“Toss one of those loafers the line,” Eata called. “He’ll tie us up for an aes.”
He found he could not throw well with his left arm, but one of the loungers dove for the coil and caught it. “I’ve some luggage,” he called as the man heaved at the line. “Perhaps you’d carry it up to the Cygnet for me.”
Eata jumped into the bow. “The optimate’s name is Simulatio,” he told the lounger. “He stayed there three nights back. Inform the innkeeper. Tell him the optimate wishes the room he had before.”
“I hate to leave,” the stranger said. “But I won’t be going south again until I’ve healed.” He was picking at the knots that bound his burse.
“If you’re wise, you won’t go at all.”
The lounger threw the stranger’s bags onto the warf and leaped up after them.
“I want to give you something.” The stranger took out a chrisos. “Perhaps you could come back at the next moon and see if I’m well enough to go.”
“I won’t take your yellow boy,” Eata said. “You owe me an asimi for pike rent. I’ll take that.”
“But you will come back?”
“For an asimi a day? Of course I will. So would any other boatman.”
The stranger hesitated while he looked at Eata, and Eata at him. “I think I can trust you,” he said at last. “I wouldn’t want to go into those ruins with anyone else.”
“I know,” Eata told him. “That’s why I’m going to give you some advice. Walk away from the river a couple of streets, and you’ll find a goldsmith’s. It’s the sign of the Osela. That’s a golden bird.”
“I know what it is.”
“Yes, you would. Fold up your map—” He laughed. “You shouldn’t flinch like that. If you’re going to deal with people like me, you’re going to have to learn to govern your face.”
“I didn’t think you knew about it.”
“It’s in your boot,” Eata told him softly.
‘You spied on me!“
“Sometime when you took it out? No. But once when you sat on the gunnel, you jerked your feet away from the water; and when you slept, you kept your boots on. A boatman might have done that, but you? Not unless you had something more than your feet in them.”
“I see.”
Eata looked away, his eyes tracing the slow, immutable flow of great Gyoll to the southwest. “I knew a man who had one of those maps,” he said. “A man can spend half his life looking, and never find a thing. Maybe it’s under the sea now. Maybe someone found it long ago. Maybe it was never there at all. You understand? And he can’t trust anyone, not his friend, not even his woman.”
“And if his friend and his woman took it from him,” the stranger said, “one might kill the other to have the whole of it. Yes, I see how it is. That isn’t the map I have, if that’s what you’re thinking. I found this one between the pages of an old book.”
“I was hoping it was mine,” Eata told him. “You said you understood, but you don’t. I let them take it. I wanted them to have it, so they’d leave me alone. So I wouldn’t end up like the men we fought with yesterday. I got drunk, let them see the key, let them see me lock the map in my chest.”
“But you woke,” the stranger said.
Eata turned to face him, suddenly angry. “That fool Laetus broke the lock! I thought …”
“You don’t have to tell me about it.”
“He and Syntyche were younger than I. I only thought they’d waste their lives looking, the way I’d wasted mine, and Maxellindis’s too. I didn’t think he’d kill Syntyche.”
“He killed her,” the stranger said. “You didn’t. You didn’t make the two of them steal, either. You’re not the Increate, and you can’t take the responsibility for what others do.”
“But I can advise them,” Eata said. “And I’d advise you to burn your map, but I know you won’t. So fold it up instead, put your seal on it, and take it to that goldsmith I told you about. He’s an honest old fellow, and for an orichalk he’ll lock it in his strongroom. Go home then till you’re better. If you’re wise you’ll never come back to claim it.”
The stranger shook his head. “I’m going to stay at the inn here. I’ve money enough. And I still owe you an asimi. Pike rent, we called it. Here it is.”
Eata took the silver coin and tossed it up. It was bright, newly minted, with Severian’s profile stamped deep and sharp on one side. In the reddish sunlight, it might have been a coal of fire.
“You knot the strings of that burse,” Eata said. “Then knot them over again, all for fear I’ll get into it when you sleep. Let me tell you something. If I come back for you, I’ll have every brass aes before we’re done. You’ll take your money out, all of it, and give it to me, bit by bit.”
He flung the asimi high over the water. For a final instant it shone, before it was quenched in dark Gyoll forever. “I’m not coming back,” Eata said.
“It’s a good map,” the stranger told him. “Look.” He drew it from the top of his boot and began to unwrap it, clumsily because he could not use both hands. When he saw Eata’s face, he stopped, thrust his map into his pocket, and clambered onto the half deck.
Weak from loss of blood and stiff with wounds, he could not get up to the wharf without help. One of the remaining loungers extended a hand, and he took it. At every moment he expected to feel a pike plunged into his back; there was only Eata’s mocking laughter.
When he had both feet on the wiiarf, he turned toward the boat once more. Eata called, “Would you cast me off, please, Optimate?”
The stranger pointed, and the lounger who had helped him up untied the mooring line.
Eata pushed the boat away from the warf and heaved the boom about to catch what wind there was.
“You’ll come back for me!” the stranger shouted. “Because I’ll let you come with me! Because I’ll give you a share!”
Slowly and almost hesitantly, the old brown sail filled. The rigging grew taut, and the little cargo boat began to gather way. Eata did not look around, but his hand shook as it gripped the tiller.
MOLLY GLOSS
Interlocking Pieces
Here’s a story by new writer Molly Gloss in which the human cost of a sophisticated new medical technology is spelled out with subtlety, compassion, and grace …
Molly Gloss was born in Portland, Oregon, and lives there still with her husband, an eight-year-old son, and a twelve-year-old niece. She has sold several stories to The Magazine of Fantasy and Science Fiction, and has also appeared in Universe.
For Teo, there was never a question of abandoning the effort. After the last refusal—the East European Minister of Health sent her his personal explanation and regrets—it became a matter of patience and readiness and rather careful timing.
A uniformed policeman had been posted beside her door for reasons, apparently, of protocol. At eight-thirty, when he went down the corridor to the public lavatory, Teo was dressed and waiting, and she walked out past the nurses’ station. It stood empty. The robo-nurse was still making the eight-o’clock rounds of the wing’s seventy or eighty rooms. The organic nurse, just come on duty, was leaning over the vid displays in the alcove behind the station, familiarizing herself with the day’s new admissions.
Because it was the nearest point of escape, Teo used the staircase. But the complex skill of descending stairs had lately deserted her, so she stepped down like a child, one leg at a time, grimly clutching the metal bannister with both hands. After a couple of floors she went in again to find a public data terminal in a ward that was too busy to notice her.
They had not told her even the donor’s name, and a straightforward computer request met a built-in resistance: DATA RESTRICTED***KEY IN PHYSICIAN IDENT CODE. So she asked the machine for the names of organ donors on contract with the regional Ministry of Health, then a list of the hospital’s terminal patients, the causes and projected times of their deaths, and the postmortem neurosurgeries scheduled for the next morning. And, finally, the names of
patients about whom information was media-restricted. Teo’s own name appeared on the last list. She should have been ready for that but found she was not, and she sat staring until the letters grew unfamiliar, assumed strange juxtapositions, became detached and meaningless—the name of a stranger.
The computer scanned and compared the lists for her, extrapolated from the known data, and delivered only one name. She did not ask for hard copy. She looked at the vid display a moment, maybe longer than a moment, and then punched it off and sat staring at the blank screen.
Perhaps not consciously, she had expected a woman. The name, a man’s name, threw her off balance a little. She would have liked a little time to get used to the sound of it, the sound it made in her head and on her lips. She would have liked to know the name before she knew the man. But he would be dead in the morning. So she spoke it once, only once. Out loud. With exactness and with care. “Dhavir Stahl,” she said. And then went to a pneumo-tube and rode up.
In the tube there were at first several others, finally only one. Not European, perhaps North African, a man with eyebrows in a thick straight line across a beetled brow. He watched her sidelong—clearly recognized her—and he wore a physician’s ID badge. In a workplace as large as this one the rumor apparatus would be well established. He would know of her admission, maybe even the surgery that had been scheduled. Would, at the very least, see the incongruity of a VIP patient, street-dressed and unaccompanied, riding up in the public pneumo-tube. So Teo stood imperiously beside him with hands cupped together behind her back and eyes focused on the smooth center seam of the door while she waited for him to speak, or not. When the tube opened at the seventy-eighth floor he started out, then half turned toward her, made a stiff little bow, and said, “Good health, Madame Minister,” and finally exited. If he reported straightaway to security, she might have five minutes, or ten, before they reasoned out where she had gone. And standing alone now in the pneumo-tube, she began to feel the first sour leaking of despair—what could be said, learned, shared in that little time?
There was a vid map beside the portal on the ninety-first floor. She searched it until she found the room and the straightest route, then went deliberately down the endless corridors, past the little tableaux of sickness framed where a door here or there stood open, and finally to Stahl’s door, closed, where there was no special feel of death, only the numbered code posted alongside the name to denote a life that was ending.
She would have waited. She wanted to wait, to gather up a few dangling threads, reweave a place or two that had lately worn through. But the physician in the pneumo-tube had stolen that possibility. So she took in a thin new breath and touched one thumb to the admit disk. The door hushed aside, waited for her, closed behind her. She stood just inside, stood very straight, with her hands open beside her thighs.
The man whose name was Dhavir Stahl was fitting together the pieces of a masters-level holoplex, sitting cross-legged, bare-kneed, on his bed, with the scaffolding of the puzzle in front of him on the bed table and its thousands of tiny elements jumbled around him on the sheets. He looked at Teo from under the ledge of his eyebrows while he worked. He had that vaguely anxious quality all East Europeans seem to carry about their eyes. But his mouth was good, a wide mouth with creases lapping around its corners, showing the places where his smile would fit. And he worked silently, patiently.
“I … would speak with you,” Teo said.
He was tolerant, even faintly apologetic. “Did you look at the file, or just the door code? I’ve already turned down offers from a priest and a psychiatrist and, this morning, from somebody in narcotics. I just don’t seem to need any deathbed comforting.”
“I am Teo.”
“What is that? One of the research divisions?”
“My name.”
His mouth moved, a near smile, perhaps embarrassment.
“They hadn’t told you my name, then.”
And finally he took it in. His face seemed to tighten, all of it pulling back toward his scalp as the skin shrinks from the skull of a corpse, so that his mouth was too wide and there was no space for smiling. Or too much.
“They … seem to have a good many arbitrary rules,” Teo said. “They refused me this meeting, your name even. And you mine, it appears. I could not—I had a need to know.”
She waited raggedly through a very long silence. Her palms were faintly damp, but she continued to hold them open beside her legs. Finally Dhavir Stahl moved, straightened a little, perhaps took a breath. But his eyes stayed with Teo.
“You look healthy,” he said. It seemed a question.
She made a slight gesture with one shoulder, a sort of shrugging off. “I have … lost a couple of motor skills.” And in a moment, because he continued to wait, she added, “The cerebellum is evidently quite diseased. They first told me I would die. Then they said no, maybe not, and they sent me here. ‘The state of the art,’ or something to that effect.”
He had not moved his eyes from her. One of his hands lightly touched the framework of the puzzle as a blind man would touch a new face, but he never took his eyes from Teo. Finally she could not bear that, and her own eyes skipped out to the window and the dark sheets of rain flapping beneath the overcast.
“You are … not what I expected,” he said. When her eyes came round to him again, he made that near smile and forced air from his mouth—not a laugh, a hard sound of bleak amusement. “Don’t ask! God, I don’t know what I expected.” He let go the puzzle and looked away finally, looked down at his hands, then out to the blank vid screen on the wall, the aseptic toilet in the corner. When he lifted his face to her again, his eyes were very dark, very bright. She thought he might weep, or that she would. But he said only, “You are Asian.” He was not quite asking it.
“Yes.”
“Pakistani?”
“Nepalese.”
He nodded without surprise or interest. “Do you climb?”
She lifted her shoulders again, shrugging. “We are not all Sherpa bearers,” she said with a prickly edge of impatience. There was no change at his mouth, but he fell silent and looked away from her. Belatedly she felt she might have shown more tolerance. Her head began to ache a little from a point at the base of the skull. She would have liked to knead the muscles along her shoulders. But she waited, standing erect and stiff and dismal, with her hands hanging, while the time they had went away quickly and ill used.
Finally Dhavir Stahl raised his arms, made a loose, meaningless gesture in the air, then combed back his hair with the fingers of both hands. His hair and his hands seemed very fine. “Why did you come?” he said, and his eyelashes drew closed, shielding him as he spoke.
There were answers that would have hurt him again. She sorted through for one that would not. “To befriend you,” she said, and saw his eyes open slowly. In a moment he sighed. It was a small sound, dry and sliding, the sound a bare foot makes in sand. He looked at the puzzle, touched an element lying loose on the bed, turned it round with a fingertip. And round.
Without looking toward her, he said, “Their computer has me dead at four-oh-seven-fourteen. They’ve told you that, I guess. There’s a two percent chance of miscalculation. Two or three, I forget. So anyway, by four-thirty—” His mouth was drawn out thin.
“They would have given you another artificial heart.”
He lifted his face, nearly smiled again. “They told you that? Yes. Another one. I wore out my own and one of theirs.” He did not explain or justify. He simply raised his shoulders, perhaps shrugging, and said, “That’s enough.” He was looking toward her, but his eyes saw only inward. She waited for him. Finally he stirred, turned his hands palms up, studied them.
“Did they—I wasn’t expecting a woman. Men and women move differently. I didn’t think they’d give a man’s cerebellum to a woman.” He glanced at Teo, at her body. “And you’re small. I’m, what, twenty kilos heavier, half a meter taller? I’d think you’d have some trouble getting used to �
�� the way I move. Or anyway the way my brain tells my body to move.” He was already looking at his hands again, rubbing them against one another with a slight papery sound.
“They told me I would adapt to it,” Teo said. “Or the … new cerebellum could be retaught.”
His eyes skipped up to her as if she had startled or frightened him. His mouth moved too, sliding out wide to show the sharp edge of his teeth. “They didn’t tell me that,” he said from a rigid grin.
It was a moment before she was able to find a reason for his agitation. “It won’t—They said it wouldn’t … reduce the donor’s … sense of self.”
After a while, after quite a while, he said, “What word did they use? They wouldn’t have said ‘reduce.’ Maybe ‘correct’ or ‘edit out.’” His eyes slid sideways, away from her, then back again. His mouth was still tight, grimacing, shaping a smile that wasn’t there. “They were at least frank about it. They said the cerebellum only runs the automatic motor functions, the skilled body movements. They said they would have expected—no, they said they would have liked—a transplanted cerebellum to be mechanical. A part, like a lung or a kidney. The ‘mind’ ought to be all in the forebrain. They told me there wouldn’t be any donor consciousness, none at all, if they could figure out how to stop it.”
In the silence after, as if speaking had dressed the wound, his mouth began to heal. In a moment he was able to drop his eyes from Teo. He sat with his long, narrow hands cupped on his knees and stared at the scaffolding of his puzzle. She could hear his breath sliding in and out, a contained and careful sound. Finally he selected an element from among the thousands around him on the bed, turned it solemnly in his hands, turned it again, then reached to fit it into the puzzle, deftly finding a place for it among the multitude of interlocking pieces. He did not look at Teo. But in a moment he said, “You don’t look scared. I’d be scared if they were putting bits of somebody else inside my head.” He slurred the words a little at the end and jumped his eyes white-edged to Teo.
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