Brendan has me confused, but I file it away to think about another time. Distractions are not something I need. I’m one-eyed about my future, wanting to become a criminal defence attorney after I finish school next year—much to my dad’s amusement—so I spend most of my free time studying.
I’ve seen Brendan around over the years, finding him really attractive even though he always has a different girl hanging off of him. Everyone knows that he doesn't date, preferring to add notches to his bedhead. Having never even been on a date before, I'm definitely not interested in becoming just one of his girls. I highly doubt I'll be taking him up on his offer, platonic or not.
“Get it together, Lainey. You're making something out of nothing,” I mutter to myself. Why I'm even thinking about this, I have no idea. I'm still not one hundred percent sure he meant what I thought he did.
Complete darkness greets me when I venture outside. The lights in the yard and the town hall have been turned off in anticipation of the fireworks. Instead of attempting to find my way from the back of the hall to the front where everyone else is gathered, I make an on-the-spot decision to turn off the lights and stay here by myself. I can watch the fireworks from where I am, with the added bonus of not needing to deal with persistent idiots who want to ring in the New Year with kisses. Maybe this year Dad won’t feel the need to knock anyone out in my defence.
My dad’s not nicknamed Beast just because he’s a huge man. He also has a tendency to turn into a beast when he feels his family is being threatened. His explosions can be embarrassing.
Leaning back against the cinder block wall, I listen as the countdown finishes and the fireworks begin. They’re spectacular as usual. As they’re reaching their peak, I hear someone moving next to me one moment before I’m pushed against the wall. Soft lips touch mine, a tongue prodding between my parted lips. My whole body falls rigid, my muscles tensing as I steady myself to deliver the full force of my knee between my attacker’s legs.
I abort my attack when Brendan’s cologne permeates my senses, relaxing my leg.
Sensing my hesitation, Brendan pauses our kiss. “Happy New Year, Maddi,” he whispers against my mouth. His minty breath blows over my face, our breath mingling together as I sigh.
Brendan Taylor is kissing me. I can’t believe it.
“Happy New Year, Brendan,” I murmur, returning his sentiment.
Confusion clouds my mind. I’m not sure how I should react to him. My confusion evaporates when, without another word and against my better judgement, he coaxes my arms around his neck and wraps his arms around my waist. I lean against the wall when he pulls my soft body against his hard frame. Feelings I’ve never felt before; feelings I can’t name course through me.
Without further thought, I follow his lead as he proceeds to give me the sweetest first kiss a girl could wish for. We’re still kissing when the lights come back on. The area around us grows louder as people begin milling back into the grounds, the pair of us ignoring them and continuing to kiss. After what feels like an eternity, Brendan steps away from me, smiling broadly. He gives me a quick, final kiss on the lips before he gently bites my clothed shoulder.
“You're so beautiful, and you're going to be all mine. I’m going to make sure of it,” he whispers against my neck before he turns and walks away without another word.
The passionate promise in his words takes my breath away, making me flush with excitement. They replay over and over in my head all night, along with my hope that he’ll seek me out at Kyle’s party. My wish isn’t granted because I don’t see him again for the rest of the night.
***
“Dad! Brendan Taylor’s at the door.”
My middle brother Joel’s yelling interrupts my attempted nap. My heart flips at the news. Jumping off my bed, I peek out of my bedroom door.
I had a little bit too much to drink with my friends last night—especially by my standards—so I’ve been moping around my room since I woke up just before lunchtime. Combining with my hangover is my confusion over what happened with Brendan last night. It’s resulted in quite the headache. I can’t see anyone in the living area so I assume they’re all out the back. Curiosity getting the better of me, I creep toward the back door.
I don’t know what to make of him turning up at our house after last night. He’s never been here in the six and a half years we’ve lived here. My biker family aren’t in the same social circle as the likes of Brendan and his fourth-generation farming family. In fact, they're polar opposites, considering Brendan’s father has been the local Member of Parliament for the last fifteen years and my dad’s the Vice President of an outlaw Motorcycle Club. The only time we mingle with their social class is at district events, and even then everyone tends to group into their own social circles.
“Madelaine, honey. Your dad wants you,” Wendy says quietly from behind me as she walks through the sliding glass door back into our house.
Startled, I almost jump out of my skin. My heart pounds harder, exacerbating my headache.
“They’re on the back deck waiting for you.”
“Who’s they?” I ask her, faking ignorance to see if she'll give me a heads up or pass on any gossip she knows. She smiles at me, seeing straight through my ruse, pointing toward the back of the house without saying another word.
Once she’s walked past me and into the kitchen, I check my reflection in the hall mirror, happy that I’ve at least had a shower and piled my long mane on top of my head in some semblance of an up-do. I wish I’d known that he was going to come here because I would have put some makeup on and worn something other than my normal tight jeans, singlet, and unbuttoned short-sleeved shirt. I giggle to myself at that lie—I’m pretty sure I’d still be wearing the same thing even with prior warning. The only really girly things about me are my long nails and my expensive addiction to designer shoes.
Walking through the house and out the back door, I find my dad and Brendan sitting in the entertaining area having a beer. Benji’s hovering as well; an unpleasant look on his face.
“Wendy said you want me, Dad?”
I smile at him trying to gauge his mood, and then at Brendan. He looks as gorgeous as ever, his chocolate brown hair, deep brown eyes, and tanned skin creating masculine perfection. Running my eyes over his lanky frame, I catalogue what he’s wearing—blue jeans that fit him just right, and a white shirt that stretches nicely across his muscled chest and shoulders. On his feet he has a pair of dusty work boots.
Country boy perfection; my friends described him as last night.
Personally, I was ambivalent toward him last night and confused by his strange way of approaching me before we kissed. My opinion that it was slightly creepy was played down by my romantic friends so I’d shut up. In the early hours of this morning, my very envious girlfriends—and a large amount of vodka—had helped me decide that I’d go on a date with Brendan on the off chance that he actually asked me after our kiss.
Apparently, he's so hot that my friends will kill me if I don’t accept any offer he makes.
Dad clears his throat, drawing my attention back to him. My father’s a huge man. Brendan is only slightly shorter, albeit a lot leaner. Dad's pretty intimidating, but Brendan seems to be holding his own at the moment. He looks relaxed enough.
From the corner of my eye, I can see his eyes moving over my form, his slow perusal causing my pulse to quicken. A blush rises to my cheeks when I notice that my father’s watching Brendan, the hardening of his eyes telling me that he doesn’t really appreciate what he’s witnessing.
When Dad sits straighter in his chair and pats the seat next to him, I sit and wait for someone to speak. “Baby girl, Brendan’s dropped in to ask me if he can take you out on a date. I told him that it’s up to you what you do. Although, I’ve warned him that if you say yes and he goes and hurts you in any way, I’ll fuck him up. Permanently.”
For the first time in my life, I wince at my father calling me baby girl. He’s addressed me li
ke that since the day I was born. I’ve never really thought about how young it made me sound until I had a man I wanted to impress.
“That goes double for me,” I hear Benji mutter.
Wow. That’s strange. I thought Benji would be keen for me to do something other than study. He’s always mocking me about being “Nigel No-Friends” since I only have a handful of friends.
Ignoring Benji, I grin at my straightforward dad. As much as he annoys me sometimes, I’m my dad’s girl, and I love him to pieces. The threat he issued is such a typical thing for my domineering father to say, and I’d be lying if I said I didn't appreciate his concern. Brendan’s the first man to ever have the balls to ask Dad if he can take me out. My poor father’s entering unchartered waters right along with me.
I regard Brendan inquiringly. His wide eyes and fake-looking grin tell me that he’s a little intimidated by Dad’s speech. “What did you have in mind?”
Sympathy wells within me for Brendan and the situation he’s put himself in for me. It's probably not the usual route he takes to ask a girl out. Actually, it definitely isn't, since I've never heard of him asking a girl to date him. It's unfortunate, and a little embarrassing, since I'm seventeen not thirteen, but Brendan will need to get used to Dad’s straightforward ways if he wants to take this past one date.
“I thought I could pick you up and we could head into Roma for dinner on Friday night. If you don’t already have plans?”
“That sounds good to me. What time would you like to pick me up?” I respond without hesitation. Benji groans at my acceptance. I shoot him daggers with my eyes before returning my gaze to Dad and Brendan. I have no idea what Benji’s problem is right now. I thought he was friends with Brendan. Brendan’s handsome face splits into a cheeky, satisfied grin at my response, causing Dad to put his beer down a bit harder than necessary. At his smug response, regret filters through me.
I know Brendan’s used to girls jumping to be with him. I wished I’d played a little harder to get, just so he realises I'm not easy like the other girls he messes with. I'm not one for game playing, so this thought occurs too late to be of benefit.
“Would five o'clock be all right with you?”
I nod in agreement, my cool exterior belying the excitement churning inside. I can't believe Brendan Taylor just asked me out.
Brendan turns his attention to my dad. “What time do I need to have Maddi home, Mr O’Brien?
“It’s Beast, Brendan. No man in my family answers to Mr O’Brien.” He chuckles in his deep voice, his demeanour a tiny fraction friendlier. Brendan did the right thing by asking Dad about my curfew. If he keeps this up, he'll win him over in no time. Hopefully.
“I think midnight is a fair time,” Dad answers.
My smile broadens at Dad’s answer. I’d expected him to say something ridiculous like nine-thirty. Dad wiggles his thick, black eyebrows at me, knowing he’s pleased me with his answer.
He makes idle chitchat with Brendan for a few minutes as they finish their beers. I sit back in my chair smiling—not adding much to the conversation—my day made and my hangover forgotten. Brendan soon says his goodbyes to both of us, reiterating to me that he’ll be here at five o'clock in three night’s time to pick me up for our dinner date.
After Brendan leaves, Benji throws himself down at the table with us. Anger clouding his features, he lets us know in no uncertain terms what he thinks about my decision to go on a date with Brendan.
“Dad, you can’t let her go out with him. He’s bad fucking news. He goes through women like you wouldn’t believe. I won’t have my sister getting humped and dumped by some farmer’s asshole kid.” Benji points at me, “You’re way too good for him, Mads.”
“Oh, shut up, Benjamin.” My blood boils at his insinuation that Brendan will be able to get me into bed after one date. I have more respect for myself than that. I hadn’t kissed anyone properly until Brendan last night—let alone slept with them—and it’d take much more than one date for me to even consider it. I’m saving myself for an all-consuming love like my parents. I don’t care if it makes me seem old fashioned or weird. And if Brendan or any other man doesn't like that, that's their problem, not mine. “I’m not a slut like you. It’s one date. It mightn’t even go any further than that. It’s my choice if it does.”
“I agree, baby girl,” Dad interrupts. His voice has dropped a notch; a sign he’s working himself into a rage at Benji for daring to question his decision. Pointing one of his sausage-like fingers in Benji’s face, he stares at him through narrowed eyes that are designed to intimidate. My twin struggles to keep from retreating, only just holding his ground in the face of Dad’s ire. If I wasn't so pissed at him, I'd be proud. Even as the mouthiest of my siblings, I still find it hard to directly question Dad. “She has a good head on her shoulders, which is more than I can say for you most of the fucking time. I’ve warned that kid that I'll fuck him up if he hurts her, and I know she’ll come to me if he fucks up in any way.”
“You’re being fucking stupid, Mads. You’re gonna get hurt,” Benji yells at me, giving up arguing with Dad. He charges inside, slamming the back door behind him.
Dad shakes his head at me in sympathy and I shrug, brushing aside Benji’s prediction.
We have no idea how right Benji will end up being.
SEIZING CONTROL, Black Shamrocks MC #1 is OUT NOW
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
First up, I have to say a HUGE thank you to Jeneane Johnston for submitting this idea to a contest that I held in my reader group. The second I read it my creative juices started flowing and they didn’t stop until the very end. Honestly, the story has had three endings, a dozen middles, and I’ve changed the beginning at least once. That’s some serious inspiration!
Secondly, my husband and kids, without whom I would be so much more efficient, but so much lonelier. Love you guys. Thanks for keeping the cups of tea coming as deadline approached, passed me by, and then approached again xx
Thirdly, thank you to the ladies in my review group. Philena, Natalie, Megan, Sarah, Tara, Bonnie, Elaine, Maria, and Jenna. You guys keep me sane. Love you all!
Fourthly, Kaye Springett. Lady, you put so much effort into sharing my books, preorders, teasers, and sales links. I can’t put into words how much I appreciate you and all that you do. Every author should have someone like you in their corner. I know I’m damn lucky to have you.
Fifthly (I’m not sure if that’s even a word, lol), I want to say thank you to Hang Le for designing the best cover in the history of covers! Seriously, I gave her next to zero direction because I never have a clue what I want and she came back with exactly what you see today. Nailed it, first go!
And, lastly (but not leastly). A humungous thank you to all of the bloggers in social media land who take it upon themselves to undertake the most thankless job of all. You guys are MY rock star’s. Without you all, my job would be so much harder and a hell of a lot less fun.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Kylie Hillman is an Australian author.
Wife to a Harley-riding, boating and fishing, four-wheel driving, underground mining, quintessential Aussie bloke.
Mum to two crazy, adorable, and original kids.
Crohn's Disease sufferer and awareness campaigner.
She’s also an avid tea drinker, a connoisseur of 80s/90s rock music, and is known for lacing everything she says with sarcasm and inappropriate innuendo.
Formerly working in finance, she was forced to re-evaluate her plans for her life when severe Crohn's Disease brought her corporate career to a screeching halt. Restarting her childhood hobbies of writing and reading to alleviate the monotony of being sick and house bound, she found her calling and is enjoying life to the max. A typical day is now spent in the “real” world where she hangs out with her awesome family and “book” world where she gets to chill with her fictional characters.
Kylie writes the books she wants to read. A lover of strong men who aren't perfect and aren't af
raid to admit it, straight talking women who embrace their vulnerabilities, and real-life gritty stories, she hopes these themes shine through her writing. An avid reader of all genres, Kylie hopes to release books that keep the reader on the edge of their seat—be it with suspense, heart-stopping thrills, or laughter.
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BLACK SHAMROCKS MC
Seizing Control (Black Shamrocks MC #1)
Soothing Suffering (Black Shamrocks MC #1.5)
Making Choices (Black Shamrocks MC #2)
Seeking Redemption (Black Shamrocks MC #3)
Conquering Circumstances (Black Shamrocks MC #3.5)
Tempting Fate (Black Shamrocks MC #4)
Finding Nirvana (Black Shamrocks MC #5)
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