Such, briefly outlined, were the characteristics of the couple who, in an absent-minded moment, had taken upon themselves the responsibility of bringing a woman into the world for whom apparently the world had no use. Woman, considered in the rough abstract, is only the pack-mule of man, — his goods, his chattels, created specially to be the “vessel” of his passion and humour, — and without his favour and support she is by universal consent set down as a lonely and wandering mistake. Such is the Law and the Prophets. Under these circumstances, which have recently shown signs of yielding to pressure, Diana, the rapidly ageing spinster daughter of Mr and Mrs. James Polydore May, was in pitiable plight. No man wanted her, not even to serve him as a pack-mule. No man sought to add her person to his goods and chattels, and at the time this true story opens, she was not lair or fascinating or young enough to serve him as a toy for his delight, a plaything of his pleasure. Life had been very monotonous for her since she had passed the ‘turning-point of thirty years, “nice” people who always say nasty things remarked; “how passée she was getting,” — thereby helping the ageing process considerably. She, meanwhile, bore her lot with exemplary cheerfulness, — she neither grizzled nor complained, nor showed herself envious of youth or youthful loveliness. A comforting idea of “duty” took possession of her mind, and she devoted herself to the tenderest care of her fat mother and irritable father, waiting upon them like a slave, and saying her prayers for them night and morning as simply as a child, without the faintest suspicion that they were past praying for. The years went on, and she took pains to educate herself in all that might be useful, — she read much and thought more, — she mastered two or three languages, and spoke them with ease and fluency, and she was an admirable musician. She had an abundance of pretty light-brown hair, and all her movements were graceful, but, alas! — the unmistakable look of growing old was stamped upon her once mobile features, — she had become angular and flat-chested, and the unbecoming straight line from waist to knee, which gave her figure a kind of pitiful masculinity, was developing with hard and bony relentlessness. One charm she had, which she herself recognized and took care to cultivate—” a low, sweet voice, an excellent thing in woman.” If one chanced to hear her speaking in an adjoining room, the effect was remarkable, — one felt that some exquisite creature of immortal youth and tenderness was expressing a heavenly thought in music.
Mr. James Polydore May, as I have already ventured to suggest, was nothing if not respectable. He was a J.P. This, — in English suburban places at least, — is the hall-mark of an unimpeachable rectitude. Another sign of his good standing and general uprightness was, that at stated seasons he always went for a change of air: We all know that the person who remains in one place the whole year round is beyond the pale and cannot be received in the best society. Mr. May had a handsome house and grounds in the close vicinity of Richmond, within easy distance of town, but when the London “season” ended, he and Mrs. May invariably discovered their home to be “stuffy,” and sighed for more expansive breathing and purer oxygen than Richmond could supply. They had frequently taken a shooting or fishing in Scotland, but that was in the days when there were still matrimonial hopes for Diana, and when marriageable men could be invited, not only to handle rod and gun, but to inspect their “one ewe-lamb,” which they were over-anxious to sell to the highest bidder. These happy dreams were at an end. It was no longer worth while to lay in extensive supplies of whisky and cigars by way of impetus to timid or hesitating Benedicts, when they came back from a “day on the moors,” tired, sleepy and stupid enough to drift into proposals of marriage almost unconsciously. Mr. May seldom invited young men to stay with him now, for the very reason that he could not get them; they found him a “bore,” — his wife dull, and his daughter an “old maid,” — a term of depreciation still freely used by the golden youth of the day, despite the modern and more civil term of “lady bachelor.” So he drew in the horns of his past ambition, and consoled himself with the society of two or three portly men of his own age and habits, — men who played golf and billiards, and who, if they could do ‘nothing else, smoked continuously. And for the necessary “change of air,” the seaside offered itself as a means of health without too excessive an expenditure, and instead of “chasing the wild, deer and following the roe,” a simple hammock chair on the sandy beach, and a golf course within easy walking distance provided sufficient relaxation. Not that Mr. May was in any sense parsimonious; he did not take a cottage by the sea, or cheap lodgings, — on the contrary, he was always prepared to “do the thing handsomely,” and to select what the house-agents call an “ideal” residence.
At the particular time I am writing of, he had just settled down for the summer in a very special “ideal” on the coast of Devon. It was a house which had formerly belonged to an artist, but the artist had recently died, and his handsome and not inconsolable widow stated that she found it dull. She was glad to let it for two or three months, in order to “get away” with that restless alacrity which distinguishes so many people who find anything better than their own homes, and Mr and Mrs. Polydore May, though, as they said, it certainly was “a little quiet after London,” were glad to have it, at quite a moderate rental for the charming place it really was. The gardens were exquisitely laid out and carefully kept; the smooth velvety lawns ran down almost to the sea, where a little white gate opened out from the green of the grass to the gold of the sand, — the rooms were tastefully furnished, and Diana, when she first saw the place, going some days in advance of her father and mother, as was her wont, in order to make things ready and comfortable for them, thought how happy she could be if only such a house and garden were hers to enjoy, independently of others. For a week before her respected and respectable parents came, in the intervals of unpacking, and arranging matters so that the domestic “staff” could assume their ordinary duties with smoothness and regularity, she wandered about alone, exploring the beauties of her surroundings, her thin, flat figure striking a curious note of sadness and solitude, as she sometimes stood in the garden among a wealth of flowers, looking out to the tender dove-grey line of the horizon across the sea. The servants peeping at her from kitchen and pantry windows, made their own comments.
“Poor dear!” said the cook, thoughtfully—” she do wear thin!”
“Ah, it’s a sad look-out for ‘er!” sighed the upper housemaid, who was engaged to a pork-butcher with an alarmingly red face, whom one would have thought any self-respecting young woman would have died rather than wedded. “To be all alone in the world like that, unpertected, as she will be when her pa and ma have gone!”
“Well, they won’t go in a hurry!” put in the butler, who was an observing man—” Leastways, Mr. May won’t; he’ll ‘old on to life like a cat to a mouse — he will! He’s that hearty! — why, he thinks he’s about thirty instead of sixty. The missis, now, — if she goes on eating as she do, — she’ll drop off sudden like a burstin’ bean, — but he — Ah! I shouldn’t wonder if he outlasted us all!”
“Lor, Mr. Jonson!” exclaimed the upper housemaid—” How you do talk! — and you such a young man too!” Jonson smiled, inwardly flattered. He was well over forty, but like his master wished to be considered a kind of youth, fit for dancing, tennis and other such gamesome occupations.
“Miss Diana,” he now continued, with a judicial air—” has lost her chances. It’s a pity! — for no one won’t marry her now. There’s too many young gels about, — no man wants the old ‘uns. She’ll have to take up a ‘mission’ or something to get noticed at all.”
Here a quiet-looking woman named Grace Laurie interposed. She was the ladies’ maid, and she was held in great respect, for she was engaged to marry (at some uncertain and distant date) an Australian farmer ‘with considerable means.
“Miss Diana is very clever—” she said—” She could do almost anything she cared to. She’s got a great deal more in her than people think. And” — here Grace hesitated—” she’s prettily
made, too, though she’s over thin, — when she comes from her bath with all her hair hanging down, she looks sweet!” A gurgle of half hesitating, half incredulous laughter greeted this remark.
“Well, it’s few ladies as looks ‘sweet’ coming from the bath!” declared the butler with emphasis. “I’ve had many a peep at the missis—”
Here the laughter broke out loudly, with little cries of: “Oh! Oh!” — and the kitchen chatter ended.
It had come to the last day of Diana’s free and uncontrolled enjoyment of the charming sea-side Eden which her parents had selected as a summer retreat, — and regretfully realizing this, she strolled lingeringly about the garden, inhaling the sweet odours of roses and mignonette with the salty breath of the sea. The next morning Mr and Mrs. Polydore May would arrive in time for luncheon, and once more the old domestic jog-trot would commence, — the same routine as that which prevailed at Richmond, with no other change save such as was conveyed in the differing scene and surroundings. Breakfast punctually at nine, — luncheon at one, — tea at four-thirty, — dinner at a quarter to eight. Dinner at a quarter to eight was one of Diana’s bugbears — why not have it at eight o’clock, she thought?
The “quarter to” was an irritating juggling with time for which there was no necessity. But she had protested in vain; dinner at quarter to eight was one of her mother’s many domestic “fads.” Between the several meals enumerated there would be nothing doing, — nothing, that is to say, of any consequence or use to anybody. Diana knew the whole weary, stupid round, — Mr. May would pass the morning reading the papers either in the garden or on the sandy shore, — Mrs. May would give a few muddled and contradictory orders to the servants, who never obeyed them literally, but only as far as they could be conveniently carried out, and then would retire to write letters to friends or acquaintances; in the afternoon Mr. May would devote himself to golf, while his wife slept till tea-time, — then she would take a stroll in the garden, and perhaps — only perhaps — talk over a few household affairs with her daughter. Then came the “quarter to eight” dinner with desultory and somewhat wrangling conversation, after which Mrs. May slept again, and Mr. May played billiards if he could find anyone to play with him, — if not, he practised “tricky” things alone with the cue. Neither of them ever thought that this sort of life was not conducive to cheerfulness so far as their daughter Diana was concerned, — indeed they never considered her at all. When she was young — ah yes, of course! — it was necessary to find such entertainment and society for her as might “show her off,” — but now, when she was no longer marriageable in the conventionally accepted sense of marriage, she was left to bear the brunt of fate as best she might, and learn to be contented with the plain feminine duty of keeping house for her parents. It must be stated that she did this “keeping house” business to perfection, — she controlled expenses without a taint of meanness, managed the servants, and made the whole commonplace affair of ordinary living run smoothly. But whatever she did, she never had a word of praise from either her father or mother, — they took her careful service as their right, and never seemed to realize that most of their comforts and conveniences were the result of her forethought and good sense. Certainly they did not trouble themselves as to whether she was happy or the reverse.
She thought of this, — just a little, but not morosely — on the last evening she was to spend alone at “Rose Lea” as the “ideal” summer residence was called, — probably on account of its facing west, and gathering on its walls and windows all the brilliant flush of the sunset. She was somewhat weary, — she had been occupied for hours in arranging her mother’s bedroom and seeing that all the numerous luxuries needed by that placid mass of superfluous flesh were in their place and order, and now that she had finished everything she had to do, she was glad to have the remainder of her time to herself in the garden, thinking, and — as usual — wondering. Her wonder was just simply this: — How long would she have to go on in the same clockwork mechanism of life as that which now seemed to be her destiny? She had made certain variations in the slow music of her days by study, — yes, that was true! — but then no one made use of her studies, — no one knew the extent of her attainments, and even in her music she had no encouragement, — no one ever asked her to play. All her efforts seemed so much wasted output of energy. She had certain private joys of her own, — a great love of Nature, which like an open door in Heaven allowed her to enter familiarly into some of the marvels and benedictions of creative intelligence; she loved books, and could read them in French and Italian, as well as in her native English; and she had taken to the study of Russian with some success, Greek and Latin she had learned sufficiently well to understand the great authors of the elder world in their own script, — but all these intellectual diversions were organized and followed on her own initiative, and as she sometimes said to herself a trifle bitterly:
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