“How can you speak to me like this?” I asked. “I’ve done nothing wrong.”
“You are acting as an authorized representative of the British Crown and are to operate in a very specific and limited manner.”
“I had no idea the Crown was so little interested in—”
“In what, Emily? In the romantic concerns of persons not British?”
“It’s not romantic, it’s theological!” My mouth hung open, and I could not breathe. “I never thought you of all people would recriminate me for—”
“For stepping completely out of bounds? I consider you my equal, and I will always tell you when you’ve gone too far.”
“Gone too far?” I could not keep my voice from trembling.
“Come inside,” he said.
He bought our tickets and ushered me into the museum. We did not speak again until we’d reached the Alexander Sarcophagus, the stunning and enormous object that had inspired the building’s architecture. It had not belonged to the great king, but its white stone showcased his strengths. On one side, he sat, wearing a lion’s head for a helmet, astride his horse, Bucephalas, fighting the Persian army, his enemy near defeat. The opposite panel showed him hunting lions. I leaned close, irritated at finding myself so distracted when before such a significant piece, but wholly unable to concentrate.
“Don’t be outraged,” Colin said. “I would have said the same thing to a man.”
“And I hope that he would... would...” I was losing my temper, and fast, despite the fact that I knew he was not being wholly unreasonable. I should have discussed Roxelana’s situation with him before I broached the topic with the sultan. I wondered if she had taken it upon herself to speak to Abdül Hamit. I looked at my perfectly handsome husband and felt nothing but anger. My tenuous grip on control was slipping fast; it was taking all my focus to keep from stomping my foot in petulant indignation and storming across the gallery. This, coupled with unwanted tears filling my eyes, was too much to be borne. It was as if I were no longer myself.
“You hope he would call me out.” He smiled. “Pistols at dawn? Or do you prefer swords?”
“I’d never be so dramatic,” I said, pretending to be fascinated with the detail on the face of a lion, Alexander’s prey.
“I imagine not.” He pressed his lips together, pushing them to one side, what he always did when he was trying not to laugh. Much though I hated to admit it at the moment, it was an irresistible maneuver.
“If I must, though, I’d pick swords,” I said. “More elegant.”
“Is that so? Rather messy in the end, don’t you think?” He walked back to me.
“You’ve been very firm about denying me my Derringer until I learn to shoot, so I assumed it would not be a wise move at this juncture to choose pistols.”
Now he did laugh. “I apologize if my frank manner of speech was too much. I should have couched my criticism in softer terms.”
This was not at all what I wanted. “No, no, you shouldn’t have. I don’t want to be coddled. I’m sorry if my actions have made things more difficult.”
He touched my face, his rough hand cool on my cheek. “I shan’t coddle you. Not now, at any rate. But there may come a day—a happy day—on which you require an extended period of coddling. Beyond that, however, I shall be as hard on you as I am on anyone.”
I did not like this talk of extended coddling, particularly as I had a strong suspicion he was referring to the probable cause of my would-be seasickness. Every dreaded emotion swirled through me, but I forced them away. “I want that treatment—that respect from you always. Regardless of whatever happy day we may reach.”
“Some circumstances—”
“Please.” I had to interrupt. “Not now. Let’s discuss the matter at hand.”
“Of course.” He paused, just for an instant, flashing my favorite smile. “We’re in a tricky situation. Tell me about your afternoon.”
“There’s so much, I hardly know where to start.” I took Benjamin’s cross out of my reticule and recounted Mr. Sutcliffe’s story.
Colin frowned. “It shall be easy enough to confirm whether it does belong to him. We are, however, going to need to get back into the harem. Do you think you can work your charms on the sultan and regain your access?”
“I shall have to find a way. We got along famously at first. I may have overstepped my bounds speaking to him about Roxelana, but that doesn’t seem enough—particularly as it’s not connected to the murder—to cause our expulsion. Something else had to be a contributing factor, and I’m convinced it has to do with Ceyden’s collection of ill-gotten jewels.”
“I’ve no doubt you can ferret out the truth. I’ll see where this leads us.” He took the chain from me and stopped in front of a small, glass-fronted case.
“Is this all that remains of Troy?” I frowned at the uninspiring grouping of broken pottery. “There must be more—all that gold. I’ve read about it.”
“Schliemann took it all to Berlin.” Heinrich Schliemann, the German archaeologist who’d found and excavated the site, had published pictures of his wife draped in the gold he called the Treasure of Priam. “Smuggled it.”
“We must go to the site of the excavation before we leave Turkey,” I said. “I will not sleep well again until I’ve seen the ground upon which Hector’s blood spilled.”
He pressed my hand to his lips. “You’re so dramatic.”
I smiled, but my thoughts had already returned to our purpose. “Do you think there’s a chance Benjamin killed his sister?”
“There’s always a chance, Emily.”
“I don’t even want to imagine what that would do to Sir Richard.”
“Or to Benjamin,” he said. “If he did it, did he know who she was?”
“Could he have killed her to save her from the shame of being in the harem?”
Colin laughed. “You and your fiction. When we’re old and gray and full of sleep, I’d like nothing more than to see you turn your talents to writing the worst sort of sensational novels.”
“ ‘Old and gray and full of sleep.’ What a lovely phrase. Poem?”
“Yeats. It’s to be in his next collection. He showed it to me last time I was in Dublin.”
“Well, I’ve no intention of ever being full of sleep. Old and gray, however, is unavoidable.”
Colin had gone in search of Sir Richard, leaving me to wait for his return at a tiny tea shop, where over perfectly crispy baklava I repeated again and again in my mind what Bezime had told me. Her words had sliced through me, ripping bright holes in the shaded hollows of my soul from which I’d been hiding since my marriage. The prospect of having a child terrified me. I’d never been able to shake from my memory the sound of screams echoing through the halls of my parents’ estate when I was eleven years old. The noise had wakened me, and I’d slipped out of the nursery, my bare feet cold on the marble floor as I sought the source of the disturbance, more than a little confident I had at last found a ghost, something my cousin James had tried and failed to do every time his family visited us. But as the cries grew louder, I recognized the voice. It was James’s mother, my aunt Clarabelle. We’d been told there would be a new baby in time for Christmas; instead there was a funeral.
Death was something to which we were all accustomed. My older brothers, twins, had both fallen to the influenza when they were thirteen years old, and James had lost a sister to rheumatic fever. Until that December, however, I’d viewed death as something that, while sad, was peaceful. Those ragged cries changed my opinion forever. My mother, tears streaming from eyes I’d never before seen cry, found me in the hallway, shivering on the floor. She marched me back to my room, told me not to be confused by what I’d heard, that this was commonplace, that it couldn’t always be avoided, that childbirth was a dangerous thing.
I don’t know that I’ve better remembered any of her words. And in the years that followed, I saw their truth borne out, most recently when an acquaintance from my sch
ool years died fewer than two years after her marriage, leaving behind a grieving husband and a sickly infant.
I disliked weakness, and my fear of so natural a process could be described as nothing else. This revelation disturbed me. The procreation of children, after all, was intended to be a primary purpose of marriage, and for every woman who died in the process, hundreds succeeded. Could it be a thousand? Or more? I wondered if knowing the true odds would offer me consolation. I placed my palm flat on my abdomen and wondered if Bezime’s words had contained any bits of truth. When we returned to England at the end of the following month, I would see my physician. If he confirmed what I suspected, I would share the news with Colin and let him coddle me, if only for the period of my confinement.
An intense sensation of heat rushed through me, followed by a wave of dizziness and a wash of fear, each of which dissipated as the call to prayer started, drowning out all my thoughts. I closed my eyes, let the sound vibrate through me, and found my head much more clear when it stopped. Relieved, I turned my attention to Ceyden’s book of poems. A quick glance told me they’d be best read at home, not because of nefarious undertones, but because I feared them likely to throw me too much into the honeymoon spirit. I was not at the yalı and so had to contain the emotions coursing through me as I devoured page after page.
“Satisfactory reading?” Colin asked, slipping into the chair across from me. I’d no idea how much time had passed since he’d left me. Poetry, it seemed, was an undeniable distraction.
“You have no idea.”
“Ceyden’s book?” he asked. I hardly looked up, nodding in reply. “Are the notes useful?”
“I have not yet read them. They seemed to be written in Greek, but closer examination proved that wrong.”
“A code?”
“I’m afraid so,” I said.
“I doubt it’s a difficult one. What have you tried to crack it?”
“Nothing. I’m entirely distracted.” I flipped pages and read to him:
You’ve so distracted me,
your absence fans my love.
Don’t ask how.
Then you come near.
“Do not... ,” I say, and
“Do not... ,” you answer.
Don’t ask why
this delights me.
“Ah, Rumi. How far have you got in the book? It gets even better.”
“Rumi, yes, you’re right,” I said. I had not been, before now, much familiar with the works of the famous thirteenth-century Persian poet. “Is there anything you don’t know?”
“Sadly, yes. All too much, in fact.”
“How does it get better?”
“Let the lover be disgraceful, crazy, absentminded. / Someone sober will worry about things going badly. / Let the lover be.”
“Lovely, but a bit tame,” I said, smiling.
“Keep reading, my dear. Keep reading.”
“Can’t you just recite the good parts to me?”
“Maybe later, if you’re well behaved.” A waiter placed a glass cup of tea nestled on a bronze saucer in front of him. “Don’t you want to know what I learned from Sir Richard?”
“Of course,” I said.
“The cross is Benjamin’s. He recognized it at once. Furthermore, he had noticed his son hasn’t been wearing it of late and asked him about it.”
“Oh, dear.”
“Quite. Benjamin said he’d lost it when the bandits attacked him en route to Constantinople after he’d learned of Ceyden’s death.”
“This is dreadful,” I said. “Did you tell him about the messenger?”
“I felt it the right thing to do. He was deeply concerned, but convinced that his son could not have been involved in the murder.”
“That’s hardly surprising. What do you think?”
“I’ve no idea yet.”
“Did you talk to Benjamin as well?” I asked.
“I didn’t,” he said. “He passed through as I was speaking to his father, and I thought he might respond better to you. He seems to consider me as someone on Sir Richard’s side.”
“I’ll go to him as soon as I can.”
“Thank you. I do adore your competence. I never have to worry that you’ll flail.” He smiled and bent his head to look at the book in front of me. “May I?”
“Of course.” I passed him the tattered volume. It was a pleasure to watch him work, his dark eyes exuding confidence, his wavy hair tumbling over a forehead knotted with concentration. He reached for a piece of paper and pulled a pencil from his pocket. “Surely it can’t be this easy.”
I leaned across the narrow table, craning my neck to see what he wrote.
“If all she did was replace each letter...” His voice trailed as he scrawled the alphabet across the top of the paper. “Of course, we’ll run into problems if she was writing in Turkish, but given that the book’s in English and Turkish would be too obvious for someone living in the harem...” He fell silent again, flipping pages and writing notes, his lips tugging towards a smile. “I can’t believe it.”
“She didn’t change the letters?” I asked, looking at the Greek letters he’d written beneath the Roman alphabet, ? under “a,” ? under “b,” and so on.
“It appears not.”
“She must not have been trying very hard to hide what she was doing.”
“English is not the first language of the harem. She probably thought she was being exceedingly clever.”
“It must have been difficult for her,” I said. “She had such trouble with it.”
“Let’s transcribe. No sense getting excited only to find it’s useless and uninteresting.”
Useless and uninteresting were not, perhaps, the right words. Confusing and intriguing, more like. She’d written a record, documenting time she’d spent following someone she did not name, someone who left the harem at seemingly regular intervals with groups of other concubines and who spent no small number of nights with the sultan.
“Simple jealousy?” I asked. “She wanted his attention, he was giving it to someone else? She might have been studying her rival.”
“But there’s nothing that would be of use in that way—no descriptions of clothing, no notes on what this person reads, what her interests are.”
“Is that what one should take account of when considering a rival?”
“Well, if this other woman captured the sultan’s interest, would it not make sense to imitate her in an attempt to draw his attention away?”
“Not at all,” I said. “Imitation is at best a faded effort. She’d need to find a way to shine in her own right. This feels more nefarious—as if she were stalking this other woman.”
“Stalking her?”
“And perhaps stealing her jewelry. So far, I see nothing that suggests blackmail.”
“We know at least one piece of it belonged to Perestu,” he said.
“Who was obviously not spending nights with the sultan.”
“She keeps referring to someone and his special meetings,” I said, handing him my paper. “Could it be Jemal? She might have been jealous if he had a close friendship with another concubine.”
“Roxelana,” he said. “Transcribe the rest of what’s written in the book, see if there’s any clue in them.”
“We should also take note of the poems by which she wrote. There may be some significance to them.”
“I think you should read them all aloud to me,” Colin said. “I might catch something you miss.”
“Or distract us both from our purpose.”
He reached across the table for my hand and kissed it, his lips too soft and insistent for public decency. “Precisely my intention. Must I remind you again that this is our honeymoon?”
“You might, instead, show me. Is there any reason we can’t go home now?” I asked.
Chapter 10
The speed with which my husband ushered me to the docks was topped only by the effort expended by our boatman, who’d been inspired by an egregiou
s tip. Colin swung me onto our patio when we’d reached the yalı, then swept me into his arms and carried me into the house. But no sooner had he pushed open the door than we were greeted by the sound of a voice, its American accent unmistakable.
“It’s beastly, I know, to have three on a honeymoon, but you’ll simply have to forgive me.”
“Margaret!” I cried as Colin put me down. I rushed over and hugged my friend.
“What a delightful surprise,” he said. His voice was sincere, but I read the disappointment in his eyes. There was no question he adored Margaret, but I knew he’d have been more welcoming had she arrived even two hours later. “I have a suspicion that you wouldn’t object to a glass of whiskey while you explain to us your motives for crashing our honeymoon.”
“Can’t say I would,” Margaret said. “I’ve made a narrow escape from Medusa. She’s napping at the hotel and expects me to be doing the same. Expects.”
“She’d be horrified if she knew you were here,” I said. “I remember all too well how much her former employer dislikes me. Remember when you were staying with Mrs. Taylor and she told her butler not to admit me to her house?” Margaret had spent the previous Season staying with friends of her mother’s. During that time, it had been more than difficult for me to gain admittance to most homes in London because of a series of despicable rumors savaging my reputation. And while most of society had forgot the controversy, Mrs. Taylor was still cutting me dead when last I saw her.
“That’s all forgotten now. You’ve been deemed respectable as a result of your most excellent marriage.” Margaret flopped onto a settee. “I know it’s awful of me to show up like this, but I couldn’t resist. I’m going all the way to Persia and couldn’t imagine being so close to you and not stopping. Tell me about Constantinople. Is the moonlight on the Bosphorus everything I hope it to be?” She grinned at Colin as he handed her a glass of whiskey.
“That is all the signal I need to make a speedy departure,” Colin said. “I’ll leave you two to catch up.” He ducked out of the room, pausing only to give me a quick kiss.
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