Along the street, in the jolting cart, as long as Hester could see the misty light streaming out of the shop door, so long was Philip standing bareheaded in the rain looking after her. But she knew that it was not her own poor self that attracted his lingering gaze. It was the thought of the person she was bound to.
CHAPTER XXVI
A DREARY VIGIL
Through the dark rain, against the cold wind, shaken over the rough stones, went Hester in the little tax-cart. Her heart kept rising against her fate; the hot tears came unbidden to her eyes. But rebellious heart was soothed, and hot tears were sent back to their source before the time came for her alighting.
The driver turned his horse in the narrow lane, and shouted after her an injunction to make haste as, with her head bent low, she struggled down to the path to Haytersbank Farm. She saw the light in the window from the top of the brow, and involuntarily she slackened her pace. She had never seen Bell Robson, and would Sylvia recollect her? If she did not how awkward it would be to give the explanation of who she was, and what her errand was, and why she was sent. Nevertheless, it must be done; so on she went, and standing within the little porch, she knocked faintly at the door; but in the bluster of the elements the sound was lost. Again she knocked, and now the murmur of women’s voices inside was hushed, and some one came quickly to the door, and opened it sharply.
It was Sylvia. Although her face was completely in shadow, of course Hester knew her well; but she, if indeed she would have recognized Hester less disguised, did not know in the least who the woman, muffled up in a great cloak, with her hat tied down with a silk handkerchief, standing in the porch at this time of night, could be. Nor, indeed, was she in a mood to care or to inquire. She said hastily, in a voice rendered hoarse and arid with grief:
‘Go away. This is no house for strangers to come to. We’ve enough on our own to think on;’ and she hastily shut the door in Hester’s face, before the latter could put together the right words in which to explain her errand. Hester stood outside in the dark, wet porch discomfited, and wondering how next to obtain a hearing through the shut and bolted door. Not long did she stand, however; some one was again at the door, talking in a voice of distress and remonstrance, and slowly unbarring the bolts. A tall, thin figure of an elderly woman was seen against the warm fire-light inside as soon as the door was opened; a hand was put out, like that which took the dove into the ark, and Hester was drawn into the warmth and the light, while Bell’s voice went on speaking to Sylvia before addressing the dripping stranger —
‘It’s not a night to turn a dog fra’ t’ door; it’s ill letting our grief harden our hearts. But oh! missus (to Hester), yo’ mun forgive us, for a great sorrow has fallen upon us this day, an’ we’re like beside ourselves wi’ crying an’ plaining.’
Bell sate down, and threw her apron over her poor worn face, as if decently to shield the signs of her misery from a stranger’s gaze. Sylvia, all tear-swollen, and looking askance and almost fiercely at the stranger who had made good her intrusion, was drawn, as it were, to her mother’s side, and, kneeling down by her, put her arms round her waist, and almost lay across her lap, still gazing at Hester with cold, distrustful eyes, the expression of which repelled and daunted that poor, unwilling messenger, and made her silent for a minute or so after her entrance. Bell suddenly put down her apron.
‘Yo’re cold and drenched,’ said she. ‘Come near to t’ fire and warm yo’rsel’; yo’ mun pardon us if we dunnot think on everything at onest.’
‘Yo’re very kind, very kind indeed,’ said Hester, touched by the poor woman’s evident effort to forget her own grief in the duties of hospitality, and loving Bell from that moment.
‘I’m Hester Rose,’ she continued, half addressing Sylvia, who she thought might remember the name, ‘and Philip Hepburn has sent me in a tax-cart to t’ stile yonder, to fetch both on yo’ back to Monkshaven.’ Sylvia raised her head and looked intently at Hester. Bell clasped her hands tight together and leant forwards.
‘It’s my master as wants us?’ said she, in an eager, questioning tone.
‘It’s for to see yo’r master,’ said Hester. ‘Philip says he’ll be sent to York to-morrow, and yo’ll be fain to see him before he goes; and if yo’ll come down to Monkshaven to-night, yo’ll be on t’ spot again’ the time comes when t’ justices will let ye.’
Bell was up and about, making for the place where she kept her out-going things, almost before Hester had begun to speak. She hardly understood about her husband’s being sent to York, in the possession of the idea that she might go and see him. She did not understand or care how, in this wild night, she was to get to Monkshaven; all she thought of was, that she might go and see her husband. But Sylvia took in more points than her mother, and, almost suspiciously, began to question Hester.
‘Why are they sending him to York? What made Philip leave us? Why didn’t he come hissel’?’
‘He couldn’t come hissel’, he bade me say; because he was bound to be at the lawyer’s at five, about yo’r father’s business. I think yo’ might ha’ known he would ha’ come for any business of his own; and, about York, it’s Philip as telled me, and I never asked why. I never thought on yo’r asking me so many questions. I thought yo’d be ready to fly on any chance o’ seeing your father.’ Hester spoke out the sad reproach that ran from her heart to her lips. To distrust Philip! to linger when she might hasten!
‘Oh!’ said Sylvia, breaking out into a wild cry, that carried with it more conviction of agony than much weeping could have done. ‘I may be rude and hard, and I may ask strange questions, as if I cared for t’ answers yo’ may gi’ me; an’, in my heart o’ hearts, I care for nought but to have father back wi’ us, as love him so dear. I can hardly tell what I say, much less why I say it. Mother is so patient, it puts me past mysel’, for I could fight wi’ t’ very walls, I’m so mad wi’ grieving. Sure, they’ll let him come back wi’ us to-morrow, when they hear from his own sel’ why he did it?’
She looked eagerly at Hester for an answer to this last question, which she had put in a soft, entreating tone, as if with Hester herself the decision rested. Hester shook her head. Sylvia came up to her and took her hands, almost fondling them.
‘Yo’ dunnot think they’ll be hard wi’ him when they hear all about it, done yo’? Why, York Castle’s t’ place they send a’ t’ thieves and robbers to, not honest men like feyther.’
Hester put her hand on Sylvia’s shoulder with a soft, caressing gesture.
‘Philip will know,’ she said, using Philip’s name as a kind of spell — it would have been so to her. ‘Come away to Philip,’ said she again, urging Sylvia, by her looks and manner, to prepare for the little journey. Sylvia moved away for this purpose, saying to herself, —
‘It’s going to see feyther: he will tell me all.’
Poor Mrs. Robson was collecting a few clothes for her husband with an eager, trembling hand, so trembling that article after article fell to the floor, and it was Hester who picked them up; and at last, after many vain attempts by the grief-shaken woman, it was Hester who tied the bundle, and arranged the cloak, and fastened down the hood; Sylvia standing by, not unobservant, though apparently absorbed in her own thoughts.
At length, all was arranged, and the key given over to Kester. As they passed out into the storm, Sylvia said to Hester, —
‘Thou’s a real good wench. Thou’s fitter to be about mother than me. I’m but a cross-patch at best, an’ now it’s like as if I was no good to nobody.’
Sylvia began to cry, but Hester had no time to attend to her, even had she the inclination: all her care was needed to help the hasty, tottering steps of the wife who was feebly speeding up the wet and slippery brow to her husband. All Bell thought of was that ‘he’ was at the end of her toil. She hardly understood when she was to see him; her weary heart and brain had only received one idea — that each step she was now taking was leading her to him. Tired and exhausted with her quick walk up
hill, battling all the way with wind and rain, she could hardly have held up another minute when they reached the tax-cart in the lane, and Hester had almost to lift her on to the front seat by the driver. She covered and wrapped up the poor old woman, and afterwards placed herself in the straw at the back of the cart, packed up close by the shivering, weeping Sylvia. Neither of them spoke a word at first; but Hester’s tender conscience smote her for her silence before they had reached Monkshaven. She wanted to say some kind word to Sylvia, and yet knew not how to begin. Somehow, without knowing why, or reasoning upon it, she hit upon Philip’s message as the best comfort in her power to give. She had delivered it before, but it had been apparently little heeded.
‘Philip bade me say it was business as kept him from fetchin’ yo’ hissel’ — business wi’ the lawyer, about — about yo’r father.’
‘What do they say?’ said Sylvia, suddenly, lifting her bowed head, as though she would read her companion’s face in the dim light.
‘I dunnot know,’ said Hester, sadly. They were now jolting over the paved streets, and not a word could be spoken. They were now at Philip’s door, which was opened to receive them even before they arrived, as if some one had been watching and listening. The old servant, Phoebe, the fixture in the house, who had belonged to it and to the shop for the last twenty years, came out, holding a candle and sheltering it in her hand from the weather, while Philip helped the tottering steps of Mrs. Robson as she descended behind. As Hester had got in last, so she had now to be the first to move. Just as she was moving, Sylvia’s cold little hand was laid on her arm.
‘I am main and thankful to yo’. I ask yo’r pardon for speaking cross, but, indeed, my heart’s a’most broken wi’ fear about feyther.’
The voice was so plaintive, so full of tears, that Hester could not but yearn towards the speaker. She bent over and kissed her cheek, and then clambered unaided down by the wheel on the dark side of the cart. Wistfully she longed for one word of thanks or recognition from Philip, in whose service she had performed this hard task; but he was otherwise occupied, and on casting a further glance back as she turned the corner of the street, she saw Philip lifting Sylvia carefully down in his arms from her footing on the top of the wheel, and then they all went into the light and the warmth, the door was shut, the lightened cart drove briskly away, and Hester, in rain, and cold, and darkness, went homewards with her tired sad heart.
Philip had done all he could, since his return from lawyer Dawson’s, to make his house bright and warm for the reception of his beloved. He had a strong apprehension of the probable fate of poor Daniel Robson; he had a warm sympathy with the miserable distress of the wife and daughter; but still at the back of his mind his spirits danced as if this was to them a festal occasion. He had even taken unconscious pleasure in Phoebe’s suspicious looks and tones, as he had hurried and superintended her in her operations. A fire blazed cheerily in the parlour, almost dazzling to the travellers brought in from the darkness and the rain; candles burned — two candles, much to Phoebe’s discontent. Poor Bell Robson had to sit down almost as soon as she entered the room, so worn out was she with fatigue and excitement; yet she grudged every moment which separated her, as she thought, from her husband.
‘I’m ready now,’ said she, standing up, and rather repulsing Sylvia’s cares; ‘I’m ready now,’ said she, looking eagerly at Philip, as if for him to lead the way.
‘It’s not to-night,’ replied he, almost apologetically. ‘You can’t see him to-night; it’s to-morrow morning before he goes to York; it was better for yo’ to be down here in town ready; and beside I didn’t know when I sent for ye that he was locked up for the night.’
‘Well-a-day, well-a-day,’ said Bell, rocking herself backwards and forwards, and trying to soothe herself with these words. Suddenly she said, —
‘But I’ve brought his comforter wi’ me — his red woollen comforter as he’s allays slept in this twelvemonth past; he’ll get his rheumatiz again; oh, Philip, cannot I get it to him?’
‘I’ll send it by Phoebe,’ said Philip, who was busy making tea, hospitable and awkward.
‘Cannot I take it mysel’?’ repeated Bell. ‘I could make surer nor anybody else; they’d maybe not mind yon woman — Phoebe d’ye call her?’
‘Nay, mother,’ said Sylvia, ‘thou’s not fit to go.’
‘Shall I go?’ asked Philip, hoping she would say ‘no’, and be content with Phoebe, and leave him where he was.
‘Oh, Philip, would yo’?’ said Sylvia, turning round.
‘Ay,’ said Bell, ‘if thou would take it they’d be minding yo’.’
So there was nothing for it but for him to go, in the first flush of his delightful rites of hospitality.
‘It’s not far,’ said he, consoling himself rather than them. ‘I’ll be back in ten minutes, the tea is maskit, and Phoebe will take yo’r wet things and dry ‘em by t’ kitchen fire; and here’s the stairs,’ opening a door in the corner of the room, from which the stairs immediately ascended. ‘There’s two rooms at the top; that to t’ left is all made ready, t’ other is mine,’ said he, reddening a little as he spoke. Bell was busy undoing her bundle with trembling fingers.
‘Here,’ said she; ‘and oh, lad, here’s a bit o’ peppermint cake; he’s main and fond on it, and I catched sight on it by good luck just t’ last minute.’
Philip was gone, and the excitement of Bell and Sylvia flagged once more, and sank into wondering despondency. Sylvia, however, roused herself enough to take off her mother’s wet clothes, and she took them timidly into the kitchen and arranged them before Phoebe’s fire.
Phoebe opened her lips once or twice to speak in remonstrance, and then, with an effort, gulped her words down; for her sympathy, like that of all the rest of the Monkshaven world, was in favour of Daniel Robson; and his daughter might place her dripping cloak this night wherever she would, for Phoebe.
Sylvia found her mother still sitting on the chair next the door, where she had first placed herself on entering the room.
‘I’ll gi’e you some tea, mother,’ said she, struck with the shrunken look of Bell’s face.
‘No, no’ said her mother. ‘It’s not manners for t’ help oursel’s.’
‘I’m sure Philip would ha’ wished yo’ for to take it,’ said Sylvia, pouring out a cup.
Just then he returned, and something in his look, some dumb expression of delight at her occupation, made her blush and hesitate for an instant; but then she went on, and made a cup of tea ready, saying something a little incoherent all the time about her mother’s need of it. After tea Bell Robson’s weariness became so extreme, that Philip and Sylvia urged her to go to bed. She resisted a little, partly out of ‘manners,’ and partly because she kept fancying, poor woman, that somehow or other her husband might send for her. But about seven o’clock Sylvia persuaded her to come upstairs. Sylvia, too, bade Philip good-night, and his look followed the last wave of her dress as she disappeared up the stairs; then leaning his chin on his hand, he gazed at vacancy and thought deeply — for how long he knew not, so intent was his mind on the chances of futurity.
He was aroused by Sylvia’s coming down-stairs into the sitting-room again. He started up.
‘Mother is so shivery,’ said she. ‘May I go in there,’ indicating the kitchen, ‘and make her a drop of gruel?’
‘Phoebe shall make it, not you,’ said Philip, eagerly preventing her, by going to the kitchen door and giving his orders. When he turned round again, Sylvia was standing over the fire, leaning her head against the stone mantel-piece for the comparative coolness. She did not speak at first, or take any notice of him. He watched her furtively, and saw that she was crying, the tears running down her cheeks, and she too much absorbed in her thoughts to wipe them away with her apron.
While he was turning over in his mind what he could best say to comfort her (his heart, like hers, being almost too full for words), she suddenly looked him full in the face, saying, —
/> ‘Philip! won’t they soon let him go? what can they do to him?’ Her open lips trembled while awaiting his answer, the tears came up and filled her eyes. It was just the question he had most dreaded; it led to the terror that possessed his own mind, but which he had hoped to keep out of hers. He hesitated. ‘Speak, lad!’ said she, impatiently, with a little passionate gesture. ‘I can see thou knows!’
He had only made it worse by consideration; he rushed blindfold at a reply.
‘He’s ta’en up for felony.’
‘Felony,’ said she. ‘There thou’re out; he’s in for letting yon men out; thou may call it rioting if thou’s a mind to set folks again’ him, but it’s too bad to cast such hard words at him as yon — felony,’ she repeated, in a half-offended tone.
‘It’s what the lawyers call it,’ said Philip, sadly; ‘it’s no word o’ mine.’
‘Lawyers is allays for making the worst o’ things,’ said she, a little pacified, ‘but folks shouldn’t allays believe them.’
‘It’s lawyers as has to judge i’ t’ long run.’
‘Cannot the justices, Mr. Harter and them as is no lawyers, give him a sentence to-morrow, wi’out sending him to York?’
‘No!’ said Philip, shaking his head. He went to the kitchen door and asked if the gruel was not ready, so anxious was he to stop the conversation at this point; but Phoebe, who held her young master in but little respect, scolded him for a stupid man, who thought, like all his sex, that gruel was to be made in a minute, whatever the fire was, and bade him come and make it for himself if he was in such a hurry.
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