by Vanessa Vale
"There." He kissed the back of my neck, then started nibbling down my spine, moving the sheet lower and lower as he went. "No morning breath problems. This position is going to work for me."
As one hand slipped beneath me to cup my breast, I had to agree with him. For once, we were both in complete agreement. "Oh yeah."
After he'd made me forget my own name by just playing with my nipple, he slid his hand down my torso and cupped my hip, pulling back so I was up on my knees.
"Oh my." It slipped out. Completely fell out of my mouth. Now both his hands worked over me, heating my skin as they went. "Why...why aren't we hung over?"
"Moonshine. It's good stuff. Goes down smooth." His mouth was at the juncture of my shoulder and neck and he bit down ever so lightly. His tongue flicked over the sensitized skin which had me crying out.
"Yeah, good stuff," I moaned, not talking about the liquor. His soft chest hairs tickled my back as he leaned over me and I arched my back into him. He slipped one hand between us, smiled against my neck. "Where's the clit ring?"
"Who are you in bed with?" I asked, then groaned. I needed to be sure he was in bed with me, not Silky.
"Daphne," he murmured against my nape. When he slipped his hand a little lower, finding me more than ready for him, he murmured, "This is something I'll never forget."
When he brought me to orgasm not once, but twice, I knew I wouldn't forget it either. If I'd known my sex life was in North Dakota, I would have visited a whole lot sooner.
Chapter 11
"There is no way you're getting out there and doing that," JT told me that night. His hands were on his hips, his hair falling over his forehead and he gave me a look that screamed insanity on my part.
He looked at me differently now. He no longer had the look of a man who wanted to tase me. Instead, he appeared very well-satisfied and had a gleam of possessiveness in his dark gaze. It was something to behold, especially when directed at me. I didn't want to jump him and tackle him to the ground and beat him up. I wanted to jump him and tackle him and have my way with him.
Perhaps that part, the sex part, was insanity. I'd slept with him after only knowing him such a short time. Did that make me slutty? Maybe, but at the moment I didn't care. I was actually falling for him and that was the craziest thing of all. I was falling for the guy who’d tased me.
I liked this caveman attitude, but I couldn't do anything about it at the moment. I was surrounded not only by Esther, Goldie and Aunt Velma, but the Roller Dolls were circling the track during their hour-long practice. We stood just outside the edge of the ring, a gust of wind tossed my ponytail around every time the women circled, which was often and at very fast speeds. Music blared through the civic center's loud speakers and the lights were bright. The multipurpose facility was set up for the roller derby, the angled ring laid out about the size of a basketball court.
"Look at them pushing and shoving, and this is just practice and they're all on the same team." JT did not look pleased.
"Chauvinistic much?" I leaned in and said into his ear so only he could hear. He wouldn't say a word about a bunch of guys in a football game.
He turned his dark eyes on me. "I protect what's mine," he growled, clipping the bike helmet onto my head and giving the clasp a little tug.
Holy hell in a hand basket.
Esther and Aunt Velma were happy—no, thrilled—to see me. I thought Goldie was pleased as well, but just because she didn't want to listen to her friends whine and worry any longer. The fact that the two of them held such hopes for me was a bit unnerving. They wore red Roller Doll t-shirts and were calling out tips and pointers in a slang only roller derby experts would understand.
"I've never done this before, you know," I reminded them, adjusting my elbow pads. I shifted from side to side on my skates, not used to having four wheels. It was a big difference from a narrow skate blade. I wore my black Capri yoga pants and one of my old t-shirts. It wasn't much for workout wear, but it would do for now. I'd get a uniform for the match tonight.
"You won the national championship twice for Pete's sakes," Aunt Velma commented. "This will be a walk in the park."
JT eyed me, surprised. "Hockey championships?"
I replied by holding up two of my fingers.
Esther came over to me and patted me on the arm just above my elbow pad. "You don't look as tense as you did earlier in the trip. What happened to all that angst? You need to tase her again." The last she said to JT.
"I think he tased her all right," Goldie said under her breath, eyeing me in an all too knowing way. I avoided meeting her eyes, so I watched the women doing some kind of drill instead. Fortunately, Aunt Velma didn't pick up on that and Esther was too worried about the roller derby game than to care about my sex life.
"You're worried that I'm not tense?" I asked Esther. "Shouldn't you be worried I don't know the rules?"
Aunt Velma waved her hand through the air. "It's not rocket science out there. Besides, you watched it enough on TV with me to know what's going on."
"I haven't," JT piped up.
"Okay, here's the short version. It's not a game, it's a match. There are five players on each team. A jammer, a pivot and three blockers. The jammer is the only player who can score points. The team gets a point every time a jammer passes one of the other team's players. To score a point, the jammer has to play fair and stay on the track."
"Daphne's not going to be a jammer, then." JT knew Aunt Velma and Esther well enough to know why they needed me.
Esther shook her head, her white curls still as stiff as ever.
"There's a two-minute period, called a jam, when points can be scored," Velma continued. "When the whistle blows, everyone leaves their designated start areas and skates around the track. The jammer is at the back so they need to pass everyone on the other team to get to the front and score. It's their teammates' job to help get them there."
JT listened as he watched the women go around the track. They wore bike helmets with red covers, like the one they gave me, elbow and knee pads, and various forms of skin-tight spandex covering the rest of them. This was an eclectic group. Some were skinny little things, others built like the ladies' German swim team on steroids. Some were young, some older, dark and light. Some had pink hair, others had tattoos covering their arms. JT would find it interesting just to watch without knowing the rules. If Velma tested him on what she was telling him, he might be caught out just ogling.
I was watching the ladies for a completely different reason. I was going out there with them and needed to ensure I had what they were looking for.
"I'm going to be a blocker," I told JT.
"You're going to be the enforcer, aren't you?" He turned to watch me as I wheeled back and forth, trying to stretch on wheels, his jaw clamped tight.
"Why, McCade, I didn't take you for a hockey fan. Of course, I'm the enforcer."
"Jesus, Daphne, the enforcer? Your job is to take people out. This is insane. Some of those women are huge." He cocked his head toward the ring.
I grinned at him. This was actually going to be fun. Yeah, there were a lot less pads involved, but I didn't have a stick and there was no puck. I just had to skate and elbow people. "Hip checking is my specialty."
"Just keep skating, and if someone gets near you later who's wearing a different colored uniform, take them out." Velma broke my role down to one sentence. "But save all the rough stuff for later."
"Got it." I skated onto the edge of the ring, letting the women practicing circle around past me. I did a few laps, getting used to the skates, watching as JT and Velma were talking, arms going every which way as if they were sign language interpreters. JT did not look happy. As I made the far turn, I saw a pleased gleam on Goldie's face. The whistle blew and I was pulled into the middle of the ring with the other women to huddle around the coach.
"Want to tell me what happened?" Goldie asked. I was in the ladies' locker room, unlacing my skates. Aunt Velma and Esther were off
somewhere talking strategy with the coaches and JT wasn't allowed in. A few other Roller Dolls were still there, the remainder off getting some dinner.
I looked up at her from my bent over position. "I'm sorry about the RV. We ran into some troubles on the way."
Goldie waved her hand through the air making her gold hoop earrings sway. She wore her jeggings with a red t-shirt, although hers didn't have the Roller Dolls logo on it. At least she'd chosen the color to show spirit. "I don't care about the RV. What's going on with you and JT?"
I worked at a knot in the laces. "Nothing."
"Nothing? Really, Daphne, I'm not blind."
I just stared at her. "You can't tell anything happened."
She just shrugged. "It’s not like the hickey on the back of your neck is invisible—not when your hair is up in a ponytail."
I automatically lifted my hand to the back of my head and sighed. "Fine. Something did happen, but nothing's going to come of it."
"Oh? I figured the box I left for you would help with that."
My mouth fell open. So she had been matchmaking. "Goldie, that was like thirty condoms." My voice dropped into a whisper. "We're not rabbits."
"Well, you better show him your Silky Tangles moves before that blind date shows up in Bozeman."
I sat up, stunned. I think my heart skipped a beat. "Sarah? In Bozeman?"
Goldie started fluffing her hair. "That's her name? I don't know much, but JT got a text from Bob that said Sarah still wanted to meet him. Since he—JT, I mean—wasn't able to make it to Sturgis, she'd come to him."
"Oh," I replied. I couldn't let Goldie see how the text bothered me, so I tugged off the skate and started undoing the other one. "See, I told you nothing's going to come of it."
"JT likes you, Daphne."
"He likes the fact that I'm Silky Tangles so he can use me and lose me. It's fine," I added when she was about to cut in. "I'm going to Brazil anyway. We both had our eyes open."
"Brazil?"
"I got an email from my editor with a great assignment in the rainforest." I tried to make my voice sound cheery. "Something about deforestation and the increase of cattle grazing land. It's a big article and I should be there a few months."
"You want to go to the rainforest for a few months? There's malaria and Anaconda snakes that eat people."
I pulled off the second skate. "It's my job, Goldie."
"Your job could be working at the Bozeman newspaper. Be an online blogger. Write for a local fishing magazine. You don't have to keep traipsing all over the world. Just settle."
I stood, put my skates up in one of the cubbies that lined a wall for later. "I can't just settle, Goldie. I don't know how."
She came to stand beside me. "You've been searching for a place where you belong for years. Practically your whole life. You're thirty years old, Daphne. You need to stop searching."
"But I haven't found where I belong yet," I countered, looking up at her through my lashes.
"You're never going to find it. You need to make it. Make the place where you belong."
"Like build a house or something?"
"Did Velma hit you in the head after that one time in fifth grade?" Goldie asked, shaking her head in disappointment. "Rent an apartment, buy a house, build one. Whatever. Just come home."
Esther and Aunt Velma had brought me some food while Goldie went off with JT to grab a bite themselves, then settle in their seats. I tried not to think about what Goldie had said, her words hitting pretty close to home. Had I been looking for a place I belonged all this time? Yes. Was I ever going to find it? Up until last week, I'd held out hope that I would. Now, I wasn't so sure. Now, Brazil sounded far away. Like if I went, I'd just long to be back in Montana. I'd never really felt this way before, doing everything I could to stay away from the state instead.
Why now? Why the sudden change? JT was certainly part of it, but we'd only known each other such a short time to say we'd have that white picket fence he wanted. But I'd slept with him, shared myself with him in ways I hadn't with anyone else before. And this road trip. God. I'd known it would be an adventure, but it had been insane. It made me realize that life was insane, not just Aunt Velma. What you did when it got crazy was what mattered.
When things got crazy, I got myself a man. A hot, cranky, lust-filled man.
"Nervous?" Aunt Velma asked.
I shook my head. "I'm fine, but I don't want to let you two down."
"All we want is for you to try your best," Esther said, surprising me.
"You don't care that I might make a fool out of myself or the team?"
"This is roller derby, Daphne, you're supposed to make a fool out of yourself," Aunt Velma said. "Just kick some ass while you're doing it."
"Damn straight," added Esther. "Here." She held out a game jersey for me.
I held it up. It was a red and white striped t-shirt that looked like it would fit a twelve-year-old girl, but the fabric was stretchy. I turned it around to look at the back. "You've got to be kidding me," I ground out. "Sixty-nine?"
My number, sure enough, was sixty-nine. Both women grinned. And above the number was the name Silky.
"That's my roller derby name?"
"If the shoe fits," Esther said.
The women left me so I could change into the full Roller Dolls uniform: the sixty-nine shirt, a red skirt just like the field hockey players wore with little red bike shorts beneath, red knee highs. I felt like a cross between a candy striper and a waitress at a fifties drive-in restaurant.
When JT saw me in the outfit, his eyes widened in surprise before narrowing. "Holy shit, Daphne." He took my hand and tugged me along—easy to do since I was back on wheels, trying different doors on the lower level of the facility until he found one that was not only unlocked, but opened on a room that was empty. It turned out to be a storage room for the concession stand supplies. He shut the door behind him and pushed the button on the knob to lock it.
He didn't waste a moment and kissed me, pressing me against the cinder block wall. "You're really tall in those skates," he said, coming up for air. His hands started roaming over me, finding places that made me pant for him.
"I've never done it in skates before," I whispered as he licked and kissed my neck. "Oh, thanks for the hickey, by the way."
He pulled back and stared at me. Grinned wickedly. "My pleasure."
I rolled my eyes.
"How are we going to do this?"
He lifted me up off the ground, my ankles going around his waist, but there was no way I was going to get key articles of clothing off with the skates on.
"Shit," he muttered. Lowering me to the ground, he spun me around. With the wheels, I had to put my hands on the wall to keep from spinning all the way back.
"I've never done it with someone in skates before either, but I'm willing to give it a whirl." His hands started to work the little bike shorts down my legs. When he grabbed my hips and pulled back, I heard the crinkling of a condom wrapper, and knew I was in for one hell of a whirl.
Chapter 12
"There you two are!" Goldie called to us as we were working our way back to the ring to join the Roller Dolls. The stands were beginning to fill, music blared from the loudspeakers and an announcer was starting to amp up the crowd. It was time for the teams to warm up and skater introductions to be made. "Where have you been?" she asked, although the way she looked us both over, I had the distinct impression she knew.
"You have even less angst than before. What the hell is wrong with you?" Esther asked. In my roller skates, I was over a foot taller than she was.
"I'm fine," I told her.
"Fine? You're fine when the man you're canoodling with has a date with the woman from Sturgis?" she asked. She gave JT the beady eye.
He took a step back as if fearful.
"Tonight?" I asked. Goldie had said the woman was going to Bozeman. I knew nothing about tonight.
"No, not tonight," JT said.
"You're on t
he first flight out in the morning," Esther added.
The look on JT's face indicated Esther's death was imminent.
"Oh," I said. I felt...empty. Like something was missing. Like I was being left again. Wait, we had made no promises. We'd both said we wanted different things. I told all of this to Goldie earlier. But being faced with the reality of it, hearing from JT himself that he was heading back to Bozeman to meet another woman was something different. It hurt. Especially after what we just did in the supply closet.
"What about your bike?" Aunt Velma asked. She didn't have a warm and fuzzy look on her face either.
"Goldie's agreed to tow it back to Bozeman."
"I thought we were selling the RV," Aunt Velma said, looking to Goldie.
"Have you seen it? It can't be sold like that. Tomorrow, we'll just drive it home and take it to the scrap yard."
"I thought we were going to see the biggest rocking chair!" Esther added.
Goldie pursed her lips. "Esther, get a grip. The trip fell apart and we're going home."
The coach called to me to join the team.
"Come on, JT. Let's go find our seats. You can tell me all about this Sarah person."
I narrowed my eyes and thought mean thoughts.
"There's the angst-filled look. Go get 'em, tiger." Esther gave me a push on the back, rolling me in the direction of the team.
I survived. Actually, I did better than that. I knew I was considered the enforcer in ice hockey, being the brute who liked to roughhouse with players on the other team. But roller derby was a different experience entirely. It was...fun.
After the first hip check, I settled into my role, quickly learning the plays that got our jammer out to the front. The Roller Dolls won the match by fourteen points. During the two hours of play, I completely forgot about Brazil and JT and Sarah and Aunt Velma. I forgot about everything and just had fun.
