“All right,” said Haendl, stroking the stock. “You’ve seen the works, Tropile. You’ve lived thirty years with Sheep; you’ve seen what they have and what we have; I don’t have to ask you to make a choice. I know what you choose. The only thing left is to tell you what we want from you.”
A faint pulsing began inside of Glenn Tropile. “I expected we’d be getting to that.”
“Why not? We’re not Sheep. We don’t act that way. Quid pro quo. Remember that, it saves time. You’ve seen the quid. Now we come to the quo.” He leaned forward. “Tropile, what do you know about the Pyramids?”
“Nothing,” Tropile said promptly.
Haendl nodded. “Right. They’re all around us and our lives are beggared because of them. And we don’t even know why. We don’t know what they are. Did you know that one of the Sheep was Translated in Wheeling when you left?”
“Translated?” Tropile listened with his mouth open while Haendl told him about what had happened to Citizen Boyne. “So he didn’t make the Donation after all,” he said.
“Might have been better if he had,” said Haendl. “We don’t know. Still, it gave you a chance to get away. We had heard—never mind how just yet—that Wheeling’d caught itself a Wolf, so we came after you. But you were already gone.”
Tropile said, faintly annoyed: “You were damn near too late.”
“Oh, no, Tropile. We’re never too late. If you don’t have enough gumption to get away from Sheep, you’re no Wolf; simple as that. But there’s this Translation; we know it happens; but we don’t even know what it is. All we know, people disappear. There’s a new sun in the sky every five years or so. Who makes it? The Pyramids. How? We don’t know that. Sometimes something floats around in the air, and we call it an Eye. It has something to do with Translation, something to do with the Pyramids. What? We don’t know that.”
“We don’t know much of anything,” interrupted Tropile, trying to hurry him along.
“Not about the Pyramids, no.” Haendl shook his head. “Hardly anyone has ever seen one, for that matter.”
“Hardly—You mean, you have?”
“Oh, yes. There’s a Pyramid on Mount Everest, you know. That’s not just a story, it’s true, I’ve been there, and it’s there. At least, it was there five years ago, right after the last Sun Re-creation. I guess it hasn’t moved. It just sits there.”
Tropile listened, marveling. To have seen a real Pyramid! Almost he had thought of them as legends, contrived to account for such established physical facts as the Eyes and Translations, as children account for gifts at Ecksmass with Kringle-San. But this incredible man had seen it!
“Somebody dropped a H-bomb on it, way back,” Haendl went on, “and the only thing that happened is that now the North Col is a crater. You can’t move it. You can’t hurt it. But it’s alive. It has been there, alive, for a couple of hundred years; and that’s about all we know about the Pyramids. Right?”
“Right.”
Haendl stood up. “Tropile, that’s what all of this is all about!” He gestured around him. “Guns, tanks, airplanes—we want to know more! We’re going to find out more, and then we’re going to fight.”
There was a jarring note, and Tropile caught at it, sniffing the air. Somehow—perhaps it was his sub-adrenals that told him—this very positive, very self-willed man was just the slightest bit unsure of himself. But Haendl swept on and Tropile for a moment forgot to be alert.
“We had a party up Mount Everest five years ago,” he was saying. “We didn’t find out a thing. Five years before that, and five years before that—every time there’s a new sun, while it is still warm enough to give a party a chance to climb up the sides, we send a team up there. It’s a rough job. We give it to the new boys, Tropile. Like you.”
There it was. He was being invited to attack a Pyramid.
Tropile hesitated, delicately balanced, trying to get the feel of this negotiation. This was Wolf against Wolf; it was hard. There had to be an advantage—
“There is an advantage,” Haendl said aloud.
Tropile jumped, but then he remembered: Wolf against Wolf. Haendl went on: “What you get out of it is your life, in the first place. You understand you can’t get out now. We don’t want Sheep meddling around. And in the second place, there’s a considerable hope of gain.” He stared at Tropile with a dreamer’s eyes. “We don’t send parties up there for nothing, you know. We want to get something out of it. What we want is the earth.”
“The earth?” It reeked of madness; but this man wasn’t mad.
“Some day, Tropile, it’s going to be us against them. Never mind the Sheep, they don’t count. It’s going to be Pyramids and Wolves, and the Pyramids won’t win. And then—”
It was enough to curdle the blood. This man was proposing to fight, and against the invulnerable, the almost godlike Pyramids, at that!
But he was glowing, and the fever was contagious. Tropile felt his own blood begin to pound. Haendl hadn’t finished his “and then—”, but he didn’t have to. The “and then” was obvious: And then the world takes up again from the day the wandering planet first came into view. And then we, somehow, learn how to drive this old planet right back to its own solar system. And then we put an end to the five-year cycle of frost and hunger. And then—
And then the world would be worth living in again, and it would be Wolves who would rule it.
“By God, Haendl,” cried Glenn Tropile, “I believe it can happen!”
Haendl merely smiled and nodded.
“I’ll do it!” Tropile amplified. He raced on, “Let’s see, every new expedition to Mount Everest tries some new weapon against the Pyramid, right? Okay. What’s left? We know nukes won’t work. I suppose if that’s true then no chemical explosion could do any damage to it. What about acids? Subsonic vibrations? What about, I don’t know, some kind of germ warfare? I can see that I’ll want to talk to the people who have been on the previous expeditions right away—”
He stopped in midflight. The smile on Haendl’s face had taken on a disturbingly lacquered appearance, as though the man were trying to preserve it. The voice was overhearty, too: “I’ll get you all the transcripts of their radio reports, Tropile.”
Tropile studied him carefully for a moment. When he spoke his voice was quite calm. “Which means, I guess,” he said, “that none of those people got back alive to talk to, right? But you said you’d actually seen the Pyramid yourself.”
“Well, I did!” said Haendl, and then added lamely, “Through a telescope, from the five-thousand-foot base camp.”
“I see,” said Tropile mildly.
Then he laughed.
What difference did it make, anyway? If this whole enterprise was really all very silly, it was also, at least, a new kind of thing to think about. Its promises might be false. But they also might not be—or it might be possible to find something real amid all the dreamy hopes and self-deceptions. Glenn Tropile was Wolf. He would do his best to find a way of getting an advantage in any circumstances. If one thing failed he would try another, and this was something new to try.
Besides, it was the only game in town.
Tropile grinned at Haendl. “You can put away the gun, friend. You’ve signed me up.”
7
The year began again, a year that ran for one thousand, eight hundred and twenty-five days on the calendar, for forty-three thousand and eight hundred hours on the clock. First came some thirty days of spring, during which the renewed sunlet poured heat into the ice and oceans and rocks, which greedily absorbed it. Ice melted, oceans warmed, and rocks at last were no longer frozen to the touch but gently warm.
Ten million citizens stirred to spring; once more they had survived. Farmers scratched the ground again, charcoal burners ritually sealed their kilns and put their hands to carpentry or roadmending for a while, and fifteen hundred devotees of the Ice Cult started their pilgrimages from all over North America to see the breakup at Niagara.
The
n after thirty days it was summer, long and sweltering. Plants burst forth for reaping and the farmers swiftly stirred their soil and planted again, and reaped again, and planted for the last time. The coastal cities as usual were inundated by the spreading floods from the polar caps, furnishing refined pleasure to those who fancied Submergence. A fine year, they told one another; a vintage year—the flat top of the Lever Building vanishing from sight under a sunset blaze!
And through the spring and summer Glenn Tropile learned how to be a Wolf.
The way, he glumly found, lay through supervising the colony’s nursery school. It wasn’t what he had expected, but it had the advantage that while his charges were learning, he was learning too.
One jump ahead of the three-year-olds, he found that the “wolves,” far from being predators on the “sheep,” existed with them in a far more complicated ecological relationship. There were Wolves all through sheepdom; they leavened the dough of society.
In barbarously simple prose a primer said: “The Sons of the Wolf are good at numbers and money. You and your friends play money games almost as soon as you can talk, and you can think in percentages and compound interest when you want to. Most people are not able to do this.”
True, thought Tropile sub-vocally, reading aloud to the tots. That was how it had been with him.
“Sheep are afraid of the Sons of the Wolf. Those of us who live among them are in constant danger of detection and death—although ordinarily a Wolf can take care of himself against any number of Sheep.” True, too.
“It is one of the most dangerous assignments a Wolf can be given to live among the Sheep. Yet it is essential. Without us, they would die—of stagnation, of rot, eventually of hunger.”
It didn’t have to be spelled out any further. Sheep can’t mend their own fences.
The prose was horrifyingly bald and the children were horrifyingly—he choked on the word, but managed to form it in his mind—competitive. The verbal taboos lingered, he found, after he had broken through the barriers of behavior.
But it was distressing, in a way. At an age when future Citizens would have been learning their Little Pitcher Ways, these children were learning to fight. The perennial argument about who would get to be Big Bill Zeckendorf when they played a strange game called “Zeckendorf and Hilton” sometimes ended in bloody noses.
And nobody—nobody at all—meditated on connectivity.
Tropile was warned not to do it himself. Haendl said grimly: “We don’t understand it, and we don’t like what we don’t understand. We’re suspicious animals, Tropile. As the children grow older we give them just enough practice so they can go into one meditation and get the feel of it—or pretend to, at any rate. If they have to pass as Citizens they’ll need that much. But more than that we do not allow.”
“Allow?” Somehow the word grated; somehow his sub-adrenals began to pulse.
“Allow! We have our suspicions, and we know for a fact that sometimes people disappear when they meditate. There’s that much truth in the sheep talk about Translation. We don’t want to disappear. We judge that it is not a good thing to disappear. Don’t meditate, Tropile. You hear?”
But later, he had to argue the point. He picked a time when Haendl was free, or as nearly free as that man ever was. The whole adult colony had been out on what they used as a parade ground—once it had been a “football field,” Haendl said. They had done their regular twice-a-week infantry drill, that being one of the prices one paid for living among the free, progressive Wolves instead of the dull and tepid Sheep. Tropile was mightily winded, but he cast himself on the ground near Haendl, caught his breath and said: “Haendl, about Meditation.”
“What about it?”
“Well, perhaps you don’t really grasp it.” He searched for words. He knew what he wanted to say. How could anything that felt as good as Oneness be bad? And wasn’t Translation, after all, so rare as hardly to matter? But he wasn’t sure he could get through to Haendl in those terms. He tried: “When you meditate successfully, Haendl, you’re one with the universe. Do you know what I mean? There’s no feeling like it. It’s indescribable peace, beauty, harmony, repose.”
“It’s the world’s cheapest narcotic,” Haendl snorted.
“Oh, now, really—”
“And the world’s cheapest religion. The stone-broke mutts can’t afford gilded idols, so they use their own navels. That’s all it is. They can’t afford alcohol; they can’t even afford the muscular exertion of deep breathing that would throw them into a state of hyperventilated oxygen drunkenness. So what’s left? Self-hypnosis. Nothing else. It’s all they can do, so they learn it, they define it as pleasant and good, and they’re all fixed up.”
Tropile sighed. The man was so stubborn. Then a thought occurred to him, and he pushed himself up on his elbows. “Aren’t you leaving something out? What about Translation?”
Haendl glowered at him. “That’s the part we don’t understand.”
“But surely, self-hypnosis doesn’t account for—”
“Surely, it doesn’t!” Haendl mimicked savagely. “All right. We don’t understand it, and we’re afraid of it. Kindly do not tell me Translation is the supreme act of Un-willing, Total Disavowal of Duality, Unison with the Brahm-Ground or any such schlock. You don’t know what it is; and neither do we.” He started to get up. “All we know is, people vanish. And we want no part of it; so we don’t meditate. None of us—including you!”
***
It was foolishness, this close-order drill. Could you defeat the unreachable Himalayan Pyramid with a squads-right flanking maneuver?
And yet it wasn’t all foolishness. Close-order drill and 3500-calorie-a-day diet began to put fat and flesh and muscle on Tropile’s body, and something other than that on his mind. He had not lost the edge of his acquisitiveness, his drive—his whatever-it-was that made the difference between Wolf and Sheep. But he had gained something. Happiness? Well, if “happiness” is a sense of purpose, and a hope that the purpose can be accomplished, then happiness. It was a feeling that had never existed in his life before. Always it had been the glandular compulsion to gain an advantage, and that was gone, or anyway almost gone; because it was permitted in the society in which he now lived.
Glenn Tropile sang as he putt-putted in his tractor, plowing the thawing Jersey fields. Still, a faint doubt remained. Squads-right against the Pyramids?
Stiffly, Tropile stopped the tractor, slowed the Diesel to a steady thrum and got off. It was hot—being mid-summer of the five-year calendar the Pyramids had imposed. It was time for rest and maybe something to eat.
He sat in the shade of a tree, as farmers always have, and opened his sandwiches. He was only a mile or so from Princeton, but he might as well have been in Limbo; there was no sign of any living human but himself. The northering Sheep didn’t come near Princeton—it “happened” that way, on purpose. He caught a glimpse of something moving, but when he stood up for a better look into the woods on the other side of the field, it was gone. Wolf? Real wolf, that is? It could have been a bear, for that matter—there was talk of wolves and bears around Princeton; and although Tropile knew that much of the talk was assiduously encouraged by men like Haendl, he also knew that some of it was true.
As long as he was up, he gathered straw from the litter of last “year’s” head-high grass, gathered sticks under the trees, built a small fire, and put water on to boil for coffee. Then he sat back and ate his sandwiches, thinking.
Maybe it was a promotion, going from the nursery school to labor in the fields. Haendl had promised a place in the expedition that would, maybe, discover something new and great and helpful about the Pyramids. And that might still come to pass, because the expedition was far from ready to leave.
Tropile munched his sandwiches thoughtfully. Now, why was the expedition so far from ready to leave? It was absolutely essential to get there in the warmest weather possible—otherwise Everest was unclimbable; generations of alpinists had prove
d that. That warmest weather was rapidly going by.
Uneasily he put a few more sticks on the fire, staring thoughtfully into the canteen-cup of water. It was a satisfyingly hot fire, he noticed abstractedly. The water was very nearly ready to boil.
Half across the world, the Pyramid in the Himalayas felt, or heard, or tasted—a difference.
Possibly the h-f pulses that had gone endlessly wheep, wheep, wheep were now going wheep-beep, wheep-beep. Possibly the electromagnetic “taste” of lower-than-red was now spiced with a tang of beyond-violet. Whatever the sign was, the Pyramid recognized it.
A part of the crop it tended was ready to harvest.
The ripening bud had a name, but names didn’t matter to the Pyramid. The man named Tropile didn’t know he was ripening, either. All that Tropile knew was that for the first time in nearly a year, he had succeeded in catching each stage of the nine perfect states of water-coming-to-a-boil in its purest form.
It was like...like...well, it was like nothing that anyone but a Water-Watcher could understand. He observed. He appreciated. He encompassed and absorbed the myriad subtle perfections of time, of shifting transparency, of sound, of distribution of ebulliency, of the faint, faint odor of steam.
Complete, Glenn Tropile relaxed all his limbs and let his chin rest on his breast-bone.
It was, he thought with placid, crystalline perception, a rare and perfect opportunity for meditation. He thought of connectivity. (Overhead a shifting glassy flaw appeared in the thin, still air.) There wasn’t any thought of Eyes in the erased palimpsest that was Glenn Tropile’s mind. There wasn’t any thought of Pyramids or of Wolves. The plowed field before him didn’t exist. Even the water, merrily bubbling itself dry, was gone from his perception; he was beginning to meditate.
Time passed—or stood still; for Tropile there was no difference. There was no time. He found himself almost on the brink of Understanding. (The Eye above swirled wildly.)
Something snapped. An intruding blue-bottle drone, or a twitching muscle. Partly Tropile came back to reality, almost he glanced upward, almost he saw the Eye...
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