I should have known something was up with her when she wouldn’t answer my calls. Then when she finally did, I could tell by her voice that something was going on.
Even though she called me before she left work, it wasn’t the kind of call that I expected from the woman who was doing everything she could to be with me.
I knew I needed to tell my sister and Ty the good news, but finding the perfect time to tell them wasn’t exactly easy. Every damn time I told them I had something important to talk to them about, they were involved with something else.
I managed to get through a whole week without taking another pill and was glad that my near fuck up hadn’t ended in me picking up a habit again. I’m not going to lie and say it was easy. The worst part was going home at night to sit alone in my room, just hoping for a text message that rarely came.
After seven days, I still got my calls, but there were no scheduled visits in our near future. Her bastard husband had left his job again and since he was home all the time, Amy couldn’t just sneak away. I missed her, but accepted the fact that she was trying to get dirt on him to set him up.
To say that Ty and Miranda were ecstatic when I showed them the proof, would be an understatement. They hauled ass in their damn bedroom and let’s just say they weren’t very discreet about what they were doing.
After hearing it herself, Bella started asking questions. “Uncle Conner, is my mommy okay?”
“Yeah Bells, she’s playing with Daddy.”
“But she keeps crying.”
“They are just wrestlin’. Why don’t you go check on em.” Now I knew what she would walk into, but after listening to them two go at it for more time then they needed, I figured they would at least be under the covers taking a break.
I was wrong.
Not even a minute passed and Bella came running out of the room with her hand over her mouth. She was giggling like she was embarrassed. I kept a straight face as she approached. “What’s wrong Bells?”
“I saw my daddy’s butt.”
I couldn’t contain my laughter any longer. Miranda was going to be pissed, but it was worth it to be able to laugh.
I pulled my little niece into my arms and kissed her nose. I needed to change the subject before I got my ass handed to me. “What’s it like bein’ a big sister?”
She shrugged her little shoulders. “Good, but I don’t want to change their diapers. They stink and they cry. I can’t feed them cause they drink from Mommy’s boobs. They can’t even play with me yet, because Daddy says they have to grow first.”
I knew she felt jealous of the twins. It was only natural. They took up a lot of Ty and Miranda’s time.
I let out another chuckle. “Kiddo, you are crazy. That’s what babies are all about.”
“How come you don’t have a baby, Uncle Conner?”
“Well, I can’t have a baby all by myself. Who am I supposed to have a baby with? I think I have to find a woman first.”
“What about Aunt Amy. She’s real pretty and Mommy says she should get rid of her husband she has now. She will have to buy a new one then and she can just buy you.”
I buried my face into Bella’s neck and started laughing again. “Why would you think that Aunt Amy and I would want to be together and who told you that you have to buy a husband or wife?” I needed to know why she picked Amy to be with me. I was both shocked and hopeful.
She shrugged. “Because Daddy says that wives costs lots of money.”
“Bells, you don’t buy wives. I think your daddy meant that he spends lots of money on your mommy because he loves her. You don’t have to buy someone when you love them. People get married because they love each other.” I couldn’t believe I was discussing love with a child. It also intrigued me that she thought Amy and I should be together.
“So I guess you can’t marry Aunt Amy since you don’t love her.”
Okay, so how do I answer that?
Thankfully, Ty came walking into the kitchen. He leaned against the counter. When my sister followed, I started laughing my ass off.
Ty gave me one of those ‘hell yeah I just hit that’ looks. “Baby, you just did the walk of shame.”
Miranda got all pissy over it. Her face turned red and she looked from me to Ty. “So did you.”
Ty grabbed her and pulled her back into his arms. “Nah, I just tapped the hottest ass on earth.”
After all the times that I hated that he was touching her, I finally got it, because I knew what it was like to love someone like that. I gave them a look of disgust anyway. “Ya’ll are sick. Can we eat dinner without it bein’ all tainted.”
Miranda walked over to me and wrapped her arms around me. “I love you.”
“Get your hands off of me. You smell like sex and after listening to you two for the past half hour, you’re lucky I waited to send your daughter in after the moanin’ stopped.”
She smacked me in the back of the head. “You stupid ass. She saw Ty naked.” She looked over to Ty and gave him that look she gave when he didn’t have a choice but to take her side or else she was going to cut him off for a week. “Are you going to say somethin’?”
“I quit my job today.” Ty just stood there, completely serious. We’d talked about him working full time on the farm, but this was news to me too.
Miranda’s mouth dropped open. “You what?”
“I gave my notice yesterday. The farm is doing awesome and Conner and I have more work than he can handle alone. Harvey and my dad are getting old, so it’s time I take things on full time.” He kept waiting for her to respond, but she just stared at him. “Say something.”
“When is your last day?”
“It’s supposed to be next week, but the boss said I can go ahead and start getting my shit out of there. His brother in law lost his job, so he’s just going to take my spot.” I watched him grab her hand and kiss it and thought about being with Amy. I missed her something terrible. “Baby, that’s why I want you to stay home. I want to be able to have lunch with my wife every day. I want to be able to stop in and see you if I get free moments. I don’t want you to have to ask for days off. You have your own clients, you can cut their hair here if you want.”
I watched the two of them interacting with each other and even though I joked about it grossing me out, I wanted it for myself. I wanted to be able to share every moment with the woman I loved.
“You’re goin’ to get sick of seein’ me all the time.” My sister was being dramatic. I think Ty would attach her to his belt if he could.
“There is no way I could ever get tired of seeing my beautiful wife. If I haven’t proved myself to be a devoted husband and father then I don’t know what else to do but spend every moment giving you everything your little heart desires. I love our life, Miranda.” I finally got why he looked at her the way he did; the way she was his whole world, even when he was joking around.
I never thought anyone was good enough for my sister, but, I was wrong. Ty had turned out to be more than I ever wanted for her. I knew they would always be in love like they were. It was special and no matter what tried to come between them, they would survive.
“I love you too, Ty.” Seeing her happy again let me know that everything I had done was worth it. As they hugged their daughter and appreciated that they’d made it through so many bad things, I couldn’t help but sit back and watch.
Their boys were healthy. My sister was recovering and Bella had the family that she always deserved. The best part of it all was that Ty would always be Bella’s father, which was what started this whole thing in motion.
If I had to do it all over again, I wouldn’t have changed a thing if I knew I’d get to see what I was seeing.
I ended up not seeing Amy until Bella’s birthday party. Ty and I had gone out and got her a puppy. Amy knew I was keeping it in the barn, so she found me before she went into the house. I felt her arms around me and knew exactly who it was. “God, I miss your pretty face.”
I pulled her close to me and wrapped my arms tight around her back. Amy’s hands wrapped around me, but she slid them under my shirt. “I’m going to go crazy if you don’t kiss me, Conner.”
Our lips collided and just like every time, I forgot about how long we’d been apart. The puppy was jumping at my feet, so I walked us to another area in the barn. When Amy was backed up against a wall, I stepped back and took her in. She was wearing a summer dress and her hair was half up and half down. “I need to be inside of you.”
She bit down on her lip and nodded her head. That was enough for me. I unbuttoned my shorts and let them fall to the barn floor, before picking her up and lifting that little dress to her waist. Amy wrapped her legs around me and made it easy for me to slide right inside of her already wet pussy. She cried out with my first thrust, but wrapped her legs tighter as I picked up my pace. Her lips burrowed into my neck, while her fingernails dug through the skin of my back. I could feel the sweat running down my face as I watched drops sliding down Amy’s neck. Her hair was getting wet on the sides, but she never let go of my body. She was so light in my arms and pumping into her felt so good in the position we were in.
As I felt myself releasing, I pressed my lips into her shoulder. She opened her eyes and met my gaze, while we both stayed locked together. “I need to catch my breath, darlin’.”
“Take as long as you need.” She placed kisses over the side of my head, even though I knew it was sweaty. “Don’t let me go, Conner.”
I shifted so I could kiss her salty lips again. The barn was hot and it was the wrong place to have sex after a fresh shower, but nothing was going to stop me from touching Amy, not even the possibility of passing out from a heat stroke. “Don’t go back. Just stay with me.”
I felt her legs loosening as she slipped down to the ground. It took her a second to steady herself and fix her dress. “I can’t do that and you know it.”
“I ain’t goin’ to beg you to stay, but just know it’s what I want.”
She picked up the bag that held Bella’s present and started walking toward me again. “Conner, I love you, I swear I do, but we talked about this. I just need a month at the most.”
I fixed her hair from where it had fallen down to her face. “I hate waitin’ to be with you. Do you know how hard it is for me to walk in that house and know you’re there but I can’t touch you? I want everyone to know how we feel about each other.”
“Please don’t say anything. You have to go in there and pretend we mean nothing to each other. If you can’t do that then I’ll have to leave and I really don’t want to miss Bella’s birthday party. I love being around your family.”
“I can pretend that there’s nothin’ between us, but it’s you that’s goin’ to have a problem. When you go inside don’t tell me you’re not goin’ to think about me havin’ you out in this barn.” I reached down and kissed her, keeping my lips there.
“I’m not.” Her eyes were closed and I knew she was lying.
“How about how much you want me licking that sexy pussy of yours? You’re not going to be thinkin’ of that?” I licked her bottom lip and watched as her eyes stayed closed.
She moaned and smiled. “That’s just mean. Now it’s all I’ll be thinking about.”
“Good, because you drive me wild and you taste like heaven. Get in there and put on a straight face. My family is tough to fool, so I wish you the best of luck.” I smacked her on the ass and sent her on her way. “Love you, Blaze.”
She smiled and shook her head as she exited the barn. At the very last second she poked her head back in. “Love you too.”
Chapter 30
Amy
I kept promising Conner that we’d be together in a month’s time, but it turned out that I needed a lot more than one month.
Rick had become a new man. He’d stopped drinking, started going to meetings, which he took me with him, and he even started taking care of the house. He got a job working the midnight shift at a shipping company right outside of town. It was some warehouse that produced and distributed some diet shake.
His new schedule helped me to keep up with my part of the deal of trying to mend our marriage, since I didn’t have to see him all the time. At first he didn’t try to be physical, but as the weeks passed, I could tell he wanted to be a real married couple. I kept using the excuse that I wanted to go slow, because of what had happened before, but his frustration level was growing and I needed him to trust me.
I hadn’t been with Conner since Bella’s birthday party and it had been almost two months. Conner and I still talked every single day and we snuck little lunch meetings here and there, but I refused to have sex with him until I was finished with my little plan.
He wasn’t happy about it.
Since Rick was up my ass when he was off, he purposely drug me all over town on the weekends. I will never forget being in that grocery store and seeing Conner and Ty pushing two carts with a twin in each one. Ty waved to me and turned around to say something to Conner. He got a big smile on his face, but it disappeared as soon as he saw Rick coming around the corner.
I knew that Ty knew that Conner and I were more than friends. I wasn’t sure how much he knew, but it was enough for me to worry. In this particular circumstance, Ty walked out of the isle like it was no big deal, while Conner stayed back watching me closely.
Rick walked up behind me and reached a box off the shelf. He put his arm around me to place the box in the cart and smacked my ass and as he pulled away he kissed me right on the lips. I could see the pain in the Conner’s eyes and I immediately wanted to vomit. If I went running to him, all of my time would have been wasted, so I stayed back and watched him push his cart out of the aisle. I wanted to cry, but had to pretend that I never saw Conner, just in case Rick did.
Thankfully, Rick never noticed that the guy in the baseball hat and hoodie was the man of my dreams, but I had. I also knew that he wasn’t going to be able to deal with what he’d just saw.
We were able to finish our shopping without seeing him again, but the damage was done.
All I wanted to do was get to my secret phone and explain myself, but I couldn’t do that either. In fact, it was a couple of hours before I was able to check it and I kind of wished I hadn’t.
This ain’t cool. – C
Please say something. – C
I’m going crazy here. I need to talk to you. –C
I thought about what I could say in a text message that would make him feel better, but there was nothing.
I’ll come to the bar and meet you out back while you’re at pool league. Meet me out back around seven. I love you. – A
I’ll be at the bar, but I ain’t happy with the way you love me right now. This is bullshit! – C
As soon as Rick left for work, I rushed out the door to meet Conner. My drive there was filled with fear and anxiety. I’d seen Conner angry and even hurt, but I was the cause and I just couldn’t stand myself. He was leaning against the back of the building with a beer in his hand. Right before I climbed out of the car the bartender went walking up to him and said something, before turning to see me and walking back into the bar. After watching her walk away, he turned his attention back to me.
“What was that?” I was pissed. This was the second time that I’d seen her giving him that look and it wasn’t a ‘thanks for the dollar tip last week’ kind of look.
“Nothin’.”
I put my hands my hips. “You expect me to believe that what I just saw was nothing? I’m not an idiot Conner. That girl wants you and you know it.”
He leaned back against the wall again and started laughing. “You know, it’s funny that you even noticed considerin’ you’re too damn busy fuckin’ your husband again. I mean, how are you even here? Did you take a break from suckin’ on his dick to tell me to wait a couple more months?”
Never in my life had I ever felt the way I felt that very second. I walked right up to him and slapped him in the face. “How dare
you say that to me.”
He grabbed my arm and held it as he got up in my face. I could smell the alcohol on his breath and the tears filled my eyes. “I call it like I see it, darlin’.”
Even as I began to sob, he wouldn’t listen to me. “Please Conner, you have to believe me. I’m not sleeping with Rick, I swear.”
“You know, I get that I’m not good at relationships, but after dealin’ with this shit with you, I just don’t think I’m even interested in havin’ one anymore. My life was a hell of a lot better when a fuck was just a fuck.” He let go of my arm and crossed his.
I tried to hold him; to separate his arms and fall into his chest, but he wouldn’t let me. He looked at me with such cold eyes. “Conner, please. I swear that you’re all I want. What do I have to do to prove it to you?”
“Just like you told me you loved me, but never could leave him. Do you know how it felt to see him touchin’ you? I can’t do this shit anymore, Amy. I’m not goin’ to let you hurt me anymore. Get back in your car and go home to your husband that beats and cheats on you. Have a nice fuckin’ life.” He took his beer and chucked it out into the dark parking lot and walked back into the bar.
Ty and Miranda were in there and I knew I couldn’t chase after him. I fell down to the ground and cried my eyes out. When I managed to get in the car, I only made it a mile down the road before I had to pull over.
I knew he was mad at me, but I had no idea just how mad. He wasn’t going to wait for me. I’d lost Conner and all of my hopes of ever being happy again.
For the next week, I sent hundreds of text messages. I called and left messages where I was crying so bad I was sure he couldn’t understand the words I was saying.
He never responded to any of them.
Even Rick knew something was wrong and it was hard for me to not be able to explain. I made up a lie that I was having female problems and needed to have tests done. I didn’t feel bad for lying to Rick, especially knowing that because of him, I’d lost everything. The salon suddenly meant nothing to me without Conner in my life.
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