by Paris Rose
My body tingled at the thought of giving all of myself to Trevor, but my stomach was in knots over the thought of being powerless. I took a deep breath as I mentally weighed the pros and cons. Ultimately, the idea of being a sub was so contrary to everything I stood for. There was no way it would work, but for some inexplicable reason, I couldn’t bring myself to give Trevor a firm “no” yet.
“Trevor, this is something I would really have to think about. This is so foreign to me. I don’t know what I think of all of this. BDSM is definitely something different than I thought it was. I’m more open to it than I was before, but I still don’t know if it’s for me.” I paused while I gathered my thoughts. “You said there was a contract?”
“Yes, there is a contract, so that we both understand each other’s wants, needs, and responsibilities. The contract is flexible within reason. We will negotiate everything until you are completely comfortable with it. Remember, I derive happiness from knowing I’m taking good care of you, so I would never push you into an arrangement where you didn’t feel safe.”
“Hmmm, I’d like to see the contract and have some time to think about it before we discuss anything further.”
“Fair enough. I will leave you a copy in an envelope on the breakfast bar tomorrow, before I leave for California, and we can discuss it on the way to my parent’s place in Cleveland.”
“Gah! I almost forgot about our trip. I slammed my palm to my forehead. I agreed to work late all this week. I can’t leave town.” I was flustered by the thought of disappointing Trevor. He really wanted me to meet his family and spend Christmas with them. He wanted to meet my family, too. They live in Cleveland as well, but there is no way I’d tell my parents or my sister that I was dating Trevor. They already thought I was a rock star groupie—if they knew I was dating the lead singer of Alpha Deity, I’d never hear the end of it.
“No worries, Giavanna.” Trevor walked over to me and stroked my hair. “I have to work a lot this week, too, so I need to push the trip back until Monday. You were planning on working from home the week of Christmas anyway, right?”
“Yeah, I don’t have to go into the office next week.”
“Perfect. Then it all works out. I will fly to Chicago Sunday and we’ll spend the night here together, and then we will leave Monday early afternoon. It’s only an hour-long flight, so we will get there in no time. I got us all tickets to see the CAVS game, so that should be fun.”
“Ohmigawd!! I haven’t been to a CAVS game in forever. I’m so excited!” I bounced up and down and clapped my hands together. Seeing the CAVS play at home was one of my favorite pastimes when I was younger, but I haven’t lived in Cleveland for a long time, so I stopped following Cleveland sports. It was already cool enough that Trevor and I came from the same hometown, but the idea of seeing my favorite team with my favorite man was blowing my mind. “Trevor, thank you.”
“Actually going to the game was my dad’s idea.”
“Well please tell your dad I said thanks times ten!”
“Will do. Actually, you can tell him thank you. You’ll be seeing him in less than a week.”
“Right. I’m kind of nervous to meet your parents. What if they don’t like me?”
Trevor took my hand in his. “Giavanna, I am my own person. I don’t care what they think of you. I’m just really happy that I will get to spend the holidays with both you and them, and I don’t have to choose. My dad likes everyone, so no need to worry about meeting him. My mom is a different story. I expect you to respect her, but I realize more than anyone that she can never be pleased. So if for whatever reason she does not approve of you, I won’t hold it against you, okay?”
“Okay.”
“Now, I bet you thought I probably forgot about your discipline, but I haven’t. You showed up to our class today pretty tipsy, and you acted out, so I’m going to have to spank you. Have you ever been spanked before?”
“No.”
“Okay, then I will go easy on you this time.”
His words hit me in the pit of my stomach. What did he mean this time? I took a deep breath as I waited for what was to come. “I want you to go over there, pull your panties down, and bend over my desk.”
I hesitated before getting up and walking across the room to Trevor’s desk. My heart raced with anticipation. I was so nervous. I wasn’t sure if I would like being spanked, and I was afraid that it would hurt. I pulled my panties down, just as he had instructed, and I bent over his desk. I felt exposed and vulnerable. Trevor walked up behind me, lifted my skirt up, and caressed my bottom. His touch made me tingle. “Your ass looks delightful. I’d like to fuck it one day. Somehow, we’ve never done that before.” He sighed. “Would you like that? Would you like for me to fuck you in the ass sometime?” He continued to touch me.
My face flushed red. I felt virginal and inexperienced. “I’ve actually never done that before, with anyone,” I responded quietly.
“Oh yeah?” He sounded amused. “Well we’re going to have change that.” He continued to stroke my bottom and squeeze it intermittently. I was turned on beyond belief. My body ached for him. I wasn’t sure about letting him penetrate me where I’d never been penetrated before, but I liked the way he talked to me, and the manner in which he was touching me. “All right, I’m going to spank you with my hand, then I’m going to give you five strokes with this ruler.” He tapped the desk with the ruler. “Then we’re going to cool down.”
He rubbed my bottom with more fervor for a few moments before swatting me with his hand. The sensation gave me chills. He caressed the spot where his palm had just come into contact with my delicate skin. He struck me again, then again harder this time before massaging where I felt my bottom turn red. My heart was racing and my breaths were shallow and quick. It hurt and felt good at the same time. He struck me hard, six times in a row, with a firm hand. The force and rhythm of his strikes made me throb for him. He massaged my bottom with firm, deep strokes.
I was so turned on that I began to involuntarily grind my hips. He knelt down and bit and licked the fleshiest part of my bottom before swatting me four times in a row. I moaned with delight, even though my exposed flesh was stinging.
“All right, we’re almost done now.” He caressed me gently. “You’re doing great. Five strokes with the ruler, then we’re done. I’m going to count them out.” He brought the ruler down across my backside. I felt my blood rush to the spot where the ruler had just come into contact with my skin. “One.” He rubbed my bottom, and the stinging sensation was replaced by a warm, sensual feeling. He brought the ruler down again. It stung. “Two.” He struck me again. My body writhed. “Three.” I was in pain, but surprisingly I was wet with excitement. He swatted me again and I cried out. “Four. We’re almost done.” He soothed and caressed my stinging backside before gently tapping my clit from behind with the ruler several times then swatting my bottom again. “Five.” An involuntary moan escaped me. I was breathless and my body was pulsing with sensation. He kissed and caressed my bottom as I took several deep breaths to try and slow my heart rate. I was in pain and turned on at the same time. My face was hot with mixed emotions. I felt vulnerable, disconcerted, and euphoric all at once. I welcomed his touch as he massaged and kissed my bottom, while I came down from the volatile high of my first spanking. I felt tears well in my eyes but I didn’t quite know why. I’d never had so many sensations and emotions pulse through me at once. It was overwhelming.
“You did great, Giavanna,” he said as he soothed me with feathery light touches. “You can pull up your panties now.” I quietly did as told. My bottom was sore and I was both exhausted and exhilarated. Apparently, Trevor wasn’t kidding when he said he was going to show me a whole new world. I had never experienced anything quite like the discipline he just administered. “All right, I need to get to bed now. I have a few things to take care of before I leave for L.A. tomorrow. I know that was probably an emotionally grueling experience for you. So let’s get changed for b
ed and I’ll hold you until you fall asleep. How’s that sound?”
I struggled to find my voice. “That sounds great,” I responded almost inaudibly.
“Good. I will leave a copy of the contract tomorrow. I really hope that you’ll agree to be my sub, so that we can take our relationship to the next level. But don’t worry about making a decision tonight. You learned a lot—you experienced a lot. Let’s get some rest and start fresh tomorrow.” I nodded. For some reason I didn’t have much I wanted to say at the moment.
We got dressed for bed in silence. Trevor took off his suit and stripped down to his boxer briefs. He looked phenomenal. He was tall and perfectly toned. And his thick dark hair and mesmerizing brown eyes complemented his fair skin and fine features perfectly. I stared at him as he turned down the covers. He was beyond perfect. I wanted him to consume all of me. I wanted to belong to him completely. I felt the overwhelming urge to relinquish all control to him and let him have his way with me indefinitely.
In that moment, as I admired Trevor wearing next to nothing, I discovered a submissive part of me deep within that I hadn’t known existed. This was the first time ever that I’d felt even the slightest desire to be totally dominated by a man. The afterglow of my first spanking left me vulnerable, needy and hungry for Trevor’s power and control. I welcomed his warmth as we crawled into bed together.
I laid on my back, and Trevor climbed on top of me and pinned me between his hard body and the softness of the mattress. He was heavy, but it felt good to be pinned beneath his weight. I wrapped my arms around him and squeezed as I allowed myself to become enveloped by him. He stroked my hair and kissed me on the cheek. I wrapped my legs around him and pulled him into me. I had an insatiable need for him. I ran my fingers through his hair and he kissed me on the neck slowly and sensually. A warm wave of pleasure and peace washed over me.
“I can’t wait until you belong to me, Giavanna. There is so much I want to show you. I know you’ll make the right decision,” he whispered in my ear.
I was glad he had so much faith in me, but I didn’t know what I wanted. Part of me that I never knew existed wanted to totally submit to him, but deep down inside, I knew his lifestyle wasn’t for me. Being a submissive was so contrary to the essence of my very being. I’m independent, and I love making autonomous decisions, but I did enjoy being spanked, and I liked being tied up even more.
I was so confused. I comforted myself by holding on to Trevor more tightly as I fell asleep.
Chapter 3
BY THE TIME I woke up, Trevor was already in his office. I showered and put on a cozy, cream-colored sweater dress, with a pair of dark brown leggings. I wanted to get to work early so I would have enough time to finish those extra projects I’d promised Kevin I’d complete. My mind was so consumed by what I had to get done at work that I’d almost forgotten about my dilemma, until I saw the manila envelope waiting for me on the breakfast bar as promised. There was a note on it with Trevor’s hand writing.
Here is the contract you requested. Remember the terms are negotiable. We’ll discuss in route to Cleveland on Monday. Please read and consider with an open mind.
Yours,
Trevor.
I ate my breakfast with record speed. I couldn’t wait to read the contract. I still hadn’t made up my mind about how I was going to tell Trevor that I didn’t want to be his submissive. I thought about just asking him if we could continue on as we had been in a traditional relationship.
Maintaining the status quo would be the easiest route. Though there was a part of me that didn’t want that. I really cared about Trevor, and I knew he cared about me, but I felt like we weren’t growing in our relationship. We barely saw each other. And I felt like he wasn’t completely being himself around me. He was being the boyfriend he thought I wanted him to be, when really I just wanted to know all of him. I felt like there were so many aspects of his personality he was keeping from me.
We hadn’t been together for that long, so I guess it’s appropriate that we didn’t know everything about each other yet. I was so torn. I desperately wanted to get closer to Trevor and to take part in his world, yet I didn’t want to give up my autonomy.
I decided to take some time to read the contract, instead of going in to work early. I slipped the document out of the envelope. It was only four pages but it looked intimidating. I sat down and began reading slowly and carefully.
BDSM CONTRACT
This contract dated (day) of (month), 20(yr) is the complete and entire agreement between the signatories, _________ (Dominate/Dom), hereinafter referred to as “DOM” and _________ (submissive/sub), hereinafter referred to as “SUB.” The terms of this agreement will begin on (day) of (month), 20(yr) and will remain in effect for a period of _____ month(s)/year(s). This contract shall also become null and void immediately upon request of the injured party following any material breach of the contract. Should the injured party agree to continue with the contract following any material breach, the broken clause shall still remain in effect for the remaining term of the contract. By signing this contract, DOM attests that He is of sound mind and healthy body and that He is entering into this contract on His own volition. By signing this contract, SUB attests that she is of sound mind and healthy body, and that she is entering into this contract on her own volition. SUB further attests that she has read and understood this contract in its entirety and she is in full agreement with all of its terms. By signing this document, both parties attest that they are over the age of twenty-one and that they are up to date with all STD screening.
DOM’S RESPONSIBILITIES
DOM shall be responsible for keeping SUB safe at all times.
DOM shall submit to regular STD screening and DOM shall immediately notify SUB if He contracts any sexually transmitted diseases or infections.
DOM will not make SUB engage in scene play with other parties besides DOM against SUB’S volition.
DOM shall pick out the entire wardrobe for SUB at His expense. DOM shall dictate what SUB is to wear when they appear in public as a couple.
DOM shall provide SUB with an agreed upon allowance to provide for SUB’s basic living expenses, medical bills, and leisure activities. Should SUB materially breach or terminate this contract. SUB’s allowance shall cease immediately upon time of breach or termination.
DOM shall pay all household bills and living expenses, including but not limited to mortgage, utilities, housekeeping staff, chefs, and food costs.
DOM shall provide for all of SUB’S travel expenses and arrangements
DOM shall provide SUB guidance on what to eat, how to exercise, and when to sleep in order to facilitate SUB’s health and happiness
DOM shall provide SUB with two spa days per month at DOM’s expense for waxing, skin care, hair care, pedicure, manicure, and massage
DOM will stretch SUB’s limits to help SUB grow as a spiritual, sexual, and emotional being
DOM will facilitate formal training sessions for SUB to educate SUB about the BDSM lifestyle and different types of play
DOM agrees to expose SUB to new activities both sexual and otherwise that will facilitate SUB’s personal growth and enjoyment
DOM will do everything within His power to train, educate, instruct, shape, and mold SUB into the best submissive that she has the capacity to be
DOM will respect and honor the invocation of the safe word (______) by SUB
DOM will respect all hard limits of SUB.
DOM agrees to help SUB explore any new interests that SUB discovers.
DOM shall punish and discipline SUB as DOM sees fit.
DOM shall inform SUB of the reason for any punishment.
DOM shall enforce an 11p.m. curfew for SUB when SUB is in DOM’S absence.
DOM shall not keep SUB from staying in touch with her family and female friends, and DOM will not unreasonably withhold trips from SUB to visit said friends and family
DOM may restrict SUB’s association with male friends a
s He sees fit.
DOM will not allow SUB to scene with or engage in sex play with men other than DOM
DOM shall allow SUB to scene with or engage in sex play with other women if SUB desires. Should DOM allow SUB to scene with anyone, DOM shall be present during the entire scene in order to assure that SUB is unharmed and not forced to do anything on SUB’s hard limit list.
DOM agrees not to scene with or engage in sex play with anyone other than SUB without SUB’s express permission.
SUB’S RESPONSIBILITIES
SUB agrees to maintain her personal appearance and hygiene by regular bathing and all other routine body care (e.g. brushing teeth, exfoliating, moisturizing etc).
SUB shall maintain clean shaven genitalia, legs, and armpits at all times, unless instructed otherwise by DOM.
SUB shall consistently and meticulously take some form of birth control to prevent unwanted pregnancy. All costs associated with the birth control method of SUB’s choice will be provided for by DOM.
SUB agrees to submit to routine STD screenings and to maintain her sexual health. SUB agrees to inform DOM if she contracts any sexually transmitted infection or disease.
SUB agrees to study BDSM on a weekly basis to educate herself on how to become the best SUB that she is able to be.
SUB agrees to make assimilating into the BDSM culture a priority.
SUB agrees not to work outside the home without DOM’s express permission.
SUB agrees to communicate openly and honestly with DOM about her interests, desires, limits, and fears.
SUB shall show honor and respect to DOM at all times.
SUB shall address DOM exactly as He requests, including titles such as “Master,” “King,” and “Sir,” or any other titles that he sees fit.
SUB shall defer to DOM’s wishes on all major decisions. SUB agrees that DOM also has the final say on day to day matters.
SUB agrees to never remove ownership collar at any time.
