“Hello, Lindsey.”
Lindsey spun around, her blood now running both hotter and colder. Her heart fluttered into her throat. That sultry voice had haunted her dreams for four years.
He stood on the other side of the table with his portfolio propped beside him. He’d pulled his raven’s wing black hair back in a loose ponytail at the base of his neck. His silver eyes studied her. Lindsey's mouth went dry while her palms started to sweat. She felt his eyes on her skin as surely as she had remembered feeling his hands. Heat began to gain on the cold lump in her stomach.
“Kent Farrington. Holy crap, Batman. How have you been?” Gary reached across the table to shake Kent’s hand. He glanced at Lindsey. “It’s been ages, hasn’t it? I mean years.”
“I came to see Lindsey,” Kent answered a different question, managing to shake Gary’s hand without breaking eye contact with Lindsey.
“No, you didn’t,” Lindsey snapped. Heat won out over cold as her blood shot to a boil. The sheer gall of the man, walking into the convention like he belonged here.
“Oh hey, that’s right. You two used to be a thing.” Gary glanced at Lindsey again. Blinking out of her stupor, she saw he remembered that before she’d become the ‘Wicked Witch,’ she’d been the office ‘Hot Babe.’
“Yes, Lindsey Lou Who, I did,” Kent said smiling.
Lindsey scowled at his playing with her name. It had taken over a year and one very ugly editorial meeting before they’d stopped calling her Lindsey Hop. She didn’t want Lindsey Lou Who to be the next fight.
“No. You did not.” She stomped around the backdrop to hide. He couldn’t come into this small square of privacy. It was only for employees, and Kent hadn’t worked for her publisher in years. She’d made sure of that. She tried not to think about what his smile still did to her, but her thighs were already trembling. Her body was coated with a sheen of sweat almost in preparation for him. She scowled, her muscle memory seemed to recall him perfectly even if her heart had gone senile and forgotten the pain of his abandonment. A pain she struggled to remember.
“Sssst Lindsey,” Amy, her assistant, whispered from a gap on the other side of the display. Her eyes were bright with excitement, which Lindsey assumed was from the presence of her boss’s ex. “Is he really here?”
“Yes, he really is.” Kent set down his portfolio and straightened.
Lindsey spun around. She should have known she wouldn’t be safe here. He tugged his vest straight in what appeared to be a nervous gesture, but how likely was that? Kent hadn’t been nervous since his first day of kindergarten. He might not have been nervous even then.
“What are you doing here?” Lindsey hissed.
“I came to talk to you.” He stepped forward.
Lindsey tried to back up and bumped into a pile of freebie boxes. She could smell him from five feet away. Spice and sandalwood. Four years and he was still using the same cologne. His scent climbed into her brain and tried to drive out the last bit of fury she’d managed to cling to.
“It’s a little late,” she told him, using up the end of her anger.
“Lindsey, you’re still the most incredible woman I’ve ever met.” He closed the space between them before she could slip away. He put his hands on her shoulders, gazing into her eyes.
She hunched her shoulders, trying to distract herself from how good it felt to have him touching her again even if it was through two layers of clothing. “I understand it’s very trendy to ditch the most incredible woman you’ve ever met these days.”
“Lindsey.”
Lindsey closed her eyes, trying to block out his nearness. That turned out to be a mistake. It left her open to other incursions.
As soon as his lips touched hers, his kiss seared through her. Her skin heated until her blouse and jacket felt unbearably hot. She wanted to strip them off, and if her fingers had been less numb, she might have started on her blouse buttons. But her hands hung at her sides, incapable of movement, too dazed by Kent’s nearness. His lips, at once soft and demanding, plied hers until she was quivering.
When he parted her lips, a moan vibrated between them. Already overwhelmed, she couldn’t tell which one of them had moaned, and she didn’t care. His elegant hands slid across her back, drawing her closer. It made her crave the hard planes of his abdomen pressed against her belly. She reached for him. He buried his hand in her hair, wrecking her hairdo and angling her head for a deeper kiss. Heat spiraled around them, carrying the scent of her desire. She shuddered as the hard length of him pressed into her belly. Her core felt hot and sleek, ready for him. Always ready for him.
Kent brushed his open mouth along her jaw, lifting her off the floor and pressing her into the boxes behind her. “God, I missed you.”
A box shifted behind her. This wasn’t a wall he had her pressed against, but an unstable stack of boxes that would fall over and take one of the booth walls with it. The symbolism stabbed her, reminding her of the anger she’d forgotten. She planted her hands on Kent’s solid chest and pushed him off her.
“You’ll have to go on missing me. We’re done.” She'd intended to say more, but didn't trust her shaking voice.
Blindly, she rushed through the maze of booth walls, searching for escape. With one hand she finished the demolition of her hair and with the other she searched for her hotel key card.
“Hey Lindsey, where ya goin’?” Gary shouted after her as she squeezed between the tables to escape the booth.
“Out,” she snapped. Kent stepped out from behind the display wall, and the cold lump in her stomach reasserted itself. She’d done the same stupid thing last time. She’d rushed into Kent’s trap because he excited her, and she’d ended up in a relationship about as stable as the stack of boxes she’d been ready to have sex on just now. “I’ll be back later.”
“Lindsey!” Kent called.
She was creating a spectacle. The early geek crowd rippled as she stormed past. They were like sharks smelling blood on the water, though they probably considered themselves Jedi sensing a disturbance in the Force. Even that cynical thought couldn’t bring her pleasure, and cynicism was all she had left. Her body ached from the pleasure she had denied herself, and the doors were ridiculously far away in the cavernous convention center. She dodged a luggage cart loaded with comic book boxes and heard someone call Kent’s name. Ripping off her badge, she shoved through the doors, startling the security guy on the other side.
Suddenly a whole new crowd was alerted to something unusual happening. Lindsey paused as the eyes of a thousand comic book fans focused on her. She heard the shocked twitter of her name ring the room as she was recognized. Few of them had seen her in person, and none in this state. This was not the impression she hoped to make at her first convention as editor of her own line, her first convention in four years. She would have to face these people at no fewer than three panels, one costume contest, and hours in between at the booth. She had to pull herself together. It wouldn’t do to let Kent know how he’d ruined her composure, either.
Lindsey straightened and headed for the escalator to the second level. She caught sight of herself on the black-mirrored walls lining the escalator. It was worse than she feared. Even the dark mirrors couldn’t hide her high color. Her hair hung around her face like she’d just tumbled out of a bed not her own, and her clothing hung askew. She pulled her black velvet jacket straight and heard someone say Kent’s name behind her. She pulled a hand through her hair, lifting her chin at the same time. It made her feel a little less slutty. Why was Kent chasing her through the convention? It only attracted attention.
If the Comic Buyers Guide had a gossip column, this would be a headliner. Wunderkind Editor Lindsey Cartwright Pursued Through Con by Legendary Artist Kent Farrington.
“Lins!”
Lindsey almost leaped off the escalator in her rush to the hotel walkway . Throngs were headed for the Con dragging their collections behind them on luggage carts and
dollies. She felt like a salmon swimming upstream.
“Oh my God. You’re Lindsey Cartwright, aren’t you?” the girl standing in front of her gasped.
Lindsey skidded to a stop. She could pick her fans out of this crowd. First, they were mostly females. They had short or multi colored hair and wore black. This girl fit the bill down to her blood-red hair and her black ‘Men Suck’ T-shirt.
“Yes, I am.”
“You are like my total hero.”
“Thank you,” Lindsey said as graciously as she could under the circumstances.
“Good to see a sister in this boys’ club,” the girl said, trying to sound tough but coming off nervous. Poor kid.
“You know, I’d love to talk,” she lied. She forced herself not to check over her shoulder for her pursuer. He must be gaining. “But I was just on my way somewhere. If you’d like to stop by the booth later today, I should be there.”
“Oh, totally.” The girl’s eyes became the brightest thing about her, shining with very uncool enthusiasm. “That would be awesome.”
“Lindsey!”
Lindsey fought the urge to cringe at the voice behind her. “Later then,” she said, darting through the doors to the skywalk. Now she felt like a salmon in a chute. The skywalk was more crowded, narrower and domed in sickly yellow plastic. She hadn’t gone fifteen steps when she heard the door bang open behind her.
“Lindsey, running away will not help,” Kent announced. “I know where you are all weekend, I know where you work, and I know where you live.”
“That’s called stalking,” Lindsey shouted over her shoulder. She didn’t care that several of the geeks had stopped in their tracks to gape at the drama.
“I just want to talk to you. I can explain.”
With that, Lindsey stopped, allowing Kent to catch up to her. “Explain. That’s rich. Did you plan on inventing new words? Because none of the ones I know will work.”
“Lindsey,” Kent said. He grazed her cheek with his knuckles.
“Stop that, you’re ruining my ultra feminist credibility.” Lindsey twisted her face away. She wanted to close her eyes again and let him do anything he wanted, but she’d already been enough of a spectacle today.
“Why? Because it’s making you blush?” Kent’s voice dropped to a sexy purr.
Lindsey’s body strained to fall against his and let him have his way, but she held herself back. “I am not.”
“I beg to differ. I’m an artist. I know color.” He touched her cheek again. “This is pink, headed for red.”
“Beg all you want. Nothing will change my mind.” She set off down the skywalk again. The sun shining through the plastic roof heated the hall past the ability of the air-conditioning system. Puddles formed on the floor below a couple of the units. She stalked past them.
“You always were fast for your size.” Kent shoved his hands into his pockets, his long strides keeping up with her. “Look, I want to explain why I left you.”
“Of course you do.”
“Can you stop being sarcastic for ten seconds? I told you in my note that it wasn’t you, it was me, and that wasn’t entirely true.”
“This is not how groveling usually goes.” Lindsey opened her jacket before the heat in the skywalk made her pass out. Or maybe it was the heat of having Kent so close. Opening her jacket was a big mistake, too much like undressing, but since it was done, she couldn't reverse it.
“Well, I’m trying to be completely honest. It was partly you, because I knew I couldn’t be the man you needed.”
“Wonderful. Were you hoping Superman would split up with Lois Lane and start dating me?” Her body reacted the way it always had when he entered a room. Ever since that very first Con when he’d been a hopeful and she’d been an assistant editor. He’d shown her his portfolio and later that night she’d invited him to her hotel room to show him her etchings. Despite months of Häagan-Dazs therapy and years of bitterness, here she was melting into her shoes for him.
“Come on, Lindsey Lou, give me a break, huh?”
“A break?” Lindsey pushed open the door to the hotel atrium. “I’d love to. The tough part is going to be deciding between your neck and your skull. What are you even thinking showing up here? I’m working.”
“I thought it would be better than showing up at the office.” Kent strode through the door on her heels.
“More witnesses?”
“Fewer projectiles. Look, I know what I did was a world class asshole act, but let me explain.”
Lindsey jabbed the elevator call button, folded her arms and glared at the elevator, clinging to her anger. She heard excited conversation in the lobby below. She tried to listen to that, hoping to block out Kent. She wanted to hate him, and she wanted to lure him to her room and screw him blind in the vain hope of getting him back. Her fans would be so disappointed.
“Before I met you, I’d never met a woman so driven. You had a plan. You were going to write fantasy novels, remember? Comics were a stopover while you worked on your craft and networked. You were better than the next tights-wearing superhero.”
“I am better than the next tights-wearing superhero. I edit my own line, and there are no tights in it.” Lindsey made the mistake of turning to glare at Kent, thinking she was ready. She wasn’t. She doubted she ever would be.
Kent’s quicksilver eyes bore into hers, making her guilty and needy at the same time. “You were going to be the next Marion Zimmer Bradley. The next Ray Bradbury. And you were getting out of New York. We were going to live on a farm with horses and a couple of dogs,” he accused.
“So? All you were supposed to do was draw men flying in tights and stick around.” The elevator doors swished open.
Kent stepped in like he’d been invited. “I know that. Why did you give up?”
“Who says I gave up on anything?”
Someone approached the open elevator doors, but reeled back at the tone of her voice. The doors closed, imprisoning her inside with him. Lindsey turned to the window at the back and stared through it down at the lobby. She hadn’t given up. Other things just took precedence. At first, one of those things had been him. Later, one of those things had been revenge on him.
“You did it to spite me, didn’t you?”
Even as his words made her want to shout denials, his tone made her want to beg him to make love to her. She bit her lip.
“You decided to take over the comics world to spite me. Comics were always my thing, not yours. It’s like The Gift of the Magi.” He tangled his fingers through her wild hair.
Tears gathered in her eyes at the tenderness of his touch. She’d sworn she’d never cry for him again. With the other hand he brushed her cheek.
“You remember the San Diego Con? We went to that party for that rock star’s startup company, and all night everybody kept thinking I was the rock star. Remember how we went back to the hotel and had so much fun that you spent the whole next day sitting down? We had good times.”
Lindsey steeled herself. She couldn’t take this again. Once was too much. “Remember that Friday four years ago when I went to work and came home to find all your stuff gone except for a scrap of sketch paper with a note on it telling me how sorry you were?”
“I still am sorry.”
The doors opened and Lindsey dove through them. She fished her keycard out of her pocket even though her door was halfway down the hall. “I didn’t even know there was anything wrong. You didn’t give me a chance.”
“I know. After I left, I knew what I’d lost. I knew I needed to try and get you back. It just took me a while.”
Lindsey stopped at the door she fervently hoped was hers. Her vision was too blurry to check the number even if she remembered it. She shoved the card into the slot, and the door unlocked. “That explains all the letters and flowers you’ve sent over the years trying to apologize. Or maybe that was one of the other guys who’ve so spectacularly dumped me. Oh wait, ther
e was only the one. You.” She pushed the door open and stepped inside. “Go away, Kent. It’s too late. Way too late.”
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