by Anthology
“Well, you can’t expect a mother and son not to communicate. He was frustrated and I could just sense something was wrong so we talked at lunch the other day. It’s nothing to be ashamed of. All married couples run into a dry spell every now and then.”
“I have to go now. We’re over at a friend’s house and they’re getting ready to serve the cake. Thanks for calling, Lorena. Bye!” Rebecca hit the end button and blew through the house towards the dining room with Megan following on her heels. Both Kip and Rob looked up as Rebecca stormed into the room.
Holding his cell phone up, she stood shaking. “You told your mother about our sex life?” she whispered, the anger barely contained in her voice.
If Kip heard Megan’s surprised gasp, he didn’t let on and returned Rebecca’s stony stare. “What sex life?” he responded coolly. “We’ve been having problems in that area for some time and I needed someone to talk to. Besides, you can’t expect me to keep secrets from my mom. We talk and she gives me advice.”
She glared at him. “If we were having problems with our sex life, I would expect you to talk to me so we could work it out. Not your mother!”
“You’ve been too busy with your damned horses to talk to you about it. If you made a little more time for us maybe I would have talked to you. Besides, you can’t tell me you haven’t talked to your mom or Megan about it.” he snapped.
“Actually, I can say that! There’s such a thing called boundaries and subjects that are meant to be kept between a husband and wife. This is one of those subjects. And what about you making some time for me? I didn’t ride at all today and have been waiting for you to spend some time with me on my birthday!” She felt the tears begin to fall as the hurt and betrayal of the entire day surfaced.
“Ok, guys. Emotions are high and this is probably not the time to get into this.” Megan stepped in. “Rob, get you guys another couple of beers. Rebecca, I’ve got the wine bottle, it’s a gorgeous night, let’s go back on the porch.”
“Fine.” she quipped, throwing the cell phone at Kip and felt disappointment when he caught it. She turned and stomped back out to the porch. Picking up her wine glass, she sat back down onto the white, wicker chair and let her tears fall.
Megan came out a few minutes later with two bottles of wine and silently filled Rebecca’s glass before she sat down on the other wicker chair. Several minutes of silence passed as Megan allowed her friend to work her frustrations out.
“Feeling a little blind-sided?” she asked quietly.
“You could say that. Good, Lord, Megan, his mother? He talked to his mother about our sex life? That’s just…” she trailed off.
“Creepy.” Megan finished for her.
“Yeah! Creepy! I would never talk to my mom about our sex life!”
“Have you been having problems? I mean, I don’t want any details but did you see this coming at all?”
“How could I know this was coming?” she snapped then dropped her head, embarrassed that she was taking out her anger on her best friend. “Sorry. I knew we were getting into a rut in that area but I figured it was because we were both working so hard and tired at night. He never said anything, just that if I were to lose a little weight, he could get more excited. And I’ve definitely been trying to tone up more but with our schedules, we’ve been eating a lot of take-out and…”
“He told you he would be more excited if you lost weight?” Megan cut her off, disgust in her voice. “You have some curves, you’re a woman! You’re supposed to have them. What does he want, for you to be anorexic like him?”
Rebecca smiled at Megan’s comment, and then frowned. “No, nothing like that. But I have put on some weight since we’ve been married. It’s just so hard with trying to juggle our different hours and still trying to be together. There’s times that we don’t eat supper until nine at night, then we go to bed on full stomachs and it’s nothing healthy. I just wish we could be like normal people.”
“Rebecca, there’s no such thing as normal people, so go back to eating at five and let him eat whatever when he gets home. You need to start taking care of you.”
“I’ve thought about it but then we’d never have a meal together and I wasn’t raised that way. A family that eats together stays together.” She knew the excuse sounded feeble but in her family, it had been a steadfast rule and her parents had been together for thirty-two years.
“Then you need to realize that you and Kip are an exception to the rule and change it. Do you love Kip?” Megan asked quietly.
Rebecca jerked her head up and opened her mouth to defend her marriage. Seeing the compassion in Megan’s eyes caused her to rein in her knee-jerk reaction, take another drink and look out over the porch railing at the view across the valley. She considered the question seriously before answering.
“I think I do. Does that sound lame? I’ve never met someone that has been so accepting of my life and wanted me for me.”
“You know I love you to death, Rebecca, but playing devil’s advocate, it doesn’t sound like he accepts you for you at all. With the horses or your body.”
Having had the same thoughts creep in her head before, Rebecca shrugged. “But I said ‘I do’, till death do us part. A little late now, don’tcha think? I made a promise and I need to keep it. A Gordon never gives up.”
“Ok, that sounds lame. If someone makes a contract with you to buy one of your horses and they don’t honor that contract, don’t you break it and tell them they can’t have the horse?”
“Well, yes, but this isn’t a contract to buy a horse, it’s a commitment to be with someone.”
Megan sighed, knowing that Rebecca wasn’t in the mood to see what was so obvious, they had a loveless marriage. She filled their glasses again and decided to change the subject, wanting to lighten the mood on her friend’s birthday.
“You’re going to do what feels right for you. Just know I am always there for you. With that being said, tell me more about your trip to meet with Grayson’s managers next week.”
Rebecca laughed at the twinkle in Megan’s eyes and took another drink.
CHAPTER THREE
They argued most of the way home. Rebecca crying because of the embarrassment she felt and Kip screaming that she was being unreasonable, but by the time they got home, Kip agreed that he wouldn’t talk with his mother anymore about their sexual problems. Taking this as a positive move towards fixing the problems in their relationship, Rebecca put on a little black teddy she had been saving for a special occasion. It being her birthday and the two of them starting to work on their marriage felt like a special occasion.
Kip was thrilled seeing her twirl in the little lace, barely anything there, fabric and patted the empty spot on the bed next to him. They began to kiss and fondle each other and he pulled her on top of him. Knowing that she needed to experiment and be open to his needs, she tried to relax and enjoy their intimacy. She began to move rhythmically and was quickly aroused. Feeling herself begin to climax, she pushed herself up into a sitting position.
“Oh God, baby. You have me so turned on in this teddy.” Kip gasped. “You can’t even tell you’re a little heavy. You’ve got to wear this more often.” he whispered hoarsely, moving her hips faster with his hands as he reached orgasm, oblivious that her body had stiffened with the pain of his words. When he finished, he gently rolled her off of him, got up from the bed and disappeared into the bathroom to clean up as he always did after they made love. He never stayed and cuddled, always quickly going into the bathroom to wash off, as if what they had just done was disgusting. When he came back to bed, she laid facing away from him, feigning sleep. He pulled the covers up without a word and fell asleep, oblivious to the tears she was shedding into her pillow.
The next four days seemed better. She never mentioned his painful words, deciding to let it drop and get on with their lives. He’d been more attentive and called her more frequently through the day so she had let it go. He had even come home at five o’clock t
o have dinner with her. He always left to go back to the office, which she found annoying, but he was making the time to be with her at a meal, which was important to her.
He also showed interest in her trip to LA, asking when she was planning on leaving and when she was coming back.
“My meeting with Luke Grayson’s managers is Tuesday at twelve-thirty, it’s a lunch meeting. I’m not quite sure when I’ll be back, if I can convince them to let me use this song pro bono, then I’m sure I’ll have to sign legal paperwork and I don’t know if they’ll have it ready or if they’ll have to draw it up but…”
Kip impatiently cut in. “Okay, honey. I was just wondering. Just give me a call and keep me informed. You’ll do great and you always get what you want.”
Rebecca knew the details bored Kip, he liked the big picture of a situation, so the small details of what she was going to do in Los Angeles caused him to get frustrated, feeling like the trivial details were wasting his time. Rebecca was just the opposite. She reveled in every little detail, planned for every conceivable way a situation could happen, so that she was never caught off guard. As her daddy had told her, she could convince a tornado it was spinning in the wrong direction, if she put her mind to it. She always had her bases covered and usually won her arguments.
“So when is your flight?” he asked.
“My flight leaves at six tomorrow evening. I hope you don’t mind, I wanted to get to my room and go over my notes before I get some sleep.” she explained.
He had been so good about coming home for supper and here she was, leaving around the time they usually ate. “I could make your dinner before I left and leave it in the oven.” she offered.
He smiled and kissed her forehead. “I think I can manage, babe. I’ll probably just work late tomorrow night. Do you think you could meet for lunch before you go?” He saw the tears welling up in her eyes and quickly spoke up again. “Sorry, Babe. I know you’re probably busy with packing and the horses. We can go out when you get back.”
“NO! It’s not a problem at all! I would love to meet you for lunch. I think it’s wonderfully sweet that you asked. Is eleven-thirty okay or is that too early?” she smiled and cupped his cheek.
“Eleven-thirty is perfect. I love you, Becks.” he leaned in and kissed her, so soft and sultry that she felt her belly tingle in a way that it hadn’t done in a long time. He hadn’t called her his pet name since their fight, though she despised it, and now asking her to meet him for lunch? Maybe the fight they’d had was just what they needed to get back on track.
She quickly packed the last of her personal bathroom supplies and looked around the bedroom to make sure nothing was missed. Lunch with Kip had been wonderful. He had ordered large chef salads from the local deli and had a dozen red roses waiting for her. He’d ordered the salads for both of them out of consideration of her trying to lose weight and she didn’t have the heart to tell him that the huge salad had as many, if not more, calories as a sub sandwich and chips. His gesture was touching and she didn’t want to ruin it.
They spent an hour talking about his software project and she could tell he was pleased and proud of how quickly he was working out the bugs in the system. When he apologized for talking so much, she kissed him to hush him and reassure him that she was interested. She softly told him how proud of him she was and he smiled appreciatively. He continued to explain how this software could elevate his position in the company. They ended their lunch with a long and lingering kiss and she promised to call him and keep him informed. When she told him she would call as soon as she got to her room, she noticed his eyes darken.
“You don’t have to check in with me, Becks. I’m not your father.”
Confused at his sudden change, she hastily tried to sooth him. “I don’t think that, honey. I just thought I’d let you know that I arrived safely, that’s all.”
He pursed his lips and nodded. “Just don’t panic if you only get my voicemail. I don’t get very good reception in the lab.”
“I promise, no panicking!” she laughed, trying to lighten up the mood and gave him a final kiss goodbye.
“I do love you, Becks.” he stated seriously.
“Oh, honey. I love you too. I’ll see you in a few days.”
She was just getting ready to load her bags up in the truck when her phone rang. Rushing to the living room to answer it, she breathlessly picked it up on the fifth ring. “Hello?”
“Hello, Ms. Gordon? This is Jake at the Sweetwater Airport. I know how busy you are and so I am calling to let you know there’s been a delay in your flight leaving today. Everything has been pushed back two hours so your flight won’t be leaving until eight this evening. I apologize on behalf of the airport for any inconvenience.”
“No, thank you, Jake. I appreciate this, I have been busy so now I can catch up on some paperwork.” she laughed.
She said goodbye and hung up, wondering what she was going to do with that extra time. She loved living in a smaller town. These kinds of courtesies were small blessings that saved time and money. She went to call Kip to let him know her flight was delayed when her cell phone rang. “Hello?”
“Rebecca! Glad I caught you.” Megan’s frenzied voice came through the phone. “I needed to ask you a favor.”
“No problem. I just got a call and my flight doesn’t leave until eight now. What’s up?”
“I know you’re just supposed to be meeting with Luke Grayson’s managers but just in case you happen to meet him, could you get his autograph for me?”
“Oh, my gosh. You’re serious? I’m supposed to be presenting myself as a professional, to ask to use his music and you want me to ask for his autograph? Like some star struck fan?”
“I know, I know! But this is Luke Grayson! I wouldn’t be asking if it were anybody else!” Megan pleaded.
There was a moment of silence before both woman blurted out at the same time.
“Yes, you would!”
“Yes, I would!”
They burst out laughing and began talking about Rebecca’s trip.
“Have you told Kip that your flight has been delayed?”
“No, I was just getting ready to call him when you called.”
“Oh, wait. Don’t! You should totally show up at his office wearing a teddy and an overcoat. That would knock his socks off and he would love it!” Megan squealed.
“I can’t do that. What if something happened, like I got a flat tire or something? That’s too embarrassing.” Rebecca giggled.
“Ok, what about that little black dress you have, with high heels? Then you could give him something he’d never forget. He has been making the effort to do things for you, why not do a little something something for him?” Megan’s suggestive tone left no doubt as to her implications.
“It’s an interesting idea but I’ve never done anything like that before.”
“Exactly! That’s why it would make it even more special. Just make sure you have your bags in the truck, and then you can leave for the airport from his office.”
Rebecca liked the idea of doing something out of the ordinary for Kip and was anxious to get changed. “Ok, I’ll do it. I’ll call you tomorrow after I wake up.”
“Have fun, my dear! Love you.” Megan laughed and hung up the phone.
“This is crazy.” she chuckled to herself as she went to get dressed.
Forty-five minutes later, she was standing in front of Kip’s closed office door, panicky filling her chest. What if he was busy? What if he was in a meeting with other people in there?
She took a deep breath. It would be alright. She was his wife, after all, just coming to say goodbye to her husband. She tightened the belt to her overcoat, softly knocked on the door before turning the knob and walking in.
She stood in the open doorway, her mouth gaping at the scene before her. She blinked her eyes several times, trying to make her mind believe that what she was seeing was a hallucination.
Kip was leaning over his desk, pi
nning a beautiful brunette underneath him. Her blouse was around her waist and her lacy, taupe bra was pushed down below her exposed breast.
The three of them were frozen for a moment before the woman screamed. “Oh, God!” and began to hastily pull her blouse up around her shoulders.
“Rebecca!” Kip shoved himself away from the woman as if she were on fire and began tucking in his shirt.
Dumbfounded, Rebecca began to ramble, unable to take her eyes off of the other woman. “My flight was postponed for two hours. I wanted to surprise you. I gotta go.” She blindly turned from the room and ran back towards the front doors.
“Rebecca, Becks! It’s not what you think. I was saying goodbye to her! I was breaking it off.” Kip was yelling at her, trying to button up his shirt but Rebecca was already flying out of the door and towards her truck.
She fumbled for her keys, trying to open the door with her shaking hands. She didn’t hear any approaching footsteps but she flung herself into the cab and locked the doors. She glanced back towards the building but didn’t see any sign of Kip. She allowed her pent-up sobs to break through and felt her body rack with pain. She placed her head on the steering wheel, nausea starting to fill her belly. How could Kip do this to her, to them? They had exchanged vows; they made a commitment to each other. How could he act as if those vows were nothing? She had believed that they were doing so well.
Her thoughts were broken by her cell phone ringing. She dug it out of her purse and looked at the caller ID. Kip. She angrily wiped her tears away and hit the ignore button. Screw him. She couldn’t deal with this now. She had a plane to catch.
Her stability and her future was now solely dependent on her horses and her ranch. She needed to focus on that now, more than ever. Feeling strength and determination she had no idea where it came from, she put her key in the ignition and fired up her truck. Her future was in Los Angeles and her plane was waiting.
Sunlight seared through her eyelids as the blaring alarm brought her to consciousness. She forced her eyes open, looking around for the source of intrusion of her sleep. She found the ancient alarm clock and pounded on the snooze button.
