I pushed my arms underneath her to grab hold of her shoulders so that I could pull her down further on my cock. Our bodies were pressed so tightly together, almost becoming one person as I rode her harder and harder. Needing to show her how much I craved her in every way, my mouth sealed over hers as my tongue ravaged the inside of her mouth. I was done with fighting it. I was done living in the past…the word mine floated about inside my head as I felt her vaginal walls start to spasm around me. I hardened further and my balls started to draw up in preparation for release. I pushed hard into her making contact with her clit on each thrust. “Come for me. Come all over my cock, love.”
She responded instantly to my command as she latched down hard on my manhood forcing me over the edge and releasing everything I’d had pent up inside me for years. Sure I’d had a few hand pleasures in the shower, but I hadn’t come this hard in forever. My cock pulsed inside her releasing one stream after another of my seed deep within her center. I thought it’d never end.
Having swallowed up a scream that would’ve surely woken up my daughter, I broke away from her mouth. I was surprised she was a screamer and so responsive to my every touch – it made her more desirable to me. I wanted her and began to question why I’d waited so long.
I looked reverentially at her and noticed her eyes were still a bit unfocused. “Are you okay? I didn’t hurt you, did I?”
A warm smile spread across her face as I reached up and released her hands. “I’m fine. That was…” She shook her head trying to find the right words to describe what had happened. I found I was at a loss to describe it too, but her hand came up and splayed across the back of my neck as she pulled me toward her lips and kissed me softly. “It was amazing.”
I didn’t want to separate from her just yet, but I also didn’t want to crush her with my weight, so I rolled us over where she was on top. She relaxed against my chest as I moved my hand up and down along her spine. She moved around on my cock and questioned, “You’re still hard?”
That’s what she did to me. I couldn’t deny it any longer. “I shouldn’t be, but that’s the effect you have on me.” I hated to admit it, “If you keep gyrating like that, we’ll be going for round two any minute.” I could already feel the need to take her again building within me as my cock continued to grow inside her. I could easily see her becoming an addiction.
I continued to stroke up and down her back as we stayed connected and just enjoyed the feel of each other’s bodies pressed tightly together. “I want to know more about you.”
Her head lifted slightly as one of her hands came to rest on my chest to support her chin so she could stare up into my eyes. “Same here. Ask me anything.”
“How many men have you been with?” I knew it was wrong to ask, but I had a sick need to know. I didn’t like the idea of her being with anyone but me.
She smiled before speaking, “Just two.”
I already felt like a possessive bastard. The idea of her being with anyone else didn’t sit well, until she added, “I’ve only been with you and with Declan. He’s the one who took my virginity.”
“You were a virgin when he turned you into a submissive?” I couldn’t believe someone would do that, but then again Dane had trained Marissa by easing her into the world of BDSM before taking her virginity.
She nodded. “He was gentle in the beginning, letting me explore my own sexuality and offering to show me what options existed for me. I was hesitant at first, but he was so kind and trusting in the beginning. It was only in the end…”
Her breath hitched, and her words trailed off. “No need to explain further.” I offered my answer next. “For me, I’d been friends with Gabi since she was born; we’d grown up together. I loved her like a sister in the beginning, but slowly a friendship developed, and it moved on to what I thought was love; however, we broke up and decided to date other people for a while.”
I looked down to see her hanging on my every word, so I continued. “I thought I’d cared a lot about the person I was dating at the time, so we offered each other our virginity to see what it was like. She didn’t like my aggressive nature in bed, and we broke up immediately afterwards. I look back on it now and realize that I’d always wanted my first time to be with Gabi, and I felt so guilty that it hadn’t been her. I accepted the break-up and waited for Gabi to come to the same conclusion.”
“And? What happened?”
I smiled as I pulled her closer to my chest. “The same thing happened to her with her boyfriend; she wanted him to do things he wouldn’t. We soon realized we were meant for one another that no one else could take each other’s place within our hearts. We started dating more seriously, began experimenting with the BDSM side of things, and asking for advice from Master Marshall.” I looked down to see if she was following with me. “We weren’t about to ask our parents or even Kent or Carol for help and training. They were too close to us; it would’ve made things weird. But we found the deep soul connection that we’d been missing the first time around, and shortly after we were engaged to be married. A little later we decided to commit on a deeper level and I collared her. I promised myself only to her and vice versa.”
She smiled and her eyes lit up with excitement. “So you’ve only been with two other people?”
I liked seeing this jealous possessive side to her. I hadn’t known it existed. I raised my hips up, which forced my cock deeper into her, making her moan in pleasure. “I’ve been with three people, counting you.”
I was surprised by her question, “You aren’t into sharing are you?”
I could tell it took a lot for her to ask the question, which made me wonder what had happened. “No. I’ll admit I’m a very possessive bastard. I never allowed anyone to touch Gabi and as far as I’m concerned, for right now, you’re mine.” I grabbed her hips and pushed into her some more, causing her to lose her breath. “As long as we’re together…I. Will. Not. Share You!”
She seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, but tensed when I asked her to explain her question.
“Declan wanted me to experience various aspects of the lifestyle and pushed me to try allowing an extra in to play with us.” She looked at me with a little sadness, “This is what I was telling everyone earlier in the conference room. He didn’t allow any sex; he assured me that only he would be allowed that aspect.” I could see her struggling to try and explain. “He wanted me to feel what it was like to have another person touch me while he pleasured me. I didn’t tell the others, but he let the other guy kiss me.” She shivered at the admission.
I could feel my hands turn into fists against her back. “Did you tell him to stop?”
She shook her head. “I wasn’t allowed to say no or to safe word on him because he wouldn’t give me one, and since I was always blindfolded, I never saw who the person was. Declan asked me to try a few times, and when I still didn’t like the idea, that’s when he finally stopped.”
Robin’s face looked puzzled for a moment; she seemed to be recalling a memory. “What are you remembering?”
“It’s odd, but the smell of Declan and the other guy were quite similar – just ever so slightly off. Everything about both of them felt a bit familiar.” She shook her head. “It just seemed like they were one in the same. Isn’t that odd?”
“Your mind can play tricks on you when you’re in a scene. Enough about the past, I want to take you nice and slow this time.” I needed to shift this conversation back to us because I could feel our connection slipping. I wrapped my arms tight around her shoulders and turned us to where I was on top again. Her eyes were a little shocked, but when I started moving slow and deep, she relaxed into me.
I ended up taking Robin two more times before we finally fell asleep wrapped in each other’s arms.
I STILL GET ALL warm and fuzzy thinking back about the first night Jackson and I came together. It was one of the most magical nights of my life. I’d never felt so loved, cherished, and dominated by a man all at one time.
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br /> I was thankful to see that Jax had managed to redress us sometime during the middle of the night. He had on his boxers and a t-shirt, and had dressed me in the same attire.
Over the baby monitor, Jax heard Niki starting to move around. He went to go check on her while I slipped out of the bedroom and into my own room. I’d just climbed into bed, when the door flew open with Niki bounding in. She bounced into bed with me while excitedly yelling out, “Robin!” before throwing her arms around my neck. Both of us were shocked when she pulled back to look at me with a curious stare and asked, “Are you going to be my mommy?”
My heart melted at the idea, but I didn’t know how to answer. I didn’t know what Jax and I were at this point.
He picked up his daughter and placed her in his lap as he took a seat on the edge of the bed beside me, before grabbing my hand and giving it a squeeze. “Sweetie, Robin and I care a great deal for one another, and we don’t know what the future holds. I know you’ve been wanting to have a mommy to love, but I’m not sure if Robin wants to be one just yet.”
Nicola looked between the two of us, crawled over into my lap, and placed one of her hands against my face before saying, “I want you to be Mommy.”
Her eyes were so intent. We’d spent a lot of time together at events over the past year. I always felt like the oddball out when I was at the Prescott’s house for one of their soirees, so I played with the children and kept them company. She and I connected, but I hadn’t realized it was on such a deep level. This was all moving too quickly.
I tried to smile, noticing Jax was holding his breath about how I’d answer this. “Sweetheart, I’d love nothing more, but can we just enjoy playing together and spending time with your dad for a bit?” Pulling us both closer to him, I noticed he relaxed while placing an arm around me.
I didn’t know how much of what I was saying she understood, but she smiled at me before wrapping her arms around my neck and giving me a tight squeeze – causing me to fall for both her and her father even more. I’d always loved Niki as if she were my own. She reminded me of myself as a young girl, full of hope and dreams.
That morning had been the only hiccup to the past couple of months; Nicola had almost caught me in her father’s bed.
Since Niki seemed to want me in their lives, Jax moved all my things into his room shortly thereafter. He said he needed me close, and I didn’t argue. I felt safe and secure in his arms at night.
The nightmares were present for several weeks. I’d talked to Dr. Bradford – she insisted I call her Carol – about them and hoped that would cause the problem to go away, but they persisted. Jax tried his best to exhaust me in bed, to help me forget about my problems and cause me to be too tired to dream. Sometimes it worked and other times it didn’t.
I couldn’t complain because the sex was addictive. We kept at it more times than I could count, reminding me of the stupid bunny commercial with the batteries, except we kept coming and coming and coming until we were both spent.
Even at work, we couldn’t keep our hands off one another. He kept finding excuse after excuse to call me into his office to make it look like he was reading me the riot act, when he’d actually bend me over the desk and take me from behind or have me suck him off while he kept working on projects. The man was insatiable, and I was starting to believe I was too.
Nicola, Jax, and I all fell into a family pattern at home. We cooked, ate, and cleaned up together as a team. Jax and I were always trying to come up with new places to take Niki to highlight some of the things she might be interested in around the area. Of course we had to take a security detail with us to ensure our safety since a threat still existed against me. But we were able to make some wonderful memories together.
We’d passed Thanksgiving and were halfway into Christmas when Marjorie and Ethan, along with Gianna and Nate, surprised everyone with news that they were each pregnant and due within weeks of one another. I knew that Tomas, Alexander, their mom, and Celia had all been helping the sisters house hunt lately, trying to find something on the same street that everyone seemed to want to be on. It was nice to see an extended family remain so close.
The news had made me long to have information about my brother, but Alexander’s security team still hadn’t been able to get word to him. All they’d tell me was that his mission was still ongoing, nothing more. As for the other issues with my father’s company and with Declan, it all seemed a bit too quiet for my tastes. It didn’t seem logical to get threats, and then suddenly they were non-existent. Had there been more and I just wasn’t told? Or had they disappeared all together? I really didn’t know and wasn’t sure I wanted to.
It wasn’t only the threats that had stopped, but the hassle from the hospital as well. I never received any more bill collector calls on my cell phone. I was curious to know why, hoping I wasn’t in debt to the Prescotts or Jackson for any money, but at the same time relieved I had one less thing to worry about.
In the spirit of the holidays, I’d helped Niki and Jax pick out and decorate a tree. Niki seemed in awe by it, and Jackson explained how this was the first tree they’d gotten as a family. He hadn’t really wanted to celebrate the last couple of years, just spending it at his parent’s house instead.
I tried to do all the mom-like things I could think of to bring some joy to his daughter’s life and brighten up both their holiday spirits. We baked cookies, watched cartoon specials on television, and even drove to a few towns in the area for their falling snow, dancing lights, and other Christmas activities.
I saw the happiness in both of their faces; however, I was having a hard time getting into things. The nightmares got worse. I don’t know whether it was me missing my father or the fact that my brother was still on a dangerous mission, but I finally had reached what I could handle. Scaring Jackson, I woke up screaming and crying one night in bed. He held me and tried to offer comfort where he could, but we finally agreed it was time for either Carol or Kent to prescribe me a sleeping aid to help. I couldn’t keep going like I was.
I was hesitant to take the medicine since there’d been a couple of warnings on the side of the bottle, but Carol assured me they were just there as a precaution. “They’re non-narcotic and won’t be habit forming. They only help you stay asleep so you won’t have nightmares.”
With Jackson promising to keep a close watch on me, I tried the medicine that night. I was surprised to sleep all through the night and awoke refreshed for the first time in over a year. It was good timing because we had a full day of shopping ahead of us.
We’d just dropped Nicola off with Celia so Jackson and I could go shopping for her Christmas presents. She had her heart set on a tricycle and some fashion dolls. We were about to leave when Alexander stopped us; his face looked anguished as he called us into his study.
Jax held my hand as we walked into the room. We were surprised to see both Derrick and Rick looking through some paperwork. Alexander motioned for us to take a seat in a couple of the chairs nearby. “The guys have some important information that’s come to light.”
I didn’t like the ominous feeling the room was emitting, but said with caution, “Okay?”
Jackson kept our fingers entwined as his thumb caressed the back of my hand, giving it a squeeze. “Let’s hear it,” he offered.
Rick spoke up first while Derrick continued looking through the files. To our surprise, a slow smile spread across his face. “We have some good news concerning the medical bills for your father. You don’t owe anything.”
I looked between Alexander and Jax. “Did either of you have anything to do with this?”
They both shook their heads in denial. Jax bumped my leg with his, “Just hear Rick out and see what he has to say. I’d like to know the answer to this, too.”
Rick took a chair from across the room and sat in front of us. He leaned forward, resting his arms on his legs as he began his explanation. “We weren’t quite sure how to approach the issue of your father’s insurance w
ithout attracting attention to the company he worked for, so we called in a favor. We have a friend, Camden, who works for the insurance commissioner here in Florida. He did some behind-the-scenes digging and discovered the case worker, Bill, who’d been handling your father’s claims had been taking bribes from your father’s company to deny the claims. Cam dug a little deeper and discovered that Bill was taking bribes from lots of companies. Apparently, he had a cohort at the hospital, his girlfriend…”
I broke through his conversation and asked, “Let me guess, Sharon?”
He nodded, and all I could say was, “That bitch! She assured me she was doing the best she could to help us and give us the discounted non-insurance prices.”
Jax moved his chair closer to mine where he could put his arm around me to try and calm me down. “Shh, honey. It’s going to be okay. Let’s let Rick finish.”
I looked over to see if Alexander was upset about us cuddling in front of him, but he seemed to nod at Jax and smile in approval. What the hell was that all about?
Rick continued. “To make a long story short, Bill had been double-dipping into things. He took the bribe from your father’s company, but he allowed the claims to be processed at 100%. The money went to pay the hospital, but Sharon made it look like the claims were denied, thanks to her boyfriend providing a falsified copy of denial in the explanation of benefits, which you received. If you note, the number to call led you directly to his extension, allowing him to control the entire scenario.
“The same holds true for the bills received from the hospital. Every time you called, you reached Sharon’s extension and no one else. She asked you to make payments to a bogus account, and it turns out she and Bill were the names listed on it.”
I shook my head. This couldn’t be true. I’d been used. “You mean to tell me I was paying them the entire time.”
He nodded. “Cam filed for an investigation, and the authorities have already picked up each of them and found enough evidence to put them in jail with such a high bond they’ll never get out before their trial comes up.”
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