What is happening? What is happening to me? I want it to stop, but it is too late. I know it is too late. I know the intent of the sounds is to—
And then the mantra starts. Not voices—too corrupted and wrong; not choral–but many as one, drenched in echoes that reflect as colors in my eyes—explosive, prismatic–unknown thoughts in my head—unthought thoughts?–not language, but I am beginning to understand what they mean, what the intonations mean. I close my eyes (I am allowed to close them—it does not feel as if I have a say in things; as if I have any control anymore) and interpret the mantra as best as possible:
mtk’hukX’xm-c k’ X’xcwaxkP
mtk’hukX’xm-c k’ ZjkUl-mgaiinhthQ’ql
fFowZ’zzc-t mtk’hukX’xm-c
mtk’hukX’xm-c k’ vOrrtc-oVitk-X!
Fifth (’tnx’k) spin: It is in me. They are in me. Objective (f’Xi-ic) to make me (’tk) one (j-g’t) of…them (mtk’hukX’xm-c)…vision atypical…hear (hear? lP’ukt’) only drone (k’dm’St) and mantra (cCeZkt’)…display (‘ckt-c) five tracks, two minutes! Ggbukt-za’ k’ xWp’-c’J!
help me (kD-plc’t-n’ ‘tk)
(help me) kD-plc’t-n’ ‘tk
kD-plc’t-n’ ‘tk
kD-plc’t-n’ ‘tk!
mtk’hukX’xm-c k’ vOrrtc-oVitk-X!
I discovered the previous document on music journalist and good friend John Schnell’s computer screen when I came by his apartment five days after deadlines for the fourth issue of Chaotic Audio had passed. I had not heard from Schnell, probably the timeliest writer I know (promptness–a rarity for most writers), since a week before the deadline.
Though he has now been reported missing, this is not the first time he has run off without informing his friends. When his wanderlust hits, he’s off. I am not really worried about him.
I am amused by this “review-story” and think it one of his more successful, though wholly bizarre, attempts at fiction. It must have been the beer or something harder that inspired him. Then again, I did find a disc in his player that corresponds to the one reviewed (ahem) in the story.
I have decided to publish the piece in the latest issue of Chaotic Audio (the one in your hands as you read these words) because it fits the explorative mindset of the magazine, and knowing Schnell, I know he would not mind, might even get a kick out of seeing it in print (hey, my friend, drop me a line, let me know how you are doing!). Though it is obviously fiction, don’t we all wish we could find music that inspires us in a similar way, opening us to that which is not familiar, not expected? Something new and different–dare I say original?–though with that kink for the odd that the readers of this magazine so desire.
The above mentioned disc fits his description, at least to the eye. The unpronounceable name and label, as far as one can tell, are exactly as he listed them (spine and back of the digipak). After finishing this brief afterward, the last rush of work before completion of the latest issue, I will click play on the computer’s player and see if it is anywhere near as interesting as Schnell has made it out to be. Probably not. We both understand the sad state of affairs when it comes to dark ambience and some of the motley relations it keeps, but I am always open to being shown I am wrong.
Five tracks and sixty-two minutes of music await me, so I’m off! Enjoy the “review-story” and see you in the next issue.
Vincent Plague, Reviews Editor
Chaotic Audio
John Claude Smith is a writer of dark speculative fiction, music journalism, and poetry. Most of the short fiction veers into horror, while the novels tend to meander into a weird mix of magic realism, psychological and supernatural nuances, and, again, horror. Late 2011 saw the publication of his first book, The Dark is Light Enough for Me, a collection of short stories. He presently exists in the SF Bay Area, though soon he will be in Rome again, where he truly lives.
Illustration by Galen Dara.
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The Locked Door
by Brian M. Sammons
He sat there, a handsome man in his mid-fifties, dressed in a fine suit, smelling of expensive cologne, with a gold watch on his wrist that was worth more than three months’ rent to Miranda. He had made the appointment by phone, calling himself ‘Mr. Jones,’ and from the start the itching in her brain had told her the name was a lie. Not that such things were uncommon; many people felt strange the first time they consulted someone proclaiming to be psychic. Still, it was a credit to Miranda’s authenticity that even before the tall, good-looking man had sat himself at her table in her modest apartment, she had known he was hiding something. Now she knew it was more than just his identity.
“Well, Mr. Jones, what brings you here?” Miranda said with just the slightest hint of incredulity.
The man smiled before saying, “I guess I can drop the act. I’m pretty sure you recognize me.”
“Yes, Mr. Silver, anyone who watches the nightly news would recognize you. Why the deception in the first place?”
“I wanted to be careful. I don’t want it to get out that I came to see a psychic…no offense, Ms. Theroux.”
“Oh that’s okay. I’m used to it. You would be surprised how many regular customers I have who still don’t want anyone to know that they’ve been seeing me. And please, you can call me Miranda. May I call you Raymond now?”
“Oh, yes. Please do.”
“So again, why are you here?” Miranda’s brown eyes narrowed slightly as she studied the TV anchorman. The fact that he was still hiding something practically poured off of him.
Raymond Silver took a moment to think. Then he took a deep breath and looked at Miranda with eyes gone moist, answering: “I’m desperate and I don’t know where else to go.”
He’s either telling the truth or he’s a very talented liar, the young woman thought, as something deeper within the recesses of her mind added, he is hiding something…but what?
An uncomfortable silence passed before Miranda offered a faint smile and said, “Why don’t you just start at the beginning?”
Raymond nodded and bent down to rummage through the briefcase he had brought in with him. Straightening back up, he placed an odd bracelet of light green, almost jade-like stone on the table between them.
“I’ve heard it said that psychics can touch an object and know things about the person who owns it. Is that true?”
Miranda stared at the strange bit of jewelry in front of her but made no move to touch it. It was an odd piece. Wide, thick and heavy. It would be uncomfortable to wear. It was also bizarrely carved so that it resembled a multitude of long, thin things all coiled together to form the body of the bracelet. Without a closer examination, Miranda was unable to tell what those undulating twists of green stone were meant to represent. And yet she couldn’t bring herself to pick up the strange trinket.
Am I afraid of it? she wondered. Why, for God’s sake?
“Miranda? Ms. Theroux, are you all right?”
“Hmm, oh yes, sorry about that.”
“Did you get something already from the bracelet?” Raymond asked eagerly.
“No, nothing like that, sorry. I was just taken by its…oddness. I’ve never seen anything like it. Is it yours?”
A heavy sigh escaped the anchorman as he slumped into his chair. “No, it belongs to someone very special to me.”
“Your wife?”
Raymond cleared his throat and said, “Now this is where I’ve got to be sure that what we say in this room stays in this room. Do I have your word?”
“Yes, Mr. Silver. What you and I discuss stays between us.”
“Well, okay. No, the bracelet doesn’t belong to my wife, it belongs to my…my mistress. I guess that’s what she’s called, although let me get one thing straight right now: I love Linda as much as I love my wife. Maybe more, I don’t know. I know that may sound weird to you but that’s the truth and right now she’s missing. She’s been gone for over two weeks. She up and left without telling me or anyone anything.
And I can’t go to the police directly because that could, uhm…”
“Complicate things?” Miranda offered.
“Yes. But I am very worried. Linda and I have a great relationship, and before you ask, no, we didn’t fight before she left. I just came by her apartment one night and she was gone. All of her things were still there, but she was gone and she’s been gone now for far too long.”
“I see.” This time some of Miranda’s disdain crept into her carefully measured voice, but she didn’t think the adulterer had noticed it. “So you brought me this thing here to help you find your missing girlfriend?”
Why did I just call it a thing? she wondered after she spoke. It’s just a bracelet. My God, I am afraid of it.
“Yes, that’s been in her family for generations and she loved it, so I thought if you could, well, get some kind of visions from it, that you could tell me where she is or if she’s okay. Can you do that?”
“Perhaps. I am sometimes able to see things from personal effects, but the more personal the better, so if you have anything else of hers that she might have worn every day or-”
“No, that bracelet would be the best thing. She did wear it every day, or at least whenever she could.”
You knew he was going to say that, so why even ask? Miranda forced a smile. “Well then, I can’t promise anything, but I’ll try my best to help you find your lost lady friend.” With that she quickly reached out and snapped up the green stone bracelet before her unreasonable dread could stop her.
Now that she was holding it, Miranda was surprised at how light the jewelry was for being such a bulky thing. She turned it about in her hands, carefully looking at it, and came to the conclusion that the ropy coils carved into the odd green stone were meant to be countless tentacles. Upon discovering that, her opinion of this heirloom dropped from strange to downright ghastly and she couldn’t imagine anyone wanting to wear this thing.
Then the center of her brain started to itch.
At least, that’s what it always felt like. She had grown used to it over the years. It was her psychic gift turning on, like an old style television slowing warming up. That’s how she liked to envision it. As she held onto the weird bauble, her other five senses started to shrink away, making room for a sixth, all-encompassing one.
The first sense to pick up the emanations coming from the stone loop in her hands was her sense of smell, which was always the case. Miranda sniffed a few times then wrinkled her nose in disgust as the strong scent of sea assailed her. It wasn’t the charming salt-spray of sailboats and white sandy beaches; it was the thick muck-stench of low tide, rotting fish, and decaying seaweed.
“Are you getting something?” Raymond asked as he pulled his hands back from the table and brought them up to his chest: an almost comical expression of fear.
“Shhhh. Yes, I am but please be quiet.” Miranda’s fingers now felt the bracelet with a psychic’s touch. Although the stone remained cold, it seemed to move and writhe in her hands. Miranda was sure she felt some of its tiny carved tentacles wrap themselves about her fingers. It was also now very damp and she could feel phantom drops of water running down her fingers, dripping off to hit the table below.
Oh my God, these are the strongest images I’ve ever had while reading an item, she thought.
“What is her connection to the sea?” she asked.
“The sea?”
“Yes, the ocean. Did she live on the shore or did she like to swim or anything like that?”
Raymond raised one hand to his chin and dropped the other to his lap and seemed to think hard about the question before answering, “No. Not that I know of, anyway. Oh, I know her family was in the fish business, that’s why that bracelet is carved so strangely. Could that be what you’re seeing? Or perhaps she’s near the ocean?”
“No, that’s not it and these aren’t fond memories of the fishing life, either. There’s a definite feeling of anger at the sea here. At the heavy, thundering waves. They are an obstacle of some kind. I…I see something now. I see the image of a locked door.”
At that, Raymond let go of his chin and sat up in the chair. “A locked door? Has someone kidnapped Linda?”
“No, it’s not that. It is a feeling of imprisonment. A door is locked…but not for her. It’s locked for someone else. In fact, I don’t get any feelings of your Linda at all from this.”
“Oh God, is she dead?”
“No…I don’t think so. I just get no sense of her with this item. Are you sure she actually-”
There was a long stretch of silence before Raymond said, “Miranda?”
The woman did not reply, she just sat motionless, giving herself over completely to the gift, sense by surrendering sense.
“Miranda, are you okay?”
But Miranda did not hear Raymond’s questions because the sound of crashing waves were now all-encompassing, as too was the taste of brine in her mouth.
The last sense to fully give way to the Sight was, ironically, her vision. The simple image of the locked door that had superimposed itself upon whatever she looked at in the real world suddenly became the only real thing before her, blocking out everything else. Then the door disappeared, leaving Miranda in a darkness that her inner third eye slowly adjusted to.
The terrified woman could “see” that she was in a huge chamber of some kind. But it was wrong. Everything here was all wrong. The shapes of the columns that held up the vaulted ceiling confused her. The angles of the room hurt her brain when she looked at them for too long. Everything was blurry, and yet so sharp it cut into her vision like knives.
Enthralled by these logic-defying sights, Miranda didn’t notice that the sounds of the crashing waves were gone. All had become silent. That is, until she heard something heavy shift behind her.
Miranda turned her mind’s eye towards the source of the sound, even as a familiar, but now faint, voice screamed inside her head: Don’t look Don’t look Don’t look
She looked anyway.
It was sprawled out upon an enormous altar-like stone as high as a two-story building and longer than two football fields placed end to end. Miranda’s third eye recoiled at the sight of it, even though she couldn’t see a complete picture of the thing that slowly stirred before her, because her brain could not process the impossible images fast enough. What she got were only sensory glimpses, like a camera flashing in a dark room. But even those brief flashes were almost more than she could take.
She felt its ponderous, flabby flesh press in against her and smelled the rot of countless ages wafting out of it. Saw huge membraneous wings twitch in a restless, dreaming slumber. Heard an errant claw longer than any two men gouge the ancient stone it rested upon as the creature’s hand curled into a gigantic fist. And dear god, there were so many tentacles. But the worst part was when a huge baleful eye opened, turned towards her, focused on her. The thing not only saw her but it saw through her, into her mind. Into her very soul. Miranda’s gift was less than a shadow of the power this thing commanded while still partially locked in a death-dream. A whisper of rumbling thunder rose in her head as it called out…
Pfft. Crack.
Those two sounds were what freed Miranda from the awful vision. The first was a soft sound, like a book being shut too hard, but was in fact the sound of a silenced pistol firing. The crack was the table splintering as a piece of lead nine millimeters in diameter broke through it from below before plowing into Miranda’s abdomen just inches below her frantically beating heart.
Miranda looked down and saw the blood welling out of her, turning her blue dress a darker shade. But she was none the less relieved. Then she looked up at Raymond Silver who sat across from her. One of his hands was under the table; the other rested on its top. Gone were his expressions of fear, bewilderment, and embarrassment. His tanned face was no longer handsome; it was now a mask of cold detachment.
“The locked door,” was all Miranda could think to say.
“What about it, Ms. T
heroux?” the cold man asked.
“It…it’s opening…soon.”
A smile touched Raymond’s lips as he pulled his hand out from under the table and pointed the automatic pistol at her face. “Yes, I know.”
Pfft. Pfft. Pfft.
Outside Miranda’s apartment building and three blocks distant, Raymond Silver sat on a bus stop bench and waited. In one coat pocket was his pistol; in the other, his bracelet. The briefcase at his feet was stuffed with Miranda Theroux’s DVD player, her cheap jewelry, and a pair of silver picture frames. He was checking his Rolex when a police car pulled up to the curb in front of him.
It was actually a limousine, but inside was the Chief of Police.
Raymond grabbed his briefcase and walked to the long, black car as its driver got out, came around, and opened a rear door for him.
Raymond looked inside the back of the limo at the two men within before stepping in himself.
“Brothers,” he said.
“Brother,” they both answered, as the TV anchorman sat down across from them. Inside, the Deputy Mayor handed Raymond a snifter of brandy.
“How did it go?” the Police Chief asked.
“Good. And yours?”
“Mine kept seeing ‘danger from the west’ and that I should avoid the water. But nothing more than that,” the policeman said, sipping his own brandy.
“Did you take care of him?” Raymond asked.
“Sure did. We can’t be too careful this time.”
“I still think we could have waited on that one,” the politician chimed in.
The Police Chief looked at the younger man to his right and said, “You always think that. If it was up to you we wouldn’t be killing anybody until it was too late.”
“Now wait a minute,” began the ‘little mayor,’ who was always quick to take offense when his faith was being questioned. Raymond knew this and decided to head him off with a question.
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