They treated my verdict as if it were a priest's rule of ritual, accepting it without dispute.
But Bulec said wistfully, "I wish there was short tales for the short nights," He had listened to the epic with almost painful attention, muffling his cough as well as he could; to the battle scenes he preferred the descriptions of the rooms in the palaces, the touching domestic passages, the love story of Alira and Ruoco. I liked Bulec, and it was painful to see him, a young man, getting sicker and weaker day by day even as the weather brightened and grew warm. I couldn't withstand his plea.
"Oh, there's some short tales," I said, "I'll tell you one." And I thought first to say The Bridge on the Nisas, but I could not. Those words, though they were clear in my mind, bore some weight in them that I could not lift. I could not speak them.
So I put myself in the schoolroom in my mind, and opened a copybook, and there was one of Hodis Baderi's fables, "The Man Who Ate the Moon." I told it to them word for word.
They listened as intently as ever. The fable got a mixed reception. Some of them laughed and shouteld,
"Ah, that's the best yet! That beats all!" —but others thought it silly stuff, "foolery," Taffa said.
" Ah, but there's a lesson in it," said Chamry, who had listened to the tale with delight. They got to arguing whether the man who ate the
moon was a liar or not. They never asked me to settle or even enter these discussions. I was, as it were, their book. I provided the text. Judgment on the text was up to them. I heard as keen moral arguments from them as I was ever to hear from learned men.
After that they often got a fable or a poem out of me in the evening, but their demand was not so urgent now that we no longer had to cower in our huts from the rain and could live outdoors and be active. Hunting and snaring and fishing went on apace, for we'd lived very thin at the end of winter and beginning of spring. We craved not only meat but the wild onions and other herbs that some of the men knew how to find in the forest. I always missed the grain porridge that had been much of our diet in the city, but there was nothing like that here.
"I heard the Forest Brothers stole grain from rich farmers," I said once to Chamry, as we grubbed for wild horseradish.
"They do, those who can," he said.
"Who's that?"
"Barna's lot, up north there."
The name rang strangely in my head, bringing around it a whole set of fleeting images of young men talking in a crowded, warm dormitory, the face of an old priest. . .but I ignored such images. Words were what I could remember safely.
"So there really is a man called Barna?"
"Oh, yes. Though you needn't mention him around Brigin."
I wheedled for more, and Chamry never could resist telling a story. So I found that, as I had suspected, our band was a splinter from a larger group, with which they weren't on good terms. Barna was the chief of that group. Eter and Brigin had rebelled against his leadership and brought a few men here to the southern part of the forest— the most remote from any settlements and so the safest for runaway slaves, but also the poorest in resources except, as Chamry said, cattle with antlers.)
"Up there, they bag the real thing," he said. "Fat bullocks. Sheep! Ah! what wouldn't I give to taste mutton! I hate sheep from the pit of my heart, wily, woolly, wicked brutes. But when one of 'em lies down and turn into roast mutton, I could swallow him whole."
"Do Barna's men raise the cattle and sheep?"
"Mostly they let other folk do that for them. And then pick out a few choice ones. There's those who'd call it thieving, but that's too delicate and legal a word. Tithing, we called it. We tithed the farmers' flocks."
"So you lived there, with Barna's band?"
"A while. Lived well, too." Chamry sat back on his haunches and looked at me. "That's where you should be, you know. Not here, with this lot of hard rocks and knotheads." He knocked the dirt off a horseradish root, wiped it on his shirt, and bit into it. "You and Venne. You should be off. He'll be welcome for his hunting, you for your golden tongue. . ." He chewed raw horseradish a while, wincing and his eyes watering. "All your tongue will do here is talk you into trouble."
"Would you come with us?"
He spat out fiber and wiped his mouth, "By the Stone, but that's hot! I don't know. I came away with Brigin and them because they were my mates. And I was restless. . . I don't know."
He was a restless man. It wasn't hard for Venne and me to coax him into coming with us, when we made up our minds to go. And we did that soon.
Brigin and Eter, feeling dissatisfaction among us, tried to repress it with ever harsher demands and commands. Eter told Bulec, who was deathly ill by now, that if he didn't go out hunting for meat for the camp pot, he'd get nothing to eat from it. Eter may have just been bullying, or may have believed his threat would work; some men who live hard and in good health can't believe sickness or weakness is anything but laziness, a sham. At any rate Bulec was scared or shamed into insisting that a hunting party take him along. He got a little way out of
camp with them and collapsed, vomiting blood. When they carried him back, Venne confronted Eter, shouting that he'd killed Bulec like any slave driver. Venne rushed off in his distress and rage. He found me fishing at a pool up the stream. "We were going to find Bulec a place he could sit down and wait for us, soon as we got clear away from camp, but he couldn't even walk that far. He's dying. I can't stay here, Gav. I can't take their orders! They think they're masters and us their slaves. I want to kill that damned Eter! I've got to get out."
"Let's talk to Chamry," I said. We did; he counseled at first that we wait, but when he saw how dangerous Venne's anger was, he agreed to go that night.
We ate with the others. Nobody talked. Bulec lay fighting for breath in one of the cabins. I could still hear the slow, gasping drag of his breath in the darkness before dawn when Venne, Chamry, and I stole out of camp with what little we considered ours by right: the clothes we wore, a blanket apiece, our knives, Venne's bow and arrows, my fishing hooks and rabbit snares, Chamry's cobbler's toolkit, and a packet of smoked meat.
It was a couple of months after the equinox, late May, perhaps; a sweet dark night, a slow misty dawn, a morning of birdsong. It was good to be going free, leaving the rivalries and brutalities of the camp behind, I walked all day lightly, lighthearted, wondering why we'd borne Eter and Brigin's bullying so long. But at evening, as we sat fire-less, lying low in case they pursued us, my heart went down low too. I kept thinking of Bulec, and of others: Taffa, who, being a deserter, had also deserted the wife and children he loved and could never go back to them; Bacoc, the simple heart, who didn't even know the name of the village where he'd been born a slave— "the village" was all he knew... They had been kind to me. And we had sworn a vow together.
"What's the trouble, Gav?" said Chamry.
"I feel like I'm running out on them," I said.
"They could run, too, if they liked," Venne said, so promptly that I knew he'd been thinking along the same lines, justifying our desertion to himself.
"Bulec can't," I said.
"He's gone farther than we've gone, by now," Chamry said."Never fret for him. He's home. . .You're too loyal, Gav, it's a fault in you. Don't look back. Touch and go, it's best."
That seemed strange to me; what did he mean? I never looked back. I had nothing to be loyal to, nothing to hold on to. I went where my luck took me. I was like a wisp of cloth twisting and drifting in a river.
Next day we came to a part of the great forest I'd never been to. We were outside our territory from here on. The trees were evergreens, fir and hemlock. They made impenetrable walls and mazes of their fallen trunks and the young trees that sprouted out of them. We had to travel along the streambeds, and that was hard going, scrambling through water, over rocks, and around rapids, in the half darkness of the huge trees overhead. Chamry kept saying we'd be out of it soon, and we did come out of it at last late on the second day, following a stream up to its spring on an open, gras
sy hillside. As we sat luxuriating in the soft grass and the clear twilight, a line of deer came walking past not twenty feet away downhill; they glanced at us unconcerned and walked on quietly, one after the other, flicking their big ears to and fro. Venne quietly took up his bow and fitted an arrow. There was no sound but the twang of the bowstring, like the sound of a big beetle's wings. The last deer in line started, went down on its knees, and then lay down, all in that peaceful silence. The others never turned, but walked on into the woods.
Ah, why'd I do that," Venne said. "Now we've got to clean it." But that was soon done, and we were glad to have fresh meat that night and for the next day. As we sat, well fed, by the coals of our fire,
Chamry said, "If this was the Uplands I'd have said you called those deer."
"Called 'em?"
"It's a gift— calling animals to come. A brantor goes out hunting, well, he takes a caller with him, if he hasn't the gift himself. Boar, or elk, or deer, whatever they're after, they'll come to the caller."
"I can't do that," Venne said after a while in his low voice. "But I can see how it might be. If I know the land, I know pretty much, most times, where the deer are. As they know where I am. And if they're afraid, I'll never see them. But if they're not afraid, they'll come. They show themselves— 'Here I am, you wanted me.' They give themselves. A man who doesn't know that has no business hunting. He's only a butcher."
We went on for two days more through rolling, open woods before we came to a good-sized stream. "Across that is Barna's country," said Chamry. "And we'd best stay on the path and make noise, let them know we're here, lest they think we're sneaking in to spy." So we came crashing into Barna's lands like a herd of wild pigs, as Venne said. We came on a path and followed it, still talking loudly. Soon enough there was a shout to halt and hold still. We did that. Two men came striding down the path to meet us. One was tall and thin, one was short and broad-bellied,
"Do you know where you are?" said the short one, false-jovial, not quite menacing. The tall one held his crossbow loaded, though not aimed.
"In the Heart of the Forest," said Chamry. "Seeking a welcome, To-ma. You don't remember me?"
"Well, by the Destroyer! The bad penny always turns up!" Toma came forward to take Chamry by one shoulder and shake him back and forth with aggressive welcome. "You Upland rat," he said. "You vermin.
Crawled off at night you did, with Brigin and that lot. What did you want to go with them for?"
"It was a mistake, Toma," said Chamry, getting his footing so Toma could go on shaking him. "Call it a mistake and forgive it, eh?"
"Why not? Won't be the last thing I forgive you, Chamry Bern." He let him go at last, "What have you brought with you there? Baby rats, are they?"
"All I took away with me was those pigheads Brigin and his brother," Chamry said, "and what I'm bringing back with me is two pearls, pearls set in gold for the ears of Barna. Venne, here, who can drop a deer at a thousand paces, and Gav, here, who can tell tales and poetry to make you weep one moment and laugh the next. Take us into the Heart of the Forest, Toma!"
So we went on a mile or so through the forest of oak and alder, and came to that strange place.
The Heart of the Forest was a town, with kitchen gardens and barns and byres and corrals outside the palisade walls, and inside them houses and halls, streets and squares— all of wood. Towns and cities were built of stone and brick, I thought; only barns for cattle and huts for slaves were built of wood. But this was a city of wood. It was swarming with people, men, and women too, and children— everywhere, in the gardens, in the streets. I looked at the women and children with wonder, I looked at the cross-beamed, gable-roofed houses with awe, I looked at the broad central square full of people and stopped, scared. Venne was walking right next to me, pressed up against my shoulder for courage. "I never saw nothing like this, Gav," he said hoarsely. We followed as close behind Chamry as two little kids behind the she-goat.
Chamry himself was looking about with some amazement. "It wasn't half this size when I left," he said. "Look how they've built!"
"You're in luck," said Toma, our fat guide. "There's himself."
Coming across the square towards us was a big, bearded man. Very tall, broad-chested, ample in girth, with dark reddish curly hair and a beard that covered all his cheeks and chin and chest, with large, clear eyes, and a singularly upright, buoyant walk, as if he were borne up a little above the ground— as soon as you saw him you knew he was, as Toma said, himself. He was looking at us with a pleasant, keen curiosity.
"Barna!" Chamry said. "Will you have me back, if I bring you a couple of choice recruits?" Chamry did not quite reverence Barna, but his posture was respectful, despite his jaunty tone. "I'm Chamry Bern of Bernmant, who made the mistake of going off south a few years back."
"The Uplander," Barna said, and smiled. He hada broad white smile that flashed in his beard, and a magnificently deep voice. "Oh, you're welcome back for yourself, man. We're free to come and free to go here!" He took Chamry's hand and shook it. "And the lads?"
Chamry introduced us, with a few words about our talents. Barna patted Venne's shoulder and told him a hunter was always welcome in the Heart of the Forest; at me he looked intently for a minute, and said, "Come see me later today, Gav, if you will. Toma, you'll find them quarters? Good, good, good! Welcome to freedom, lads!" And he strode on, a head taller than anyone else.
Chamry was beaming. "By the Stone!" he said. "Never a hard word, but welcome back and all's forgiven! That's a great man, with a great heart in him!"
We found lodgings in a barrack that seemed luxurious after our ill-built, smoky huts in the forest camp, and ate at the commons, which was open all day to all comers. There Chamry got his heart's desire: they'd roasted a couple of sheep, and he ate roast mutton till his eyes gleamed with satisfaction above his cheeks shining with mutton fat. After that he took me to Barna's house, which loomed over the central square, but did not go in with me. "I won't press my luck," he said, "He
asked you to come, not me. Sing him that song of yours, 'Liberty' eh? That'll win him."
So I went in, trying to act as if I wasn't daunted, and said to the people that Barna had asked me to come. They were all men, but I heard women's voices farther in the house. That sound, the sound of women's voices in other rooms of a great house, made my mind stir strangely. I wanted to stop and listen. There was a voice I wanted to hear.
But I had to follow the men who took me to a hall with a big hearth, though there was no fire in it now. There Barna was sitting in a chair big enough for him, a regular throne, talking and laughing with both men and women. The women wore beautiful clothes, of such colors as I had not seen for months and months except in a flower or the dawn sky. You will laugh, but it was the colors I stared at, not the women. Some of the men were well dressed, too, and it was pleasant to see men clean, in handsome clothing, talking and laughing aloud. It was familiar.
"Come here, lad," said Barna in his deep, grand voice. "Gav, is it? Are you from Casicar, Gav, or Asion?"
Now, in Brigin's camp you never asked a man where he was from. Among runaway slaves, deserters, and wanted thieves, the question wasn't well received. Chamry was the only one of us who often talked freely about where he'd run from, and that was because he was so far away from it. Not long ago we'd heard of raids into the forest, slave takers looking for runaways. For all of us it was better to have no past at all, which just suited me. I was so taken aback by Barna's question that I answered it stiffly and uneasily, sounding even to myself as if I were lying. "I'm from Etra."
"Etra, is it? Well, I know a city man when I see one. I was born in Asion myself, a slave son of slaves. As you see, I've brought the city into the forest. What's the good of freedom if you're poor, hungry, dirty,
and cold? That's no freedom worth having! If a man wants to live by the bow or by the work of his hands, let him take his choice, but here in our realm no man will live in slavery or in want. That's the beginn
ing and the end of the Law of Barna. Right?" he asked the people around him, laughing, and they shouted back, "Right!"
The energy and goodwill of the man, his pure enjoyment in being, were irresistible. He embraced us all in his warmth and strength. He was keen, too; his clear eyes saw quick and deep. He looked at me and said, "You were a house slave, and pretty well treated, right? So was I. What were you trained to do in the great house for your masters?"
"I was educated to teach the children of the house." I spoke slowly It was like reading a story in my mind. I was talking about somebody else.
Barna leaned forward, intensely interested. "Educated!" he said. "Writing, reading —all such?"
"Yes."
"Chamry said you were a singer?"
"A speaker," I said.
"A speaker. What do you speak?"
"Anything I've read," I said, not as a boast, but because it was true. "What have you read?"
"The historians, the philosophers, the poets."
"A learned man. By the Deaf One! A learned man! A scholar! Lord Luck has sent me the man I wanted, the man I lacked!" Barna stared at me with amazed delight, then got up from his huge chair, came to me, and took me into a bear hug. My face was mashed into his curling beard. He squeezed the breath out of me then held me out at arm's length.
"You will live here," he said. "Right? Give him room, Diero! And tonight, will you speak for us tonight? Will you say us a piece of your learning, Gav-di the Scholar? Eh?"
I said I would.
"There's no books for you here," he said almost anxiously, still holding me by the shoulders. "Everything else a man might need we have, but books— books aren't what most of my men would bring here with them, they're ignorant letterless louts, and books are very heavy matters— " He laughed, throwing back his head. "Ah, but now, from now on, we'll remedy that. We'll see to it. Tonight, then!"
He let me go. A woman in delicate black and violet robes took me by the hand and led me off. I thought her old, over forty surely, and she had a grave face, and did not smile; but her manner and her voice were gentle, and her dress beautiful, and it was amazing how differently she moved, and walked, and spoke, from how men did. She took me to a loft room, apologising for its being upstairs and small. I stammered something about staying with my mates in the barrack. She said, "You can live there, of course, if you wish, but Barna hopes you will honor his house." I was unable to disappoint this elegant, fragile person. It seemed everybody was taking my learning very much on trust, but I couldn't say that.
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