by Penni Russon
Undine
Penni Russon
FOR
MARTIN & FRÉDÉRIQUE
WITH LOVE
Contents
Prologue
Underneath the sound of the sea, the regular sigh of…
Part One
Chapter One
Undine trailed down the stairs to the bathroom. She felt…
Chapter Two
She was still walking an hour later, off the main…
Chapter Three
Mim let Undine stay for the rest of the day.
Chapter Four
Undine burst into the Montmorencys’ house without knocking. Mrs. M…
Chapter Five
As Undine predicted, school was comfortably ordinary.
Chapter Six
On the bus on the way home, Trout kept jiggling…
Chapter Seven
Undine came home to an empty house. There was a…
Chapter Eight
Undine woke early and abruptly. The faintest smell of salt…
Chapter Nine
Undine had stopped running when she reached the Montmorencys’ front…
Chapter Ten
Undine knew, even before she opened the front door, that…
Chapter Eleven
It turned out that Richard’s friends were the sort to…
Chapter Twelve
There are two ways for a star to die.
Chapter Thirteen
Undine dreamed she was drowning.
Chapter Fourteen
“Trout?” his mother called as she heard him on the…
Chapter Fifteen
Undine still fought the occasional wave of nausea sweeping upward…
Part Two
Chapter Sixteen
Trout lay on his bed, listening to the sound of…
Chapter Seventeen
The house on Beach Road had once been painted a…
Chapter Eighteen
On the beach, the dog reached her first, greeting Undine…
Chapter Nineteen
Undine sat on the bed, listening to the sound of…
Chapter Twenty
The phone and the doorbell rang at the same time.
Chapter Twenty-one
Light coming in through a crack in the curtains hit…
Chapter Twenty-two
Undine, who had always had a mother and no father,…
Chapter Twenty-three
Undine woke suddenly. The magic from the day before had…
Chapter Twenty-four
Prospero nodded at the sea.
Chapter Twenty-five
There was no shifting now, no gradual transformation. This wasn’t…
Chapter Twenty-six
Undine screamed. Time stretched and folded and shuddered inside that…
Chapter Twenty-seven
That hug. The warmth of Lou seeping in. Undine closed…
Chapter Twenty-eight
Inside, Jasper had discovered Caliban, much to the little boy’s…
About the Author
Credits
Copyright
About the Publisher
PROLOGUE
Underneath the sound of the sea, the regular sigh of waves advancing and withdrawing, she is there.
He waits. It seems he has always been waiting, with infinite patience, on an endless beach.
If you put your ear to his temple or his chest you would hear the sea. It tires him, the waves beating relentlessly against him. He used to dream of dry: deserts, mountains, canyons made of hard, split rock, heart lands, where the sea never intrudes. Now would I give a thousand furlongs of sea for an acre of barren ground—long heath, brown furze, anything.
But today he dreams of a girl. She moves in the air around him.
He has been waiting for years—since he first conceived the idea of her, even before the first cell split, and she began to take hold on the world. She is coming. She will wear the ocean wrapped around her. She will bring a new sky.
There is a map inside her, as real and belonging as much to her body as the fine network of veins on her pale wrists; a map she has always carried, and it is of this place. The journey begins inland—in a house, in a room—and spirals outward. The journey begins in a mirror.
She will come. It will be over. It will have begun.
Part One
CHAPTER ONE
Undine trailed down the stairs to the bathroom. She felt a lump of something, starting at the base of her spine and working its way upward. It wasn’t a physical something, though it belonged inside her body, under her skin, trapped inside the fine network of muscle, tissue, nerves, and bone. She knew what was happening because it had happened before and even though she felt a shiver of fear, she told herself firmly that mostly she was annoyed, because it was Tuesday, and Tuesdays were—on the whole—not to be trusted.
As the lump worked its way up and prepared to inhabit her mind, she spoke sharply to it. “Stop it. Stop it. Not on Tuesdays.”
It stopped for the time being, and she managed to continue her preparations for the day: locating her math book, extricating her homework from Jasper’s tight grasp—“Mine, mine,” said Jasper, and, You can have it, thought Undine. But she continued to prise Jasper’s fingers away and replaced the assignment with a bank statement so Jasper wouldn’t cry. She dressed herself in her crumpled uniform and settled on one blue sock and one almost-blue sock because, after all, it was Tuesday and not everything could be expected to go right.
Tuesdays were just badly designed, she thought crossly, as Lou danced in front of her with a piece of burnt toast and a coffee. They didn’t have the anticipation and freshness of Mondays, when you woke up with the weekend still singing in your mind, and made resolutions to be more organized for the rest of the week, and looked forward to school so you could hear who wore what to Nick’s party and the various assorted minutiae that colored other people’s lives. By Tuesday, the weekend was well and truly done with—old news—and the next weekend felt a long way away.
Undine ate a halfhearted breakfast while Lou tried to pack Jasper’s backpack with the absurd quantity of stuff an almost-three-year-old was expected to take to day care. Jasper was sitting at his table and chair set, made of bright yellow plastic, conducting experiments with his toast and juice. Undine eyed the results queasily, her own toast flipping over in her stomach, and decided it was a good time to beat a hasty retreat.
She swept on Lou in midflight to give her a kiss good-bye, and—remembering the feeling she had had that morning—an oversized hug. Lou raised her eyebrows.
“Tuesdays aren’t that bad, Undine. I’m sure we’ll both survive another one. Off you go, horrible adolescent, or you’ll miss the bus.”
Undine shrugged and smiled foolishly, but the shiver of fear returned. She bent down and buried her face in Jasper’s hair, which smelled of vegemite and orange juice. Jasper was busy squelching wet toast through his fingers. Undine sighed.
“How about you be the horrible adolescent and I’ll be the baby.”
Jasper gave her a withering look. “I’m not a baby. I’m a Busy Bee,” he said, naming the big kids’ room at day care that he had graduated into early because he was too boisterous for the toddlers’ room.
“Too busy for me,” said Undine cheerfully, surveying the results of his industry and giving him another squeeze.
“Go on,” said Lou, shooing Undine away with both arms, “before I make you clean up this child.”
Undine ran through the door, shaking off the residual feelings and flutters of fear, determined to push them way, way down for as long as she could. Still, she couldn’t help but peek back through the living room window, to see Jasper patting his juice and toast concoction onto Lou’s smiling face.
Undine lived in the old part of Hobart near the rivulet, in a crooked little house that was halfway up a concrete flight of stairs between two streets.
It was a very complicated place to live, because the two streets were in different suburbs and controlled by different councils, and no one could ever decide exactly which street they lived on. Their mail came addressed to either 21/2 Myrtle Street (which was below them), or 43b Camelot Road (which was above them). Every year arrangements were made about the rates, but the next year they would receive two bills and the councils would bicker over it, with Lou caught in the middle.
Every time the bills arrived, Lou would sigh and say, “I wish, just once, neither of them would send us a bill.”
Although the house was a bit dilapidated, its thick stone had been covered with whitewashed stucco, and it had a pale blue door and shutters on the front window. The house looked as if it belonged more in the glaring whitish-blue light of the Greek islands than under Australian pepperminty gums scribbling their branches in the sky overhead.
There was a long, crouching attic bedroom at the top of the house for Undine, a bigger bedroom downstairs for Lou, and a triangle-shaped space that jutted out unexpectedly to one side of the house for Jasper.
Most of the time Undine liked living in No-Man’s-Land, as she and her mother called it. She loved her bedroom, with its sloped ceiling and long windows on either side, looking over the back garden at one end and the steps at the other. The window that looked over the front was what Lou called a French window, which meant it was big enough to climb out of, onto a balcony that was just the right size for her to sit on. She had put up shelves on the outside walls and crowded them with busy little pots of geraniums. It was her favorite place to be; she felt like Rapunzel or Juliet, or some other fated and mysterious woman, sitting up there, watching the sky for bats on the edge of dusk, or eating bread and honey on a summer Sunday morning.
Undine flung herself down the steps, which were too long to walk down and just the right length for running, though you tended to gather an unnerving momentum on the way. She knocked on the side door of 2 Myrtle Street, not waiting for an answer before letting herself in. Number two had a grand front entrance, with a small avenue of trees that made Undine feel like a princess when she walked beneath the arching branches. It was a bit overwhelming, however, to feel like a princess every day, so most days she came in this side door, which was just the right size for her, though most people had to duck their heads. The Montmorencys referred to it as the servants’ entrance, and Undine found it far more relaxing to be a goose girl or a handmaiden than a princess, especially when she was wearing a rather too-small school uniform and mismatched socks.
Mrs. M eyed her with the same mixture of friendliness and suspicion with which she always regarded Undine. As the mother of boys, she had never quite forgiven Undine for transforming from an angular, boyish child into a surprisingly shapely teenager.
“Hi, Mrs. M.” Undine grinned. “Is Trout ready to go?”
“He’s in his room,” Mrs. M said, disapprovingly. Undine smiled and gave Mrs. M a funny little salute, touching her forehead and flicking her fingers away, before running up the stairs to Trout’s room.
“I don’t know why she can’t just wait down here,” Mrs. M grumbled to her husband. “Make conversation with us, like normal people.”
Mr. M scuffled through the papers. “Leave her alone,” he said good-naturedly. “She’s hardly a sex kitten. Besides, with our three boys, I think her mother has more right to worry than you do.”
Mrs. M looked disgusted. “Sex kitten! Really, Patrick. Our boys,” she went on, without conviction, “are sweet, innocent and unworldly. They’re not ready for that much leg.”
“Richard is nineteen. Dan is eighteen. And Trout and Undine are sixteen. You’ve got to let it happen sometime. Anyway, Trout isn’t interested in girls. He’s got too much thinking to do to notice anyone’s legs. I wouldn’t mind if he did look at a few legs. It isn’t healthy to read as much as that boy does.”
Trout looked up as Undine entered the room. His father would have been pleased to know that Trout did notice Undine’s legs, and a lot more besides. But they had been friends for years, and Trout had no experience in affairs of the heart, particularly not for so complex a task as negotiating their comfortable friendship into something more dire, more passionate and unwieldy. Besides, Trout was fairly sure Undine never noticed his legs and he would have been ashamed if she had. They were knobbly and lumpy and looked more like they belonged to a ten-year-old than to someone “on the threshold of adulthood” (their school principal’s term).
All in all, Trout thought unhappily as Undine flung herself onto his bed, she takes me for granted. She trusts me too much, and girls never feel passionate about boys they trust.
“Come on,” Undine said, “we’re going to be late for school.”
“Oh, school,” said Trout derisively, but they both knew he rather liked school, the learning part of it anyway. He closed the book he had been reading with a loud thump—all the books Trout read were thumpers—and picked up his schoolbag. Undine stood up next to him as he looked at himself in the mirror, and for a moment they were framed together, just the way he wanted.
At least he was taller than her, he thought ruefully, though that wasn’t hard as Undine was what his mother politely called “diminutive in stature.” She had wild hair, at present dyed red, which kind of frizzed out in all directions. She had a nice body too, and something Trout knew, but had never told Undine, was that she was often discussed in the boys’ locker room. Funnily enough, no one ever really asked her out. She was possibly too sexy for the average ego of a teenage boy. She was also too smart for most high school boys, and despite their big talk he knew many of the boys were a little afraid of her. Even if she said yes to one of them, they wouldn’t know what to do with her once they had her alone. But Trout loved her brain just as much as the rest of her. He sighed, and the Trout in the mirror sighed back. Her reflected self looked at him, and he shook himself out of it.
“Well, come on then, fellow scholar,” he said. “Let us go anon to that place of information and bookishness.”
Undine’s reflection drooped and for a moment he saw a flicker of worry play across her slight features.
“Something up?” He tried to sound genuinely concerned while holding back the very real tenderness that threatened to take over his voice. He wasn’t sure if he had succeeded.
“I…” Undine faltered. “No. Just ordinary Tuesday blues.”
But she leaned over a little and kind of nudged him affectionately with her arm. Something stirred in him. Oh that old thing, he thought, and he left with Undine for school, dragging his longing behind him.
The feeling that Undine had been trying to submerge since she woke up had returned in Trout’s bedroom. She had seen something in her own face that hadn’t been there yesterday. She looked older, or more world-weary maybe. But it was an expression that didn’t entirely belong to her, as if the film of someone else’s face had been projected onto her features.
And then there was the way Trout had looked at her. She had suspected for some time that he had feelings for her, messy, perilous feelings, and she didn’t like to think about it. She preferred friendship to sex—or to the idea of sex anyway, having no practical experience to draw on. Usually she jollied Trout out of it whenever he started looking moonish and longing. But today she simply felt as if she couldn’t bear it, not on top of that other thing.
She sat silently next to Trout on the way to school, waves of dread building inside her. She had tried her best to ignore the feeling fizzing through her bones, sitting in the center of her stomach. But by the time the bus pulled in to the driveway at school, Trout had lapsed into an uneasy silence as well, disconcerted by her lack of responsiveness.
They had started walking toward the main building when Undine suddenly stopped.
“What’s wrong?” Trout asked, and
she could hear that wobble in his voice, the one she dreaded: tenderness, awkward desire.
She reached into her bag and pulled out her math homework, shoving it into Trout’s hand.
“Here,” she said. “Give this to Mr. Anderson. I don’t think I can face school today.”
“You and your Tuesdays! You can’t just leave.”
“Can’t I?” And Undine walked back up the driveway, and out of the school grounds. She didn’t have to turn around to know Trout was still there, watching her walk away. She didn’t look back. She just kept walking.
CHAPTER TWO
She was still walking an hour later, off the main road and into the meandering backstreets. She didn’t really know where she was going, though she seemed to be heading toward home. Home wasn’t a great idea, because Lou was a book indexer and she worked at home. In a matter such as this, Lou was unpredictable. She could well take one look at Undine and send her to bed until she felt ready to face the world again. Or she could pack Undine into the car, feeling or no feeling, drive her back to school, and walk her to class to make sure she went in.
Undine veered off to the left, with no destination in mind. She needed to know exactly what it was the feeling signified, but she had no idea how to even begin finding that out. “What’s the point of you,” Undine grumbled, “if I don’t know what you mean?”
The last time she had felt like this was almost four years ago. Lou had been pregnant with Jasper. Undine had tried to tell Lou about her feeling, but Lou had waved it away. “Growing pains,” she called it. Undine had carried it around with her for a week, this growing awful anxiety. Her heart would start racing for no real reason, and she’d feel a little panicky flutter, as though something terrible was about to happen and she could do nothing. She hung around the house, watching Lou like a hawk, because she thought it meant something was going to happen to the baby.
