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by James Herbert


  His teeth bit into her neck, making her cry out and he couldn't be sure if it was from pleasure or pain. Or both. He felt her limbs stiffening, felt her breath held, felt her silent scream, felt his muscles becoming taut, the liquid beginning to flow, seeming to draw itself from every part of his body, stretching every nerve until he thought they would tear, then the sweet ascending, the bursting through, the tightness of her inner muscles, the relaxing of nerves, the floating fall, the sighs that told him their pleasure had been shared, the sinking against her and the draining contentment.

  They held each other for a long, silent time, she softly stroking his back, he with his head tucked into her hair that flowed across the pillow.

  ‘You weren't,’ she said finally.

  He raised his head slightly. ‘Huh?’ he murmured.

  ‘A disappointment.’

  He grinned and allowed his head to slump back into her hair.

  Twisting his body, Pender withdrew from her and slid an arm beneath her neck. He pulled her close, kissing her cheek, then her lips. Both felt at peace, the traumas of the last few days laid aside for the moment.

  After a while, Jenny said, ‘I wish we never had to go back.’

  ‘It will be all over soon.’

  ‘It never will be for me. Not now. I thought I'd find something here some respite. It's been shattered in a way I never dreamed of.’

  ‘Respite from what?’

  She turned her head away from him and became quiet. Pender touched her chin with his hand and drew her face back towards him.

  ‘Tell me, Jenny.’

  She searched his eyes for several moments before speaking.

  ‘Coming to the Centre was a kind of retreat for me. I suppose I wanted to get away from life for a while. I thought living there, working with children, helping them understand the simple way of nature would un complicate my own life. It hasn't really worked.’

  ‘What were you running away from?’

  The obvious; I think you can guess. The ironic part is that I promised myself I'd never get involved with a married man.

  My father left us years ago under those circumstances. We never even knew he was unhappy until the day he told us he was leaving. I'd always taken his love, his being there, for granted; I think my mother had too. To have that security taken away so suddenly and irrevocably was shattering. I watched what it did to my mother, how it changed her, the bitterness it left in her, and it frightened me. Sixteen years of marriage wiped out as though it had been a trivial affair.

  ‘I still saw my father, I still loved him. But the change was in him. It was as though his guilt was tearing him up inside - and the full realisation of that guilt was when he was with me. I suppose in the end it made us both uncomfortable. We don't see too much of each other now.’

  Jenny's voice had become distant and Pender turned on his side, pulling her even closer. He was surprised to see there was no emotion in her eyes, just a dull flatness, as though emotions had long since been cried out.

  ‘At fifteen I vowed I would never be like the woman that had caused such grief. God, how I hated that bitch. And then, five years later, I was that woman. Can you explain it, Luke? How can you become the very thing you loathe?’

  She looked at him as though he really might provide her with an answer, but he shook his head. Things just happen, Jenny.

  You can't always control them.’

  ‘I tried, oh, how I tried; but he meant too much to me. I just couldn't stop myself, Luke, even though I hated what I was doing. Please try to understand.’

  Her body trembled as she closed her eyes, and he could see the moistness creeping through the lashes.

  ‘Jenny, Jenny, you don't have to explain anything. That was in your past; it had nothing to do with me.’ But it hurt, just the same.

  ‘I want you to know, Luke. Like I said, no games between us.’ She kissed him, her eyes opening, allowing tiny rivulets to run from each corner. ‘He was the one that ended it and I guess I didn't put up too much of a struggle. I wanted him more than I could ever say, but I couldn't let myself beg; I couldn't fully become the woman I detested. I'm over him now, Luke, please believe that. I still ... respect him; I still even like him. But the love has gone.’ She stared at the ceiling for a few moments. ‘I just drifted for a while after we broke up, then, when the opportunity came to join the Conservation Centre, I jumped at it. It seemed better than joining a convent.’

  He smiled at her attempt to make light of it. ‘And then you met Vic Whittaker,’ he said.

  ‘I told you, there's nothing between us. He's a nice man, and interesting, but I only ever wanted to share the work with him, nothing else.’

  ‘I'm glad, Jenny.’

  Her head buried itself into his chest, her arms encircling him.

  ‘And I'm glad you came to the Centre. It's another irony - that something so horrible should bring you there - but I'm almost pleased the rats invaded the forest. Luke, don't get me wrong, I'm not putting any responsibility on you; but I feel alive again.

  The past may not be dead, but it's faded into another time. All I ask is that you be honest with me.’

  He pressed against her, his leg going between her thighs, and they held on to each other, the touch of their bodies an assur-ance in itself.

  ‘It would be easy for me to say so much to you now,’ he whispered, 'but give me a little time. Let me finish this job first. I have to be sure they're really gone.’

  ‘You really hate them that much, Luke?’

  ‘So much, I thought at one time I'd never have room for any other true feelings. You're breaking it down, Jenny, and I can't let you. Not until it's over.’ And then he told her why he despised the vermin, how his mother and father, his younger brother, had been slaughtered by them four years before, their bodies devoured, leaving hardly enough to bury. How he had pleaded with Howard to give him a job so he could fight all vermin - not just the mutants - to ensure that a disaster of that nature could never happen again.

  Jenny cried as he spoke, feeling pity for him and a sad joy that he was speaking to her of things he had kept buried for such a long time. When he had finished, she held him till his body had lost its rigidity, had become relaxed, the tenseness gone. And he knew he loved her then, yet he could not allow himself to say it, fearing that with no barrier left between them, he would not have the courage to face what was still left to be done, knowing she would try to stop him.

  It was only later, when he lay stretched out on the bed and she knelt next to him applying ointment to his injuries that he told her of the task he had been asked to perform within the next few days. Her hand stopped its soothing motion and she looked down at him in dismay.

  ‘But surely there's no need?’ she said ‘Surely they can just clear out the sewers with machinery? Why, Luke? Why do you have to go in there first?’

  They want me to look for something . . . I can't tell you what.

  I have to search the sewers before anyone else is allowed in. I won't be alone - Captain Mather will be with me - and there shouldn't be any more danger.’

  ‘How can you be sure? How can anyone be sure of anything with these monsters?’

  It was a question he had asked himself many times that evening.

  They entered the sewers wearing breathing apparatus, the stench of the rotting corpses wafting up from the opened man-hole cover and sending their unmasked helpers reeling back.

  Pender and Captain Mather climbed down the metal ladder into the darkness below, both men fighting against their natural fear, expecting to hear the scurrying of clawed feet and squealing shrieks at any moment. They had waited three days before the final decision to go in was made; three days of pumping in more cyanide, listening for sounds through their receivers, praying it really was the end of the vermin menace. No signs of the creatures had been found above ground, but the soldiers and the operatives were still wary, their eyes continually looking around, searching the trees, the undergrowth, never venturing
into the forest alone or unprotected. Those gathered near that particular sewer entrance on the third day after the initial gassing did not envy the two men now descending into the infested labyrinth. The residue of lingering gas had been suc-tioned clear by the very machines that had pumped it in, but the thought of wading through the piled-up, decomposing bodies sent shudders through them. The soldiers were relieved that only two men were going down on the first reconnaissance mission, none of them keen to be part of a spearhead.

  Both Pender's and Captain Mather's limbs were still stiff from the bruising their bodies had taken in the rat attack and they found their descent awkward, the protective suits and oxygen cylinders on their backs impeding their movements even further. Pender stood at the bottom of the ladder and swung the powerful torch he was carrying in a wide arc. A feeling of revulsion swept over him when he saw the heaped bodies, many with bloated stomachs, the result of a build-up of internal gases, others with jaws wide in silent agony, their legs extended stiffly into the air, their skin flaking and rotting. Mather joined him and regarded the nightmare scene with equal disdain, sweeping his torchlight into both directions of the tunnel.

  He shone the torch on the boldly drawn map of the sewer network and a gloved finger pointed to their location. He then indicated the direction they had already agreed upon and Pender gave an exaggerated nod. The ratcatcher moved off, Mather following close behind.

  Two hours passed, then three. The men gathered around the point of entry began to grow anxious. They knew the two men had a wide circuit to cover, their route eventually leading them back to the starting point, but it was nerve-wracking to stand by completely inactive. Mike Lehmann and Stephen Howard eyed each other nervously. Antony Thornton was, at that moment, reporting personally to the Prime Minister and his Inner Cabinet, assuring them in soothing tones that all was well in Epping Forest, and the situation was under complete control.

  Jenny Hanmer sat alone in her room at the Conservation Centre and stared at the window. The curtains were drawn together.

  Another hour passed.

  Mike Lehmann tucked his wristwatch back inside his sleeve and pulled the thick glove back on. He turned to the research director. ‘I want to go down there with some men,’ he said firmly.

  ‘Not just yet, Mike,’ Howard replied. ‘Give them time. They've got a lot of ground to cover.’

  ‘They've had time enough. I'm going.’ He reached for the helmet lying at his feet.

  ‘You know you can't take any soldiers down there just yet!’

  Howard snapped. ‘We agreed with Thornton.’

  ‘To hell with Thornton! Luke may be in trouble.’

  ‘Keep your voice down, Mike. Listen, if he . . .’

  ‘They're coming up!’

  Both men wheeled around at the sound of the soldier's voice and looked towards the opening to the sewer. The soldier who had called out, his mouth and nose now covered with a hand-kerchief, was reaching down with one hand into the hole. An arm appeared over the edge of the opening, then a helmet and shoulders. The figure clambered through followed by another and a cheer rang out among the relieved soldiers. The first figure stood erect and the hands pulled at his helmet, then pulled away the oxygen mask. The only expression on Pender's face was one of weariness.

  He spotted Lehmann and Howard and began walking towards them, his strides heavy, awkward. They saw his face was shining with perspiration and steam from his mouth escaped into the cold air in swirling billows. He stopped before them, dropping the torch and helmet onto the grass, and looked at each man in turn.

  He shook his head. ‘Nothing,’ he said.

  Seventeen

  Charles Denison smiled to himself as he steered the Land-Rover along the rutted track. It was over. His forest was free.

  He looked out at the bright sky. Even the weather seemed to acknowledge that all was well. The sun had shone brightly, like an omen, since the sewers had been cleared of dead vermin two weeks before. There was a clean dryness in the air, the brown-gold leaves crisp and brittle on the ground, shattering underfoot into flaky powder, ready to replenish the soil. The animals were more in evidence now, venturing forth from their habitats, still cautious, but becoming bolder by the day. The troop activity had probably frightened them more than anything else, the heavy tanks and army vehicles lumbering through their domain like great metal prehistoric monsters. The constant drone of helicopters searching overhead had not helped, either. The main force was gone now, leaving behind a sufficient number to patrol the woodland, but not enough to intrude unpleasantly on the life there. The residents would be allowed to return soon

  - perhaps in two or three weeks' time when every building, every cellar, had been thoroughly scoured. It had been a mam-moth job, for there were more homes and deserted buildings on the vast woodland estate than people realised, but it had been carried out with typical military efficiency. Just a few more and the task would be complete.

  Of course, anyone entering the forest still had to wear the damned uncomfortable protective suits, but everyone knew they were now just an unnecessary precaution. The soldiers had complained at first because they had not been kitted out with the silvery clothing there simply had not been enough to go round but now they laughed at their companions in house-searching parties who had to wear them. Everyone had relaxed.

  Except Whitney-Evans. His concern was now of a different nature.

  It looked as if Epping Forest might lose its financial independence. The extermination exercise had cost more than the City coffers could afford at that time and the Greater London Council had rubbed their hands in glee at the prospect of becoming joint owners of the green belt area. The battle was on: Whitney-Evans and his City friends were endeavouring to sue the government of the day for the disaster. The local authorities who each owned a slice of the green lands around Epping Forest were screaming for tighter controls in the area, demanding that the government itself should take total responsibility for the woodland's upkeep, and the GLC were claiming that the forest was a natural extension of London itself, therefore it should come under their jurisdiction. The clamour from the public over the scare they had received and, of course, the many deaths that had occurred was being nicely stirred by the main opposing political party, with the smaller antagonists jumping up and biting the government's ankles with furious relish. The media had had a field day, dreaming up a new title for the circulation-stimulating event, their elected title following aptly on the heels of The Outbreak': they called it The Outrage'.

  Denison slowed the Land-Rover as a squirrel hopped on to the track ahead, cocked its head at his approach, and darted back into cover.

  ‘You're one vermin I don't mind any more!’ Denison called out, chuckling to himself. The vehicle gathered speed and the head keeper began to hum a tune to himself, happy to be carrying out his normal duties in the almost deserted forest. It would be a long time before the day-trippers returned and the thought made him even happier. It also warmed him a little to think of the insufferably pompous Whitney-Evans squirming under the sudden pressures inflicted upon him. The man undoubtedly loved the Epping Forest, but he had a tendency to regard it as his own domain, his own back garden, and all those employed in its care as his personal gardeners. Denison hoped fervently that the City would retain control of the woodland, but had to smile at the upset now taking place.

  He brought the Land-Rover to a halt before a large gate, the entrance to a six-acre enclosure in which the forest deer were kept. They had been herded together and brought here for their own protection years before, because their numbers had de-pleted rapidly through cars and lorries knocking them down when they wandered across the many roads running through the woodland. Dogs had also been a menace to them, chasing them, savaging their young. They had sustained injuries on fencings, cut themselves on broken glass and choked on plastic bags left by tourists. The occasional poacher had left his mark, too. It was decided that if the deer population were to survive, it could only do so i
n the safety of a reserve. One of Denison's biggest fears during the rodent invasion was that the deer would be attacked. He had begged for a guard, or at least a patrol, to cover the perimeter, and the army had complied with his wishes until the threat was over. Of all the forest wildlife, he loved these gentle, skittish creatures most.

  He pulled the gate open wide, climbed back into the Land Rover, and drove through. He left the engine idling while he closed the gate again. There were no deer immediately in evidence, but that wasn't unusual: they were shy creatures. He drove around the perimeter, checking for breaks in the fencing, ensuring there were no deer strung halfway over the boundary, their efforts to wander free foiled by their inability to clear the wire.

  He sensed the presence of the bodies before he saw them.

  They were scattered over a wide area as though their panic had made them flee in different directions. They lay motionless in the grass, bloody, half-eaten carcasses. He jumped from the Land-Rover, leaving behind the two-way radio that had now become standard equipment, and stumbled towards them, shaking his head as he went, his cheeks glistening wetly. Five, six, seven, more. Nine in all. Oh God, no. Another, a hundred yards away. One by the fence, another . . . He stared at the slumped form, unsure, too much blood to be certain, but the unstained areas light in colour . . .

  He moved closer to the particular animal, his grief making him oblivious to any danger that might still be lurking in the vicinity. As he drew nearer, he became more certain. And as he stood above the ravaged body, a raw, gaping hole in its skull beneath the antlers, the blood still viscous as though death had been recent, he knew from what was left untouched of the light, fawn-covered coating, that the rats had slaughtered the white deer.

  Whittaker swung the rusted iron gates wide and Pender drove the Audi through. He waited for the senior tutor to close the gates again and stared through his windscreen at the long, straight road ahead, the forest of pine trees providing a high, green wall on either side. In the distance he could just make out the sombre, square shape of Seymour Hall, its chimney stacks a dark silhouette against the clear sky.

 

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