by Rachel Hauck
When she left him for the last time, she made her intentions clear. “I’m bound for greatness, and I need a partner who can go with me, help me get there.”
Gigi Beaumont, what a fool you’ve been.
Her eyes were wet with tears as she read his message. It contained nothing more than three simple words.
They are married.
Gigi squinted at the line again, the bold, beautiful line.
They are married.
Oh. My. Oh very, very my. What glorious news. She all but danced a jig about the office. Robert, you dear, sweet man.
This, this was her scoop. The one that would put her back on top of the pseudo-news-tabloid world.
“Oh, thank you, Lord, thank you, thank you. You didn’t forget your little ole Gigi, did you? Not like those long nights when my daddy was out drinking. Thank youuuuu!”
Back in her chair, Gigi hit Reply and studied the screen.
A story like this needed some corroboration, but the salaciousness of it alone was a moneymaker, enough to run it on hearsay. Robert could be her “palace source.”
If it turned out to be untrue, she’d print a subtle retraction, buried in the back of the Post.
But she’d face the wrath of Corina, such as it was for that sweet, demure girl with little fire in her bones. The toll of Carlos’s death continued to demand payment.
But wait a minute, if she was married to Prince Stephen, what was she doing in Melbourne? How long had they been married? Why hadn’t the world heard of this?
A secret royal wedding? Oh, this was too good to be true. Trembling, Gigi clicked Reply and typed her own simple message.
HOW DO YOU KNOW? DEETS.
Once the message was off into cyber space, Gigi paraded through the bull pen, suggesting an evening barbecue at her Tortoise Island home, perhaps drop the jet skis and paddleboats into the river. After all, it was the weekend.
The staff responded with an enthusiasm that pushed back the sluggishness of a Friday afternoon. They were all in.
Gigi called home, instructing her staff to prepare for the party. Then she sashayed to the tea cart. She still had it, baby, she still had it.
TWENTY-SIX
At 8:54 in the evening, a soft light hovered over Cathedral City. The stratus of twilight scooped low and blended with the amber glow of city lamps.
Corina stepped out of the lift and onto the deck of the Braithwaite Tower, and into the breeze, the cloudless evening, the muted music of city life, and her memories.
And she was glad she came. Glad she’d texted Stephen to meet her here. The idea came to her as they drove home from Dunwudy Glenn. Meet on top of the Braithwaite.
She’d debated the idea all morning, considering it a bit melodramatic. But by teatime, she’d texted him, asking him to meet her here at 8:54.
When the nine o’clock chimes rang out, she’d hand him his freedom. She would end their marriage the way it began.
The Braithwaite was a glorious, above-the-city park with a small garden in the center, potted trees clustered between picnic tables and park benches.
The historic tower was the coveted location for surprises, for victory celebrations, for announcements, birthdays, and weddings. For blind dates and marriage proposals. For good-byes.
Cutting through the garden, Corina made her way to the forward wall and propped her arms on the railing where the view squared off with the Rue du Roi. In the distance, she could see the northern edge of Stratton Palace.
Forty stories down, the streets moved with traffic. Pedestrians snaked along the sidewalk, moving in and out of the shops, the park, on and off the busses.
From her vantage point, everything looked so small. Manageable. Sometimes all one needed was a change of perspective.
The wind driving up the side of the building played tug-of-war with her hair. Corina dug in her messenger bag for a hair tie.
How different tonight was from six years ago when she stood here with Stephen, wearing the Diamatia, her hair piled and curled on top of her head, sprayed and pinned into place. Not even the Braithwaite breeze could topple it.
Her heart overflowed with human confidence in those days, so self-assured by her abilities, youth, beauty, and wealth. On top of it all, she’d captured the heart of a prince.
Life was hers to command. Until it commanded her and drove her to her knees.
Now as she waited to meet Stephen on top of the historic tower, she had nothing to hope in but Jesus himself. The purest example of loving well.
All day she anticipated his response to her “I love you,” but he let the confession go without a word. Perhaps it was for the best. She’d been obedient to God’s whisper, “Love well.” The rest was up to him.
She turned at the sound of the lift bell. The doors opened and Stephen stepped out, making her heart flutter, still, as he made his way toward her with his uneven, booted gait.
“Hey, you,” she said, meeting him at the garden’s edge. “Thank you for coming.”
“Why wouldn’t I?” His eyes drifted over her. “You spent the afternoon in the home of a stranger for me yesterday.” Despite his casual demeanor, he was guarded. His cloaked gaze gave her no access to his heart.
“Want to sit?” She motioned to the perimeter tables.
Stephen walked her to a table in the front corner. Not far from where he proposed. Did he remember? “The old Braithwaite. Eyes on the city.” He propped his arms on the guard rail, leaning into the breeze. “You can see every corner of the city from up here.”
“Stephen.” Corina dropped her messenger bag to the table, reaching inside for the annulment. “I leave in the morning, so let me do what I came here to do.”
He returned to her, sitting on the tabletop, feet on the bench seat. “All right.”
“First, thank you for telling me about Carlos. I have made up my mind to tell my father. I’m sorry, but I feel I must. But I promise I won’t tell anyone else. You have my word.”
He nodded, the wind jerking his dark locks from side to side.
“Second . . .” She’d rehearsed this moment over and over, but going through with it proved harder than she imagined. “Here.” She handed him the white legal envelope that contained their end. “All signed. You came through on my demand, so I’m following up on yours.”
He hesitated, then reached for the envelope. “T–thank you.”
She sighed, brushing a thin strand of hair from her eyes. “I didn’t want to sign it. I hated the language of the annulment. It says our marriage never existed. And you checked the ‘Mistake’ box.” She looked at him, but his gaze was averted. “I don’t think any of it was fake or a mistake.”
“I had little choice. The ‘death of my wife’s brother’ wasn’t an option. Otherwise, I’d have to file for a divorce, but I don’t think either of us wanted that, Corina.”
She leaned against the edge of the table next to him, willing the full force of her confession on him. “I don’t like that you decided my heart for me. What I would or would not think, feel, or want. You had no right.”
“You had no right to demand answers of me about Carlos’s death.” He only held her gaze for a second. “But I yielded to your demand.”
“Did you want the annulment signed that much? To break the law, deliver classified information?”
He held up the envelope. “Would you have signed it if I didn’t?”
“Probably. Eventually. But I meant it when I said ‘I love you.’ ”
He didn’t respond, simply stared at the envelope. Corina weighed her next confession. One she’d thought a lot about, prayed about, considered as important as ‘I love you.’ ”
“S–Stephen?”
He glanced up.
She drew a deep breath. “I forgive you.”
“W–hat?”
The tears . . . oh the dratted tears. “I–I forgive you.” Were there any more pieces of her heart to break? But each pulsing, shattered piece affirmed her proclamation. “I–I forgi
ve you. I don’t see my brother’s blood on your hands.”
His shoulders shimmied as he looked toward the edge of the Braithwaite.
Corina stroked his hand. “For what it’s worth, you should forgive yourself too.”
“Is that why you brought me up here?” He adjusted his position on the bench, moving slightly away from her. “Show me up? Be the bigger man, as it were?” The question, laced with accusation, stung.
“No, I just wanted us to end on a good note. Who knows if our paths won’t cross again.”
He was silent, jaw tense and taut, then, “Last night . . . I couldn’t stop thinking about Bird and how he had a child on the way, Corina. A son. You didn’t know Bird, but a wife, a family? All he wanted in life. And to play rugby on weekends.” The comment was not random, but filled with calculated emotion. “If he’d had known, would he have acted differently that day? I’d be dead like the rest if he’d not fallen on me.”
“Stephen, what’s the point of this? Stop being the living dead. You’re as bad as my parents. You were saved for a purpose and I don’t think it was to live in perpetual regret, perpetual mourning.” She held her fisted hands at her side, shaking. “Bird chose to protect you. He might not have known about Baby Bird, but he sure as heck knew about Agnes. He gave his life for you. Why don’t you choose to honor him by living it?”
“Instinct.” He shook his head, refusing to face her. “Bird moved on instinct. If he’d hesitated like me, he might have run for cover. But no matter what, I can’t shake the reality that I robbed Bird, Carlos, the others of their lives.”
“No, you didn’t.” She moved in front of him, hands on his legs, ducking her head to see his face. “Stop with this reflective guilt. Asif robbed them. Not you. His anger and bitterness.” Oh, the picture of forgiveness just became clearer to her own heart. “You keep on this path and not even the pitch can save you. One day, Stephen, you’ll be too old to play. What if your ankle doesn’t heal—”
“It will heal.” His eyes locked with hers and she saw beyond the cloak into the depth of his pain. “It will.”
“Then heal you. Let go. It’s been five and a half years. Don’t chain yourself to the past. What’s your instinct telling you, Stephen? Right here, right now? You said hesitation caused you to falter. So don’t hesitate.”
His hand grazed her hip and her passions pulsed, aching to be in his arms. But his answer was soft. Passionless. “Carry on. One day at a time.”
Disappointment burned in Corina’s chest as the first cathedral chime rang out, a second cathedral bell following. At nine o’clock they were bold and resonating, but a dissonant, uncoordinated sound.
One . . .
Two . . .
Three . . .
Corina determined not to lose this moment. She slipped her hand around his neck and drew him toward her, pressing her lips to his. Tentative at first, then with the full force of her heart, leaning against his leg, pressing toward his chest.
Four . . .
A kiss to remind him of their love, of the kiss that began it all that day on the pitch in Cathedral Stadium.
Five . . .
Her kiss deepened with the memories of their wedding night, the heat and sweat of making love for the first time in that small quaint cottage on Hessenberg’s shores.
Six . . .
He held off at first touch, almost pulling away, then his arms slipped around her waist and he drew her onto his lap. They embraced, their bodies pulsing.
Seven . . .
Then she broke away, smoothing her hand over his chest where his heart kicked against her palm.
Eight . . .
“Corina—” His breath was hot against her skin.
Nine . . .
“I love you.” She anchored her hands on his legs and tapped her forehead to his, the flutter of the annulment envelope brushing against her arm. “I just do.”
Stephen woke Sunday morning, drenched in sweat. He’d dreamt of Corina again, but this time she was in his arms, swaying to the music of violins playing Chopin, the feathery white of her gown pure and spotless.
Forgiven.
With a growl in his chest, he kicked out from under the bed linens and made his way to the bathroom. At the sink, he doused his face with cold water, cooling the emotions that flamed against him.
“You’ve done it, mate.” He stared at his reflection. “She’s gone now. It’s what you wanted.”
He touched his finger to his lower lip, where the buzzing hint of her presence remained. He splashed his face again and tried to rub the buzz from his lip. When he snatched the hand towel from the bar to dry his face, the sensation of her touch had not diminished but intensified.
Forgiven. The word strafed his heart.
Stephen tossed the towel into the hamper and made his way back to his room. He wasn’t worthy of forgiveness. Not from himself or Corina. Especially not from a God to whom he barely spoke.
The white annulment envelope beckoned from his dresser. Snatching it up, Stephen walked to his office. This was what he wanted. Not the lingering passion of her kiss nor the resurrection of their memories.
He was free, right? So why did he feel so bound?
Tossing the envelope to his desk, he made a note to carry it over to the King’s Office in the morning. By Monday afternoon, it would all be official.
The idea emptied him as he sank down in his desk chair, head in hands. God, could you love a man like me?
From down the hall his mobile rang. With a jerk, he pushed out of the chair and skip-walked back to his room. His left ankle throbbed and pinched.
More physio. He must remain determined. Maybe he could entice Darren out on a Sunday afternoon for some exercises.
Corina’s number flashed on the small screen and he sighed. Was she still in the city? With his pulse thick in his veins, he answered.
“Hey,” she said, low and southern, full of sweetness.
“How are you?”
“Good. At the airport.”
“It’s cliché, you know. A sappy airport good-bye.”
“Guess that’s why you’re not here?”
“Y–yes, that’s why I’m not there.”
After their Braithwaite kiss, she waited for him to respond, to relent, perhaps to say he loved her, too, but his heart remained locked.
She laughed. “Smart. Because who likes a sappy airport scene? Especially with a prince involved.”
He sobered. “Corina, please, I cannot let you go home with any sort of hope. I’m sorry to speak with such frankness, but I want to be clear. I did you a great disservice with five and a half years of silence. I won’t do it again. The annulment goes to the King’s Office tomorrow morning.”
“Then you should know I meant what I said. I love you. And I meant that kiss last night. We’re good together, you and me. What happened in Afghanistan should draw us together not push us apart.”
Did she hear herself, really? “You say that now, but in five, ten years, you’ll regret waking up next to a man who cost you so much. Can I be so bold as to say ‘Let go’? You must move on. Don’t hold on to anything for me.”
“What about you? Will you move on?” The tentative tone in her question made him think she didn’t want an answer. “I–I guess I’ll have to prepare to see you with someone else.”
“Don’t put yourself through this.” Move on? How could anyone compare to her?
“Stephen, I’ve been wondering. If you thought we were annulled all those years, why didn’t you move on?”
“Why didn’t you?”
“I was just surviving, giving energy to Daddy and Mama. It’s so true, the death of a child can break a family if they’re not careful.”
In the background, Stephen heard the announcement for a flight to Atlanta. “Is that you?”
“First class. That’s me.”
He grinned, pressing his finger against the sting of tears. “Indeed, love, that’s you.”
“So, I guess I shouldn
’t ask you to call or write.”
“It’s best we break away clean.”
“What if I’d been pregnant?”
He swallowed. Grateful she had not been. “Corina, let’s just stay on this plane.”
“I just wondered—”
“Can you do me one favor?”
“What’s that?”
“Forget about me.”
“Five and a half years so far and I’m not very successful.”
“It’s all over now. We know it. The conversation has been had, the stories told, the papers signed.” Another call came to board flight 781 to Atlanta.
“All right. I’ll move on. But Stephen, that doesn’t change one simple thing.”
“Corina, don’t—”
“I love you.”
She said her good-byes and he hung up, crashing down to his bed. She was killing him. He smoothed his thumb and finger over his eyes, squeezing out the shallow wash of tears.
This was it. The last, last time he’d cry for her. Then it was over.
After a few moments, he collected himself, dried his face, and called Darren, who declined a physio appointment because he was heading to the shore with his family.
“Take a respite, Stephen. Rest. Do something with your family today.”
“Have a good time, Darren. See you tomorrow.”
Robert came in declaring the breakfast buffet was ready. Stephen thanked him and jumped in for a quick shower, where a nagging idea began, finding life among the heat and steam.
Talk to Archbishop Caldwell. The retired archbishop lived in a cottage along Hessenberg’s northern shores. Stephen felt sure he’d read that somewhere.
He wondered if the old chap was up for a visit.
“Robert, I’m going out for the afternoon,” Stephen said, coming down the stairs, finding his butler waiting for him in the foyer.
“This came for you.” Robert met Stephen in the kitchen. “By special courier from the Galaxy via the King’s Office.”
“On a Sunday?” Odd. “I didn’t purchase anything at auction. Who sent it?”
