"Oh, hell, why not?"
Upstairs in the loft I watched her undress in the meager share of moonbeam admitted by the skylight. She stood on one foot, undoing her sandal, and her breasts swung low. A diagonal stroke of illumination turned her white, then gray as she pivoted, then invisible as she slipped under the covers. I reached out for her, aroused, and pulled her hand down toward me. She touched me for a second, then removed her fingers, moved them upward, let them settle around my neck. I buried myself in the sanctuary between her shoulder and the arching sweetness under her chin.
We fell asleep that way.
In the morning her side of the bed was empty. I heard rumbling and grinding and knew she was downstairs in the shop.
I got dressed, descended the narrow stairs and joined her. She was wearing bib overalls and a man's work shirt. Her mouth was covered with a bandana, her eyes goggled.
The air was full of wood dust.
"I'll call you later," I shouted over the din of the table saw.
She stopped for a moment, waved, then resumed working. I left her surrounded by her tools, her machines, her art.
15
I called Milo at the station and gave him a full report of my interview with Raquel Ochoa and the Casa de los Ninos connection, including the information given to me by Olivia.
"I'm impressed," he said. "You missed your calling."
"So what do you think? Shouldn't this McCaffrey be looked into?"
"What a minute, friend. The man takes care of four hundred kids and one of them is killed in an accident. That's not evidence of major mayhem."
"But that kid happened to be a student of Elena Gutierrez. Which means she probably discussed him with Handler. Not long after his death Bruno began volunteering at the place. A coincidence?"
"Probably not. But you don't understand the way things work around here. I am in the toilet with this case. So far those bank records are showing nothing-everything in both their accounts looks kosher. I've got more work to do on it, but singlehanded it takes time. Every day the captain looks me up and down with that no-progress, Sturgis? stare. I feel like a kid who hasn't done his homework. I expect him to pull me off the case any day and stick me on some garbage detail."
"If things are so screwed up I'd expect you to jump for joy at the prospect of a new lead."
"That's right. A lead. Not conjecture or a string of flimsy associations."
"They don't look that damned flimsy to me."
"Look at it this way--I start snooping around about McCaffrey, who's got connections from Downtown all the way to Malibu. He places a few strategic phone calls--no one can accuse him of obstructing justice because I've got no legitimate reason to be investigating him--and I'm yanked off the case faster than you can spit."
"All right," I conceded, "but what about the Mexican thing? The guy was down there for years. Then all of a sudden he leaves, surfaces in L.A." and becomes a hotshot."
"Upward mobility is no felony, and sometimes a cigar is a cigar, Dr. Freud."
"Shit. I can't stand it when you get overly cute."
"Alex, please. My life is far from rosy. I don't need crap from you on top of it all."
I seemed to be developing a talent for alienating those close to me. I had yet to call Robin, to find out where last night's dreams had led her.
"I'm sorry. I guess I'm over-involved."
He didn't argue.
"You've done good work. Been a big help. Sometimes things don't fall into place just because you do a good job."
"So what are you going to do? Drop it?"
"No. I'll look into McCaffrey's background-quietly. Especially the Mexican bit. I'm going to continue sifting through Handler and Bruno's financial records and I'll add Gutierrez's to that. I'm even going to call the Malibu Sheriff Station and get copies of the accident report on that kid. What did you say his name was?"
"Nemeth."
"Fine. That should be easy enough."
"Is there anything else you want from me?"
"What? Oh. No, nothing. You've done a great job, Alex. I want you to know I really mean that. I'll take it from here. Why don't you take it easy for a while?"
"Okay," I said without enthusiasm. "But keep me posted."
"I will," he promised. "Bye."
The voice on the other end was female and very professional. It greeted me with the sing-song lilt of a detergent jingle, an isn't-life-wonderful buoyancy that bordered on the obscene.
"Good morning! La Casa!"
"Good morning. I'd like to speak to someone about becoming a member of the Gentleman's Brigade." "Just one moment, sir!"
In twenty seconds a male voice came on the line.
"Tim Kruger. Can I help you?"
"I'd like to talk about joining the Gentleman's Brigade."
"Yes, sir. And what corporation do you represent?"
"None. I'm inquiring as an individual."
"Oh. I see." The voice lost a touch of its friendliness. Disruption of routine did that to some people-threw them off, made them wary. "And your name, please."
"Dr. Alexander Delaware."
It must have been the title that did it because he shifted gears again, immediately.
"Good morning, Doctor. How are you today?"
"Just fine, thank you."
"Terrific. And what kind of doctor are you, if I might ask."
You might.
"Child psychologist. Retired."
"Excellent. We don't get many mental health professionals volunteering. I'm an M.F.C.C. myself, in charge of screening and counseling at La Casa."
"I'd imagine most of them would consider it too much like work," I said. "Being away from the field for a while, the idea of working with children again appeals to me."
"Wonderful. And what led you to La Casa?"
"Your reputation. I've heard you do good work. And you're well organized."
"Well, thank you, Doctor. We do try to do well by our kids!"
"I'm sure you do."
"We give group tours for prospective Gentlemen. The next one is scheduled a week from this Friday."
"Let me check my calendar." I left the phone, looked out the window, did a half-dozen knee bends, and came back. "I'm sorry, Mr. Kruger. That's a bad day for me. When's the next one?"
"Three weeks later."
"That's such a long way off. I was hoping to get going sooner." I tried to sound wistful and just a little impatient.
"Hmm. Well, Doctor, if you don't mind something a bit more impromptu than the group orientation, I can give you a personalized tour. There'll be no way to assemble the video show in time, but as a psychologist you know a lot of that stuff, anyway."
"That sounds just fine."
"In fact, if you're free this afternoon, I could arrange it for then. Reverend Gus is here today--he likes to meet all potential Gentlemen--and that's not always the case, what with his travel schedule. He's taping Merv Griffin this week, then flying to New York for an "A.M. America." "
He imparted the news of McCaffrey's television activities with the solemnity of a crusader unveiling the Holy Grail.
"Today would be perfect."
"Excellent. Around three?"
"Three it is."
"Do you know where we are?"
"Not exactly. In Malibu?"
"In Malibu Canyon." He gave me directions, then added: "While you're there you can fill out our screening questionnaires. It would be a formality in a case such as yours, Doctor, but we do have to go through the motions. Though I don't imagine psychological tests would be very valid for screening a psychologist, would they?"
"I don't imagine so. We write 'em, we can subvert 'em."
He laughed, straining to be collegial.
"Any other questions?"
"I don't think so."
"Terrific. I'll see you at three."
Malibu is as much an image as it is a place. The image is beamed into the living rooms of America on TV, splashed across the movie screen, etched in
to the grooves of LPs and emblazoned on the covers of trashy paperbacks. The image is one of endless stretches of sand; oiled, naked brown bodies; volleyball on the beach; sun-bleached hair; making love under a blanket with coital cadence timed to match the in-and out- of the tide; million-dollar shacks that teeter on pilings sunken into terra that isn't a firma and, in fact, does the hula after a hard rain; Corvettes, seaweed and cocaine.
All of that is valid. But limited.
There's another Malibu, a Malibu that encompasses the canyons and dirt roads that struggle through the Santa Monica mountain range. This Malibu has no ocean. What little water it does possess comes in the form of streams that trickle through shaded gullies and disappear when the temperature rises. There are some houses in this Malibu, situated near the main canyon road, but there remain miles of wilderness. There are still mountain lions roaming the more remote regions of this Malibu, and packs of coyotes that prowl at night, making off with a chicken, a possum, a fat toad. There are shady groves where the tree frogs breed so abundantly that you step into them thinking your foot is resting on soft, gray earth. Until it moves. There are lots of snakes--kings, garters and rattlers--in this Malibu. And secluded ranches where people live under the illusion that the latter half of the twentieth century never occurred. Bridle trails punctuated by steaming mounds of horse droppings. Goats. Tarantulas.
There are also lots of rumors surrounding the second, beach less Malibu. Of ritual murders carried out by Satanic cults. Of bodies that will never--can never be found. Of people lost while hiking and never heard from again. Horror stories, but perhaps just as valid as Beach Blanket Bingo.
I turned off Pacific Coast Highway, up Rambla Pacifica, and traversed the boundary from one Malibu to the other. The Seville climbed the steep grade with ease. I had Django Reinhardt on the tape deck and the music of the Gypsy was in synch with the emptiness that unfolded before my windshield--the serpentine ribbon of highway, assaulted by the relentless Pacific sun one moment and shaded by giant eucalyptus the next. A dehydrated ravine to one side, a sheer drop into space on the other. A road that urged the weary traveler to keep going, that offered promises it could never keep.
I had slept fitfully the night before, thinking of Robin and myself, seeing the faces of children-Melody Quinn, the countless patients I had treated over the last ten years, the remains of a boy named Nemeth, who had died just a few miles up this same road. What had been his last vision, I wondered, what impulse had crossed a crucial synapse at the last possible moment before a giant machine-monster roared down on him from nowhere... And what had led him to walk this lonesome stretch of road in the dead of night?
Now, fatigue, nursed by the monotony of the journey, was tracing a slow but inexorable passage along my spine, so that I had to fight to remain alert. I turned the music louder and opened all the windows in the car. The air smelled clean, but tinged with the odor of something burning--a distant bridge?
So occupied was I in the struggle for clarity of consciousness that I almost missed the sign the county had erected announcing the exit for La Casa de los Ninos in two miles.
The turnoff itself was easy to miss, only a few hundred yards past a hairpin bend in the road. The road was narrow, barely wide enough for two vehicles to pass in opposite directions, and heavily shadowed by trees. It rose a half-mile at an unrelenting incline, steep enough to discourage any but the most purposeful foot traveler. Clearly the site had never been meant to attract the walk-in trade. Perfect for a labor camp, work farm, detention center, or any nexus of activity not meant for the prying eyes of strangers.
The access road ended at a twelve-foot high-barrier of chain link. Four-foot-high letters spelled out La Casa de los Ninos in polished aluminum. A hand-painted sign of two huge hands holding four children--white, black, brown and yellow--rose to the right. A guardhouse was ten feet on the other side of the fence. The uniformed man inside took note of me, then spoke to me through a squawk box attached to the gate.
"Can I help you?" The voice came out steely and mechanical, like human utterance pureed into bytes, fed into a computer and regurgitated.
"Dr. Delaware. Here for a three o'clock appointment with Mr. Kruger."
The gate slid open.
The Seville was allowed a brief roll until it was stopped by an orange and white striped mechanical arm.
"Good afternoon, Doctor."
The guard was young, mustachioed, solemn. His uniform was dark gray, matching his stare. The sudden smile didn't fool me. He was looking me over.
"You'll be meeting Tim at the administration building. That's straight up this way and take the road to the left. You can park in the visitors' lot."
"Thank you."
"You're quite welcome, Doctor."
He pushed a button and the striped arm rose in salute.
The administration building looked like it had once served a similar purpose during the days of Japanese internment. It had the low-slung, angry look of military architecture, but there was no doubt that the paint job--a mural of a baby blue sky filled with cotton candy clouds--was a contemporary creation.
The front office was paneled in cheap imitation oak and occupied by a grandmotherly type in a colorless cotton smock.
I announced myself and received a grandmotherly smile for my efforts.
"Tim will be right with you. Won't you please sit down and make yourself comfortable."
There was little of interest to look at. The prints on the walls looked as if they'd been purloined from a motel. There was a window but it afforded a view of the parking lot. In the distance was a thick growth of forest--eucalyptus, cypress, and cedar--but from where I sat only the bottoms of the trees were visible, an uninterrupted stretch of gray-brown. I tried to busy myself with a two-year-old copy of California Highways.
It wasn't much of a wait.
A minute after I'd sat down the door opened and a young man came out.
"Dr. Delaware?"
I stood.
"Tim Kruger." We shook hands.
He was short, mid-to-late twenties, and built like a wrestler, all hard and knobby and endowed with just that extra bit of muscle in all the strategic places. He had a face that was well-formed, but overly stolid, like a Ken doll that hadn't been allowed to bake sufficiently. Strong chin, small ears, prominent straight nose of a shape that foreshadowed bulbous ness in middle age, an outdoorsman's tan, yellowish-brown eyes under heavy brows, a low forehead almost totally hidden by a thick wave of sandy hair. He wore wheat colored slacks, a light blue short-sleeved shirt and a blue-and-brown tie. Clipped to the corner of his collar was a badge that said T. Kruger, MA." M.EC.C." Director, Counseling.
"I was expecting someone quite a bit older, Doctor. You told me you were retired."
"I am. I believe in taking it early, when I can enjoy it."
He laughed heartily.
"There's something to be said for that. I trust you had no trouble finding us?"
"No. Your directions were excellent."
"Great. We can begin the tour, if you'd like. Reverend Gus is on the grounds somewhere. He should be back to meet you by four."
He held the door for me.
We crossed the parking lot and stepped onto a walkway of crushed gravel.
"La Casa," he began, "is situated on twenty-seven acres. If we stop right here, we can get a pretty good view of the entire layout."
We were at the top of a rise, looking down on buildings, a playground, spiraling trails, a curtain of mountains in the background.
"Out of those twenty-seven, only five are actually fully developed. The rest is wide-open space, which we believe is great for the kids, many of whom come from the inner city." I could make out the shapes of children, walking in groups, playing ball, sitting alone on the grass. "To the north"--he pointed to an expanse of open fields--"is what we call the Meadow. It's mostly alfalfa and weeds right now, but there are plans to begin a vegetable garden this summer. To the south is the Grove." He indicated the forest
I'd seen from the office. "It's protected timberland, perfect for nature hikes. There's a surprising abundance of wildlife out here. I'm from the Northwest, myself, and before I got here I used to think the wildest life in L.A. was all on the Sunset Strip."
I smiled.
"Those buildings over there are the dorms."
He swiveled around and pointed to a group of ten large quonset huts. Like the administration building, they'd been gone at with the freewheeling paint brush, the corrugated iron sides festooned with rainbow-hued patterns, the effect bizarrely optimistic.
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