‘Mr Holdsworth!’
He looked sharply at her. ‘I thought you saw him this afternoon. You knew he was in college.’
‘Yes, sir.’ Elinor recovered herself quickly, hoping her colour had not risen. ‘It was merely that I had not expected that Mr Richardson would be so indiscreet as to recruit the services of an outsider.’
The doctor gave her a quick nod. ‘You have a point, madam. Mr Richardson did not act wisely. Nevertheless, knowing that Mr Holdsworth has a special knowledge of our library and a knowledge of the book trade in general, he asked for his assistance. Mr Holdsworth was actually there when Richardson found the book in Soresby’s mattress. Which means, of course, that Lady Anne must know the full history of the affair in a day or two. Oh, Dirty Dick is as cunning as a barrowload of monkeys.’
‘And Mr Soresby? Will he be prosecuted?’
‘No, I hope to prevent that at least. It can serve no useful purpose. Even Richardson must see the harmful effect it would have on the college as a whole.’
‘So you will merely send him down?’
He twisted in the chair so he could look fully at her. ‘I – I have not yet decided the best course of action.’
Elinor stared at him. ‘But surely he must go? He cannot be allowed to take his degree.’
Dr Carbury said nothing. He scratched his forehead under the line of his wig with a long yellow dog’s claw of a fingernail.
Ben came into the room. ‘The chops is below, your honour. Would you like them downstairs or up here on a tray?’
35
When morning chapel was over, the congregation streamed through the west door, eager for breakfast and, in the case of late risers, to finish dressing. Harry Archdale hung back, sheltering under the arcade. Huddled in their gowns, the fellows and undergraduates of Jerusalem flowed round him. Umbrellas bobbed over the rain-slicked cobbles of the court. Gradually the stream of the congregation diminished to a trickle.
At last the tall figure of Tobias Soresby appeared in the chapel doorway.
‘Soresby? Have you a moment?’
The sizar avoided looking at Archdale. ‘I regret – I am pressed for time –’
‘You needn’t worry,’ Archdale said kindly. ‘I shan’t keep you long.’ He hesitated, his assurance dropping away from him. ‘How are you?’
Soresby tried to sidle past. ‘Very well, thank you.’
Archdale moved a pace to his left, blocking Soresby’s escape. ‘Was it you?’ he burst out.
For the first time Soresby looked directly at him. The sizar’s face was pale, his eyelids were red and swollen. ‘No,’ he said. ‘But what does that matter now?’
‘I daresay it will come right in the end,’ Archdale said.
Soresby shook his head. He tugged at his fingers as if trying to pull them off. A joint popped.
‘I am sure it will look very different in a day or two. Upon my word it will.’
‘Everyone knows.’
‘What?’
‘Everyone knows,’ Soresby repeated. ‘They’re all looking at me. They’re whispering about me.’
‘Nonsense. If I were in your shoes, I’d carry on as usual. Shall you go to Ricky’s lecture this morning? Or the library?’
‘Neither.’
‘Ah. I must go to the library at least. I wish to consult Maclaurin, and also Mr Dow’s little book on Euclid. If you change your mind, perhaps you –’
‘I have borrowed the Dow, Mr Archdale,’ Soresby said. ‘I have it in my chamber – I’ll return it. I’m sorry to inconvenience you in –’
‘Oh nonsense. You do not inconvenience me in the slightest. Listen, Soresby, even if it goes against you here, there must be many other means of employment for a man of your parts.’
‘It is easy for you to say that, Mr Archdale.’
‘Yes it is, but you must listen to me even so, for it’s no more than the truth. You must let me stand your friend, do you hear? I shall speak to my uncle, Sir Charles, and see if something can be done. You must not despair.’
‘You are too good, Mr Archdale,’ Soresby said, his eyes on the ground. Another joint popped. ‘And you are in the right of it – I must not despair.’ He bowed, a quick, nervous movement like a chicken pecking. ‘Much obliged, Mr Archdale, much obliged.’
Mulgrave had loosened his stock so it would not chafe his neck so badly. The two weals, one on the neck and one on the cheek, had darkened in colour overnight, and acquired a livid tinge. But he wore clean linen and had even shaved himself. The model of respectful sobriety, he stood before Holdsworth with his head slightly bowed.
‘Obliged if I could take a day’s leave of absence, sir – a bit of business that won’t wait. I’d take it very kindly.’
The request was less a request than a statement of intent: he would have his leave of absence, whether or not it was granted. The gyp was entirely within his rights, for Holdsworth had hired his services on Frank’s behalf, and it was a contract that could be broken at any time by either party.
‘It’s inconvenient, but if your business won’t wait, then you must attend to it. Perhaps, while you’re in town, you can supply the deficiencies of the larder. We are running short of tea, you said last night, and Mr Oldershaw expressed a sudden desire for strawberries as he was going to bed.’
After Mulgrave had gone, Holdsworth sat at the breakfast table with a book in his hands but he scarcely read a word. He had woken that morning with an odd notion in his mind: yesterday, he had hardly thought of either Maria or Georgie. It had been as if his wife and his infant son had never existed. He did not know whether he should feel guilty for forgetting them or merely relieved that he had briefly escaped their shadows. But he had thought of Elinor Carbury almost constantly and at times in a way that no man should think of another man’s wife; and was that not an even greater betrayal?
There were footsteps overhead, and then on the stairs. Frank passed through the parlour on his way to the pump and the privy in the yard. His feet were bare and he wore only shirt and breeches.
‘Good morning, Mr Oldershaw.’
Frank grunted, but did not return the greeting. Five minutes later, he came back inside, his hair dripping. He left a trail of wet footprints on the parlour flagstones. ‘Where’s Mulgrave?’ he demanded. ‘I want tea and toast.’
‘He asked leave to go to Cambridge on private business.’
‘And you let him? Without consulting me? That’s coming it a bit high.’
What happened next took Holdsworth completely by surprise: he lost his temper. ‘That’s because you were not there to be consulted. If you choose to stay in bed for half the morning, you can’t expect the world to stop and wait your convenience.’
Frank’s colour deepened. ‘You can’t talk to me like that – what do you mean by it?’
‘It means you’re labouring under a misapprehension. I can talk to you like that. There is nothing in the world to stop me.’
‘You’ll regret your insolence.’
‘Will I?’
‘For a start, you’ll leave my service instantly.’
Holdsworth laughed. ‘You can’t dismiss me. Her ladyship retained my services, not you.’
Frank lunged forward. Holdsworth moved before the blow landed, and the fist connected with his shoulder rather than his face. Before Frank could hit him again, he seized the boy’s wrist and twisted it. He spun Frank around and pushed him downwards, face first over the table.
‘You don’t use force with me, sir. I’m not your servant. You’re not my master.’
Frank struggled violently, hacking at Holdsworth’s shins with his bare heels. In reply, Holdsworth jerked the boy’s arm higher up his back until Frank cried out. Holdsworth shuffled his legs back, away from the flailing feet. For a moment, neither of them moved.
With one fluid movement, the ginger cat streaked into the still silence. It had been watching events from the kitchen doorway. Now, choosing to interpret them in its own way and judging its moment
had come, it leaped lightly on to the table. It miaowed. It nudged Frank’s forehead repeatedly, demanding affection from the source that experience taught was most likely to provide it. Frank shook his head, trying to repel its advances, but the cat took the movements as caresses, primitive perhaps but worthy of encouragement. It pushed the side of its head against Frank’s hair and rubbed it enthusiastically to and fro. It began to purr.
Holdsworth trembled with suppressed emotion. The laugh erupted from him in a great bellow. The cat licked Frank’s ear, as if to inspire him to further exertions. Holdsworth felt the tension ooze from Frank’s body and from his own too.
Frank joined in the laughter, so far as he could with his cheek pressed hard against the tabletop, producing a snuffling, snorting sound that made them both laugh all the more. Holdsworth released him and stood back.
The laughter died. The cat continued to purr, looking from one man to the other. Frank stood up slowly. He turned to face Holdsworth. He held out his hand.
‘I beg your pardon, sir.’
They shook hands.
Holdsworth said, ‘I do not think there is anything more I can do for you. I shall write to her ladyship and resign my position.’
‘No. I beg you not to act hastily. Do you believe I’m cured?’
‘I am not perfectly convinced you were ever mad in the first place.’
Frank sat down in the chair by the window. ‘You’re talking in riddles.’
‘It’s clear enough to me, and largely a matter of common sense. You’re not a maniac.’
‘I am obliged to you, sir. But Dr Jermyn would not agree.’
‘For all his learning, Dr Jermyn sometimes behaves like an ass. I believe you’ve been liverish, and in low spirits. I believe you received a great shock, or rather a series of them. If you saw or sensed the presence of another person in the college garden that night, it was not a ghost but someone as alive as you or I. Or perhaps what you saw was a creature of your disordered fancy – born of too much laudanum, too much wine, too much unhappiness. It doesn’t matter. The point is that you were predisposed to see your ghost, and that is where the real heart of this mystery lies. I’m persuaded that the solution to it will also reveal the reason why you do not wish to mix with the world, and why you do not wish to see your mother.’
The ginger cat leaped on to Frank’s lap. Automatically the young man began to stroke its head. The cat arched its neck and purred even more loudly than before, while its tail waved like a flag of victory.
‘You see that animal?’ Holdsworth said. ‘It interprets our actions in terms of its own wishes and fears, as is very natural. It is equally natural for us in our way to do the same. You feared to see the ghost of Mrs Whichcote in the garden, and there she was. Dr Jermyn looks for madmen for he has been trained to do so and he wishes to find them. Do they not provide him with his place in the world and a comfortable income? He interprets your ghost as a symptom of mental disturbance, whereas his father or grandfather would have seen it as a sign of demonic possession or some other supernatural interference in our mundane existence. We put the labels we choose on things, Mr Oldershaw, and for our own purposes: that is the long and the short of it.’
Frank moistened his lips. ‘And you? Is that what you do?’
‘Of course.’
‘Then it follows you may be as wrong in your conclusions as Jermyn is in his.’
‘You may be right. But the difference between us is that I gather my evidence before I construct my theory, while the doctor looks for evidence that supports his theory. In all events, it seems to me that none of us can get very far unless we know what set all this in motion.’
‘But who can tell the causes of madness?’
‘In this case, I believe you can. Leaving the question aside of whether this is truly madness or some lesser form of nervous disturbance, it is impossible for any of us to come to a rational conclusion if we do not know what happened at the meeting of the Holy Ghost Club that you attended in February, shortly before Mrs Whichcote’s death. This is the heart of it, sir, is it not? The Holy Ghost Club and the death of Mrs Whichcote. That’s why you have played host to an entire regiment of the blue devils. That’s why you made matters worse with laudanum and wine and the rest of it.’
Frank leaned forward and pushed the cat from his lap. He put his head in his hands. With his smooth skin and his fair disordered hair, he might have been a boy, no more than twelve, prey to some sorrow, or trapped in some misdemeanour. Holdsworth realized something so obvious that he could not understand why he had not seen it before: Frank’s youth had played a part in all this. For all his airs and graces, for all his wealth and position, he was no more than eighteen. He was a desirable prize, too – a boy who would have a great fortune and a great place in the world. But still a boy. He had few defences against older people who knew what they wanted and knew how to get it. He was easy meat for the likes of Philip Whichcote, Dr Jermyn and even Mr Richardson and the Carburys.
‘What happened at the meeting of the Holy Ghost Club?’
Frank did not reply.
‘Then let me hazard a conjecture or two.’
The boy did not move but his stillness seemed to intensify.
‘It seems to me that Lambourne House is a species of college and Mr Whichcote is a species of tutor,’ Holdsworth went on. ‘And the club members are in a sense his pupils. In return for your money, he teaches you the vices of a gentleman.’
Holdsworth waited, but still Frank said nothing.
‘But something out of the ordinary occurred that night. Something that drove Mrs Whichcote out of the house. Something that led to her death. I do not believe this nonsense about sleepwalking. Was she taken away? Or did she run away?’
Frank raised his head and looked at Holdsworth. He shut his eyes, as if to close out the world.
‘Tell me,’ Holdsworth said. ‘I promise it will not harm you. And it may help.’
‘It was my doing,’ Frank whispered.
‘Yours? How?’
‘It was arranged that after the club meeting I should spend the night at Lambourne House. She … came to me, in my bedchamber.’
A silence grew between them. The cat surveyed the room. After a moment’s consideration it jumped on to Holdsworth’s lap.
Frank stood up. ‘I have laid too many burdens on your shoulders already, Mr Holdsworth,’ he said, with the vertiginously lofty dignity that only a very young man can achieve. ‘I apologize. I must learn to carry a little of the load myself.’
‘Come, sir, you can’t stop now. Tell me the rest.’
‘I burned for her. I worshipped the very ground she trod on. I would have done anything for her. To my amazement, I found she returned my passion and – not to put too fine a point on it – on that very night she granted me the last favours.’
Holdsworth stroked the cat’s head. ‘And where was Mr Whichcote in all this?’
‘He was not in the house – he was escorting some of the club members back to their colleges. Most of them were in their cups and quite incapable of finding their way.’ Frank sat down again and rested his arms on the table. ‘But he came back, that was the trouble. He saw her coming out of my room, and then – well, God knows what happened. That devil Whichcote. I heard him shouting and her crying out. I think he beat her.’
And what were you doing to prevent it?
Frank blundered on, as if Holdsworth had spoken the question aloud: ‘I would have stopped him if I could but he locked me in my chamber. And then it was too late. Early in the morning we were roused by Mepal banging on the door with the news of what had happened.’ He buried his head in his arms. ‘Dear God, Sylvia was so beautiful, Mr Holdsworth, so lovely. She was all the world to me. And for her to end like that, running alone through the streets by night and drowning in a pond. Was ever anything so cruel?’
36
Adversity, like competition, brought out the best and the worst in Dr Carbury. At times, he seemed almost his ol
d, vigorous self. He bustled about the college and, as did Richardson, talked individually to most of the fellows. He announced that an extraordinary meeting of the fellowship would be held at midday tomorrow.
It would not do, he told Elinor, to let the college think he was skulking in the Master’s Lodge because his protegé had been disgraced. She watched over him anxiously, as a wife should, though she scarcely knew whether her concern was more for him or for herself.
Mr Archdale was summoned to see the Master. Elinor learned from her husband that Soresby had attended chapel as usual and had dined in hall. But the sizar sat by himself and talked to no one, and no one talked to him.
The Master’s vigour stayed with him until the middle of the evening. He returned early from supper, leaning on Ben’s arm, and had to be helped into bed. Elinor went to see him. He was exhausted and clearly in pain. But he would not allow her to send for a doctor or even for a nurse to sit up with him.
‘No, no,’ he said testily, rolling his head from side to side. ‘I shall do very well as I am, Mrs Carbury. Besides, if we send out for someone, the news will be around college in five minutes.’ He smiled grimly, wincing as he did so. ‘And Dirty Dick will start work on his eulogy of me. If he’s not written it already.’
He turned his face away and groaned. Elinor had had the apothecary make up a supply of opium pills. She took the little waxed box from her pocket, summoned Ben to help her, and persuaded her husband to take two of them. Ben raised him up and, ignoring her husband’s discomfort, she forced him to take his doses. The pills at least eased the pain, which was more than the physicians had been able to do with their diagnoses and their degrees.
Dr Carbury dozed fitfully. Elinor, Susan and Ben took it in turns to sit by the bedside. Elinor did not sleep. Throughout the night, the chimes of the college clock relentlessly announced the slow procession of quarters and hours. Day and night the chimes reminded her that she was in Jerusalem, her prison and her sanctuary.
She wondered whether she should summon another clergyman but decided against it on the grounds that it would only infuriate her husband because his true condition would then become known outside the Lodge. Also, it might make him more afraid because it would show that Elinor thought he was dying. Through the long hours, she told herself over and over again that he – and she – had grounds for hope. Her husband’s constitution was enormously strong and he had survived worse crises than this one. She did not let herself think of what would happen to her if he died. She did not let herself think of John Holdsworth.
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