by Adam Hall
The glow of the derrick bases flared softly for two or three minutes on the surface and then dimmed out as I arched my back slightly and brought my head down, diving to twenty feet on the gauge. I was assuming there were look-outs and the air tanks on my back could pick up scattered light. It was almost totally dark at this depth and I stopped kicking and drifted, using my free hand to bring me more or less upright. My eyes had been used to the moonglow for some time now, and the flare pilot and then the white reflected light from the derricks had closed the irises to something like half their original diameter, and I needed time to accommodate. The trellis pattern of the rig was very faint now, although I was closer, and the sea was a dark wall around me.
Silence.
Then the long-drawn sound of my inhalation, hollow and strange, as if I could hear only the echo, and not the sound itself. Silence again and then the bubbling as my breath rose from behind me and floated above my head. At each interval between inhalation and exhalation the silence was total.
Slight stress beginning because of this, and because of the dim light. The onset of disorientation: normal but uncomfortable. The organism was starting to ask where it was, what it was doing here where it couldn't see things very well, couldn't hear things. To be ignored, or better still contained. Keep still and keep quiet, listen to what you can: the sound of your own life-giving breath. Look at what you can: the faint pattern of the girders, and above them the square configuration of the superstructure, delineated by the night glow of the sky, and the diaphanous cloud of debris drifting past as the current flowed from the south.
Breathe. See. Hear. All is normal. Relax.
The nylon cord tugged slightly as the current moved the reserve tanks, turning me gently round. With one hand I spun myself slowly back, to keep the girders in sight. They were becoming clearer, darker against the sands beyond, except where the cloud floated, moving nearer against my faceplate, and lower. Its edge was blotting out part of the girders, as if it were opaque, and becoming larger. One of the background girders ran straight upwards from it, thin and perpendicular, and I looked down to follow it, then up again to watch the cloud itself. Its configuration had altered suddenly, and protrusions appeared, perfectly equidistant; and as it bumped against me I put my free hand out to push it away, but it wasn't easy because it was a cable above it, not a girder in the background, and these protrusions bumping against me in the current were detonation horns.
The shock was explosive because the nerves were being hit by imagination as well as fact and in an effort to keep me alive the imagination was picturing for me what would happen if I touched that thing again and for an instant I saw the blinding light and felt the tearing apart of life in the roaring waters and then the inrush of eternal dark.
Christ sake stick to the facts and think, try to think, get back to where you were a second ago, the bloody thing hasn't gone off and you're still alive so do something to stay that way. It could have blown us right — shuddup you snivelling little tick — you'll never see Moira again if it — get out of my head, it didn't go off and we're just the same as we were before but we have to think.
There wouldn't just be this one.
It drifted away a little on the current and then came back, tethered by the thin steel cable. I moved away slowly, fanning the water with both hands, retreating from it but not too far.
They wouldn't have put just this one here. There wouldn't be any point. I was in a minefield.
Fanning with my hands, keeping upright, maintaining the organism in the vertical attitude it was used to, so that it could operate without too much stress. But more data was being rammed into the brain. A whole mass of it to do with my hands, information about my hands, information and questions, why were they both free, my hands, where had the -
I don't know.
Turn. Spin slowly and mind the air tanks because if they hit that — take care, take normal care, if it was a beach ball the tanks would never hit it, it's only because it's full of TNT that you think they might, relax. Turn slowly and look, look everywhere. It can't have drifted far.
Instinct is devoted almost totally to keeping us alive and it functions at nerve speed and it doesn't even refer to higher authority: it doesn't waste time asking the brain what to do. It acts. It short-circuits the normal system that processes the data and presents it for decision-making and signals the motor nerves and contracts the muscles. It doesn't demand cerebration because that would slow the action. And it can't think for itself: it thinks as much as a gun thinks after the trigger's been pulled. If it sees a spark coming it shuts your eyes and if it sees a snake it stops you dead in your tracks and if it sees a high-explosive mine it frees your hands and drives them flat against the water to push you away and that was why I'd lost my hold on the nylon cord and that was why the reserve tanks and the radio and the rations were drifting somewhere in the gloom where I couldn't see them.
Where I had to see them.
But it was getting darker.
Water pressure felt the same but I could be mistaken because in these conditions of dim light and silence and weightlessness the threshold of disorientation was low and if I couldn't maintain psychic stability the senses would have to start struggling to bring in the data and if I missed any data it could be fatal. I wanted to check the depth gauge but the idea of moving my arm, of moving anything at all, was unnerving: but it was the only way to find out if I was sinking imperceptibly to the sea bed and increasing darkness.
I kept my arm to my side, bringing it up by the shortest path until my wrist was in front of the faceplate and I was peering at the gauge like a man going blind. No information. The luminous dial had lost its brightness and the light around me wasn't enough to pick out the shape of the needle. I tilted my head by degrees, moving slowly, the sensory nerves of my skin beneath the rubber suit alerted for tactile signals. Above me it was less dark: a greyness was diffusing the faint light from around the platform of the rig. So I wasn't sinking and they hadn't doused their lights and there was nothing in the water to cloud my vision. I'd been sweating, that was all.
The shock had raised the blood heat and brought the sweat out and the faceplate had misted over and in normal conditions I'd have known what was happening but in these conditions it had taken a lot of finding out and the idea wasn't pleasant because if a diver doesn't know when his faceplate's misted over he's pretty far gone.
Christ sake relax. Take the bloody thing off and wipe it and put it back and do something about that stuff drifting around.
Or do nothing.
Mental blocks were getting in the way of rational thought because the organism was still frightened: not about what would have happened if I'd hit that thing with one of the heavy metal air tanks instead of my chest, but about what might happen if I went after the reserve tanks and came on them just as they reached a mine.
I took off the faceplate and put it back and blew out through the nose. It wouldn't stay clear for long but I didn't want to surface yet and use saliva. A decision had to be made and the whole of the mission would depend on it: I was going to look for that equipment and try to find it before it struck a mine or I was going to get out.
All decisions are subject to chance and chance is incalculable. You can only predict likelihood and I thought it was likely that the reserve tanks would hit a mine if they went on drifting with the current. If they hit a mine there would be debris on the surface and the crew of the rig would see it and examine it and fit the clues together: a buckled radio component caught in the remains of a waterproof bag, an air pocket bringing it to the surface; a carton of protein concentrate, some biscuits still in their waxed paper. They'd know how close we were getting and they'd double the guard on Tewson or fly him out. Either way, Mandarin was blown.
But I'd be alive. The island of Heng-kang Chou was two miles away and I could get there underwater with the air I had left in the tanks. The break-off rendezvous for this access phase was twenty-four hours from the commencement o
f solo operations by the executive in the target zone: 01.29 hours today when I'd left Swordfish. Location was Heng-kang Chou Island, rotating quarter zones as per standard practice for this topographical situation: the north shore if I could find caves or some other refuge, east shore if there was nothing available in the north, south shore if both were blank, so forth. Life support was no problem in terms of food and water: thirst would develop but that would be containable for the short period involved. I'd be in good condition when Ferris picked me up.
Mission aborted: executive withdrawn.
Because it'd be no good sending in the reserve: there'd be nothing for him to do. George Henry Tewson would be somewhere in the three-and-a-half million square miles of the Chinese mainland. Reserve recalled. And close the file on Mandarin.
Egerton wouldn't like it.
He works for the good of the cause. They all have their different motivations, the London Controls. Loman's working for a knighthood and he doesn't give a damn for his ferrets: look at what the bastard wanted me to do in Tunisia — blow myself up. Parkis is working for some grand and distant checkmate when the board is cleared of the pawns and in the meantime he moves us around and he doesn't care whether we live or die so long as we block the knights and the rooks while he plans his strategies. But Egerton works for Queen and Country and his morality is First World War, with tattered banners and muted bugles and the Greatest Game of them all to win, except for one thing: he won't send you over the top without a chance. As Ferris had put it to me on board the August Moon: 'the Egg doesn't care at all for sending people on suicide stunts.'
The alternative to getting out was going in.
Egerton wouldn't like that either.
But he'd never know, because there's always a phase in the mission when you're suddenly and critically in need of Control direction on a major issue and can't get it or don't want to. There's nothing London can do about it. They can plan the whole operation from initial briefing and access down to the final support liaison that's designed to get the executive into the target zone and out again with a clear exit path and a whole skin and the merchandise they're buying with what they pay him to do it. But you can't always stick to the blueprint and unless you're lucky you're going to find yourself cut off in a red sector one fine day with the access blocked or the radio jammed or someone treading all over your face because you opened the wrong door and then you're going to want field direction or something from Control and you're not going to get it.
They can bust a gut designing a set-up that'll get you past all the pins without flashing a light but there's nearly always a time when you've got to go it alone. We know that. It's why we're in this thing, most of us: the ferrets have got their motivations too. We don't go looking for trouble but if we get it we think we can deal with it and that's when we try very hard because if we fail we're going to have to live with ourselves forever afterwards and that's tough because we're vain.
So when we get close to the edge we don't go back: we look over. It's just another way of getting rid of infantile aggression and if you don't like it you can do the other thing.
There wasn't any real problem. If I let that stuff go on drifting it'd either blow a mine or move free and wallow around in daylight tomorrow and attract attention and if either of those things happened it'd finish the mission and that wasn't the object of what I was doing here. I was here to complete Mandarin according to plan. It didn't look as if I had a chance in hell of coming out alive but that wasn't a reason for not going in at all: it was gut-think.
Immediately around me was an area of dim light and beyond it was a soft gathering wall of dark and somewhere on the other side that stuff was drifting in the current: two steel cylinders, each of them charged at a pressure of two thousand pounds a square inch and capable of smashing through the wall of a building and flying three streets away and going through the side of a bus and that was just if the valve broke. They could do better than that if they went the wrong way through a minefield.
The one factor that had any value for me was that of time: the longer that stuff went on drifting the less chance I'd have of finding it before it hit one of those bloody things and blew the sea apart. So I thought I'd better start now.
Chapter Thirteen: DIRECTIVE
The water was grey-green, growing lighter and darker as I rose and fell, gliding through the grey-green world, going my way in silence.
Three minutes.
They drifted past me in the shifting light and shadow, their steel spheres glowing as they caught a gleam of light from above, their copper horns thrust outwards from them, naked and quiet.
Two minutes.
I threaded my way between the cables, sinuous and slow and taking care. Nothing lived here and nothing moved except this black rubber creature as it passed through the cloudy avenues of spheres, but a presence was here, of a kind so different from my own that I felt its hostility: the blind trapped presence of a thing unborn, a thing that once free would hurl the sea apart. I made my slow way through it.
One minute.
Sometimes a bubble rose from the sea bed, turning dull silver and then shimmering past my face, vanishing above me. One of them passed close to a mine not far from where I moved: it touched and broke against the tip of a copper horn and for an instant sent me mad as the firestorm roared raging through my head. Then it was over: the sound died away and the seas subsided and hollowed echoes of my breathing slowed again. The potential packed inside these deadly fingers had grown too much on my mind and I wanted nothing to touch them: not even a bubble.
Zero.
02.30.
Break-off point. I'd been searching for half an hour and hadn't seen anything and this was the time when I must break off and let the stuff go on drifting. Beyond this limit I'd start using the air that was reserved for taking me as far as Heng-kang Chou if I had to get out of the target zone and go to ground. I'd covered most of the minefield and drawn blank: in daylight I would have seen the loose gear long before this but I'd been working in near darkness and without a hope of using the lamp because the mines were cabled on outriggers below the surface, well clear of the rig's substructure, and if there were look-outs posted on deck they'd pick up the glow of the light.
Twice I'd doubled back on my tracks without knowing it until I'd seen the faint image of a pontoon leg on the wrong side, a hundred feet below, and realized I must have turned too far where the mines made a right angle. Once I'd wasted time going down to fifty feet, seeing a patch of shadow that had turned out to be a mass of drifting weed.
I turned obliquely and dived in a long curve, coming up inside the minefield and heading for the great trellis of girders, hearing the sound when I was almost halfway across the open space. It was the sound of a ship's bell, cracked and muted, its rhythm irregular. In five minutes I had the direction worked out, turning full circle to orientate aurally and then moving across the slow southerly current and through the network of girders to the far side, reaching the minefield again.
I didn't have to search far, once I'd got there. The stuff was looming in front of my faceplate, stationary except for the slight tug of the current. The nylon cord had fouled one of the cables and was wrapped around it, and the sound of the ship's bell was being set up by the valve of one of the reserve tanks as it kept hitting against the mine.
I stood off, watching it, my hands fanning gently to keep me upright. The waterproof bag containing the radio and the rations was creating resistance against the current: part of it had caught around the cable, leaving one of the tanks to swing against the mine. It wasn't any good trying to make an estimate and work on its findings because there were too many unknown factors but it didn't look as though I had long because the shoulder of the cylinder was nudging one of the detonation horns and it was a strictly shut-ended situation so I kicked with the fins and moved in, freeing the cord first and then working higher up, keeping my head back and the faceplate clear of the horns as I pulled the reserve tank clear. It
wasn't easy because the mine was fixed to its cable with a turnbuckle and cotter pin and the pin kept catching against the valve-guard.
Normal thought process had ceded to a form of specialized attention: the conscious field had narrowed to contain only the essentials I needed to work with — the shape and size of the valve-guard and the cotter pin and the horn of the mine, the angles and direction in which the manipulation had to proceed, the forces against it and the means of combating them. But somewhere in my head there was panic trying to get loose, like an area of pain the anaesthetic hasn't quite reached.
Ignore.
This thing wasn't long out of the armament factory: the steel had a satin sheen and the copper of the horn was catching the glow of the flare pilot burning above the rig. The cotter pin was bright and a blob of grease still clung to the thread of the turnbuckle. There were Roman characters indented around the rim of the mine itself: they weren't clear in this light but it looked like Hitachi, Japan.
The valve-guard came free and I backed off, bringing the gear with me. The time was 02.51 and I was alive and the mission was still running.
Just after 03.15 I went aboard the rig.
The storm-wave height of the lower deck was fifty feet, leaving a gap between the deck and the surface of the sea; but in this area it was almost dark and the girders gave a network of cover. I left all four tanks and the rest of the scuba gear lashed to a girder below surface and climbed one of the iron ladders. I didn't expect to find look-outs on this first deck: they'd be surveying the open sea beyond the limits of the minefield. There was a radial series of catwalks and I took one of them as far as the central ladder that served the drilling complex, going up again and reaching the top deck.
