While waiting for the elevator, I decided I shouldn’t leave the building without sticking my head in at Willis’s office two floors down.
Several minutes later, his secretary waved me through the reception area. As usual, my stomach lurched at the breathtaking view of sleek corporate castles displayed through the wall of windows behind Willis’s desk. He’d spared no expense decorating the place. A wet bar gleamed with Waterford crystal decanters and glasses to my right. Barrister bookshelves lined the wall to my left. Three leather wing chairs surrounded a rectangular coffee table near the window, and a humidor was open and ready to serve clients. Willis would never think of smoking. He worried too much about his health, but clients were a different story.
“This is a surprise,” he said, rising. “What brings you up here?”
“I couldn’t ignore CompuCan any longer, although the staff’s doing great without my help.”
“What have you been up to, little lady?” He came around and sat on the desk’s corner.
I chose a tapestry-covered client chair facing him and set my paperwork and purse on the floor. “Still trying to find out about Ben and the adoption angle.”
“You have enough to handle without adding in detective work, don’t you think?”
“You mean, besides which best-seller I’ll read this week?”
“That restoration, for one thing. It’s a major project.”
I nodded. “True. Steven tells me the bathroom is ready to fall into the first floor.”
“See? You need to focus on the house, on making the place into something you’ll be proud of, even make a profit on. Real estate is a very sound investment.”
“I’m not giving up on finding Feldman. I want to keep my promise to Ruth to help hunt down this killer.”
Willis shook his head. “When you start something, you clamp onto it like a pit bull, don’t you?”
“Do you know how down and dirty the adoption business can get, Willis? I never realized we deal in human beings in this country. You deal cards . . . or stocks and bonds. You don’t deal babies.”
“Money can buy almost anything,” he said.
“I refuse to believe that. And you know what else? I don’t think I’d even shed a tear if every penny I inherited disappeared tomorrow.”
“That’s because those billions of pennies won’t disappear. Playing what-if is not like being without. Your father and I knew about being without. We were so poor, the hogs wouldn’t eat our slop. Being poor means being powerless, and groveling for what you need leaves a nasty taste in your mouth—one that never goes away.” Willis’s eyes glistened. “Until you die, of course. Like poor Charlie.”
Seems he was still struggling with grief as much as I was. “I know you loved Daddy,” I said.
“Charlie was my first client,” he said. “And God, I was so green. We both were. Lost our shirts more than once trying to make deals, thanks to either my stupidity or his impulsiveness. But we hung in there. Back to Feldman, though. How do you expect to find him after all these years?”
“I was thinking of talking to one of the more traditional adoption agencies. See if anyone there has ever heard of Feldman. Maybe Catholic Charities or—”
“Since when have you acquired an interest in religion, Abigail?” said Aunt Caroline from the open office door.
“Come in, Caroline,” said Willis. “Abby was in the building, so she dropped by.”
She wore a peach suit today, and her white hair held a blue hue. New dye job.
“You mentioned Catholic Charities?” she said. “Getting philanthropic as you age, dear?” She took the seat next to me.
“I’m still less than half as old as you,” I said sweetly.
She chose to ignore my remark—this time. “If not philanthropy, does this mention of a charity have something to do with your insistence on pursuing criminals?” She leaned forward and placed her handbag on Willis’s desk.
“I’m pursuing the truth, and I have a few questions for you. Remember when you and Hans came over the other day?”
“I remember.”
“Did you go into the attic?”
“The attic?” she said, with overplayed innocence.
“Yes. The one you go through the closet to get to.”
“What could she possibly want in the attic, Abby?” said Willis.
“I’ll do the asking,” I said sharply. “What were you looking for, Aunt Caroline?”
She fussed with the lace peeking out high on her thigh, the tight, translucent skin on her face burning with color. “When I was young, I made a mistake and wrote things to a man. Private things. Take it from me, Abigail, if you have something to say to a lover—if you ever have another—don’t be foolish enough to declare it in writing. You see, I happened to be married to my second husband at the time, and this other man I fancied, the one I’d written to, decided my letters might be worth something to my husband.”
I couldn’t keep from smiling. She was more than capable of penning some real scorchers. “Go on. I’m waiting to hear about the attic.”
She glanced at Willis, who encouraged her with a nod. “Your father bailed me out. Paid the blackmailing scum. But Charlie kept those letters, kept them because . . . well, let’s say he had his reasons.”
“What reasons?” I pressed.
“To keep me in line. He said I’d cost him too much money over the years.” She folded her arms and her mouth drew tight. “But I never forgot about them, and when I had an opportunity Saturday, I found them. Who knows what hands they could fall into with the two of you moving out and stirring up a mound of dust better left swept under the rug?”
I wondered who she thought gave a flip about her ancient history. “And what did you do with them?”
“I destroyed them.” She raised her chin.
“Good move—but do me a favor, Aunt Caroline? The next time you go snooping around, clean up your mess. We ended up calling the police because we thought we’d had a break-in. You and your boyfriend left that attic a wreck, and what’s more, you forgot to close the door. Diva got stuck in there and—”
“Wait a minute,” Aunt Caroline said, shaking her head. “I didn’t disturb anything. I found the letters almost immediately, second box I looked in. Granted, I may have left the door ajar, but it wasn’t intentional.”
“Sure. If you say so,” I said. If she was telling the truth, that meant someone had come in after she left and torn the place up. I didn’t believe it for a minute. Either she was lying or good old Hans went back up there when she wasn’t looking, hoping to find something of value for himself.
“You have my admission, Abigail. Now could we please change the subject? Or would you prefer to humiliate me further in front of Willis?”
I glanced at him. He shook his head as if to tell me to leave well enough alone. “Okay, we can drop this. For now,” I said.
“Good,” said Aunt Caroline. “I’m hosting a dinner for the CompuCan board of directors tomorrow. Could you please show up this time? I will be entertaining the executives, as I have done in the past, but you and Kate should make an appearance. The country club, eight o’clock. Perhaps you could accompany Willis?”
“I’d be delighted to escort Abby,” said Willis.
“I . . . I sort of have a date,” I lied.
“A date? Not that do-nothing ex-husband, I hope?” said Aunt Caroline.
“Steven is not a do-nothing. He happens to be a very successful contractor.” Successful might be stretching the truth a hair, but I felt the need to defend him.
“Oh, I understand your attraction to him. Always have. There’s something sexy about those redneck types. Feel free to bring your gentleman friend, whoever he is.”
“Okay,” I said, and sighed. Now I’d have to make up another lie when I showed up without a man.
17
After returning home from CompuCan and my enlightening visit with Aunt Caroline, I decided to try on-line resources before contacting Cat
holic Charities. I logged on to the Texas Central Adoption Registry, and learned that only adoptees born in Texas, their siblings, and birth parents could even request information. And I discovered two other interesting facts. A list of thirty-three “voluntary child-placing agencies” on the site did not include Parental Advocates, but there were eighty-six such agencies in Texas. Why were those other fifty-three not included? Even more interesting, any out-of-business agency was required by law to forward their adoption records to the registry. This told me that even if Feldman had retired, perhaps in some file, somewhere, lay evidence of Cloris Grayson’s child. But who could access that information now that both Cloris and Ben were dead? No one. And maybe someone wanted it that way.
Chewing on the pencil I’d been using to jot notes, I considered hacking into the system to find Cloris’s records, if they existed. After all, any system was vulnerable.
Then I rose abruptly.
Not a good idea. The last thing I needed was to be arrested for a cybercrime involving a government agency.
I had to get out of this room, away from the computer, and think this through.
I hurried down the hall to the kitchen to sneak a diet Coke before Kate came home—she knew nothing about my stash of diet Cokes. I walked circles around the kitchen island, sipping aspartame and caffeine, hoping to find clarity. When had curiosity turned into an obsession to find answers?
And then it dawned on me that there would be nothing illegal about learning how the adoption system in Texas worked firsthand. Nothing illegal about me, an adoptee, searching for my own records. The state of Texas told me I had the right to do so on their very own Web site. Even provided an application form on-line. This would be a perfectly legal way to see what information was kept in the registry database. Then maybe Jeff Kline could take over from there.
I went to Daddy’s study and printed out the brief two-page document. Thirty minutes later I drove to Mail Boxes Etc and FedExed my application, surprised at how my hand trembled when I handed the envelope over to the clerk. This seemed all too personal now. And sending off the application reminded me that, though Daddy had shown us our court papers many years ago, I hadn’t seen them during all my searching for the mysterious safe-deposit box. Willis probably had them, I decided on the way back home.
In Daddy’s study once again, I renewed my search through the remaining canceled checks for any clue to the safe-deposit box. I’d never realized how many pieces of paper a human being could accumulate in a lifetime. Daddy could have saved a hundred trees, maybe even a thousand, if he had used cash even occasionally. But he’d told me once checks always came back as proof you took care of your business, and I guess that made sense.
By the time Kate arrived home from her evening therapy session, I had one last stack to go through.
“Any luck?” she asked, carrying two glasses into the study. She placed one in front of me and sat down in the red leather wing chair.
“Not yet,” I answered, removing the mint sprig and silently praying this concoction wasn’t herbal. But alas, it tasted suspiciously like grass. “Mmm, yummy,” I lied. “I have to say this check hunt has produced some interesting moments.”
“Interesting? How?”
“Aunt Caroline profited from Daddy’s generosity more than I ever knew. Every other check seems to have her name on it. No matter which one of her husbands she was married to at the time, Charlie Rose kept her outfitted in green.”
“I didn’t think she needed Daddy’s money. I thought she only married rich men.” Kate took a hefty swig of her drink and I half expected her to bleat like a goat.
“I think the husbands ended up rich by marrying her,” I said. “By the way, I ran into her this morning. She told me a boyfriend blackmailed her over letters she wrote to him while she was still married to Number Two. The one with the odd first name. Remember him?” I pretended to sip my drink.
“Marion something. Hand me a bunch of those checks and I’ll help you.”
“Be my guest.” I handed her a stack.
“She told you about these letters willingly?” asked Kate, removing the rubber band. “Had she been sipping brandy at Willis’s office?”
“I confronted her about searching the attic and she confessed.”
“She actually admitted she made that mess?”
“She says she went up there, but emphatically denies disturbing anything, which has to be a lie, of course.” I continued scanning checks, pulling a few current ones that didn’t help with the safe-deposit box situation, but matched the two already in my shorts pocket.
“What about this one?” Kate said. “Community Savings and Loan. Thirty dollars. Dated last fall.” She passed me the check with a satisfied grin.
“I’ve spent endless hours searching; then you bop in and bingo! Does that tell you who inherited the strand of DNA with the luck genes? You should go out and buy a lottery ticket.”
I picked up the glass of herbal whatever, making her think I might be interested in actually consuming this iced horror. “We can visit the bank tomorrow, but now that you’ve released me from this thankless task, I can run an errand.”
“Pretty late for errands,” she said.
“I need to pay someone a visit.” I headed for the hallway, carrying the glass with me.
Kate called after me, “You don’t have to drink it, Abby. It won’t hurt my feelings.”
I smiled and poured the contents in the sink before leaving.
Nights on Houston’s freeways bear great resemblance to the days. Nothing keeps people out of their cars in this city. I joined the stream of traffic on the Southwest Freeway and followed a thousand taillights past the glossy office buildings populating this side of town. It could take as much as an hour to navigate the sprawl of Houston, depending on where you came from and where you were going, but I arrived at the Greenleaf Apartments in thirty minutes.
“This is a surprise,” said Steven when he opened his door.
“I had a surprise myself this afternoon.” I dropped my purse on the table by the door and walked past him into the living area.
“How’s that?”
He’d redecorated since the last time I’d visited—or someone had redecorated for him. Steven never had much sense of color. The expected grays and tans had been transformed into a salute to the Southwest, with pale green, blue, and mauve fabrics on the couch and love seat, and various desert scenes hanging on the walls.
“This is sure different,” I commented.
“A friend told me a change of everyday scenery might help me readjust to being single.”
“Did your friend help you with this or did you hire someone?” I asked, sitting on the sofa.
“She helped. Can I get you a drink?”
“If you swear on the Bible no herbs are involved.”
“Another reason you should take me back, if only to serve as a buffer between you and Kate the holistic. How about a Dr Pepper?”
“On second thought, I’ll pass. This won’t take long.” I took the canceled checks from my pocket and held them out. “Can you explain these?”
He looked at them briefly, then shoved them back. “Yeah. But I’m not sure I will.”
“I thought we were friends,” I said softly. “You borrowed money from Daddy behind my back, didn’t you?”
“I needed help, okay? And Charlie offered.” Steven’s face tightened with tension, and his green eyes darkened.
I was sorry then, sorry I’d come here without thinking through how to confront him more tactfully.
“Must have been hard asking him for money,” I said.
“I had debts after my rehab, and I didn’t think you’d help me out. Charlie agreed to tide me over.”
Oddly enough, I felt a certain relief at hearing this information. “Daddy would help you with something like that. He really tried to like you. Still, I’m surprised you didn’t do a wide dance past him and ask me for the money.”
“You stopped hanging your
wash on my line the day that paper made us officially divorced. I wasn’t about to ask you for anything.”
“No, especially since you left right after I stopped financing your self-destruction,” I said.
Though Steven’s expression indicated he didn’t like what I had to say, he didn’t shoot back with something sarcastic. Instead an uncomfortable silence followed, and when he finally spoke, his voice was calm. “That’s the fairy story you like to tell yourself about why I left. In truth, I had to get my head together. And yeah, it took me longer than I thought. And yeah, I’ve regretted losing you every day since I got sober.”
This was a new wrinkle in an old shirt. Might even pass for insight. “I’m sorry, Steven. I made a mistake. This is really none of my business.” I rose and circled around him to retrieve my purse.
But he reached out and grabbed my arm.
“Hold on.” He pulled me to him, his lean body fitting into mine the perfect way it always had. Though my brain screamed for me to break away, I couldn’t pile rejection onto distrust. His sobriety might be too tenuous.
He lifted my chin. “I think that’s a first. You said four words I never thought I’d hear from you.”
“Four words?”
“ ‘I made a mistake.’ ”
He kissed me then, with all the passion I remembered, and it was the best thing that could have happened.
There were no lights, no sirens, no stomach flip-flops. None of the things I had dreaded for months happened. Could this be the beginning of the real end to my wanting him? I drew back and rubbed my knuckles against the stubble on his cheek. “We can be friends, Steven. I know we can. That’s all I can handle.”
He released his grip on my arms and stepped back. “Whatever you say, Abby. But I’ve changed. Changed because . . . Never mind.”
I turned to leave.
But as I walked to the door, I noticed a pair of shoes tucked under the coffee table, a name brand I recognized, Pappagallo. I could never wear a pair of those shoes in a million years. They were designed for tall, skinny women with matching long, thin feet. One shoe had a pair of black panty hose stuffed in the toe.
Pick Your Poison Page 14
