With so many gathered in it, and the fire roaring, the library felt like a cozy cave. A very comfortable and luxurious cave, safe from the elements.
Dinner was over, and the children had just been recaptured and carried off by their nursemaids. The company had spent the last hour swapping tales of childhood exploits-not so much of the young ones rolling and crawling about the floor or toddling awkwardly on short stubby legs, but of their parents. Tales of family, of shared adventures, of kinship in the true sense.
From the padded comfort of the armchair, Del watched Deliah, seated on the chaise opposite, drinking in the ambiance, noted that she, like he, was drawn to the stories of childhood daring and thrills.
He and she were the exotics in the room. They were both only children; neither had had siblings with whom to share. But it wasn’t only that that drew them to the stories the Cynsters had in abundance. The tales epitomized normal English life, life in this country, their homeland-a life neither he nor she had experienced for many years. If ever.
The Cynsters’ experience hadn’t been theirs.
Yet.
There was no reason it couldn’t be, that together they couldn’t make a bid to have just that sort of life, those sorts of experiences. Have similar family stories to tell, perhaps not of themselves, but of their children.
He felt an inner tug at the thought.
His gaze traveled her face, saw laughter light her fine eyes at some comment. He wanted to spend the rest of his life with her. To marry her, and try his hand at creating a real family at Delborough Hall.
But what did she want?
He was who he was; he couldn’t help but approach the task of gaining her hand-her agreement to wed him-as a campaign.
The easiest way to get her to fall into line was to discover what she wanted of her life, her future, and couch his proposal in a way that best paralleled that. That supported that.
Not that he intended accepting any reply other than a “yes.” Preferably a “yes, please.” What he was more concerned with was the speed, the rapidity with which he could secure that correct response, thus minimizing any cost to himself, to his pride by way of any revelations required to convince her to utter that small word.
His decision to wait until his mission was concluded still seemed the wisest course, but her comment that morning about leaving her Humberside home for parts unknown had sounded a warning. Once his mission was ended, it wouldn’t be wise to let her have her head for long.
Indeed, with every hour that passed, he was more inclined to refine his plan. The instant his mission was ended, before he surrendered her to her parents, he would offer for her hand, and be accepted, thus reducing the separation that would naturally occur between returning her to her home and her coming to live permanently with him.
He wasn’t of a mind to let her go, not even for a day. Somehow simply having her about, in the same house, knowing she was there, made him feel more settled. More complete.
As if he’d found his future purpose and she was an instrinsic part.
He was too seasoned a campaigner not to pay attention to instinct.
So what did she want? How could he tempt her?
At that moment, despite her outward appearance of content, Deliah was feeling distinctly downhearted.
Not that she had any reason to be; she kept telling herself that, but it didn’t help.
For the first time in her life, she’d experienced a day in the company of genuine friends, women and men who saw her as she was yet did not consider her-the real her-as in any way beyond their pale. Throughout the day, little incidents had underscored that in this company, she-her character, her traits-were the norm. In the world the Cynsters and Chillingworth inhabited, ladies were life partners, not cyphers, their existences significantly more than mere adjuncts to their husbands’ lives.
The events of the day had conspired to educate and show her, to lay before her in all its glory the precise type of life she might have had had her Great Scandal not derailed her. A life she would even now sell her soul to seize and enjoy-if she could.
If any gentleman of similar ilk to the Cynsters, one with similar expectations of his wife, could be prevailed on to offer for her hand.
If Del would.
But he wouldn’t.
He’d taken her as his lover-she’d accepted him as hers. And that was that. As she’d years ago proved, and as she’d been lectured about ad nauseam in the aftermath of the scandal, gentlemen did not marry their lovers.
More specifically, no gentleman would ever marry her.
Her spirits sank lower as the thought floated blackly through her mind. Its darkness, its intensity, made her wonder-made her look more closely at what she felt. And why…
She managed to keep a smile on her face, or at least keep her lips curved, her expression relaxed, while inwardly she berated herself. How unutterably foolish. How unforgivably silly. How inexcusably willful.
She’d done it again-fallen in love, again.
No. She caught herself, looked anew, reconsidered. She’d fallen in love, really, truly, head over heels forevermore in love, for the first time. What she felt for Del was oceans apart from the mild emotion she’d felt for that bastard Griffiths. Then, in her innocence, her naïveté, she’d convinced herself that what she’d felt was love; she hadn’t at the time known enough to know the difference.
Now she did.
She knew she loved Del.
To the absolute bottom of her foolish, foolish heart.
Bad enough. She would not-could not-allow herself to compound her stupidity by even imagining that there was even the slightest hope that he might feel the same for her, let alone that he might see her as an eligible lady. One he might marry.
As she’d been told from adolescence on, she wasn’t the marriageable kind. The kind of lady gentlemen wanted to marry.
She was too bossy. Too headstrong, too opinionated. Too willful.
Regardless, even if Del were different, and might have considered her for the position of his wife, he wouldn’t now, now that they were lovers.
The wash of deadening, dismal feelings that flowed through her threatened to sink her.
Still smiling, but inwardly desperate for escape, for distraction, she looked around-and met Del’s eyes.
He’d been watching her. Some part of her had registered it-she’d felt the telltale warmth-but she’d been too engrossed in her black thoughts to respond.
He smiled, and slowly-with his signature languid grace-drew in his long legs and rose.
She swallowed as he crossed to the chaise. Instinct brought her to her feet as he neared.
His eyes met hers. “You look like you need to escape. We could walk in the long gallery, if you like.” His dark gaze was rich and warm. Enfolding.
“Ah…” It was herself she wanted to escape. Herself and her deadening, desolating reality. She glanced around. The others were mingling, chatting in groups. She looked back at him. “Actually, I have a headache.”
A frown came into his eyes.
She hurried on, “Just a mild one-nothing too bad. But…I think I’ll go up now.”
Summoning the smile she’d let drop, she turned to Catriona, on the chaise beside her, then let her gaze travel on to the other ladies. “I’m going to retire. I’m feeling rather jaded. A good night’s sleep will no doubt see me right.”
Catriona smiled her madonna’s smile and touched Deliah’s hand. “We’ll see you in the morning.”
Deliah nodded a smiling good night to the others, at the last inclined her head to Del-still standing by her side, eyes too shrewd for her liking fixed on her face-murmured, “Good night,” then walked from the room.
Del watched her go and wondered what was wrong. She was…upset. Discomposed, disturbed, but in a strange way, one he couldn’t explain. His immediate impulse was to follow her, to ask, learn, and put right. But…she’d seemed unusually uncertain herself. Perhaps he’d give her a little time.
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bsp; Fifteen minutes, maybe.
If she’d thought her comment about getting a good night’s sleep would keep him from her bed, she would need to think again. If she truly did have a headache, she could sleep in his arms.
With an easy smile for Catriona, who returned the gesture serenely, he ambled across the room to join Gyles and Gabriel in discussing sheep.
The party broke up shortly after Deliah’s retreat. Del went to his room, paced for ten minutes-not so much thinking as imagining what might be going on in her red head-then, with a muttered curse against anyone still hovering in the corridors, he opened his door and stalked to hers.
He tapped once, then opened the door. Walking in, he saw her, still gowned and coiffed, drawing the curtains over the window through which she’d clearly been staring.
Shutting the door, he snibbed the lock, then strolled toward her. He tipped his head at the window. “What did you see?”
“Snow. It’s still blizzarding.”
She’d been waiting for him, that much was clear. Why was less so, given she’d remained fully dressed.
Halting before her, he held her gaze, was about to reach for her when she looked away.
Moved away.
“I really do have a slight headache, you know. Besides”-she waved airily-“I’m sure it’s not necessary for us to live quite so much in each other’s pockets.”
He caught the hand she’d waved before she could drift further. Used it to anchor her as he turned and came up behind her. So she couldn’t see his face, couldn’t read the confusion, the sudden, leaping need to seize and hold.
Just the suggestion-the faint hint-that she might be trying to draw back, away from him, had been enough to spark it. That rattled him; it seemed the emotional sand was shifting beneath his feet, but he knew in his heart that wasn’t truly so.
Something was going on.
In her red head, not necessarily anywhere else.
Heaven only knew what. He didn’t, but doubted she would consent to explain.
Shifting his hold, he laced his fingers with hers, felt hers grip unconsciously, without thought. He breathed in, deeply, and the perfume of her hair, of her skin, wreathed through his brain. On some elemental level, reassured.
She was here, in his hold.
Raising their linked hands, sliding them around her waist, he lowered his head, and murmured by her ear, “Contrary to general belief, sexual indulgence is almost guaranteed to relieve a headache.”
“It is?” Distraction and interest, immediate, quite definite, resonated in her voice, but then she cleared her throat and said, “But perhaps we should try abstinence for a change-just to vary our interactions. Perhaps heighten expectations for later.”
“That won’t work. At least, not for me.”
“It won’t?”
They could circle all night. He swung into the attack. “Why are you suddenly so skittish? You haven’t lost interest, have you?”
“Lost interest? Ah…”
“It was a rhetorical question.” Raising his other hand, he brushed his palm boldly across the fullness of her breast. Feeling the nipple instantly bead beneath his palm, he cupped the full swell, gently kneaded. “The answer’s transparently clear.”
Thank heaven.
She’d stiffened, trying to hold firm, but as he continued to fondle, evocatively knead, her spine softened. She leaned back against him. “Perhaps we might experiment, and see.” He rolled her nipple between finger and thumb, lightly squeezed. Spine bowing, she gasped, “About my headache, I mean. Whether it goes, or stays.”
He touched his lips to her temple. “We can experiment as much as you like.” Turning her, lowering their linked hands, he drew hers down. “Because I haven’t lost interest in you.” He molded her palm to his erection. “To having you-multiple times.”
Her eyes widened. “Oh.” Then her lids lowered, and those jade eyes grew sultry. Her tongue slipped out to moisten her lower lip. “I see…”
The absentminded murmur was filled with speculation.
“No, you feel.” Bending his head, he took her lips, her mouth, kissed her long, lingeringly, hungrily, but not rav enously. When he raised his head, her lids were down, her eyes concealed. “So what do you feel? What do I make you feel?”
She felt as if she were stepping off a cliff. Deliah raised her heavy lids enough to see his face, to note the intentness in his expression, his absolute focus on her.
How long would it last? When would it fade?
How was she going to feel when it did?
Worse, when they returned to Humberside and went their separate ways, and she heard on the grapevine that he’d married? Married some entirely eligible country miss with no scandal in her background, and a soft, sweet disposition. A lady totally unlike her.
She hadn’t thought of those questions before today-until half an hour ago. She’d tried to step back, but…he was here, in her bedroom, and she was in his arms.
And he was all she’d ever wanted.
How did he make her feel?
Chin firming, she closed her hand. “Wanton. Abandoned. You make me feel…” Desirable. “Lustful.”
His lips curved, sculpted, utterly mesmerizing. “Good. That’s how I want you to feel. Wanton, abandoned, and”-he bent his head-“helplessly lusting for me.”
Eleven
The kiss ripped her wits away, left her heated and yearning. There was nothing relaxed about the exchange, nothing languid, nothing tentative. His tongue found hers, stroked heavily, probed, dueled when she responded, then he settled to vanquish and claim.
Straightforward, blatant, direct.
Genuine, honest, and true.
A true expression of what he wanted from her. How he wanted her.
A declaration of possession, passionate and intense.
She sank her hands in his hair, gripped, clung, held him to her as her wits reeled and her senses spun.
His fingers found her laces, then her bodice sagged. His hands claimed her breasts, hard palms kneading, molding. Fingers clamping, squeezing, sent sensation searing through her.
Then he broke from the kiss and set his mouth to her flesh.
And devoured.
As she gasped and drank in each evocative caress, every provocative, possessive touch.
As her wanton self savored, wallowed and rejoiced.
There was no hesitation-not on her part or his-when, heated beyond bearing, they broke from the embrace to dispense with their clothes. No barriers, no shields. In seconds they were naked, a heartbeat later skin to skin.
Two heartbeats later, he lifted her and they joined.
She sobbed her joy, wrapped her arms about his shoulders, locked her legs about his hips and let him fill her. Let him stand before the fire and move her upon him until she thought she’d lose her mind.
Then she did, in a scintillating cascade of sensation.
Before it ended, he’d walked to the bed and tumbled them both upon it.
Before she caught her breath, he rose over her. His hips wedged between her widespread thighs, he thrust heavily, deeply, into her.
Then he rode her, fast, hard, determined.
Determined to wring every last gasp of surrender from her.
To take her, complete her, possess her, brand her.
With his passion, his need, his irresistible desire.
His desire for her.
Simple, intense, so strong it stole her breath.
So demanding, so commanding, she could do no other than yield.
Completely, absolutely.
To the depths of her soul.
Del looked down at her face, wracked with rapture as ecstacy claimed her. Felt her let go, felt her fly.
Felt her vulnerable and accepting beneath him.
And he took. Seized and claimed in the most fundamental way. Thrust deep, then yet deeper, driven by a lust more primitive and compelling than he’d ever known.
A lust more commanding, and fulfilling.
/> A lust driven by an emotion even more powerful, one that subjugated all he was, that made him the supplicant and she the conqueror as he threw his head back and, on a long groan, gave himself, commited all he was and ever would be, to her.
December 17
Somersham Place, Cambridgeshire
Del entered the breakfast parlor early the next morning to find most of the other men already there.
Everyone, it seemed, had hearty appetites.
Taking the chair next to Devil, at the table’s head, Del joined them in assuaging his immediate need.
Devil glanced at Del’s plate, piled high with ham, kedgeree, two sausages, bacon, mushrooms, onions and a portion of roast beef, and grinned. “You didn’t eat so much at dinner. I take it the activities of your night exceeded those of yesterday.”
Del grunted.
Already finished, Gyles, sitting opposite, pushed aside his plate. “So, what are your plans for the lovely Miss Duncannon?”
Del frowned at his plate, poked at a mushroom. “Women-ladies in particular-are damned confusing.”
The others, to a man, laughed.
“There’s nothing you can tell us about that,” Demon stated.
“Mind you,” Richard said, “they do have a logic of their own.”
“Indubitably.” Gervase nodded. “It’s just that it’s so alien-”
“Not to mention convoluted,” Tony interjected.
“That it’s devilishly hard to recognize,” Gervase continued, “and near impossible to follow.”
“My advice,” Vane said, “such as it is, is not to try. Perseverance, in my experience, usually wins.”
Devil scoffed. “And your wife is called what? Patience.”
Vane grinned, and responded.
Del let the resulting exchange of jocular insults fly past him. The night had been eventful, although matters hadn’t gone quite as he’d planned-something that happened frequently when Deliah was involved.
Something had made her uncertain, tempted her to play safe and try to back away from him, to play down their relationship, yet the night’s interludes had left him even more convinced that not only was she the lady for him-the one and only lady he wanted by his side, a helpmate and partner as they constructed their joint future-but, all uncertainties aside, that he was the man for her.
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