“There’s so much shit out there that could have done this,” Cormac said.
“Vampire? Werewolf?”
“Maybe. But you’ve got the same problem with them—how’d they get through the locked door?”
“So what can murder someone behind a locked door? What should we be looking for?”
“Something without a body,” Cormac said. “Some kind of curse or magic. Ghost, maybe. Demon.”
He could see Olson trying to process, trying to keep an open mind, his mouth pursed against arguments. Finally he said, smiling wryly, “You’re getting into issues of physics, now. A physical action requires a physical presence. Doesn’t it?”
Cormac couldn’t tell if he was being rhetorical or asking a genuine question. “There are more things in heaven and earth,” he murmured.
“Hamlet,” said Olson. “You like to read, don’t you? You have a friend who sends you books.”
“I thought this wasn’t about me. This is about your bogeyman.”
“Do you have any ideas?”
A werewolf had transformed on live TV late last year. Congress had acknowledged the existence of vampires, werewolves, and psychics and brought them to testify in Washington. Cormac had known his whole life that these beings were real, and now the rest of the world was catching up. That didn’t stop a lot of folks from pulling the shades down. If Olson were one of those, this whole thing could be a setup. A trap. Get him in here, get him talking crazy, giving them an excuse to pin the deaths on him and lock him up good and tight. No visitors, no parole. Then he really would go crazy.
Cormac said, “Are you serious about this? Are you serious about looking for something that a lot of people don’t even believe exists?”
“I wouldn’t be asking if we had a logical, mundane explanation for what’s happening here.”
Not that Cormac had a choice but to trust him. Like so much of his life right now, the decision was out of his hands. “This place has been around a long time. Has anything like this happened here before? Rumor, ghost story, anything.”
Olson glanced away briefly, nervously. “It’s hard to tell. There’ve been so many attacks over the prison’s history—”
“But have there been any cases of somebody getting their throat cut in a locked cell?” Any sightings of a dark-haired woman in Victorian clothing?
“In fact, there have,” Olson said. “A handful over the last hundred years. But they were isolated—never more than one at a time. In every case another inmate was charged with the murder. Are you saying they may be connected?”
Cormac was both shocked and thrilled at the news—he hadn’t expected Olson to answer. This meant there was a thread tying these deaths together. Which meant there was a way to hunt the thing doing it.
This thing had been killing here a long time, but that didn’t bother Cormac. He was even a little amused—even inside prison walls where he ought to be safe, this shit just kept following him around.
“Even if you don’t know what’s doing this, you can try to protect the place. Put up crosses above the doorways, at the ends of hallways. Get a priest in to throw some holy water around, do an exorcism.”
“Seriously?” Olson said. “That works?”
“It’s not a sure thing.”
“That’s the trouble with this, isn’t it? It’s never a sure thing.”
Cormac had to grin. “That’s why it never hurts to cover all your bases.”
* * *
When he arrived at the visiting room, he saw that Kitty had joined Ben this time. The joy—or relief—at seeing them both was a physical pain, a squeezing of his heart, though he kept his face a mask. He wanted to melt into the floor, but he only slumped into his chair and picked up the phone.
“Hey,” he said, like he always did.
“Hey,” Ben said back, and Kitty smiled. They sat close together so they could hold their phone between them. Cormac had gone to live with Ben’s family after his father died, and now he was the closest thing he had to a brother. Kitty was … something else entirely. The two of them had gotten married a month or so back. Ben had sucked her into the family. She couldn’t escape now.
Kitty was cute. Really cute, and not just the way she looked with her shoulder-length blond hair, big brown eyes, and slender body. She burst with optimism, constantly chatting, always moving, and usually smiling. She and Cormac never should have met much less become friends. She represented a lot of lost chances. A lot of things he should have done, and maybe some he shouldn’t have. But he wasn’t sure he’d want to change any of it. Better to have her as a friend than not at all.
She was better off with Ben. He was man enough to admit that.
Small talk got real small when he didn’t have anything new to say. What was he supposed to tell them, when the same thing happened every day? But this week was different, and he wondered: How much should he tell them? Wasn’t like they could do anything to help.
Then Kitty mentioned her own demon, derailing the whole routine of their usual visits. It seemed she was in the middle of an adventure, and he couldn’t do a thing about it. He didn’t know whether to throttle her or laugh. He ended up just shaking his head. He’d come to her rescue, all she had to do was say the word, any time. Except for now. He hoped they didn’t get themselves killed before he could get out of here to help them. He hoped whatever was haunting this place left him alone until then.
He’d developed an inner clock—they were running out of time, and he had a bad idea.
“Can I talk to Kitty alone for a minute?” he said to Ben. Ben wouldn’t understand—he’d try to fix everything, and he couldn’t, not this time. Kitty didn’t know him well enough to be suspicious.
Ben left, not looking happy about it.
Alone now, Kitty seemed almost accusing. “What is it? What can you say to me that you can’t say to him?”
His lip curled. “You really want me to answer that?” She looked away; so did he. “I don’t want him to worry. Kitty, do you believe in ghosts?”
He liked her because nothing ever seemed to shock her. “Of course I do.”
He leaned forward. “Can you do some of that research you’re so good at?”
“Yeah, sure.”
“I need to know the names of any women who were executed here. Let’s say right around 1900, give or take a decade. And any history you can find on them.”
She narrowed her gaze, and he wondered if he’d said too much. Now they were both going to worry, because she wouldn’t keep this secret from Ben. “Are you being haunted or something?”
“I don’t know. It’s a hunch. It may be nothing.” That last was a lie.
“Is everything okay?”
He hoped she didn’t tell him to get some sleep, that she didn’t see the stress written on his face. He tried to smile, failed. “Hanging in there. Sometimes by my fingernails. But hanging in there.”
* * *
He played the visit over in his memory, like he did every time, even though he knew he shouldn’t. He made himself sick, worrying that maybe this was the last time they’d visit, maybe they’d skip next week, maybe they’d decide they didn’t need him—they wouldn’t do that, they weren’t like that. But he had a hard time not imagining it, so he dwelled, reflecting on every word they spoke, every loose strand of Kitty’s hair, just in case they didn’t come back.
Noises here echoed. The hollered complaints kept up even after lights out, and the warden and his guards couldn’t do anything about it. They’d have had to put every damn inmate into solitary. Cormac was betting that nobody even knew why they were leaning out, as far as they could, faces pressed to bars and yelling. They were scared and had to do something. Nothing was right and as far as they could tell the folks in charge weren’t doing anything about it. The idea that they didn’t know what to do was worse than the usual apathy.
Cormac could take care of any problem that bled. But this—without the help of someone like Olson or the warden, he could
n’t do anything. He lay on his bunk, staring at the ceiling, trying to block out the noise. Trying not to think too hard about what might be lurking in these walls.
* * *
No priests came in to perform an exorcism. Cormac wasn’t surprised. He made a cross of his own, borrowing scraps of pine from the wood shop and lashing them together with a shoelace, and hung it over the door of his and Frank’s cell. Things got worse.
The dream was a form of escapism, he recognized that. The images kept him from wanting to break things, and that was good. Here, he remembered being safe, when everything was right. Almost everything. Enough of it was right that he didn’t think about the rest, the vague memory of a woman who’d died when he was young. He should have loved her, but anymore she was a shadow. A face in a few old snapshots. She didn’t enter into calculations of whether he was happy. But sometimes he wondered, What if. What if she had lived. Would having a mother have kept him from all this?
He sat on a rock overlooking the stream, squinting into a searing blue sky. Crystals embedded in the granite dug into his hands. He could even smell the sunbaked pines, meadow grasses cooled by the running water, snow-touched air coming down from the peaks. If he had to pick an opposite smell from the prison, this would be it. Clean and natural instead of antiseptic and institutional. Bright instead of sheltered.
He saw the woman again. Not at all ghostly this time, she walked obliquely up the hill toward him, watching where she stepped, lifting her heavy skirt with gloved hands. Some ten paces away, she stopped, smoothed her skirt, and folded her hands before her. She had color in her cheeks and wore a gold cross on a chain. Donning a small, bemused frown, she regarded him as if she had walked a long way to get here, but hadn’t found what she expected. Her gaze was cynical.
She didn’t look like a murderer or a demon. She looked far too real to be a ghost.
They could stay here, staring at each other for hours. If this had been real, he would have asked her what she was doing here. Or she would have spoken. This was a dream, his imagination, and so they simply stared. Trouble was, he’d never have imagined anyone like her. Nothing in his conscious mind could account for her. His mother had had auburn hair, not so dark as this woman’s.
He finally asked, “Who are you?”
The woman’s frown disappeared, but her smile was not comforting. She wanted something from him.
“I should be asking you that,” she answered. She had a crisp British accent, clipping her words like she was in a hurry.
He looked to the distance. He could wait. She wouldn’t stand there staring at him forever, and he was willing to bet his stubborn would outlast hers. Then again, how long had she been lurking here?
“Why won’t you let me in?” she said next.
This was getting a little too obvious to be a stray bit of psychoanalysis bubbling up from his subconscious. He didn’t want to be talking to his subconscious, his feminine side or whatever. Or maybe he was reading too much into it. A woman he didn’t know was standing here, asking him a question that had an obvious answer. Why not just answer her? Why not treat it as real?
“I don’t know you,” he said, looking at her. “I don’t know what you want.”
“That’s wise, I suppose, and I ought to respect that. But you see, Mr. Bennett, I’ve been waiting such a long time. I need you. More than anyone I’ve met I think you’d understand that.”
For the first time, she looked uncertain, clasping her hands together, ducking her gaze. Cormac thought, It’s an act. She was trying to soften him up.
“Wrong sales pitch,” he said. “Is that what you told Moe and Brewster? Is that how you killed them?”
Clenching her hands into fists, she said, “I did not kill them. I could have saved them, if you’d only listened to me.”
He felt the thunder of a sudden storm in the core of his bones, and his skull screamed in pain. She’d done something, he hadn’t seen what. Like banging on a door—Let me in.
With the flashing light of a migraine, he jerked awake, nearly toppling out of his bunk. He sat up, clutching his sheets like they would anchor him and gasping for breath. Sweat chilled his skin.
“Jesus, fuck, what is it?” Frank, half out of his bunk, clutched the bed’s frame and looked up at him.
Cormac felt the remnant of a scream in his throat. Closing his eyes tight, he swallowed and forced his breathing to slow. Everything was fine. He wasn’t in pain. Nothing was happening. Except for that almost constant itching in his brain. He scratched his head hard, ripping at his hair. The cell block was dark, quiet.
“I don’t know,” Cormac said. “Must have been a nightmare.”
“You’re not getting killed?”
“No. Doesn’t look like it.”
“There’s no blood? Look around—you don’t see blood?”
Although he felt silly doing it, he checked himself—and was relieved when he didn’t find any blood. “I’m in one piece.”
“Jesus Christ, man, don’t ever do that again. You have another nightmare I’ll beat it out of you, understand?”
Cormac didn’t argue because he couldn’t blame him; he’d have told Frank the same thing if the roles were reversed. His cellmate was still muttering as he rolled back into bed.
Lying back, Cormac didn’t try to sleep. He stared at the ceiling, a field of thick, institutional gray paint full of cracks and shadows. How many hundreds of eyes had stared up like this over the years? What did that do to a building? Cursing himself, he looked away. That was how far gone he was, attributing malevolence to a building.
Somehow, this woman, this demon, whatever she was, had dug into his brain and found his meadow, his refuge. The chink in his armor.
She thought she could get control of him through that weakness. Fine. He just wouldn’t go there anymore.
* * *
Her overriding goal, the purpose of her being—however truncated it had become—became more imperative than ever.
She found herself in a bind she had not expected. Not that she’d even known what to expect. Hacking her way through a jungle of unknown size and density was the least of it, really. But she was hacking and had faith that if she continued long enough, she would persevere. She had lasted this long, hadn’t she? At some point, time had no meaning. Science had discovered that fossils could lie in the earth undiscovered for millions of years. So would she.
Once she found her proper vessel, though, she assumed it would simply let her in. The paradox presented itself: A mind pliant enough to recognize her and not go mad would also have the ability to resist her. A mind that recognized her would know better than to let her in. So it was with this man. The door between them remained closed, barred with iron, stubbornly locked.
How much simpler it would be if she could persuade him! She called through the door, picked at the lock, tried battering it down with her will, which was all she had left. And he resisted.
She found another entry, however—a wedge he himself provided: the meadow. A magnificent, beautiful scene she would not have thought his troubled mind capable of conjuring. He himself didn’t seem to recognize that the memory of the place was filled with sadness and regret, the safety of a world and home he believed he had lost forever.
She hadn’t been able to delve farther, to learn where this memory had come from or the circumstances that tainted the air of his refuge, that he didn’t even seem to notice or refused to acknowledge.
She must win him over. The rituals of thought had become second nature over the century. The focusing of the mind, visualizing action, making action real. When nothing was real, the world became nothing but thought. She focused on the single cell, the single bed, where a man lay and put himself to sleep with thoughts of a meadow. She became tendrils, thin lines of energy melding into the patterns of his mind. Think of the meadow, put herself there, approach the man sitting on the rock. Listen to the birds in the trees, the water of the brook tumbling over smooth stones—
But
the meadow wasn’t there anymore. It had lain so close to the surface before, almost as if he could transform this prison into his mountain vista through force of will. Now, he’d managed to lock her out.
There she was again, back at the start, battering at the door.
Oddly, she found herself admiring him.
“You can’t keep me out forever!” she shouted. “I’ll drive you mad! I’ve done it before, to men better than you!”
A smug satisfaction barred the door. The emotion roiled off him.
Time for a different approach—send a quiet thought, so quiet he would think it was his own. A bit of intuition granted from the supernatural. Surely he believed in such things.
“I can help you.” She didn’t even imagine her voice, did not give the words form. Merely let the thought linger. “I know this murderer, this demon. I have hunted it. I can help you.”
Create the thought, set it drifting, let him find it. That was all. She felt one impression out of the thought snag him: hunted.
* * *
The request for a visit surprised Cormac; this wasn’t Ben and Kitty’s day for it. He wasn’t sure this was a visiting day at all, and he didn’t need another anomaly making him twitch.
He sat, looked through the glass, and saw Detective Jessi Hardin of the Denver Police Department sitting across from him.
“Christ,” he muttered, looking away, rubbing his cheek.
“Hello,” she said. “You look terrible, if you don’t mind me saying.”
“What do you want?”
“I have to be blunt, Mr. Bennett,” she said. “I’m here looking for advice.”
Cormac had picked up some bad habits when he was young. The way he looked at cops, for example. They were the bad guys. They wanted to take your guns, they put bugs on your phones, they followed you, they worked for a government that wanted to suck you dry. They were fucking Commies—never just “Commies,” it was always “fucking Commies.” That’s what he learned from his uncle when he was a teenager. That’s what he learned from his dad, before he died.
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