The only rosary she saw these days was the silver one her grandmother kept on the table beside her chair. It brought back the ivory rosary of her childhood, and the black beads of her schooldays which, in moments of boredom, she had transposed in her imagination into a musical instrument on which every Hail Mary was a tune.
Forsaken but not forgotten. The words of the credo were still lodged firmly on some back burner in her head. ‘In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit Amen O God come to our aid O Lord make haste to help us I believe in God the Father almighty creator of heaven and earth I believe in Jesus Christ his only Son our Lord He was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit and born of the Virgin Mary He suffered under Pontius Pilate was crucified died and was buried He descended to the dead On the third day he rose again He ascended into heaven and is seated on the right hand of the Father…’
As faith had given way to the reservations of adolescence, to be rapidly followed by the certainties of maturity, she remembered her confrontations with the patient sisters at St Mary’s. The main sticking-point had been venial sin, a grave violation of the law of God committed deliberately, knowing it to be wrong. OK. Fair enough. Although it was hard to get through the day without committing one. Why must we confess every mortal sin to a priest? Because every mortal sin offends God and wounds his church, and he imparts his forgiveness by means of the Church and through the ministry of the priests. How come the priests have the power to forgive sins? Christ breathed on his apostles who possessed the fullness of the priesthood and said ‘Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven; if you retain the sins of any they are retained.’ How do the priests forgive? By listening to a person’s confession, giving him a penance and absolving him in the Name of the Trinity.
She recalled the solemn words of the absolution. ‘God the Father of mercies, through the death and resurrection of His Son has reconciled the world to himself and sent the Holy Spirit among us for the forgiveness of sins; through the ministry of the Church may God give you pardon and peace, and I absolve you from your sins in the Name of the Father, and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.’
She had frequent discussions with Grandmaman about the Church’s attitude towards women, which was rooted in fear. Like most men who thought themselves infallible, the Pope – Vicar of Christ, the Successor of the Apostles, Pontifex Maximus of the Universal Church, Patriarch of the West, Primate of Italy, Archbishop and Metropolitan of the Province of Rome, State Sovereign of the Vatican of God’s City, Servant of Servants – wanted to keep women in a subordinate capacity, wanted them only to say ‘yes’ and ‘amen’.
Although Grandmaman, who regularly attended mass at Brompton Oratory, where she took Holy Communion, claimed that Christ had allowed both married men and women to come with him and form a Church, she argued more out of habit than from belief in the absolute truths of the last great absolute monarch. At the age of eighty-five, she was too old to change, now that the words of the rosary had become part of her. Using the beads like a mantra, not so much to ask the blessed Virgin’s intercession as to set her mind free for contemplation, she practised cafeteria Christianity, picking and choosing to suit herself.
Following a long telephone conversation, during which she had brought her grandmother up to date with recent events at Château de Cluzac, Clare had called the Convent of Notre Dame de Consolation to ask permission to visit her aunt. She had been taken aback when the Reverend Mother herself had answered the telephone.
‘This is Clare de Cluzac, daughter of Charles-Louis…’
Clare thought she heard a chuckle.
‘I know perfectly well who you are.’
‘There is something I would like to discuss with you, Tante Bernadette.’
‘La semaine prochaine, peut-être…’
‘It is rather urgent.’
‘Tomorrow I shall be at my restaurant in the Rue Valade, La Couronne d’Epines…’
‘Restaurant?’
‘For the homeless. Come at one o’clock and be prepared to roll up your sleeves.’
Leaving Jamie to browse in Baron Thibault’s library, she had driven to the pink-brick city of Toulouse, which she hadn’t visited since her childhood. Negotiating the narrow streets with difficulty, she found the Rue Valade and parked on the pavement outside the Couronne d’Epines.
Entering an inconspicuous doorway, set deep into the wall, above which a porcelain Jesus Christ wore a chipped crown of thorns, she gingerly descended a steep flight of dark steps. They led into a noisy cellar in which a rag-bag of misfits sat shoulder to shoulder at oilcloth-covered tables on which were baskets of bread and steaming tureens of soup.
‘So this is Charles-Louis’ daughter!’
The voice came from a grey-clad figure bearing aloft a tray perilously loaded with steaming plates.
The first thing Clare thought of was that they could have been mother and daughter. Beneath the coif, the contours of the flushed face, moist with perspiration, were those which Clare regarded in the mirror each morning. The same aquiline nose, identical hooded eyes.
‘Une carafe d’eau, ici,’ Tante Bernadette shouted over the hubbub. ‘Il faut du vin a cette table!’
Among the many part-time jobs she had taken after leaving school, Clare had been a waitress. The Couronne d’Epines was a far cry from the Hammersmith pub with its lecherous manager. As she followed Bernadette and her team of sisters, squeezing her way between the benches, answering requests for water or for bread, she became so involved with removing the deep white plates wiped clean of every vestige of navarin of lamb, with serving the cheese and the thick wedges of tarte aux abricots of which Sidonie would not have been ashamed, that she almost forgot why she had come.
It was after four o’clock by the time the last of the homeless had made their reluctant way up the steep steps and out into the afternoon sunlight.
The dishes were washed in what had once been a dungeon, in a stone sink with a single cold tap. Rolling up the sleeves of her grey habit, Bernadette handed Clare a pristine linen tea-towel, brought from the convent and embroidered with a cross, and plunged her arms up to the elbows in the greasy water.
‘Je peux faire ça!’ Clare protested, wondering irreverently if Tante Bernadette shaved her head beneath its serre-tête.
‘I’m used to it, child. A little prayer…’ She scrubbed at a plate. ‘Our Lord’s detergent. It does wonders with the grease. Now, while we have a quiet moment, tell me why you came to La Couronne d’Epines.’
‘It’s about my father.’ Clare picked up a dripping plate.
Tante Bernadette worked away with a brush with clogged bristles as if she were actually enjoying it. She smiled into the grey sludge of the washing-up water.
‘What else could it be?’
Maître Long was already ensconced amid a sea of documents at the head of the table when Clare – summoned by an agitated Petronella who had hammered on the door of the bedroom where she and Jamie were still in bed – presented herself, still only half awake, in the Baron’s office.
‘I gather, Mademoiselle, that you are acquainted with the facts,’ he said, when the introduction had been effected. ‘Your father, Monsieur le Baron, is selling Château de Cluzac to Mr Philip Van Gelder, from South Africa, for a sum of…’
Pacing the room, Charles-Louis cut the notary short.
‘What we need, Clare, before you go back to London, is for you to sign your pouvoir.’
‘Making over…’ Maître Long, stick thin, with a sharp nose, receding hair, and a powdering of dandruff on the shoulders of his shiny suit, took it upon himself to complete the Baron’s sentence. ‘Making over the twenty-four per cent of Château de Cluzac which belongs to you, to your father.’
Clare sat down, facing the lawyer at the far end of the table, although no one had invited her to do so.
Maître Long searched among his papers.
‘We shan’t keep you more than a few moments, Mademo
iselle. Alors!’ He located what he had been looking for and marked some crosses in pencil upon several sheets of printed paper. ‘We require your signature here…and here…and here…et, encore une fois…’ he turned over a leaf, ‘here. Clare Gertrude Sophie Elinore de Cluzac.’ Taking the lid off his fountain pen, he took the papers courteously to the other end of the table. Indicating the first cross he had marked, he proffered the pen to Clare.
Ignoring him, Clare, now wide awake, turned to her father, who was tapping the window pane impatiently as if trying to attract someone’s attention, which she knew he was not.
‘Suppose I refuse to sign?’
The tapping stopped.
‘What do you mean “refuse”?’
‘Suppose I do not give you my pouvoir.’
‘Don’t be childish, Clare. Château de Cluzac is being sold to Philip Van Gelder. The terms of sale have been agreed. What remains are the formalities. Under the terms of your grandfather’s will we need your signature. That is all there is to it. You have nothing to say.’
‘On the contrary, Papa, I have plenty to say. For starters, how it is that Château de Cluzac has shown no profits? How is it that I have been living on a shoestring? Why have I seen nothing whatsoever by way of dividends for several years?’
Charles-Louis breathed a sigh of relief. Pulling up a chair next to Clare, he switched on the charm. She could understand why women were drawn to him. Once, she had asked her mother why on earth (apart from the fact that she had been pregnant at the time) she had married such a complete con, to which Viola had replied, a trifle wistfully, that ‘even shits have charm’. Now her father was directing the full force of his magnetism – the winning smile, the seductive eyes beneath their straight dark lashes – in her direction.
‘You are quite right to be concerned about the château. There is a very good reason, as Maître Long will confirm, why you have received nothing. There has been nothing to receive.’
Unable to remain in one place for very long, the Baron got to his feet and put his hands in the pockets of his English worsted trousers.
‘Times, you see, Clare,’ he went on reasonably, ‘have changed, I’m afraid. In common with the rest of France, indeed with the whole of Europe, Bordeaux has a serious economic crisis on its hands. Our claret, against which all other red wines were once measured, now has to compete with the very real challenge of the New World.’
‘I think you are forgetting,’ Clare said, ‘that I have seen the Mémo de Chasse.’
Maître Long raised his eyebrows. He was getting lost.
‘The Mémo de Chasse is neither here nor there,’ the Baron said, the veneer of charm slipping. ‘Let me explain. A situation has arisen whereby I owe several million francs in back-taxes to the French government. For reasons of which you are now aware, I am unable to bring back into the country any money which… I may have elsewhere. In short I am in trouble with the fisc. I cannot afford to turn down Van Gelder’s offer.’
‘And I can’t afford to throw away my inheritance. You know perfectly well that Château de Cluzac is grossly undervalued. Why should I hand over my twenty-four per cent, so that you can scarper off to Florida on the proceeds?’
Ignoring her question, Charles-Louis exchanged confidential words with the lawyer before moving to the door.
‘Your signature would have made things very much simpler, Clare. We can, however, proceed without your consent. Bernadette has already agreed.’
‘I went to see Tante Bernadette. She has changed her mind about giving you her pouvoir…’
Charles-Louis’ hand gripped the brass door-knob, assiduously polished by Sidonie. The lawyer held open the lid of his briefcase. She had their full attention.
‘I told her about the Mémo de Chasse. She wasn’t too impressed with the fact that you have been ripping off Notre Dame de Consolation. She requires half a million francs to repair the roof of the chapel, which is in danger of collapsing.’
‘The roof of the convent chapel is not high on my agenda.’
‘I have also discussed the matter with Grandmaman. She is absolutely appalled at the thought of the château being sold.’
‘Your grandmother has nothing to say in the matter.’
‘Grandpapa left her four per cent of Château de Cluzac because he wished it to remain in the family. Have you no feelings?’
‘Feelings do not come into it.’ The Baron looked at his watch. ‘You’re wasting everybody’s time.’
‘Then let it be wasted.’
‘Have you come into a fortune by any chance? Are you thinking of buying me out?’
‘That was not what I had in mind, Papa. I was born at Cluzac, I grew up here…’
‘I must say you’ve taken very little interest in it.’
‘I refuse to let you get away with throwing away my patrimoine, for which Grandpapa worked so hard. I want you to withdraw Château de Cluzac from sale.’
‘Impossible.’
‘Impossible?’
‘If you insist on making trouble Clare, the château will be sold over your head. I shall take the matter to a tribunal.’
‘If you go to a tribunal I will inform them about your account in the Banque de Genève…’
‘You wouldn’t dare.’
‘Try me. The French government takes an extremely serious view of these things. If you attempt to get the money out of Switzerland the police will stop you at the border. The account will be frozen. Forget Laura Spray. Forget Florida. You will go to jail.’
‘You really are a monster, Clare.’
‘I had a good teacher.’
‘If I don’t raise the capital on the château, Monsieur Huchez and Monsieur Combe will have something to say. How else do you suggest I pay my back-taxes?’
‘I’m afraid, Papa, that’s your problem.’
Through the window Clare could see Jamie, in his running gear, setting off round the vineyards with a loping Rougemont at his heels. Trying to control the banging in her chest, she faced the Baron.
‘From now on Château de Cluzac will be efficiently – and legally – run,’ she said.
‘I am already committed in Florida. Who, may I ask, will run it?’
The words that escaped from Clare’s lips came as much of a surprise to herself as they did to the Baron.
‘I will.’
Twenty
The announcement that Château de Cluzac was no longer on the market, and that young Clare de Cluzac was taking over the estate from her father, ran through the Médoc with the speed of a forest fire. To some the news was as welcome as the plague of phylloxera, which at the end of the 1870s had attacked the vines and wiped out seventy-five per cent of the harvest.
It was Harry Balard, who had the information from the golf club, who brought home the news that dashed his sister’s romantic hopes, shattered his mother’s aspirations and spiked his father’s guns.
For Marie-Paule it was the end of a dream. Her marriage to the handsome Claude Balard had turned out to be a disappointment.
The first major indication that all was not well had come with the birth of their son Harry, conceived on their honeymoon. Marie-Paule had been led to believe that a new mother was a blessed Madonna whose image must be worshipped; a fragile human being, pushed to the edge by childbirth, who was in desperate need not only of tender loving care but of understanding from her spouse.
Contrary to her expectations, any compassionate feelings towards her which her husband had previously harboured, and which had been expressed beneath the covers of the lit matrimoniale, had, at the moment of Harry’s birth, been snuffed out like a candle. After a brief glance at his son, Balard had handed the bundle back to Marie-Paule and allowed her to get on with it, which she had done, more or less, ever since.
From that moment on, the marriage had started to fall apart. That it held together at all was due to the fact that Marie-Paule put her husband’s displeasure with the way she looked (pregnancy did nothing for her), and with the
manner in which she ran the house, down to deficiencies in herself rather than his own disposition. Despite her best efforts, there were times when she was unable to please him. If she chattered, he wanted to be left alone. If she said nothing, he wanted to know why she wasn’t talking to him. If she laughed, it was too loud. If she dominated the conversation she was diverting attention from him. Either she said the wrong thing, or she said the right thing, but in the wrong way. Blaming her thoughtless words or ill-chosen remarks for his bad moods and his frequent retreat into a silence that cast a pall over the household and sometimes lasted for days, she felt obliged to make excuses for him. When he returned to his normal indifference, it was as if a load had been removed from her shoulders, and the resumptions of their conjugal duties was like sunshine after rain.
To avoid confrontation (it was not worth the candle) Marie-Paule had learned to acquiesce with her husband, to defer to his authority at all times, and to allow any will or opinion which had not already been knocked out of her by his bullying to be consumed by his. It was a cross she accepted, the weight of which she had to bear.
The burden was made more tolerable by the presence of Harry, upon whom she doted, unable to refuse him anything, and whom she protected from his father. That this was not too difficult was due to the fact that, like many other chartronnais, her husband was so busy peddling his wines at home and abroad that she saw him only at mealtimes.
While his run-of-the-mill clients were wined and dined in one of the many Bordeaux restaurants, those of importance were subjected to an excruciatingly formal dinner, chez Balard, at which English was invariably spoken. Other than on these, fortunately rare, occasions for which she was directly responsible, Marie-Paule’s time was taken up with charity work and there was even a local clinic which bore her name.
By contrast to Harry, Christiane was her father’s girl. From the moment that Balard had glanced into the crib at the end of his wife’s bed, he had been instantly captivated. He babbled and booed at her, swung her upside down, clapped his large hands (startling her out of her wits), and sang to her in his coarse and tuneless voice. Later he bought her toys. Pull-along ducks that quacked cacophonously and dogs which did somersaults.
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