by MF Isaacs
“Sierra can we sit down here and talk for a little bit? I want to tell you a few things.” Which kind of surprised me, I hadn’t really taken Cal for the talking type. But nonetheless, I was happy to spend more time with him.
Once we sat in one of the over-stuffed love seats that faced the back of the hotel property, he took hold of my hand before he started telling me the history of his family. I had only met his parents once and both were very nice to me. His mom hugged me as if I was just one of her kids, I felt that instant connection with her; maybe it was because my mom was gone even though she didn’t know that when we met.
As the tale unfolded, I discovered in a new way that it doesn’t matter how you lose your family; the pain is always going to be there. When I heard that his dad, Luke, killed his own father to protect Amy; I didn’t even flinch. If I had been given the opportunity to kill Cody before, during, or after him hurting my family you better believe I would have done it in a heartbeat.
Telling Cal exactly that was the best way that I could explain to him that his family history does nothing to change my opinion of him or his dad. Instead, it gave me a better understanding of why Hannah was raised the way she was.
Releasing the hold on my hand, he put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me into his body so he could kiss the top of my head. Before whispering, “Thank you, you don’t know what it means to me to hear you be so understanding.” With those words spoken he released me as he stood, taking my hand at the last second to help me off the love seat.
I could feel the nervous energy radiating off Sierra with just the lightest touch of my hand on her lower back as I guided her towards the bank of elevators. While waiting for one to arrive, I couldn’t take the silence any longer and I didn’t want her to be nervous or feel like I had expectations of what the rest of the night might bring. “Sierra, I don’t want tonight to end. I want to hang out longer but I don’t want you to feel like I am only thinking about everything that was said and not done last night. Do I make you nervous? Would you be okay if I came back to your room for a while? Or do you want to come back to mine?”
I smiled at her as she looked up at me with her big brown eyes. Just like that, I could feel the tension she had been holding onto drain from her body. “I am nervous, more nervous than I have ever been in my life. But I am also happier than I have ever been in my life. I don’t want tonight to end, I don’t care if we hang out in your room or mine. In your room, we won’t be interrupted.”
My semi hard dick turned to stone in an instant when she told me we wouldn’t be interrupted in my room. I don’t know if she meant it how I took it but it didn’t matter, I was taking her to my room. Without thought, I took her hand in mine and linking our fingers together as we walked down the hall to my room. The simple act of holding her hand told me everything I needed to know; if this was all I got to do with her, it would be enough. Did I want to get my dick wet? Hell yeah I did, but I felt more holding her hand than I had ever felt with anyone else.
Sierra shocked me when she kicked off her shoes and flopped onto the bed. With her arms spread, she crossed her ankles and patted the bed beside her indicating she wanted me to lay with her. She began talking before I could even get my shoes off. “I didn’t realize I wasn’t having any fun until today. I had so much fun today and it got me thinking about how long it has been since I have had that kind of fun. You know what I figured out? I can’t remember ever having this much fun. You know what else I figured out? I want to have this much fun again, I want to have a fun life. I don’t want to be sad that most of my family is gone. I don’t want to be disappointed that I worked so hard to take care of Grandpa, only to have him die anyway. I don’t want to worry about who is going to die next. Even learning about your family, I don’t want to dwell on the negative anymore. I want to enjoy the time I have. I want to experience life, I want to experience sex, I want to experience this” she motioned back and forth between the two of us, and as I sat on the edge of the bed she continued, “without worrying about what everyone else thinks. You know what else I figured out?” This time she gave me the chance to answer her question.
“Tell me Baby, what else did you figure out?” By the time my question was out, she had already climbed off the bed, I followed her movements with my eyes as she stood before me just out of my reach. I wanted to have my hands on her but I needed her to work this out for herself. I would give anything to have her right this moment; but this is all new for her and I didn’t want to pressure her into doing something she wasn’t ready for. With a reassuring smile, I take her in starting at her naked feet and slowly move my eyes up her perfect body. As my eyes linger at the place her thighs meet I notice the movement of her arms. I look up just as she pulls her loose sweatshirt up and off her body. She is left standing in only her leggings and a tight tank top. My dick hurts as I realize she hasn’t been wearing a bra all day. In a voice lower and more demanding that I am used to hearing, I repeat, “Tell me Baby, what else did you figure out?” Without breaking eye contact, she bends slightly and lowers her leggings. Standing before me in barely-there cotton panties and a tight tank top, I don’t know where to look. I can see her nipples trying to poke through her tank top, and even at this distance I can smell her arousal coming through the cotton panties. Before she has a chance to remove anything, I beg with desperation in my voice, “Please Baby, tell me. I need to hear you tell me.”
With a smile that disguises the nerves I know she is feeling, she takes a small step closer to me and gives me the words I prayed she was going to say, “I want it now. I want you to touch me, I want to feel you. I don’t want to wait. Please don’t make me wait. Please don’t tell me no.”
I wasn’t going to talk her out of it but I needed to know she wasn’t going to change her mind. She wasn’t going to regret it in the morning. She was offering me the ultimate gift and I couldn’t take it until she understood what that meant. “Baby I want nothing more than to touch you and take you. Do you see what you are doing to me Baby?” I stroked myself over my tight jeans to show her how hard she has me. “If we do this baby, you can’t go back. Are you sure you are ready? We don’t have to have sex Baby, I can give you pleasure without going all the way.”
She didn’t respond with words, instead she slowly removed her tank top; exposing her flat stomach just before freeing her perfect tits. I had her in my hands before she had a chance to drop her panties too. I ran my hands up the back of her legs until I had a hand on each of her ass cheeks. Giving her a firm squeeze I enjoyed the feel of her firm yet soft ass; firm from running and working out, yet soft from being a woman. Sitting on the bed with her standing between my legs, her tits were right there for my mouth to take and there was nothing that could stop me from tasting them. Keeping my left hand on her ass, I used the right to guide her left breast to my mouth. I started by flicking her nipple with my tongue before biting it lightly so I could suck it into my mouth easing the sting of my bite. As I started the process over with her right nipple she ran her hands up and down the buzzed sides of my hair. Thankfully I kept the top longer; it was the perfect length for her to take a handful and pull. Our eyes met as the sound of my mouth popping off her nipple met her moan of pleasure.
Scooping her up as I stood, turning to lay her down on the bed she wrapped her legs around my waist with more strength than I expected. Unable to break free of her hold, I met her hooded eyes with my own before pleading with her, “Baby, let me get undressed so I can give you what you want.” Only then did she release her hold on me. Standing back, I took in the view of her laid out for me. I quickly lost my shirt and pants, afraid she might change her mind if I took too long. She scooted to the middle of the bed with her head resting on the pile of pillows. She had more confidence than one would expect a virgin to have. Once she was comfortable on the bed, she began playing with her tits. Hottest fucking thing I have ever seen! She was twisting and pulling all while rubbing her knees together, working to relieve some of her sexual
need.
Once I was down to just my boxer shorts I grabbed both ankles pulling them apart, my eyes automatically pulled towards her still panty covered pussy. The cotton panties visibly wet with her arousal, needed to go; I needed to see her bare. Sitting back on my knees between her spread legs I started to pull her panties down her hips until it they got stuck. Reaching alongside me, I lifted both ankles up until I could work her panties free of her legs. Slowly, I spread her back open for me to see, her wet bare lips and small patch of light brown hair that sat atop her mound held my eyes captive to her center. My mouth watered, my already leaking cock was twitching and all I could do was stare in awe. This beautiful woman was giving me the greatest gift and I was frozen, unable to move.
Quietly Sierra spoke, breaking me from my lust filled moment, “Cal, please touch me.” With that request, I slowly ran my hands from her ankles to her knees where I pushed her legs further apart to make room for my upper body to rest. With her knees resting on my shoulders I ran my nose along the small patch of hair, smelling what I desperately wanted to taste. Without waiting a second longer I lifted her by the hips so my mouth had full access to her center. With one long stroke of my tongue, I swiped from her puckered asshole to her pulsing clit getting my first taste of her flavor. With just one taste, I knew I would never get my fill of her flavor. I could spend the rest of my life in this exact spot and would never get enough. I followed her body’s clues and gave her more of what she liked. When her legs began to shake, I sped up my efforts pushing her over the edge. I lapped her juices as quickly as I could, knowing she was going to be sensitive as soon as she came down from her high.
Sure enough, she pulled hard on my hair to get me off her. Seeing the lust filled smile on her face was more than I could handle. I made my way up her body and before she could even speak, my mouth was on her. I didn’t give her the chance to shy away from tasting herself. I was lost in our kiss when she wrapped her legs around my waist once again. I was desperate in a way I had never experienced before and I held her hips still as I ground my boxer covered cock against her wet pussy and devoured her mouth with mine. Lost in pleasure didn’t even begin to explain what was happening. I released her mouth only to run my tongue up her neck to the special spot behind her ear. Sucking her there, I knew I was leaving a mark on her but I was too far gone in my pleasure to give a shit. Just as I started sucking harder, she took hold of my ass with both hands and held me to her while she chased her next release by grinding herself against me. Before she got there, she begged, “Cal, oh god, please Cal I need you. Oh god, please.”
Releasing her neck, I pulled back far enough to look in her eyes. She was biting her bottom lip trying to keep the noise down, but I could still hear the moaning and cursing she was trying desperately to hide. With her head back and her eyes closing in pleasure, I offered her a last chance to stop. “Baby, look at me. Give me your eyes Sierra. If I slide inside you, you are mine. This is it. Baby, if you don’t want me to take you right now tell me. I will stop if you want me to, but you gotta tell me right now.”
I was ready and there was no way I was letting him back out of this “Cal, if you fucking stop right now I will kill you. Fucking take me. I am yours.”
Quicker than I expected he ripped his boxers down far enough for his fat cock to spring free. I couldn’t help but suck in a shocked breath as I got my first look at the hardness I had shamelessly been grinding myself against just a minute ago. In a brief moment of panic, I worried about it fitting then switched to worrying about the pain. Oh shit, that monster was going to hurt like a mother fucker. Holy shit. My thoughts started going faster and faster which apparently matched my breathing. Cal quickly reassured me when he saw the panic in my eyes, “I’ll go slow Baby. I’ll stop if you want me to. Look at me Sierra, let me see your eyes. Are you ready?” When I made eye contact, I nodded giving him the go ahead to take me. I could feel the tip of him as he brushed it against my core. Without breaking eye contact, he lined himself up with my opening then pushed between my swollen lips. Holding my breath as he slowly pushed himself inside my core, I waited for the pain to come. It didn’t, I felt stretched, I felt full, I felt pleasure beyond anything I had ever imagined. Just as I released the breath indicating to him that I was good, he slammed himself the rest of the way in, at which point I felt the pain. By then there was nothing I could have done to prevent the scream I let out. Words of apology came tumbling from his mouth as he kissed up and down my neck, all while holding himself still deep inside me. When he followed the kisses with the sweeping motion of his tongue the pain quickly dissipated and turned to extreme pleasure. Seriously, it took only seconds and I was back to holding his ass still as I used him to find the mother of all releases, only this time the pleasure radiated from the inside out. He held himself completely still while I took everything I needed and it was unlike anything I ever thought it would be.
My core was still pulsing and milking him when I finally released the death grip I had on his ass. I ran my hands up and down his back encouraging him to move. “So fucking good Cal. So much better than I expected.” At my words, he began to move his hips, pumping himself in and out. I couldn’t stop my hands from running all over his body. I buried my face in the crook of his neck as I felt his cock swell and his body go rigid. No words, just grunting as he released inside me.
Without words, he rolled off my body onto his back. One arm still under my head, he pulled me toward him enough to kiss the top of my head before he relaxed back onto the bed. Neither of us spoke as he caught his breath. It wasn’t until I heard him softly snoring that I realized he had fallen asleep.
I stayed in bed next to Cal lost in my own thoughts for about two hours. When the high of the day started to crash down and I knew the tears were going to come, I quickly dressed before returning to my own room. The last thing I needed was to wake him up to the sound of me crying.
I don’t know if my expectations were too high, for that matter, I don’t even really know what my expectations were; all I know is that it wasn’t that. I didn’t expect him to kiss the top of my head like my brothers do, I didn’t expect him to fall asleep without at least acknowledging what had just happened. Not a single word, nothing more than a few fucking grunts before coming inside. Holy shit! He came inside me!
I sat in the chair facing the window and let the tears fall. I didn’t even attempt to stop them or catch them with tissue. There was no point, they were coming faster than I could wipe. What started as tears of disappointment, turned to tears of sadness. What if this was it with Cal, what if I was really just a hook up for him. That wouldn’t be the end of the world, I could deal with that. Except I am pretty sure Steve and Hannah will be married someday which means if I don’t want to lose Steve, I will be forced to see Cal. The thought of losing Steve of course opened the door to all the others I have lost. If Sophia was here, would I be able to talk to her about tonight? Is this what it was like when she lost her virginity? Before my mind could play that thought out my eyes drifted closed.
I woke early with the sun in my face and my body miserable from sleeping in the chair. I made my way into bathroom where I quickly washed my face before having to see how horrible I looked. I heard Hannah come in the room and knew she was supposed to have breakfast with her brother before we left town. I walked out of the bathroom so she could have it to get ready.
I jumped into the shower as soon as she sent Cal a text telling him she was ready for breakfast. I didn’t want to see him when he showed up to take her out. I don’t know what his thoughts are, but I think it would only take one look for him to see the hurt in my eyes. I don’t want his sympathy, I don’t want him to be with me because he feels bad. I would rather avoid the situation all together.
She was gone. She wasn’t where I expected her to be. I scrambled around looking for my phone, finding it only when it buzzed with a text from Hannah saying she was hungry. I acknowledged her, saying I would be there in a few minutes.
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bsp; When I walked into their room I could smell Sierra and heard the shower running. Knowing that she was safe and she wasn’t going to leave town before I had a chance to see her, I let out a sigh of relief and took my little sister to breakfast.
It was twenty questions. Suddenly, just because I had sort of given her my seal of approval, she decided she could be the boss of me. No really, I loved the fact that she was looking out for Sierra. I loved knowing that my best friend growing up approved of the person I am picking to be mine.
In the back of my mind, I couldn’t help but play out the different scenarios as to why Sierra would have left me in the middle of the night. The last thing I remember is pulling her into my body and kissing her before drifting off into the most peaceful sleep I have ever had.
As breakfast ended, I made sure to tell Hannah that she needed to make sure that Steve, Sierra, and Curtis knew they were welcome at our house for Thanksgiving. I knew Hannah planned to have Steve there and I would be extending an invitation to Sierra but I didn’t want Curtis to feel left out.
