by Rosa Swann
“I don’t...” He shakes his head a little. “I’m not asking that of you. I’ve never... Not with a male Omega.”
What? I blink, unsure what I just heard. He’s never had sex with a male Omega? That means he’s probably had sex with a female Omega. “I’ve heard it’s not much different.”
A small smile plays along his lips, but he shakes his head. “Not today. Okay?”
I nod, relief flooding me. “Can I... at least?” I pull my hand from his, putting it over his cock, which is still in the boxer briefs. I still want to give him the same pleasure as he gave me. I want to see the face he makes when he comes, when he experiences pure bliss.
Nathan closes his eyes for a moment and I feel his cock harden a bit. “Sure.” His voice is hoarse.
I sit up and Zeke sits next to me. We all work to get Nathan’s boxer briefs off, revealing a very big and hard cock. It’s almost enough to get me hard again, but it’s a little too soon.
“Come, here.” Nathan wraps his arms around us and pulls us with him onto the bed. Then he starts kissing Zeke, before he kisses me. Short kisses, one, then the other. Going between us until we all start to melt together, and kisses go between all three, never sure when one starts and the other ends.
I wrap my hand around Nathan’s cock and I feel Zeke’s hand there too. We start jacking him off together, getting into a rhythm, and Nathan starts moaning into the kiss.
His arm around me starts to tighten, his whole body thrumming with his excitement, with the way he’s about to come. I can feel it build in him.
“Fuck. You two. Zeke. Wes.” He gives us sloppy kisses. “Fuck.” His body tenses and his cock pulses in our hands. He lets out a loud moan. “My men. Fuck.” He tightens again and then comes, hard. His release splattering between us, coating us all.
My heart’s beating loudly, not just from my orgasm, or the way Nathan just came, but from his words.
His men.
I look at Zeke, whose eyes are also big, surprised.
What scares me are not the words that Nathan said, but the feeling it gives inside. How right it feels that he called us his men.
How right it feels.
Zeke comes closer, crushing his lips to mine. He’s also trembling, and his kisses are sloppy, slowly getting salty and I’m not sure if they’re from his tears or mine.
Because I’m crying. My heart about to burst and it scares me so much. It scares me so so much.
This can’t be happening. No matter how good it feels, how right. This can’t happen.
I know that I need to push away, I need to leave Zeke and Nathan alone. They’re right together. I need to get away from here.
But I can’t. Not yet. I know it’s egotistic, but I feel so good here. I can’t leave this place right now.
Just a few more minutes. Just a few more minutes here, in the embrace of the Omega who’s been mine and mine alone for the last year, who put me back together when I was broken to pieces, and the Alpha who seems too good to be true, who will make Zeke a perfect husband.
But I already had my chance. I had my chance and that didn’t work out, even if I got four amazing kids from it. But it’s fine. It’s fine.
I’ll get through it. Zeke helped me to get back on my feet, and now I’ll have to let him go to chase after his own dreams, his own love.
But, I want to stay here for just a few more minutes.
* * *
When we get home, everybody is already asleep and I find a note on the kitchen table from Oliver, in his cute scratchy handwriting. I’m pretty sure that Aiden helped him write it, even if it’s not perfect.
I lov yu Daddy and Zeke.
Swet dreams.
Oliver (wo lovs yu forevr)
It makes me tear up all over again, and I hold it close. How did I deserve such an amazing kid? He’s been through so much, but he’s not afraid to show affection to us. It’s precious and I hope that he’ll be able to keep that innocence for a long time.
Zeke wraps his arm around my shoulders and pulls me close. I lean into him and relax. It’s going to be alright. Everything will be alright.
At Nathan’s place, after we all calmed down again, we took showers, all separately, and Zeke and I went home. We talked about nothing in particular and we especially didn’t talk about how Nathan called us his men, or how we responded to that. We also didn’t talk about why I didn’t let anyone see me, or what Nathan said about not having experiences with male Omegas. We didn’t talk about any of that. We didn’t talk about all the things we knew we should have talked about. Because it meant that we’d have to talk about all the other things we didn’t say, or the secrets we all hold inside.
On our way home, Zeke was quiet, lost in his own mind, and I was fine with that. I don’t think I would have been able to say anything to him. Not with the way I feel inside. Not with the things that I know I’m going to have to do soon. Because I’ve always known that this, us, wasn’t going to be permanent.
“Let’s get to bed.” Zeke’s voice is low, sweet, and he tightens his arm around me.
“You go ahead.” I pull away a little. “I’ve gotta look at something for class tomorrow.”
Zeke frowns. “Are you sure? Can’t you do that in the morning?”
I shake my head. “It’s just a minute. You go ahead. I’ll be right up.”
He still frowns, but then nods. “Okay. See you in a moment.” He gives me a quick kiss. “Don’t make it too late, please.”
I nod as I watch him go up the stairs to our bedroom. Then I let myself sag into a chair, my chest heaving, tears streaming down my cheeks. It hurts. Now I’m home, I can finally let myself relax more, I don’t have to put up a face for anyone. I’m alone here anyway.
There is no way this going to end well. There just isn’t.
But that’s okay. As long as Zeke and Nathan can be happy, then everything will be fine.
It will be.
* * *
When I wake up, everything hurts, my head, my eyes, everything. I turn to my side, but the bed is empty. No Zeke.
I sit up, worry shooting through me. Where can he be?
I check the clock and see that it’s already after seven in the morning. I blink. That can’t be right. The alarm goes off at six and it’s only Thursday, we have to get to work soon.
The door opens and for a moment I think it’s Zeke, but instead, it’s my brother Clay. “Hey.” He looks worried, his voice careful. “You’re awake.”
“Yeah.” I swing my legs over the edge of the bed, standing up, but my head starts hurting more and I feel myself wobble.
Clay is at my side immediately, wrapping his arms around me as he helps me back into bed. “Be careful.”
“I don’t feel so good. What happened? Where is everyone?” I turn to my side, looking at Clay.
“I found you in the kitchen this morning. You’d fallen asleep on a chair, dressed in last night’s clothes. You were burning up, so I carried you up the stairs.” He sighs, his eyes softening. “What happened? Why were you there?”
Flashes from last night, from what we did at Nathan’s place, the things I knew I was going to have to do, go through my head. “I just wanted to check something for school but... I don’t know.”
Clay nods, putting his hand on my shoulder. “You were never very good with stress. Please, if you need any help, just ask us. Okay? I don’t want you to get sick.”
I nod. Trying to take a deep breath, but it feels like I can’t get enough air into my lungs, my chest tight. I’m going to need his help, and he’s not going to like the reason why. Zeke is his best friend.
Clay’s about to say something, but there is a knock on the door. I look up and find Zeke looking at me, his eyes sad. But when he sees I’m awake he smiles a little, and it reminds me of the way he used to look right when I came to live here. It reminds me of all the things we’ve been through together.
“Morning, sweetheart.” Zeke comes over, kneeling next to Clay. He swallow
s hard. “Glad to see that you’re among the living again.”
“Sorry for scaring you.” I reach out and Zeke takes it, holding on tightly.
Clay stands up. “I’ll bring you something to eat in a moment, and you’re off work for the day.” He gives me a serious look, then he leaves the room.
“Sorry for scaring me?” Zeke shakes his head. “That’s not even what I’m worried about. I came upstairs and was so exhausted that I fell asleep immediately. I didn’t wake up until Clay came in with you and put you in bed. You didn’t even wake up properly when we gave you medication. You just fell asleep again.” He leans in closer. “What’s wrong?” His voice is rough, and his hand tightens around mine. “I know that something’s up. I can see it. I can see it in your eyes, in the way you’re looking at me. What’s wrong?”
I shake my head, closing my eyes. “I’m just overworked. I think yesterday just took too much out of me. I guess I was more exhausted than I thought I was.”
Zeke’s quiet for a bit, and I don’t dare to open my eyes to see if he believes me. “Okay. I’ll talk to Clay about cutting your hours. We can’t have you exhausted and overworking yourself like this.” Zeke keeps hold of my hand. “We’ll make it work. I promise.”
I nod. Not able to answer him right now. My head hurts too much. My heart hurts. Everything hurts.
“I love you.” Zeke’s voice is strong.
“I love you too.” Even if you’ll be far away from me. I’ll love you forever. But I keep it to myself, he doesn’t need to hear those things.
For now, I just need to get better and I’ll figure out a plan then. A plan to make Nathan and Zeke happy, a plan that doesn’t include the disaster that I am.
I’ll make it happen.
To Be Continued
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While you’re waiting for the continuation of Nathan, Zeke and Wes’ story, here are some other books and series to try out!
The story of Clay, Wes’ older brother, and Aiden, his mate, can be found in Making a Family:
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When you ask the cute Omega frequenting your cafe to be your pretend-husband for the weekend…
Clay
I have my pride as an Alpha and I don’t want to be the only unmated Alpha at my younger sister’s wedding.
What’s an Alpha to do? Well, maybe ask the cute Omega who seems to be in need of some cheering up after his Alpha leaves him.
Nothing should go wrong if I invite him to be my fake husband for the weekend, right?
Aiden
After my sister leaves me her three-month-old to look after, I want to be the parent that she can’t be for him.
Life as a single Omega parent won’t be easy, but I’m sure I can manage. Although, even I can’t resist the looks from the handsome Alpha who runs the cafe I frequent, or the way that he makes me smile during this crappy week.
What could go wrong in accepting to be his fake husband for a weekend?
Faking a Husband (Making a Family 1)
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Have you read Second Chance Mates yet? This is the story of Wilder and Sterling, two of Aiden’s friends, their story takes place before Making a Family:
Second Chance Mates
My Alpha’s Secret (Second Chance Mates 1)
Wilder
Ten years ago, Logan left me. He told me that two Alphas cannot be together, he told me that our mating wasn’t real.
Yesterday, my sister called me and told me that Logan passed away, leaving behind an Omega and a child.
Today, I’m at Logan’s funeral. Why am I offering to look after his little family?
Sterling
Logan and I had everything we wanted: a house, a beautiful daughter and lots of big dreams. Then he was ripped away from us in a car crash.
His family is too busy to help me out after the funeral, so one of Logan’s old friends steps in.
Only, in all the commotion, I didn’t keep an eye on the calendar, and my heat starts at the most inconvenient of times.
And why is Logan’s friend reacting to my heat? Only true mates are supposed to react to a mated Omega...
My Alpha’s Secret (Second Chance Mates 1)
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Feathers and Microphones
Branded (Feathers and Microphones 1)
A rock star branded by a demon…
A fallen angel with wings black as night…
Florian has been trying to get rid of his angel powers ever since he lost his last charge in an accident that was entirely his fault. Ever since he spends his nights bar tending at the local gay bar, ignoring his angel nature and pretending to be human. Until one night, he meets a sexy man with purple hair on the roof of the bar and he wants nothing more but to spend the night with him.
Seth has been wearing his demon brand for years. The price to pay to bring his band to the top. But these days, life is nothing but a drag, so even though he has to protect his rock star image, he goes to a gay bar, hoping to find some solace. When he climbs up to the roof to take look over the city at night, a beautiful man proposes to spend the night together, and for the first time in years, he accepts. Is this a mistake, or is there more hidden behind the eyes of the beautiful stranger?
The plan was only for the night, but will the men be able to let each other go, especially after the secrets they reveal the next morning?
Branded (Feathers and Microphones 1)
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Lunar Pack
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Roy never thought that one party with his hot new neighbours would turn his whole life upside down!
Roy’s life exists of work, dinner and sleep, boring. His friends are getting married, or having kids, and he sits home alone, too focused on his job to have much of a social life, let alone a love life.
Then he finds a letter on the doormat, an invitation to a housewarming party next door. There he meets Clyde and Sam, they seem interested in him as more than just neighbours, and definitely ready to explore if that interest is mutual.
But why does he feel like there is more going on between the three of them? And why are Clyde and Sam acting all weird the next morning?
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The Mating Ball used to be a yearly event where bachelor Alpha werewolves meet potential mates, but now it’s a party mostly used to hook up with as many people as you can.
Ethan, one of the humans hired to entertain the werewolves, goes into the event with only one expectation: getting paid for having fun. The prospect of maybe meeting an Alpha female is only a bonus.
Max, a successful Alpha, has been getting pressure from all sides to settle down and prove his Alpha genes. Two problems: he doesn’t believe that the Mating Ball works and he is only interested in men.
Once there, he meets Ethan, who catches his attention immediately, but the man insists that he isn’t gay, or interested in Max.
As the ball comes to an end, the two men can no longer deny their attraction and take off together. Only to wake up to a very special surprise.
Omega’s Fate (Mated to the Alpha 1)
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The Baby Pact
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Gail, an Omega, has been hiding from other shifters for over half a decade, determined to choose his own path in
life, even if that means working two jobs. During the day he works at a bookstore and in the evenings he is an exotic dancer.
Lucien and Cyrus, an Alpha and a Beta, love each other, a relationship condemned by shifter society, and have never felt the need to find an Omega. They sometimes pick up humans to spice things up, but never more. Until one night they end up in a bar, where they see a dancer they can’t keep their eyes off. They want him, even if only for one night.
But their families have other plans. In a desperate attempt to keep control over their lives, they will need to make the hardest decision yet:
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The Baby Pact (The Baby Pact 1)
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