“When we get back to your dorm, I’m going to ask your dorm monitor if I can stay. Just until Paige gets back.”
I wanted to thank him, to apologize for ruining his night, too, but I couldn’t say anything. My brain felt fuzzy and overwhelmed.
Eric steered me toward Winchester Hall, cutting across the slick grass.
Up ahead, two figures passed by under the streetlamp. The sleet blurred their faces, but as we got closer I saw that it was a couple holding hands. Crazy as it was, I still half-expected it to be Heather and Jacob.
“Isn’t that—” Eric started.
My breath stopped in my throat and I looked at Eric, wide-eyed.
Heather, holding hands with Ben. Julia’s Ben. Julia, as in Heather’s best friend. Fifteen minutes ago, Heather had been tormenting me about Jacob. She’d had me convinced that they liked each other and that they’d even kissed. She’d obviously moved on already—to breaking up Julia and Ben. But that was what Heather Fox did, wasn’t it? I should have known better by now.
I almost laughed out loud, but I didn’t even have the energy. Fighting with my friends had exhausted me. In that moment, I couldn’t stand to look at Heather for one more second. Eric’s arm tightened around me. I raised my head as we passed Heather and Ben and forced myself not to look at them. Eric did the same.
We walked the final distance to Winchester. Eric opened the door and we stepped inside. I let the warmth of the dorm wash over me, shaking the rainwater off Eric’s jacket as I walked. Livvie, the Winchester dorm monitor, poked her head out of her office.
“Sasha! What are you doing bringing a boy in here?” she asked, walking toward us and folding her arms across her chest. “You know the rules—” Her mouth closed when she got a better look at my face. “What happened? Are you all right?”
“I’m fine,” I lied. “Can we talk about it later?”
Livvie nodded. “But you’re soaked! You should get into dry clothes before you catch cold. I just lit a fire in the common room—why don’t you go in there and get warm.”
Eric cleared his throat. “Um, I’m Eric,” he said. “I’m a friend of Sasha’s. Would it be okay if I wait with her until her roommate gets back?”
Livvie looked at me and then at Eric. “Okay, but just until Paige returns. And you’re to sit on separate couches. I’ll be checking.”
I was too tired to be embarrassed, or even laugh. But Eric seemed to think it was funny.
“Okay.” Eric laughed. “Thanks.”
Livvie put her hand on my elbow. “Come find me if you need to talk, okay?”
“’Kay,” I whispered. “Thanks, Livvie.”
Livvie pointed Eric in the direction of the common room and I headed for my dorm room to change. Once inside, I left the lights off and sat on the edge of my bed. I waited for a fresh wave of tears, but none came. Just numbness. I remembered that Eric was waiting for me. I was so glad—I didn’t want to be alone.
Ten minutes later, I’d pulled my damp hair into a sloppy ponytail, shed Eric’s jacket, and hung my rain-soaked clothes over the back of my desk chair to dry. I tugged on a soft gray velour hoodie and matching pants and scrounged up a pair of fuzzy pink socks for extra warmth.
The hallway was empty and quiet as I walked back to the common room. I realized that everyone on my floor was still at the Soirée.
When I returned, Eric was standing at the counter, swirling spoons inside two steaming blue mugs.
“Hey,” he said, his tone soft. “I made us some hot chocolate.”
“Good idea,” I said, sitting down on the couch. “I’m still trying to get warmed up.”
I tried my best to conjure up a smile for Eric as he set a mug down on the table in front of me.
“I’ll sit way at the end of this one,” Eric said, choosing the couch that sat perpendicular to the one I was on. “I’m afraid an alarm will go off if we sit on the same one.”
“It might.” I almost laughed. I took a sip of my cocoa and Eric did the same.
For a few minutes, neither of us spoke. We stared at the fireplace across from the couch I was sitting on and watched as a log crackled and turned to ash. The flames cast dancing shadows on the eggshell-colored walls of the room. I drew my feet onto the beige couch and nestled against the arm, finally beginning to absorb the fire’s warmth.
“How could I have been so stupid?” I said finally, burying my face in my hands.
“Hey, you’re not stupid,” Eric said. “Anyone would have believed Heather. I haven’t known her very long, but she seems pretty good at causing trouble.”
“She is, but I still should have known better. Jacob would never kiss her. He’d never hurt me that way. I should have trusted him, but no. I HAD to listen to Heather! And now, he’s never going to talk to me again. Jacob hates me and Callie’s mad at me because…” I looked at Eric and caught myself. “Because,” I improvised, “of something that isn’t even true. And Paige isn’t here yet!”
Oops. I’d just spilled my guts to poor Eric, who was probably ready to bolt for the door by now. Like he’d wanted to hear any of that!
“Sorry,” I said. “That was TMI.”
Eric smiled, shaking his head. “You’re upset. You’re allowed to rant, you know.”
“Eric, what should I do?” I asked. “Go find Jacob tomorrow and apologize? What if he won’t listen?”
“All you can do is try. If he doesn’t let you explain, then it’s his problem. He should at least give you a chance.”
I took a deep breath and let it out, slowly.
“Okay, maybe you’re right. I’ll try.”
“Good.” Eric got up from the couch and went back to the kitchen. He opened the cabinet doors and pulled out a bag.
“What’s that?” I asked.
“Forgot the marshmallows,” he said.
He offered me the bag and I immediately flashed back to my last time at the Sweet Shoppe—our on-campus café/bakery—with Jacob. He knew how much I loved marshmallows and he’d spooned his into my mug when I’d finished mine.
A new wave of tears fell from my eyes. Eric, with a glance at the door for Livvie, stepped across the room and sat beside me.
“Hey,” he said, gently. “Did I miss something? Do you hate marshmallows that much?” His jet-black hair fell over one eye as he gazed at me with genuine concern.
“No,” I said. “They just…bring back some serious Jacob memories.”
“Oh. Sorry.”
“You didn’t know.” I sniffled and tried not to start what Oprah called “the ugly cry”—the one with mascara tracks, red eyes, and a Rudolph-bright nose.
“Let me take those.” Eric plucked the bag from my hand. “And I’ll find another snack, okay?”
I took more deep breaths and blew my nose while Eric looked through the cabinets and tried to find something that wouldn’t remind me of Jacob.
“So, I’ve got a problem with Luna,” Eric said. He found a bag of baked chips and poured them into a bowl.
“You do?” I sat up straighter on the couch. “What’s wrong?” Eric had listened to me enough—the least I could do was try to help with Luna.
Eric put the bowl on the coffee table between the couches and sat across from me.
“She wants to canter back to the stable after every lesson. I almost can’t hold her back from running right into her stall.”
“Uh-oh. She’s getting barn sour.”
“Barn sour?”
I nodded and plucked a chip from the bowl. “If you let her hurry back to the stable after a lesson, she’ll always rush. You have to make her walk back. If she gets headstrong, circle her until she calms down.”
Eric smiled.
“Don’t let her rush through a lesson just to get back to her cozy stall. The more eager she is to go back, the farther away you need to lead her. You have to be in charge.”
“Good idea. I’ll try it.” Eric picked up a chip and munched. “Where did you learn that?”
“When I was ten, my par
ents got me this giant guide book to horses. I read it every—” I stopped and looked at Eric. “You’re trying to distract me with horse talk.”
“Is it working?”
“Yes,” I said, laughing. “It totally is.”
“Good. What else was in that book?” He leaned back on the couch as if preparing to be there a while.
“Well…”
About an hour later, Paige burst into the common room. Her fair cheeks were bright pink and strands of her red hair were plastered to her face.
“Sasha, oh my God, I’m sorry it took me forever to get here!” She yanked off her coat and hurried over to me.
“It’s okay,” I said. “Eric’s been keeping me company.”
Paige saw Eric on the other couch and her eyes widened. “Wow, you must have bribed Livvie—big time. Thanks for staying.”
“No problem,” Eric said, standing. “Sasha’s been giving me good horse pointers. But I’ll go before Livvie tosses me out into a snow drift or something.”
“Thanks for staying,” I said. And I meant it. Eric was a good friend. I was overwhelmingly grateful that he’d managed to distract me with questions about Luna. For a few minutes, I’d almost forgotten about Jacob.
Eric tossed me a smile and disappeared through the door.
“C’mon,” Paige said, grabbing my hand and pulling me off the couch. “Let’s go.”
Back in our room, I climbed into bed while Paige took off her makeup and changed into pajamas. It was her fave winter pair—the fuzzy white ones dotted with pink and blue snowflakes. She grabbed a pillow off her bed and plopped it down next to me. I scooted over and made room for her. She looked at my desk and her eyes landed on something.
“Is that Eric’s coat?” she asked.
“Oh, yeah, I wore it back here and completely forgot to give it back. I’ll give it to him tomorrow.”
Paige scooted closer. “Want to talk?”
I considered telling her about everything I was feeling—missing Jacob, hating myself for believing Heather, and worrying about my friendship with Callie—but it all still felt too raw.
“I just can’t go through it again right now. Rain check?” My body was wiped, but my brain wouldn’t shut off. It kept replaying the Soirée over and over.
“Deal. Want me to tell you about Headmistress Drake’s announcement?” Paige asked.
“Oh, Paige!” I sat up in the bed. “I’m so sorry I didn’t ask. Tell me everything.” In all of the chaos, I’d forgotten to ask her how the announcement had gone. I’d wanted to be there for the announcement about Paige’s gig as the new host of Teen Cuisine—the hottest cooking show on The Food Network for Kids.
And so, just like Eric had preoccupied me with horse questions, Paige launched into a second-by-second detailing of the announcement part of the Soirée. I concentrated on the comforting lull of my friend’s voice and pushed away the two images that had been haunting me since I’d left the Canterwood ballroom—the look on Callie’s face when she left me with Eric, and the look on Jacob’s face when he did the same.
But they were wrong. They both were. And, as I drifted off to sleep, I vowed to myself that I would prove that to them both.
2
SHUT UP AND GET ON YOUR HORSE
DAYS TILL CLINIC: 2
HOURS SINCE SOIRÉE: 38
BY THE TIME SATURDAY MORNING ROLLED around, I was going stir-crazy in my room. On Friday, we’d only had a half day of classes, and after that, I’d hid in Winchester the rest of the day. It had been bad enough when Callie, my former best friend, had ignored me during English. But then later, in the hallway, Jacob handed me my coat, which I’d accidentally left at the Soirée, and walked off without a word.
Now, most of the other students who attended Canterwood Crest Academy—one of the most exclusive boarding schools on the East Coast—had already jetted home for midwinter break.
This year, the teachers had a biannual “staff development assembly” in Boston, so that meant an extra week off for the students. For me, that meant two entire weeks of participating in an intensive, invitation-only riding clinic on campus. And two weeks to make Callie understand that Eric and I were just friends.
At the end of the Junior Equestrian Regionals, Mr. Conner, my tough but kindhearted riding instructor, had invited Julia Myer, Alison Robb, Heather Fox, Callie Harper, and me to participate. Three instructors from other top New England schools had signed up to teach classes. Fifteen other students and horses were arriving this weekend to settle in for the start of the clinic on Monday.
When Callie and I first found out about the clinic, we’d been so excited about spending two whole weeks together. We’d been instant best friends since I’d enrolled at Canterwood a year ago September. During all of those months, Callie had never been interested in guys—until Eric. Even though she’d never asked him out, Callie’d had a crush on Eric since he started at Canterwood in January.
Paige had left to say goodbye to some friends from cooking class before she went home for break tomorrow morning. Mr. and Mrs. Parker were picking her up so she could stay at home in Manhattan while she spent two weeks filming episodes for Teen Cuisine. I half wanted to go with her, to get away from the anti-Sasha people on campus.
I checked my watch. Sitting in my room wasn’t fun and my horse, Charm, was probably just as bored alone in his stall. But the meeting with Mr. Conner and the rest of the advanced team wasn’t for a few hours.
Ugh. And Callie, who was part of that team, would be there and probably ignoring me again. A pang of sadness went through me. This clinic was supposed to be the highlight of our semester. Maybe she’d magically start to believe me and we’d stop fighting. Riiight.
I pulled on a black riding boot. What if Callie saw me at the meeting and just walked away again? I shook my head. I still couldn’t believe the way she’d been acting. I’d said a zillion times that Eric and I weren’t flirting or whatever she thought we were doing. I wished she would just believe me that I still liked Jacob. But who knew, maybe I wouldn’t even see Callie. Today was check-in day for Mr. Conner’s clinic, and the stable would be filled with new riders.
I tugged on my other boot, deciding that now was not the time to obsess about Callie or Jacob. Charm and I had to focus and get ready for the clinic Monday. So that’s what we would do. When I stood to leave, I saw Eric’s black coat hanging on the back of my desk chair. Oops—I needed to return that. I picked it up and Eric’s scent washed over me—like clean laundry and mint. I folded the coat and dropped it into a Macy’s bag, smiling at the comfort it brought me.
When I got to the stable, I peered around the corner. No sign of Callie. Phew! As I strolled down the aisle, I walked by Luna’s stall and saw that the flea-bitten gray mare wasn’t inside. I looked around and finally saw Eric and Luna, the stable horse he borrowed for lessons, at the far end of the aisle. He had the mare in crossties and it looked like he was trying to thin her mane.
“Need some help?” I called, putting the bag on the counter.
Eric almost dropped the pulling comb. “Is it that obvious? I’m horrible at this. Poor Luna.” He patted her neck. “I know she can’t feel it, but I feel bad that I’m doing such an awful job.”
I laughed, eyeing Luna’s mane—it was thick near her poll and thinner by her withers. “Well…you did a good job on the middle!”
Eric laughed. “So, equine expert, what should I do?”
“I’ll show you. Oh, that’s your coat in the bag on the counter, by the way. Sorry I forgot to give it back before.”
“No problem,” Eric said.
He handed me the silver comb and I grabbed an empty water bucket from the stall next to us. I stepped up to Luna’s shoulder and patted her. She snorted, probably relieved that Eric was getting help, and stood still. I turned the bucket upside down and stood on it, holding onto Luna’s neck to steady myself.
I looked down at Eric. “You want to grab a small bit of mane with your left hand and with your
right…,” I demonstrated with the comb. “Pull the comb upward fast. Do that a few times and you’ll have the longer hairs left in your hand.”
Eric looked at the way my hand clutched the mane. “Okay. I can see that.”
“Now, wrap those long strands around the comb and pull down hard. But do it fast so you don’t tug on her neck for too long.”
Eric watched as I pulled a few more sections. “Wow, you’re good at that.”
“It just takes practice. Here, you try.”
Eric took the comb, grabbed a chunk of Luna’s mane and tried to pull upward. The hunk of mane turned into a snarl around the comb.
“Eric!” I said, smothering a laugh.
He ran his fingers through his thick, dark hair. “It’s not supposed to do that!” He tried to untangle the comb, but Luna’s coarse mane knotted around the teeth.
“Oh, man,” I said. “You’re making it worse!” I laughed out loud this time and climbed back onto the bucket, gently pushing Eric out of the way.
I concentrated on Luna’s tangled mess and took my time pulling the strands of mane from around the comb.
“Almost…got…it,” I said. After a couple more tugs, the final pieces of mane came loose. “There!” I turned to grin at Eric, but as I did, the bucket wobbled. I went to grab for Luna’s mane, but the bucket tilted too fast and threw me off balance. “Ahhh!”
Eric jumped in front of me to catch me before I ended up in a heap on the aisle floor. I smacked against his chest and he let out an oof as we both staggered backward a couple of steps. Eric kept us upright—keeping us both from falling onto the concrete floor.
“You okay?” he asked. A blush crept up my neck.
“I’m so sorry!” I blurted out.
“Hey, it was worth almost getting pulverized to have your help with Luna’s mane.”
“Excuse me?” My eyebrows shot up. “Pulverized? Are you saying I’m HEAVY?” I tried to look serious, but I couldn’t hide my smile.
He laughed. “Of course not! I’m just saying—” He stopped in midsentence and stared over my shoulder.
“What?”
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