop the Sacrifice Rock. I expected to die. I was prepared to do so. But when I reached the summit, what should I see, lying in the hollow of the rock surrounded by priests, but another figure swathed in green from head to toe—my double!
“Apollonides ordered me to stay back. The priests swarmed around me. In the blink of an eye, they had me out of my green robes and into white ones, so that I looked like another priest. It was all very confusing. Clouds of incense swirled around us. Apollonides hissed at me to keep quiet and pressed a very substantial bag of coins into my hands—loot from his final raid on the treasury, no doubt. If I wished to keep breathing, he said, I was to keep my mouth shut, show myself to no one, and leave Massilia on the first ship out; your son Meto would handle the arrangements.
“I stood there, dumbfounded. Meanwhile, the priests had lifted the other fellow in green to his feet. They were trying to push him toward the precipice. His arms must have been bound beneath his robes, but he still managed to put up a struggle, thrashing this way and that. I suppose he was gagged as well, because he didn’t utter a sound, not even when Apollonides threw his arms around him and the two of them staggered and pitched and finally plunged over the edge.”
Davus frowned. “But who was it? Who was the man in green?”
“Who else?” I said quietly. “Zeno.”
Hieronymus nodded. “It must have been. Once Apollonides decided to end his own life—and who could be surprised at that, after the shock of Cydimache’s death and the shame of losing the city—he was determined to take Zeno with him. What more fitting place for both of them to meet their ends than there on the Sacrifice Rock? Because Zeno took my place, the priests agreed to spare me. It’s a lucky scapegoat who has a scapegoat to take his place!
“I spent the night at the Temple of Artemis. You’d be amazed at how much food the priests still have, hoarded away. That’s where the figs came from. The next morning, while everyone was gathering at the gates, I thought I’d steal into Apollonides’s house and collect a few personal items from my rooms while I had the chance. I expected to find the house deserted, and it was, except for you two. You were sleeping like a child, Gordianus. I didn’t dare awaken you. No one could know I was still alive, not even you.”
“Deceived yet again, for my own good,” I muttered.
“But I left you the figs!” said Hieronymus. “It seemed the least I could do.” He sighed, stepped to the rail, and gazed back in the direction of Massilia. “I shall never return. I’ve never been anywhere else. Is Rome as wonderful as everyone says?”
“Wonderful?” I asked quietly. By the time we returned, the Senate would have acted on the proposal put forward by the praetor Lepidus. When Caesar arrived, resplendent in glory, he would enter not as a mere proconsul or imperator, but as dictator of Rome, the first since Sulla.
Hieronymus put his arms around Davus and me. “Wonderful, yes! Because when I arrive there, I shall already have two great friends!”
He grinned, happy to be alive. For his sake, I managed a halfhearted smile. Together, we three watched the waves and the gulls circling overheard. The day was bright and clear, but it seemed to me that my eyes were scarcely of more use than those of a blind man. The sunlit world around me was full of shadows. Those I thought dead had returned to life. The one I had known best in all the world, I did not know at all. The truth of a moment clearly seen could never be surely known, for everything of real importance happened inside the heads of others, where no man can see. I could not see clearly even inside myself! Was it the world that wore a mask of deceit, or was I the veiled one, unable to see beyond the veil of my own illusions?
After a while, we left the ship’s stern and walked to the prow. “Look!” cried Davus. “Dolphins!”
Chattering like giddy children, the dolphins leaped and dove through the waves alongside the ship, like a vanguard escorting us home. Massilia and the dead past lay behind us. Rome and the uncertain future lay ahead.
Author’s Note
Massilia is the Latin name for the city the founding Greeks called Massalia and which the modern French call Marseille. Our knowledge of the ancient city comes from an array of scattered, tantalizing references. From Aristotle and Cicero we learn something of the city’s government; Strabo explains the hierarchy of the Timouchoi. Servius’s commentary on The Aeneid cites a lost fragment of The Satyricon, which refers to the tradition of the scapegoat. Valerius Maximus relates some curious c
ustoms, such as the fact that the Massilians facilitated suicide as long as it was officially approved. From Plutarch’s Life of Marius comes the tale of the vineyard fenced with the bones of slain Gauls. Lucian’s Toxaris, or Friendship recites the strange tale of Cydimache, which I have freely adapted. My method has been to gather these intriguing tidbits and to assemble them around the crucial moment of Massilian history, the siege of the city by Julius Caesar in 49 B.C.
About the siege itself, our information is less scattered and more concrete, but naggingly inexact. Caesar’s self-serving (and therefore not entirely reliable) The Civil War is our prime source. Lucan’s epic Pharsalia vividly describes the razing of the ancient forest and the bloody sea battles, but Lucan is a poet, not a historian. Cassius Dio gives the background of the siege, and Vitruvius sketches a few details. The British historian T. Rice Holmes, in a feat of ratiocination worthy of his kinsman Sherlock, assembled all the data and put forward a credible reconstruction of events in The Roman Republic and the Founder of the Empire (1923). But as Holmes himself ruefully acknowledges, “The history of the siege presents many difficulties and its chronology is obscure.”
Until very recently, comprehensive studies of ancient Massilia were to be found only in French, in Michel Clerc’s two-volume Massalia (1927, 1929) and J.-P. Clébert’s two-volume Provence Antique (1966, 1970). This changed in 1998 with the publication of A. Trevor Hodge’s witty and astute Ancient Greek France. (Noting the city’s position, before the siege, as Rome’s window onto Gaul, Hodge points out that “Massilia was an ideal centre for gathering intelligence, more or less in the way Berlin was in the old days of the Cold War.”) An older but still useful volume is The Romans on the Riviera and the Rhone by W. H. Hall (1898).
Nan Robkin pointed me to the research of A. Trevor Hodge long before his book was published. Claudine Chalmers supplied me with relevant pages from the Guide de la Provence Mystérieuse. Claude Cueni linked me to images of ancient Massilia from the Musée des Docks Romains and the Musée d’Histoire in Marseille. Penni Kimmel read the first draft. Thanks, as always, to Rick Solomon; to my editor, Keith Kahla; and to my agent, Alan Nevins.
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