by Brent Weeks
I didn’t want to get bloody?
There’s always something desperate requiring my attention, isn’t there? As if I can blind myself with activity, with travel, or with war.
He thought of all the wights he’d killed over the years. The White had been right. There had never been any need for him to risk his own life hunting them down. Foolishness to risk a Prism to hunt a few wights. Wights are merely once-men, running in fear, nearly always alone, usually in the wilderness because no one in the world would give a murdering madman shelter. Take a tracker after them, figure out when they sleep, and have half a dozen men fire muskets at the sleeper.
Instead, Gavin had insisted on going after them himself. On facing them. Killing them when they were conscious. Giving them those phony last rites. Trying to purge himself, more than them. Steeped in blood, he sought blood to cleanse himself.
He sometimes still couldn’t believe the White had let him go hunting. But she’d thought he’d kill himself if he didn’t have those trips. Perhaps she’d been wiser than he knew.
The tiny window inset in the cellar’s door opened.
“Tssssss.”
And a woman’s laugh.
It chilled him. Staring there at the now shut window, and his grubby cell and his half a hand, and his dirty beard and his long dirty hair, Gavin felt his chest tightening up. Hard to breathe. Shooting pains.
A thought that he’d batted away successfully a hundred times came back to him, and stood over him, and spat upon him: You’re not going to get out of this. There is no escape.
It was almost puzzling to him. Putting on Gavin Guile hadn’t meant putting on a set of clothes, it had been putting on a new skin. He’d seen flayed men: his spies left for him by his brother. He could still hear their shrieking, and now he felt he was one of them, the Gavin-skin torn from him.
He was going to lose his eyes.
Well fuck his eyes.
‘Orholam will give it to you plain,’ the prophet had told him. ‘You keep up your lies, and you’ll be stricken blind.’
He was already blind. What could they do to him but make all the world see what he already knew? For months now, he’d been a husk. A man when he had been nearly a god. That knife, that damned knife had stolen his power. But there was no getting it back.
He looked around the cellar, and could almost convince himself that he saw brown dirt, brown wood, the silver of metal. But it was all gray. Shades shading into black. Into blindness.
Who had he been deceiving, anyway, thinking he could make a comeback? From this. He had built himself to be the perfect Prism since he was seventeen years old. A seventeen-year-old’s projection of a perfect Prism, anyway. Robbed of the light of his youthful delusions, he was an empty mirror in a darkened room.
Ah, Karris, I’m only glad that you don’t have to see me like this. And if you do see me before my end, I won’t see the disappointment, the horror, in your face.
If I could do it again, would I do it all differently? Would I have stolen your life, Gavin? Would I have come forward, at any point in all my years as Prism, having consolidated my power, and said of my own will, at my own time, ‘I am not he’? I was too great a coward to live in the light. Fitting then that light be taken from me.
He sat, hollowed of feeling, for days. Morning and night, the window would open. He would hear a light step. “Tsssss,” the Nuqaba would say. And she would laugh.
Haruru was as much a legitimate Nuqaba as Gavin was a legitimate Prism. Hundreds of years ago, under Prism Karris Shadowblinder, immediately in the aftermath of Lucidonius’s death, the Parians had been given extra leeway in how they kept the religion. Having been the birthplace or fostering place of Lucidonius, they had demanded special consideration. Prism Karris had allowed it in order to keep the empire together. Though attempts had been made since to keep the two parties more in line theologically, there had been no success in bringing the Nuqaba further under the Prism’s political control.
Most Prisms tried, but war with Paria was something no one had the stomach for. And a succession of Nuqabas had played their hands beautifully, strengthening key positions while giving up the inessential. But the truth was, too many Parians, both within the satrapy and outside of it, considered themselves uniquely bound to the Chromeria. The empire was, as they saw it, theirs. Their man had founded it. Their people had expanded it. To go to war with their own was unthinkable, so long as certain prerogatives were respected.
The Nuqaba was supposed to be a living saint. She was supposed to be mother to all the clans. She was supposed to be a model of patience and wisdom and firm love. She was supposed to look upon her people with the eye of grace. Some had gone so far as to wear a patch over their left eye, the oculus sinister, the evil eye. Not Haruru.
Ironfist and Tremblefist are going to be furious when I kill you.
No, that problem, that thought, that was the old Gavin. That was the Gavin who had power. Who was power.
She came back, to speak to him, or to taunt him.
“You’re going to make a deal with a pagan army?” Gavin asked suddenly. “Your people will kill you for that.” Perhaps worship of Orholam had slipped among the rich and powerful in Paria, perhaps they would be happy to make a deal with a monster. But would the army? Would the villages, and the fleets? Or would those faithful people rather die before they would join with monsters, regardless of what their betters told them to do?
“Not me.”
And then Gavin understood.
She’s a useful idiot, is what she is. One of her nearest advisers probably works for the Color Prince.
It amazed Gavin how stupid ambition made smart people. Haruru controlled the Satrapah Tilleli Azmith totally, but hated having to publicly give the appearance of obeying her—or perhaps of merely being her equal. The Nuqaba wanted to be unfettered. So she’d join with the Color Prince, believing he would then turn toward the Chromeria and leave her alone until he’d dealt with them. Leave her alone. In what world would the man be stupid enough to do that?
The Color Prince wasn’t an Angari pirate, coming to raid. He wanted to be an emperor. He was building up Tyrea rather than plundering it. Doubtless he was doing the same with Idoss and Ru now. It was certainly why he’d stopped or at least slowed his advance. When you spent money to build, you ultimately got more out of the land you held, but it took more time. If he was patient, it might be too late to stop him already. The caves above Ru held millions of bats. The guano contained a key ingredient for making gunpowder—and the Atashians had held a stranglehold on that, making the Chromeria and everyone else pay dearly for what the Color Prince now had for free. And what else could you do with the cedars of Blood Forest but build a fleet?
Both of which took time. With the Chromeria’s navy shattered …
The Color Prince needed time, so he was using this time to divide his enemies. And the Nuqaba was deluded enough to think that if only she had total power over Paria, she could use that time better than the Color Prince could use his time to gather resources from five satrapies.
Truth was, it would probably take her years and a civil war for her to rule Paria outright. And when she won—if she won—Paria would be at its weakest precisely at the time when the Color Prince began to reap the riches of the satrapies.
Parians were great warriors, but they weren’t so great that they could fight five satrapies. And in the meantime, as he subdued the other satrapies, the Color Prince wouldn’t have to face those Parian warriors and Parian ships.
We so easily convince ourselves that what is good for me is also good for others.
If Gavin had been promachos, he could have stopped the Color Prince before Sun Day.
Of course, it’s different when you’re right.
Truth was, he could have stopped him even without being promachos. Sending the Blackguard searching some of the rivers in Atash that might hold harbors fit for shipbuilding. The skimmers changed everything, and Gavin was more adept at figuring o
ut the implications of rapid changes than most. The Blackguards could have found those harbors—if they existed—in a few weeks. With the amount of lumber collected all in one place, it would have taken only a single good red drafter and a spark. They’d have destroyed the Color Prince’s fleet before it could sully the waves.
If I were in charge, things would be better.
Said every tyrant ever.
“Why are you grinning?” the Nuqaba asked, peeved.
“I’ve got my health, my family, one and a half hands, two good eyes, what’s not to love?” Gavin asked.
“We’ll change that soon enough,” she snarled.
“That’s why it was a joke…”
Her face contorted, and he was suddenly glad she didn’t have a pistol now. Didn’t like condescension, this one.
My brain seems stuck in the obvious right now. Perhaps to deny what’s coming.
“Though I will sit close enough to hear the hissing and popping of your eyes, to savor your screams, I wish I could be there on your ship home, as you jerk and twitch at every touch, every voice, wondering which one is my assassin, wondering how you can fight off a death you can see coming, but only metaphorically. When they shave your cheeks clean, will you wonder if that razor will later taste your throat? What savage nightmares will you have before you die?”
“So,” he said, “you act the evil gloating traitorous bitch queen laudably enough, but I’m bored. Are we going to do this? Hard to escape when I’m stuck in a cell.”
“Such things have to happen at noon. And I’m not giving you any chance to escape. We’ll go straight to the hippodrome. I wanted to do it tomorrow, as part of the Sun Day festivities, but the Ruthgari have a different view of things.”
“Spilling blood as defilement, yes, pity, that.”
“Yes, pity,” she said flatly. “So we’ll do it today.”
She stared at him for long minutes, seeming to savor the darkness he tried to hide growing in his breast like the white egg of black widow spiders undulating slowly until it suddenly split, bursting forth a black, creeping explosion. He tried to keep the horror off his face, the fear that he’d convinced himself he simply didn’t have the capacity to feel. He was wrong, and the hopelessness crept in a black wave up over his defenses, over his bravado, and finally over his face.
She saw, and smiled.
Finally, a knock on the door. “Your Eminence,” a voice said, “it’s time.”
Chapter 79
Kip had barely escaped to his room and his pounding head and his flickering visions when there was a rapid knock on his door. Teia.
“Go away,” Kip said. He sounded like a petulant child, and he hated himself for it.
“Breaker,” she said. “You need me.”
But when she said ‘Breaker’ again he heard ‘Diakoptês,’ the sense of two languages colliding, intertwining. Diakoptês: he who rends asunder. He heard a woman whisper it in his ear, sharing a secret. He heard an old man screaming it in despair in the distance. He heard a crowd chanting it until it melded with ‘Break-er, Break-er!’
“Breaker, open the door,” Teia said, and Kip was aware of himself once again, leaning against the doorframe, head down, heart racing. He opened the door.
Teia came in. “Decision time,” she said. “Your grandfather is going to know about your half brother’s arrival any moment, if he doesn’t already. He’ll send for Zymun, and then he’ll send for you. Right?”
“I suppose,” Kip said.
“What’ll happen?”
“We tried to kill each other the last time we met, Teia, and Zymun’s not the forgive-and-forget type.” But even as Kip said the name ‘Zymun,’ it echoed in his head. Zymun the Dancer. Forests flashed before his eyes, light streaming through morning mist, rising in a meadow. A man he knew well, lying prone at my feet. Unconscious? No, dead. Dead, Kip was certain of it. And—
Gone. Only to be replaced by dazzling pain.
“Breaker! Pay attention! ‘Who hesitates…’” she quoted. “Finish it.”
“‘Is lost,’” Kip said.
“So, you’ve got a choice. Wait until your grandfather summons you and dance to his tune again, or run.”
“Run?” Kip asked. White and black spots were still slamming into each other companionably in front of his face.
“Take a ship. Take it anywhere.”
“I wouldn’t even know where to hire a—”
“I do.”
“Or how much to pay for pass—”
“Two hundred danars. You’ve got five times that in your stash.” She pointed at his hidden coin stash.
“You know about my coins?” Kip asked.
“You’re many things, Breaker, but sneaky ain’t one.”
Breaker. Again, it was like someone rang a cymbal next to his ear. But it didn’t distract him completely. ‘Breaker,’ she’d said. And ‘ain’t’? Teia didn’t talk like that. Not usually. She was establishing distance between them.
Kip didn’t even know what he’d done. “It was the booger thing, wasn’t it?” he asked.
“Kip! No time!”
But a flush of red suffused the gray of her cloak, until she noticed it, and it went back to flat boring gray immediately.
Kip drew his green spectacles and tried to draft enough to nudge the coin sticks off the rafter, but at the first infusion of green, he almost retched.
“Teia, I don’t suppose you could draft to knock the coins down for— Oh, you only draft paryl, never mind.”
“Boost me,” she said. They’d worked together long enough that he did it automatically.
The plan is that I fling her up to the window ledge, and she’ll lie down, extend a hand for me to grab. I’m the heavier by far. It’s how we always do it.
But the fire is too intense. Nearly smokeless, intense. The reds are pouring luxin into the manse. Overkill, but we’ve given them reason to fear a team of Shimmercloaks.
I fling Gebalyn skyward, the hem of her shimmercloak trailing fire.
Teia sprang up and grabbed the coin sticks, and he caught her on the way down.
Distracted by the vision of fire, his hands stayed on Teia’s hips just a moment too long.
“Kip,” she said. She thumped his wrist with a coin stick.
“S-sorry,” he said. He’d be more embarrassed if he weren’t in so much pain.
“The captain’s name is Two Gun Ben. You don’t pay him a danar more than two hundred, you understand? He’s already agreed. East docks, blue. Now move! We’ve probably—”
A sharp knock at the door interrupted them. “Kip, it’s your grandfather. Open the door. It’s urgent.”
The Master. Hands stained red with betrayal. Scribbling lines—he’d been writing to the Color Prince. He’d gone wight, and he didn’t know how to escape, so he was planning to ‘join’ the Color Prince. Eventually, he would betray him, too. But joining the Color Prince would give him time, and that was a commodity the Master needed.
Kip blinked. His head was pounding.
Teia was cursing silently. She was mouthing words to him: Don’t. Open. It.
For a moment, he couldn’t think at all. Then all he could think about was all the cards in his pockets. Teia was already moving, throwing open his bureau. Kip handed her the card boxes, and she buried them all under some clothes and shut the bureau quietly.
“Hesitated,” Kip said. “I hesitated. Not like me at all.” Dammit. He opened the door.
Andross Guile stepped inside, not waiting for an invitation. He looked at Teia, surprised, perhaps, to see her here. “Hmm, you’re filling out nicely,” he said, staring Teia up and down. “So sad Kip won you away from me.” He gave her a little charming grin. “If you wish to visit my chambers on a more … open basis, though, please come by.”
She shrank from him. Kip realized what she did not: Andross Guile wasn’t serious. His tastes didn’t go so young. If he wasn’t interested in Tisis, he certainly wouldn’t be interested in Teia. He was merely d
igging deep enough into debasement to undercut her fundamental decency. He wanted to unnerve her. It worked.
“You’re dismissed, caleen,” Andross said, turning his attention to Kip.
“I’m a free—”
“Dismissed,” he said. He was the promachos, and even without the weight of his new title, he was a man accustomed to being obeyed.
Teia practically fled.
Andross closed the door behind her. “Has she come to you?” he asked.
“Pardon?” Kip asked.
“Tisis. Has she come to you? My spies have reported a Malargos ship being quietly readied to sail this evening. A smuggler’s ship, fast, one they don’t know I know they own. Has she come and proposed marriage, or not?”
A long silence. “Yes,” Kip admitted.
Andross slapped his gloves into his other hand and smiled. “I so love it when I’m right. That prediction? That was a bit of genius, if I do say so myself. New player, impulsive, trapped. Hard to predict. Did you bed her?”
Kip shook his head. Then was ashamed of himself. He should have told the old bastard it was none of his business. Why did Kip defer to his enemy?
“Well, you can lead a horse to a mare in heat, I suppose, but you can’t make him mount her. Not usually a problem for us Guiles. My advice? Get rid of that fat. You might find a libido hiding under it.”
Kip opened his mouth—he wasn’t even sure what he was going to say, and he didn’t care, he was about to open the Blunderbuss and let fire—but Andross raised a finger.
“But.” His eyes twinkled. “I didn’t come here to lecture you, dear boy. I came to give you a choice. Few in this world get their life-defining choices handed to them and labeled as such, but you are special, and I am feeling generous. Do you have them for me?”
“Huh?”
“The cards, Kip.”
“You never sent me to look for my father. You broke your word.”
“I broke nothing. We agreed I’d choose the time. I mean to send you to be part of the group that will free him. You are spending your time here profitably. I don’t waste those who work for me. Now. Do you have my cards?”
