It was like a grim, furious mob as the Lockridge villagers battered and smashed the hated statue until the Adjudicator was nothing but rock shards and crumbling dust. When all that remained was a pile of rubble, the people were drained, though not satisfied.
Mayor Barre said, “We must go back to our homes and rebuild our lives. Clean up our houses, tend our gardens. Find all of that man’s other victims and explain what happened.”
Nathan said, “Magic has changed, and the world has changed. Even the night sky is shifted. After night falls, you will discover that the constellations are different from those you remember. We don’t yet know all the ways the world has been altered.”
Nicci also spoke up. “In the D’Haran Empire, Lord Rahl has defeated the emperors who oppressed both the Old World and the New. We came here to see his new territory and to tell you all that the world can be free and at peace. We found this town, we freed you, we destroyed the Adjudicator.” She looked down at the unrecognizable rubble, saw a smooth curved chunk that might have been an ear. “This man is exactly the sort of monster that Lord Rahl stands against.” She squared her shoulders. “And we did stand against him.”
As the people muttered, absorbing the knowledge, Nathan kept shaking his head, troubled. He said to Nicci, “I studied magic for many centuries, and I recall stories of how the ancient wizards of Ildakar had a way of turning human beings into stone. Some of them even called themselves sculptors. They did not merely use convicted criminals, but also warriors defeated in their great game arena. Such statues were used for decoration.”
He drew his thumb and forefinger down his smooth chin. “This kind of magic did more than transmute flesh into marble, like an alchemical reaction. No, this spell was another form of magic that allowed the slowing and stopping of time, petrifying flesh as if thousands of centuries had passed. I need to consider this further.”
For the rest of that day, Nicci and her companions learned that there were many other towns in the mountains connected by a network of roads, and many of those villages had been served by the same traveling magistrate. Nicci feared that the Adjudicator had petrified other people as well, but with the spell now broken those populations would also be reviving.
Perhaps this entire part of the Old World had just reawakened.…
“Saving the world, just as the witch woman predicted, Sorceress,” Nathan mused.
“You had as much to do with that as I did,” she said.
He merely shrugged. “A good deed is still a good deed, wherever the credit lies. I left the People’s Palace to go help people, and I am happy to do so.”
Nicci could not disagree.
The unsettled townspeople drifted apart to explore their abandoned homes and find their lives again. Nicci, Nathan, and Bannon joined the innkeeper and his wife for a meal of thin oat porridge made from a small sack of grain that had remarkably not gone bad.
Bannon remained extremely distraught, though, and he struggled in vain to find his contentment and peace again. He was short-tempered, skittish, brooding, and finally when they were alone in one of the inn’s dusty side rooms, Nicci asked him, “I can tell you are still suffering from the ordeal. What did you see when you were trapped in stone? The spell is broken now.”
“I’ll be fine,” Bannon said in a husky voice.
She pressed him, though. “The expression of guilt on your face looked worse than when you told us about Ian and the slavers.”
“Yes, it was worse.”
Nicci waited for him, encouraging him with her silence until he blurted out, “It was the kittens! I remember a man from my island. He drowned a sack of kittens.” Bannon looked away from her before continuing. “I tried to stop him, but he threw the kittens into a stream, and they drowned. I wanted to save them but I couldn’t. They mewed and cried out.”
Nicci thought of all the terrible things she’d endured, the guilt that she had lifted and cast away, the blood she had shed, the lives she had destroyed. “That is the greatest guilt you feel?” She didn’t believe him. A greater halo of pain than what had happened with Ian?
His hazel eyes flashed with anger as he spun to her. “Who are you now, the Adjudicator? It’s not up to you to measure my guilt! You don’t know how much it broke my heart, how bad I felt.” He stalked away to find one of the unoccupied rooms where he could bed down for the night. “Leave me alone. I never want to think about it again.” He closed the door against her continuing questions.
Nicci looked at his retreating form, trying to measure the truth of what he had said, but there was something wrong about Bannon’s eyes, about his expression. He was hiding the real answer, but she decided not to press him for now, although she would need to know sooner or later.
Everyone here in Lockridge had been through their own ordeal. Weary, she went to find her own bed. She hoped that they would all have a quiet sleep, untroubled by nightmares.
CHAPTER 34
After leaving the Lockridge villagers to pick up the pieces of their lives, Nicci, Nathan, and Bannon followed the dwindling old road deeper into the mountains. Though preoccupied with helping his people, Mayor Barre had confirmed for them that Kol Adair did indeed lie over the mountains and beyond a great valley. The ordeal with the Adjudicator had made Nathan even more determined to restore himself by any means necessary.
What had once been a wide thoroughfare traveled by commercial caravans was overgrown from disuse. Dark pines and thick oaks encroached with the slow intent of erasing the blemishes left by mankind.
Bannon was remarkably withdrawn, showing little interest in their journey. His usual eager conversation and positive outlook had vanished, still festering from what the Adjudicator had made him see and suffer. Nicci had faced the consequences of her dark past, and she had overcome that guilt long ago, but the young man had far less experience in turning raw, bleeding wounds into hard scars.
Nathan tried to cheer the young man up. “We’re making good time. Would you like to stop for a while, my boy? Spar a little with our swords?”
Bannon gave an unusually unenthusiastic reply. “No thank you. I’ve had enough real swordplay with the selka and the Norukai slavers.”
“That’s true, my boy,” he said with forced cheer, “but in a practice sparring session you can let yourself have fun.”
Nicci stepped around a moss-covered boulder in the trail, then looked over her shoulder. “Maybe he thinks the actual killing is fun, Wizard.”
Bannon looked stung. “I did what I had to do. People need to be protected. You might not get there in time, but when you do, you have to do your best.”
They reached a fast-flowing stream that bubbled over slick rocks. Nicci gathered her skirts and splashed across the shallow water, not worried about getting her boots wet. Nathan, though, picked his way downstream, where he found a fallen log to use as a bridge. He carefully balanced his way across and arrived on the other side, then turned to face Bannon, who crossed the log with barely a glance at his feet.
Nicci kept watching the young man, growing more troubled at his worsening inner pain. A companion so haunted, so preoccupied and listless, might be a liability if they encountered some threat, and she could not allow that.
She faced Bannon as he stepped off the log onto the soft mosses of the bank. “We need to address this, Bannon Farmer. A boil must be lanced before it festers. I know you’re not telling the truth—at least not the whole truth.”
Bannon was immediately wary, and a flash of fear crossed his face as he drew back. “The truth about what?”
“What did the Adjudicator show you? What guilt has been eating away inside you?”
“I already told you.” Bannon stepped away, looking as if he wanted to run. He turned pale. “I couldn’t stop a man from drowning a sack of kittens. Sweet Sea Mother, I know that may sound childish to you, but it’s not your place to judge how my guilt affects me!”
“I am not your judge,” Nicci said, “nor do I want to be. But I need to unders
tand.”
Stepping up to them on the stream bank, Nathan interrupted. “You would not have us believe that the Adjudicator considers the loss of kittens to be more damning than losing your friend to slavers?” He gave a wistful smile, trying to be compassionate. “Although, truth be told, I do like kittens. The Sisters in the Palace of the Prophets let me have a kitten once—oh, four hundred years ago. I raised it and loved it, but the cat wandered away, happily hunting mice and rats in the palace, I suppose. It’s an enormous place. That was centuries ago.…” His voice degenerated into a wistful sigh. “The cat must be dead by now. I haven’t thought about it in a long time.”
Nicci tried to soften her stern voice, with only marginal success. “You are our companion, Bannon. Are you a criminal? I do not intend to punish you, but I need to know. You are a handicap to our mission and safety in the state you are in.”
He lashed out. “I’m not a criminal!” He strode away, following the stream and trying to avoid them. Nicci went after him, but Nathan put a hand on her shoulder and shook his head slightly.
She called after the young man. “Whatever it is, I would not judge you. I could spend months describing the people I’ve hurt. I once roasted one of my own generals alive in the middle of a village, just to show the villagers how ruthless I could be.”
Bannon turned to stare at her, looking both surprised and sickened.
She crossed her arms over her chest. “You failed to prevent someone else from killing a sack of kittens. That may be true. But I don’t believe the Adjudicator would condemn you forever because of that.”
Bannon splashed cool water on his face, then left the stream and began climbing uphill through a patch of meadow lilies. “It’s a long story,” he sighed, without looking at her.
From behind, Nathan said, “Maybe it can wait until camp tonight, after we find some food.”
As Bannon moved through the brush, he startled a pair of grouse. The two plump birds clucked and waddled quickly for a few steps before they exploded into flight.
Nicci made an offhand gesture with her hand and released her magic. With barely a thought, she stopped the hearts of the two grouse, which dropped to the ground, dead. “There, now we have dinner, and this is as good a place to camp as any. Fresh water from the stream, wood for our fire—and time for a story.”
Bannon looked defeated. Without a word he began to gather dead branches, while Nathan dressed the birds and Nicci used her magic to ignite the fire. While the meal cooked, Nicci watched Bannon’s expression as he dredged through his memories like a miner shoveling loads of rock, sifting through the rubble and trying to decide what to keep.
At last, after he had picked part of the grouse carcass clean and wandered back to the stream to wash himself, Bannon returned. He lifted his chin and swallowed hard. Nicci could see he was ready.
“On Chiriya Island,” he began, and his voice cracked. He drew a deep breath, “Back home … I didn’t just run away because my life was too quiet and dull. It wasn’t a perfect life.”
“It rarely ever is, my boy,” Nathan said.
Nicci was more definitive. “It never is.”
“My parents weren’t as I’ve described them. Well, my mother was. I loved her, and she loved me, but my father … my father was—” His eyes darted back and forth as if searching for the right word and then daring to use it. “He was vile. He was reprehensible.” Bannon caught himself as if he feared the spirits might strike him down as he paced back and forth. Then that odd look came to his face again, as if he were trying to paint over the memories in his mind.
“My mother had a cat, a female tabby she loved very much. The cat would sleep on the hearth near a warm fire, but she preferred to curl up on my mother’s lap.” Bannon’s eyes narrowed. “My father was a drunken lout, a brutal man. If he had a miserable life, it was his own fault, and he made our lives miserable because he wanted us to bear the blame. He would beat me, sometimes with a stick, but usually with just his hands. I think he enjoyed the idea of hitting.
“I was always his second choice, though. I could outrun him, and my father never wanted to make much effort, so he hit my mother instead. He would corner her in our house. He would strike her whenever he lost a gambling game down at the tavern, or he would strike her when he ran out of money and couldn’t buy enough drink, or he would strike her because he didn’t like the food she cooked, or because she didn’t cook enough of it.
“He made my mother scream and then he punished her for screaming and for screaming so loudly that the neighbors might hear—although they had all known how he abused her for many years. But he liked it when she screamed too, and if she didn’t make enough sounds of pain, he would beat her some more. So she had to walk that narrow path of terror and hurt, just so she could survive—so we could both survive.”
Bannon lowered his head. “When I was young, I was too small to stand up to him. And when I grew older, when I might have defended myself against him, I simply couldn’t because that man had trained me to be terrified of him.” He sat so heavily on a fallen tree trunk that he seemed to collapse.
“The cat was my mother’s special treasure, her refuge. She would stroke the cat on her lap as she wept quietly when my father was gone. The cat seemed to absorb her pain and her sorrow. Somehow that restored her in a way that no one else could. It wasn’t magic,” Bannon said, “but it was its own kind of healing.”
Nathan finished eating his grouse and tossed the bones aside, then leaned forward, listening intently. Nicci hadn’t moved. She watched the young man’s expressions, his fidgeting movements, and she absorbed every word.
“The cat had a litter of five kittens, all mewling and helpless, all so cute. But the mama cat died giving birth. My mother and I found the kittens in a corner the next morning, trying to suckle on the cat’s cold, stiff carcass, trying to get warmth from their mama’s fur. They were so plaintive when they mewed.” He squeezed his fists together, and his gaze was directed deep into his memories. “When my mother picked up the dead tabby, she looked as if something had broken inside her.”
“How old were you then, my boy?”
Bannon looked up at the old wizard, as if trying to formulate an answer to the question. “That was less than a year ago.”
Nicci was surprised.
“I wanted to save the kittens, for my mother’s sake. They were all so tiny, with the softest fur—and needle-sharp claws. They squirmed when I held them. We had to give them milk from a thimble to take care of them. My mother and I both drew comfort from those kittens … but we didn’t have a chance to name them—not a single one—before my father found them.
“One night, he came home in a rage. I have no idea what had angered him. The reasons never really mattered anyway—my mother and I didn’t need to know, but in some dark corner of his alcohol-soured mind we were to blame. He knew how to hurt us—oh, he knew how to hurt us.
“My father stormed into the house, grabbed a sack full of onions hanging on the wall. He dumped the onions across the floor. Even though we tried to keep him away from the kittens, my father grabbed them and stuffed them into the empty sack one at a time. They mewed and mewed, crying out for help, but we couldn’t help. He wouldn’t let us.” Bannon’s face darkened, but he didn’t look at his listeners.
“I tried to hit my father, but he backhanded me. My mother begged him, but he just wanted the kittens. He knew that would be a far more painful blow to her than his fist. ‘Their mother’s dead,’ he growled, ‘and I won’t have you wasting any more milk.’” As he spoke, Bannon made a disgusted sound. “The idea of ‘wasting’ a few thimbles of milk was such an absurd comment that I could find no answer for it. And then he slammed open the door and stormed out into the night.
“My mother wailed and sobbed. I wanted to run after him and fight him, but I stayed to comfort her instead. She wrapped her arms around me and we rocked back and forth. She sobbed into my shoulder. My father had taken away the last thing my mother lov
ed, the last memory of her beloved cat.” He swallowed hard.
“But I decided to do something, right away. I knew where he was going. There was a deep stream nearby, and he would throw the sack there. The kittens would drown, wet and cold and helpless—unless I saved them.
“No matter what I did, I knew I’d get a beating, but I had suffered beatings before, and I had never had a chance to save something I loved, to save something my mother loved. So I ran out into the night, following my father. I wanted to chase after him, shouting and cursing, to call him a lout and a monster. But I was smart enough to remain silent. I didn’t dare let him know I was coming.
“The cloudy night was dark, but he was drunk enough that he didn’t notice anything else around him. He wouldn’t dream that I might stand up to him. I had never done it before.
“He reached the streamside, and I saw the sack squirm and sway in his grip. He didn’t gloat, didn’t even seem to think about what he was doing. Without any apparent remorse, he simply tossed the knotted onion sack into the swift water. He had weighted it with rocks, and after bobbing a few times as it flowed along in the current, the sack dunked beneath the water. I thought sure I could hear the kittens crying. Sweet Sea Mother…” His voice hitched.
“I did not have much time. The kittens would drown in a minute or two. I didn’t dare let my father catch me, and if I went too close he would reach out and grab me with those awful hands. He would seize my shirt or my arm, and he would slap me until I collapsed. He might even break a bone or two—and worse, he would prevent me from saving the kittens! I hid in the dark for an agonized minute. My heart was pounding.
“He didn’t even pause to savor his murderous handiwork. He stood at the streamside for a dozen breaths, then lurched away into the night, back in the direction he had come.
“I bounded as fast as I could run along the stream, stumbling and tripping on the rocks and low willows. I followed the cold current and tried to see in the dim moonlight, searching for any sign of the bobbing sack. I scrabbled along the banks of the stream, splashing and stumbling, but I had to hurry.
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