by Irwin Shaw
“Captain,” he whispered, “Captain … I can’t … I can’t …”
“The beginning,” Seedorf said, ecstatically, as though he had not heard Garbrecht’s interruption. “Finally, there will be explosions day and night, all over the city, all over the country.… The Americans will blame the Russians, the Russians will blame the Americans, they will become more and more frightened, more and more distrustful of each other. They will come to us secretly, bargain with us, bid for us against each other.…”
It will never happen, Garbrecht said dazedly to himself, never. It is the same old thing. All during the war they told us that. The Americans would break with the British, the British with the Russians. And here they all were in what was left of Berlin: Cockneys, Tartars from Siberia, Negroes from Mississippi. Men like Seedorf were victims of their own propaganda, men who listened and finally believed their own hopes, their own lies. And, he, Garbrecht, next week, would be walking among the lounging American MP’s, with the delicate, deadly machinery ticking under his arm, because of Seedorf’s hallucination. Any other nation, Garbrecht thought, would be convinced. They’d look around at the ruin of their cities, at the ever-stretching cemeteries, at the marching enemy troops in the heart of their capital, and they’d say, “No, it did not work.” But not the Germans. Goering was just dead in the Nuremberg jail, and here was this fat murderer with the jolly smile who even looked a bit like Goering, rubbing his hands and shouting, “A day of remembrance! The first bomb has exploded!”
Garbrecht felt lost and exhausted and hopeless, sitting in the wooden chair, watching the fat man move nervously and jubilantly behind the desk, hearing the rough, good-natured voice saying, “It took fourteen years last time, it won’t take four years this time! Garbrecht, you’ll be a full colonel in 1950, one arm and all.”
Garbrecht wanted to protest, say something, some word that would stop this careening, jovial, bloodthirsty, deluded lunatic, but he could get no sound out between his lips. Later on, perhaps, when he was alone, he might be able to figure some way out of this whirling trap. Not here, not in this tall, dark room, with the fat, shouting captain, the broken mirror, the somber, incongruous, brooding picture of Lenin, Seedorf’s obscure, mocking joke, that hung on the cracked wall.
“In the meantime,” Seedorf was saying, “you continue your regular work. By God!” he laughed, “you will be the richest man in Berlin when they all get through paying you!” His voice changed. It became low and probing. “Do you know two men called Kleiber and Machewski who work out of Mikhailov’s office?” He peered shrewdly at Garbrecht.
“No,” said Garbrecht after a moment. He knew them. They were both on Mikhailov’s payroll and they worked in the American zone, but there was no sense in telling that, yet, to Seedorf.
“No matter,” Seedorf laughed, after an almost imperceptible pause. “You will give their names and this address to your American Major.” He took a piece of paper out from his pocket and put it down on the desk before him. “You will tell the Major that they are Russian spies and that they can be found at this place.” He tapped the paper. “It will be quite a haul for the Major,” Seedorf said ironically, “and he will be sure to reward you handsomely. And he will have a very strong tendency after that to trust you with quite important matters.”
“Yes,” said Garbrecht.
“You’re sure,” Seedorf said inquiringly, smiling a little at Garbrecht, “you’re sure you don’t know these men?”
Then Garbrecht knew that Seedorf knew he was lying, but it was too late to do anything about it.
“I don’t know them,” he said.
“I could have sworn …” Seedorf shrugged. “No matter.” He got up from the desk, carrying the slip of paper, and came over to the chair where Garbrecht was sitting. “Some day, my friend,” he said, putting his hand lightly on Garbrecht’s shoulder, “some day you will learn that you will have to trust me, too. As a matter of …” He laughed. “A matter of discipline.”
He handed Garbrecht the slip of paper and Garbrecht put it in his pocket and stood up. “I trust you, sir,” he said flatly. “I have to.”
Seedorf laughed uproariously. “I like a good answer,” he shouted. “I do like a good answer.” He put his arm around Garbrecht in a brotherly hug. “Remember,” he said, “my first and only lesson—the one principle in being a hired informer is to tell the man who is paying you exactly what he wishes to hear. Any information must fit into theories which he already holds. Then he will trust you, pay you well, regard you as a more and more valuable employee. However …” and he laughed again, “do not try to work this on me. I am different. I don’t pay you … and therefore, I expect the truth. You will remember that?” He turned Garbrecht around quite roughly and peered into his eyes. He was not smiling now.
“Yes, sir,” said Garbrecht. “I will remember it.”
“Good.” Seedorf pushed him toward the door. “Now go downstairs and talk to Miss Renner. She will make all arrangements.”
He pushed Garbrecht gently through the door and closed it sharply behind him. Garbrecht stared at the closed door for a moment, then walked slowly downstairs to Miss Renner.
Later, on the street, on his way to Mikhailov’s office, he tried not to think of Seedorf’s conversation, or the ingenious, deadly device that even now was waiting for him on the other side of the city.
He felt like stopping and leaning his head against the cold, cracked brick wall of a gutted house he was passing, to weep and weep in the twisting, cutting wind. After so much, after all the fighting, all the death, after the operating room in the brewery at Stalingrad, a man should be entitled to something, some peace, some security. And, instead, this onrushing dilemma, this flirtation with next week’s death, this life of being scraped against every rock of the jagged year by every tide that crashed through Germany. Even numbness was no longer possible.
He shuffled on dazedly, not seeing where he was going. He stumbled over a piece of pavement that jutted crazily up from the sidewalk. He put out his hand to try to steady himself, but it was too late, and he fell heavily into the gutter. His head smashed against the concrete, and he felt the hot laceration of broken stone on the palm of his hand.
He sat up and looked at his hand in the dim light. There was blood coming from the dirty, ripped wounds, and his head was pounding. He sat on the curb, his head down, waiting for it to clear before he stood up. No escape, he thought, heavily, there never would be any escape. It was silly to hope for it. He stood up slowly, and continued on his way to Mikhailov’s office.
Mikhailov was crouched over his desk, the light of a single lamp making him look froglike and ugly as he sat there, without looking up at Garbrecht. “… Tell the man who is paying you exactly what he wishes to hear.…” Garbrecht could almost hear Seedorf’s mocking, hearty voice. Maybe Seedorf knew what he was talking about. Maybe the Russian was that foolish, maybe the American was that suspicious.… Suddenly, Garbrecht knew what he was going to tell Mikhailov.
“Well?” Mikhailov said finally, still peering down at his desk. “Anything important? Have you found out anything about that new man the Americans are using?”
Mikhailov had asked him to find out what he could about Dobelmeir last week, but Garbrecht had silently resolved to keep his mouth shut about the American. If he said too much, if he slipped once, Mikhailov would become suspicious, start prying, set someone on Garbrecht’s trail. But now he spoke in a loud, even voice. “Yes,” he said. “He is a second generation German-American. He is a lawyer in Milwaukee in civilian life. He was under investigation early in the war because he was said to have contributed to the German-American Bund in 1939 and 1940.” Garbrecht saw Mikhailov slowly raise his head and look at him, his eyes beginning to glisten with undisguised interest. It’s working, Garbrecht thought, it actually is working. “The case was never pressed,” he went on calmly with his invention, “and he was given a direct commission late in the war and sent to Germany on special orders. Several members of his fam
ily are still alive in the British zone, Hamburg, and a cousin of his was a U-boat commander in the German Navy and was sunk off the Azores in 1943.”
“Of course,” said Mikhailov, his voice triumphant and satisfied. “Of course. Typical.” He did not say what it was typical of, but he looked at Garbrecht with an expression that almost approached fondness.
“There are two things you might work on for the next few weeks,” Mikhailov said. “We’ve asked everyone working out of this office to pick up what he can on this matter. We are quite sure that the Americans have shipped over a number of atomic bombs to Great Britain. We have reason to believe that they are being stored in Scotland, within easy distance of the airfield at Prestwick. There are flights in from Prestwick every day, and the crews are careless. I would like to find out if there are any preparations, even of the most preliminary kind, for basing a group of B-29’s somewhere in that area. Skeleton repair shops, new fuel storage tanks, new radar warning stations, et cetera. Will you see if you can pick up anything?”
“Yes, sir,” said Garbrecht, knowing that for Mikhailov’s purpose he would make certain to pick up a great deal.
“Very good,” said Mikhailov. He unlocked the drawer in his desk and took out the money. “You will find a little bonus here,” he said with his mechanical smile.
“Thank you, sir,” said Garbrecht, picking up the money.
“Till next week,” Mikhailov said.
“Till next week,” said Garbrecht. He saluted and Mikhailov returned the salute as Garbrecht went out the door.
Although it was dark and cold outside, and his head was still throbbing from his fall, Garbrecht walked lightly, grinning to himself, as he moved toward the American zone.
He didn’t see Dobelmeir till the next morning. “You might be interested in these men,” he said, placing before the Major the slip of paper with the names of the men Seedorf had instructed him to denounce. “They are paid agents for the Russians, and the address is written down there, too.”
Dobelmeir looked at the names, and a slow, delighted grin broke over his heavy face. “Very, very interesting,” he said. “Excellent.” His large hand went slowly over the crumpled paper, smoothing it out in a kind of dull caress. “I’ve had some more inquiries for information about that Professor I asked you to check. Kittlinger. What did you find out?”
Garbrecht had found out, more by accident than anything else, that the Professor, an aging, obscure physics teacher in the Berlin Medical School, had been killed in a concentration camp in 1944, but he was sure that there was no record anywhere of his death. “Professor Kittlinger,” Garbrecht said glibly, “was working on nuclear fission from 1934 to the end of the war. Ten days after the Russians entered Berlin, he was arrested and sent to Moscow. No word has been heard since.”
“Of course,” Dobelmeir said flatly. “Of course.”
The atom, Garbrecht thought, with a slight touch of exhilaration, is a marvelous thing. It hands over everything like a magic charm. Mention the atom, and they will solemnly believe any bit of nonsense you feed them. Perhaps, he thought, grinning inwardly, I will become a specialist. Garbrecht, Atomic Secrets Limited. An easy, rich, overflowing, simple field.
Dobelmeir was industriously scratching down the doubtful history of Professor Kittlinger, Atomic Experimenter. For the first time since he had begun working for the Americans, Garbrecht realized that he was actually enjoying himself.
“You might be interested,” he said calmly, “in something I picked up last night.”
Dobelmeir looked up assiduously from his desk. “Of course,” he said gently.
“It probably doesn’t amount to anything, just drunken, irresponsible raving …”
“What is it?” Dobelmeir leaned forward keenly.
“Three days ago a General Bryansky, who is on the Russian General Staff …”
“I know, I know,” said Dobelmeir impatiently. “I know who he is. He’s been in Berlin for a week now.”
“Well,” said Garbrecht, deliberately playing with Dobelmeir’s impatience, “he made a speech before a small group of officers at the Officers’ Club, and later on he got quite drunk, and there are rumors about certain things that he said.… I really don’t know whether I ought to report anything as vague as this, as I said, just a rumor.…”
“Go ahead,” Dobelmeir said hungrily. “Let me hear it.”
“He is reported to have said that there will be war in sixty days. The atomic bomb is meaningless, he said. The Russian Army can march to the Channel from the Elbe in twenty-five days. Then let the Americans use the atomic bomb on them. They will be in Paris, in Brussels, in Amsterdam, and the Americans won’t dare touch them.… Of course, I cannot vouch for this, but …”
“Of course he said it,” Dobelmeir said. “Or if he didn’t, some other of those murderers did.” He leaned back wearily. “I’ll put it in the report. Maybe it’ll make somebody wake up in Washington. And don’t worry about reporting rumors. Very often there’s more to be learned from a rumor than from the most heavily documented evidence.”
“Yes, sir,” said Garbrecht.
“I don’t know,” said Dobelmeir, “whether you heard about the bombing in Stuttgart yesterday.”
“Yes, sir. I did.”
“I have my own theory about it. There are going to be more, too, take my word for it. I think if you got to the bottom of it, you’d find our friends, the Russians, there. I want you to work on that, see what you can pick up this week.…”
“Yes, sir,” Garbrecht said. What a wonderful man Seedorf is, Garbrecht thought. How astute, how correct in his intuition. How worthy of faith. He stood up. “Is that all, sir?”
“That’s all.” Dobelmeir handed him an envelope. “Here’s your money. You’ll find two weeks’ pay I held back in the beginning are added to this week’s money.”
“Thank you very much, sir,” Garbrecht said.
“Don’t thank me,” said the Major. “You’ve earned it. See you next week.”
“Next week, sir.” Garbrecht saluted and went out.
There were two MP’s standing at the door, in the clear winter sunshine, their equipment glittering, their faces bored. Garbrecht smiled and nodded at them, amused now, long in advance, as he thought of himself scornfully carrying the delicate parts of the first bomb past them, right under their noses.
He walked briskly down the street, breathing deeply the invigorating air, patting the small bulge under his coat where the money lay. He could feel the numbness that had held him for so long deserting him, but it was not pain that was taking its place, not pain at all.
The Passion of
Lance Corporal Hawkins
Lance Corporal Alfred Hawkins stood on the Haifa dock, his fingers wet on the long nightstick in his hands, the unaccustomed helmet heavy on his head, watching a naval launch slowly bring in the two-masted schooner Hope, its decks and tattered rigging swarming with people, who looked like clustered dark bees, so far away, and not like people at all. Please, Lord, Hawkins prayed to himself, standing at ease with his platoon, warm in the yellow Mediterranean sun, please, Lord, keep me from hitting any of them.
“Don’t take any nonsense from the buggers,” Lieutenant Madox said, standing in front of the platoon. “Whack ’em a couple of times and they’ll behave like bloody gentlemen.” He turned and peered at the shabby schooner slowly approaching the dock, and Hawkins was sure that the look on the Lieutenant’s thick red face was one of pleasurable anticipation. Hawkins looked at the other men of the platoon. Except for Hogan, you couldn’t tell anything from their faces. In London once, during the war, Hawkins had overheard an American Air Force major saying, “The British would watch Hitler hanging or their daughters marrying into the Royal Family or their own legs being chopped off at the knee and not change expression by one twitch of the eyebrow. You can’t beat an army like that.” The American had been drunk, of course, but, looking around him now, and remembering other times, too—like the day outside C
aen and the day on the Rhine and the day his company went into the concentration camp at Belsen—Hawkins could understand what the American had been talking about. In ten or fifteen minutes, the men around him might be in the middle of a very mean fight on board the schooner, against clubs and knives, perhaps, and maybe even home-made bombs, and except for Hogan, again, all of them looked as though they were merely lined up for a routine roll call outside their barracks in the morning. And Hogan, of course, was an Irishman, and not the same thing at all. He was a small, thin boy, with a tough, broken-nosed, handsome face, and now he was fidgeting uneasily, his jaw rigid with excitement, pushing his helmet back and forth on his head, shifting his nightstick, breathing loudly enough to be heard over all the small noises of the harbor and the platoon around him.
They were singing now on the schooner. The rising and falling, chanting, foreign melody came thinly and defiantly across the oily green water. Hawkins could understand several words of Hebrew, but he could not make out what the song was about. It sounded wild and somehow menacing, as though it should not be sung in sunshine and in the morning or by women’s voices but late at night, in the desert, by lawless and desperate men. Esther had translated two or three Hebrew songs for Hawkins in the last few weeks, and he had noticed that the words “freedom” and “justice” figured in them prominently, but those words did not seem to fit with the flat, dangerous, hoarse music hammering across the harbor from the slowly moving old boat.
Hawkins wished they wouldn’t sing. It made it harder if they sang and you knew they were singing about freedom or justice. After all, they were singing to him, and to the other men around him, and what did they expect him to do?
Hawkins closed his eyes, as though by shutting out the sight of the dark-clustered boat inexorably being pushed to the dock, and the clubs, and the transport waiting to take them to the stockade on Cyprus, he could somehow also shut out the sound of the rough, challenging voices of the Jews.
He closed his eyes, his youthful, almost childish face, sweating under the hot helmet, painfully composed, painfully disclosing nothing to the Lieutenant or the men around him or to the eyes of the fugitives he was expected to punish. He closed his eyes. He was uncomfortable in his wool battle dress and the tight canvas belting, and was sorry he was in Palestine, sorry he was in the Army, sorry he was an Englishman, sorry he was alive. This was not what he had expected when he had reënlisted, six months after the war was over. He didn’t know exactly what he had expected. He had just known he did not want to live in Southampton, in the foggy weather, among the ruined docks and the torn buildings; in the same house with his father, who had had his arm torn off during a raid in 1941; in the same house with his sister, whose husband had been killed at Bari in 1943; in the same house in which he had lived for such a short while with Nancy, who had later divorced him and married an American sergeant in the port battalion—and that was a soft job for a soldier, wasn’t it, during a war. He had just known that after four years in the Army, ever since he was seventeen, he did not want to start looking for a job as a longshoreman on the wrecked wharves, he did not want to stand in a queue collecting the unemployment dole, he did not want the bitter weather of unheated winter England after glimpses of Africa and summer France. And the only thing he had known was soldiering. They had made it a little more attractive—they had raised the pay and promised many rather vague benefits—and, if the truth must be told, the only time anyone had ever really taken care of him was in the Army. It was certain no one was really going to take care of you as a civilian, Socialist government or no Socialist government. Though he had voted for them, of course. He had read all the pamphlets and he knew what he was doing, a common soldier in the Army of the King, the son of a workingman, the grandson of a workingman, the great-grandson of a working-man. That was another thing about the Army. It had given him the chance to read for the first time in his life. Especially the two periods he’d been in the hospital, first with the bullet in his hip and then with the piece of shrapnel he’d picked up twelve days before the end of the war. The hospital library had had a complete set of H. G. Wells, and he had slowly and studiously gone through it all, soberly agreeing with the energetic arguments of the old man. By the time he’d got out of the hospital, he had become a confirmed Socialist, believing that education could change the world, and that violence was a hangover from primitive times, and that year by year the human race was certain to improve. He opened his eyes for a moment and looked at the schooner. It was much closer now, and he could smell it, too. There were perhaps three hundred people jammed onto it, men and women, and they had obviously not had the most complete sanitation facilities. He wished H. G. Wells were on the dock in the uniform of an infantry lance corporal today; it would be interesting to see what he would do.
