by Tynessa
“Yeah, I know what you said. I just hope you’re living up to that shit. I don’t wanna have to come home and fuck some shit up. So if you is fucking around, just don’t let me find out,” Kacey stated seriously.
“Baby, you don’t even have to worry about nothing—.” The operator came on, indicating that the call was about to end. “Well I’ll talk to later, baby, but if I don’t then I’ll see you Saturday, okay?”
“A’ight, ma. Aye, I love you, Tangela,” he said to me. I smiled and closed my eyes.
“I love you too, baby…so much.” The call ended. Dropping my cell, I ran my hand down my face. I really did love Kacey and you can just imagine how I felt right now. I loved his ass so much that a part of me wanted to tell him about Quintez. Only reason I wasn’t was because of his situation. But maybe Kacey would forgive me being that it was a one-time thing. As bad as I hated to admit it, sex with Quintez was the best mistake ever!
Chapter 10
Woman to Woman!
Asia
Pulling out of the parking lot of the doctor’s office Ms. Jackie goes to, I headed towards the direction of her home. Reaching over, I took a hold of her hand and brought it up to my lips, kissing it. I loved this woman so damn much. Ever since me and Tan met her she has treated us as if she birthed us herself. Even when her son was on his bullshit she was always there for me to vent to. Yeah, I had Tan, but sometimes I needed someone older to hear where I was coming from. I might have dogged Jay’vion out to Tan, but I would never bad mouth him to his mama; because at the end of the day, he was still her son.
“We’re going to get through this, Mama,” I said to Ms. Jackie. The doctor had just informed her that she’d be lucky to make it the rest of this year and it was already May. Ms. Jackie had been battling colon cancer for the past year and a half. When the doctor caught it, she was already at stage two. Though she’d been having chemotherapy, the cancer had been spreading faster than they’d anticipated. It was like she jumped to stage four in a blank of an eye.
“I know, baby. We’re just going to leave it in God’s hands. He has the last say so.” She patted my hand. That’s why I loved her. Ms. Jackie always had faith in God and never let anything bring her down.
“So, when are you going to tell Jay and Tez?” I asked. I’d begged Ms. Jackie ever since I started bringing her to the doctor to tell them. Her excuse was always she wanted to wait until Tez came home. Well, he’d been home for a month now and she still had yet to tell them. “I think it’s time for them to know what’s been going on now, don’t you think?” I said.
“Yes, and I’m going to call them over to the house when we make it home.”
“Okay, because you know the both of them have been concerned about the amount of weight you’ve been losing. I don’t know if I can keep hiding this from, Jay’vion,” I informed her. She nodded her head and gave me a defeated smile.
“I know, Asia. I’m going to tell them. Well, I’m going to go on in here and get some rest. I will call the both of them when I wake up from a nap,” Ms. Jackie said as we pulled up to her house. Unbuckling my seat belt, I open the door and walked around to her side to help her out.
“Okay, Ma, get you some rest. If you need me to come be with you when you tell them, then call me,” I said once she was inside her house.
“Okay, baby, but I think I can handle it.” She gave me another defeated smile that caused my heart to break. God, please be with her. I kissed her on the cheek and smiled.
“Okay, Ma. I’m about to head over to Tan’s house. If I don’t come back by then, I’ll call you later.” Giving her one last kiss, we said our goodbyes and I was out the door. I just prayed and hoped that she called and told her boys. I was serious when I said I didn’t know if I could continue to keep this from, Jay. There weren’t even a good seven months left in the year and the doctor didn’t think she was going to make it throughout the year. Yes, it was time for Jay and Tez to know; and no, it was not my business to tell them, but if Ms. Jackie didn’t, then I was sure gonna make it my business.
I was on my way to Tan’s house, but Ms. Jackie’s situation was a bit too much for me. A bitch needed some time for herself. I just wanted to shop, so I headed to the mall. Inside Victoria’s Secret, I felt a pair of eyes on me. The first couple of times I looked around, I didn’t see anyone. Just as I was walking out, that’s when the bitch approached me.
“Excuse me, but isn’t your name Asia?” she asked me. She was a pretty chick, too. Light skin, long curly weave, and thick as hell with a big booty. She put my little ass butt to shame.
“And you are?” I asked her. I already knew it was one of Jay’vion’s hos. I just didn’t know why these bitches felt the need to approach me about my nigga. Was he not letting them hos know that they’re just side bitches and he had a main at home? I mean, like damn! I shouldn’t have had to go through this shit, continuously.
“I’m Stacy. I’m not—.”
“Okay, and your reason for coming at me? Let me guess, you’re one of Jay’s side hos and you feel the need to let me know?” I said to her as I placed my hand on my hip. I wasn’t up for this shit today. I had too much on my fucking mind to be dealing with Jay’vion and his bitches. Even so, I wanted to hear what this heffa had to say. She blinked her eyes a few times as she looked at me like she wanted to curse my ass out. I was not in the mood for this shit right now, and if her ass felt froggy then I was indeed ready for her to jump.
“As I was saying, I’m Stacy and I’m not trying to come at you on no disrespectful type shit. I was going through my man’s phone and I saw your number numerous times in his call log. Then for you to refer to me as one of his side hos, I don’t know what that’s about.” Did this bitch just say her man and try to check me for calling her Jay’s side ho!? Oh hell to the no!
“Oh really? Well you know what, Ms. Stacy, you must have the wrong chick or the wrong dude because there’s no reason for another chick to be going through my man’s phone or even be coming to me about how much I call him.” I don’t know why, but I was trying to give Jay the benefit of the doubt. I knew this bitch was talking about him, but I couldn’t wrap my mind around the fact that she went through his phone. When the mothafucka’ was at home he didn’t let his shit out of his damn sight.
“No, we’re talking about the right dude.” Taking out her cell phone, she pulled up a picture of a shirtless, sleeping Jay, and the dumb ass bastard wasn’t at our house or his mama’s house, so his black ass had to be at this bitch’s crib. Ugh, I’m gon’ kill Jay’s ass. No bitch has ever made me feel like this ho had me feeling right now. It was like I’d just been stabbed in the heart. Any other time, it was just a bunch of he say, she say. Not today! This tramp had full proof.
“Jay, right?” she asked me. Unable to speak, I just nodded my head up and down. The tears that was threatening to fall, I refused to let them bitches drop. Hurt or not, I was not about to let her or nann one of Jay’vion’s other hos see me shed one single tear over that nigga.
“How about we go sit and talk about this!? Because if you’re supposed to be his main chick, then I need to know who the fuck am I, being that we live together,” I said, angrily. I might not have shed a tear, but I was definitely not about to hide my anger. I was fucking pissed and I wanted this chick to know.
We headed to the food court and when we got there, I took a seat while she went and got herself something to eat. My legs shook uncontrollably under the table while my hands trembled as I waited. I was so fucking pissed right now. It was taking all I had not to call this nigga and go off on him. However, I wanted to wait until I got home because I knew I was gonna more than likely go in his shit. I couldn’t beat Jay’s ass but it wouldn’t stop me from trying.
“Sorry it took so long. My ass is hungry ass fuck,” she said. Her ass sitting up here acting like we’re best of damn friends or some shit. I didn’t have time for her games.
“Okay, so what’s up with you and Jay? I’m still trying to
figure out how the fuck you went through his shit. Better yet, how the fuck you even get a picture of his ass asleep. That’s what he do now, sleep at his side piece house!?” I got straight to the point. I didn’t have time to play with her ass.
“Look boo, I don’t know what he’s been telling you, but I’m nobody’s side piece. Jay and I have been together for well over a year. I even asked him who you were and he said, y’all were just friends, but he did admit that y’all fucked every once in a while. So who’s the side piece?” her dumb ass asked with a smug look on her face. The good Lord must’ve been holding my hand, preventing me from slapping the taste right out her mouth. I gave her ass the same, smug look she was giving me.
“That’ll still be you, sweetheart. You see, me and Jay have been together for well over four years.” I wiggled four fingers in her face with my left hand, just so she could see the big ass rock on my ring finger. Yes, Jay’vion, proposed to me the last time I caught his ass in a lie about his hoish ways. Though I said yes to him, I wasn’t in a rush to marry his ass. Hell, I didn’t even wear the ring that often, but I was glad today was one of the days I decided to wear the mothafucka’.
“That’s right! You see, li’l mama, all y’all hos just the same. Y’all come to me trying to check me about this nigga—my nigga—when I’m the one that has the ring, the house, the cars and his bank cards. You see, baby girl, I’m the main bitch! So, you say that you and Jay’vion been together for well over a year, right? Just to prove to you that you’re just his side ho, he proposed to me seven months ago.” Her jaw damn near hit the floor.
“But you can wipe that dumb ass look off your face. Jay’vion is cute and sexy as fuck so I know it’s hard for y’all hos to turn down the dick he’s slanging. I tell you what, though; I’m going to make it easy for all y’all. As of right now, you and whoever else can have him because I’m done. You want to be that nigga main bitch?” I took my engagement ring off, laid it on the table and slid it over to her. “Here you go, boo. Good luck and maybe you can teach the nigga to be a man, because I can’t.” With that I walked off. Hurt would’ve been an understatement. I was dead ass serious this time. I was done with Jay’vion ass. I didn’t have shit to say to him.
When I made it inside my car, the tears were falling and falling rapidly. I think what hurt the most was the fact that this nigga referred to me as his fucking friend that he fucked occasionally. I really needed that woman-to-woman talk with Stacy, because it definitely opened my eyes to realize I didn’t mean shit to Jay’vion, and never had.
Chapter 11
A Mother’s Love!
Quintez,
“Man, shut the fuck up sometimes, damn!” I said to Bree’s crazy ass as we sat on my couch. She’d been here at my house for the past two damn days getting on my got-damn nerves. She kept talking about us getting back together, which was not gon’ happen. I don’t know why her dumb ass acted like she didn’t understand I wasn’t fucking with her like that. Bitches acted like they didn’t know how to get the dick without catching feelings and shit.
“Don’t tell me to shut up, Tez. I just asked you a fucking question,” she shot back at me. I sucked my teeth and shook my head at her.
“Yeah, the same stupid question you been asking since you got here two damn days ago. Don’t you have a baby to go take care of or something, while you all over here swallowing dicks and shit!? I bet you be kissing all on that baby, don’t you?” I passed her the Blunt I had been puffing on. “Don’t even worry about passing that shit back to me, either,” I stated seriously. I didn’t smoke after too many people and her ass was one.
“I can’t stand yo’ black ass.” She threw a pillow at me. She seemed pissed off by what I had just said but I didn’t give a fuck. I just wanted her ass up out my crib.
“Man, come on, stop playing,” I got up and stretched. “Go ahead and get yo’ stuff. I got moves to make.” As if on cue, my phone begin to ring. Looking at the caller ID, I saw it was my mama. “Yo, what’s up, my queen?” My mom was my queen, but I mainly said that to fuck with, Bree. With a smack of her lips, she rolled her eyes and got up from the couch.
“Disrespectful ass bastard!” Bree fussed as she gathered her things. Shit, if I had known this was all it would take for her ass to leave then I would’ve been answered my calls from Grisela.
“Hey, son. Have you talked to your brother today?” my mom asked me. She sounded tired and bothered. I didn’t like that shit. I’d noticed the change in my mom since I got out, but she kept assuring me that everything was okay with her. I knew my mom like the back of my hand and I knew something was up. I just couldn’t put my finger on it.
“Nah, I haven’t talked to him today. What’s wrong with you? Why you sounding like that? You need me to come over?” I threw all my questions at her before she had the chance to answer the first one.
“I’m okay, boy. I just have to talk to the both of you about some things. Can you try to get in contact with him and come to my house?” Man, I was not feeling this shit. You know that gut feeling you have when you can tell something is wrong? That’s the feeling I felt right now.
“Man, I’m on the way right now. I’ll call him, though.” I hung up. Grabbing my keys, I headed towards the front door. “Come on, Bree, damn! What yo’ stupid ass still sitting there for? I just told you I had something to do.”
Bree had her things sitting on the floor beside the couch but she was now laid back, all comfortable and shit. I don’t know if she thought I was about to really leave her here while I went and checked on my mama or what. Whatever she was thinking she might as well have deaded that shit. She looked as if she wanted to say something but the look on my face told her I was not to be fucked with right now.
Walking out the door, I headed to my car and she headed to hers. I watched as she drove down the street before I pulled off, heading to my mama’s house. Pulling out my cell, I dialed, Jay’vion’s number. He finally picked up after the third call.
“Damn, nigga, I know yo’ ass ain’t that damn busy. You need to meet me at Ma’s house,” I said as soon as Jay’vion answered. Damn shame we had to call this nigga repeatedly to get in touch with him.
“Yeah, I just got off the phone with her. What’s going on with her? She don’t sound like herself,” he asked concernedly.
“Man, I don’t know, but I know something is up. I’ll be there in like ten minutes.” Once Jay informed me that he was right around the corner from her house, we ended the call. On the way there, I prayed to God that it was nothing serious going on with my mama.
Pulling up to her house, my brother was already there. Getting out my car, I walked up to the door and right inside the house. Jay was walking up the hallways, from the back of the house while Mama sat in her favorite chair in the living room. It seemed like she had lost more weight since the other day I saw her. Man, her ass was about to give me some answers, today.
“Ma, you lost some more weight?” I didn’t mean to be so forward but if I could tell she was a lot thinner with her sitting down, then something wasn’t right. Her cheeks were sucked all in and she looked a shade darker. She even looked sick.
“Yeah, Ma. What’s going on with you, nowadays? You feeling alright?” asked Jay’vion. She dropped her head for a hot minute then looked back up at us.
“I have colon cancer and—.”
“You have what?” Jay’vion didn’t even give her a chance to finish talking before his loud outburst. He looked at our mother as if he was searching for a lie or something.
“Jay, man, calm down and let her finish,” I said. I was just praying and hoping she was about to tell us that there was a cure and she’s going to beat the cancer. However, that wasn’t the case.
“Yes, son, I have cancer and it’s spreading faster than the doctors like,” she went on to say. I looked over at my brother, and he was pissed. Well, I think more hurt by the news.
“So what exactly does this mean?” I asked. Once again, she dropped her head
before speaking.
“The cancer is in the last stage and the doctors not expecting me to make it the rest of the year. But I have faith. My God has the last word.” My mom’s voice cracked as she spoke. Though she was trying to be strong, I could tell it was fucking with her. No one wanted to hear they only had a few months to live—whether they had faith in God or not.
“What the fuck? Ma, please tell me you lying? The last stage? How long have you known this shit?” Jay asked angry. I understand that he was pissed but that didn’t mean he had to curse at her.
“Man, bruh, calm down. All that cursing ain’t called for,” I let him know.
“It’s okay, Quintez. I’ve known for quite some time now. A few months ago, I became unable to drive so Asia and Tan have been taking me to my doctor’s appointment. They’ve been helping me out a lot.”
I looked over at Jay and from the looks of it, he wasn’t aware of them taking her.
“So Asia knew and didn’t tell me?” he asked as the tears slid down his face. He tried wiping them away but the more he wiped, the more would fall.
“Now, don’t go getting mad at her, Jay’vion. She wanted to tell you, but I begged her not to. I wanted to wait until Quintez got home first.” She turned to me. “I didn’t want you stressing while locked up, baby.”
That’s understandable, but I’ve been out for a month and she just now felt the need to tell me. I was pissed that she didn’t tell me when I first got home since she wanted to wait for me to get out. Regardless of that, I was just thankful she told us before it was too late.
“I understand that Ma, but you could have at least told Jay,” I finally said.
Shaking her head, she said, “No, Jay’vion would have told you. I didn’t want y’all to worry about things we have no control over. Mama is going to be fine. I have faith and I know my Savior will look after me. It’s all in God’s hands,” she said. I smiled and kissed her cheeks.
