“It is.”
“Don’t let’s start that now. I need to keep things together when I’m here.”
“Fair enough.”
I got in my car, crossed back over the tracks and out of un-Wonderland, but fragments of that question I had for Crank were still scratching around the back of my head. By the time I hit the interstate, they were gone.
It seemed to me that this was one case being played out in two worlds: one up here and one back in the city. The weird thing was that in spite of it all playing out with my family and me at center stage, I felt more like a spectator than a participant. I sensed Katy slipping completely out of my life and I was helpless to prevent it. Maybe that was best for both of us, but I couldn’t let her slip out of my life and straight into hell. No, I owed her to make this right.
CHAPTER TWELVE
Carmella was out of the office when I got back into Brooklyn.
“Is she taking a late lunch or what?” I asked Brian.
“She don’t report to me, boss. She just ran outta here”-he checked his watch-“like forty minutes ago.”
Brian Doyle was a project of ours. He was NYPD for about fifteen years. That he lasted so long was proof of God. Rough around the edges and a bit too quick with his fists, he was an old school cop three generations of cops too late. But Brian was perfect for us or would be, once he learned to listen. He knew the street and had a knack for getting information out of the most reluctant people. Brian had never had to rough anyone up while in our employ, at least not that we knew of. People could see the potential for violence in his eyes and that was enough. The whiff of violence usually is.
“How did she seem to you?”
“She seemed like the hottest fuckin’ detective I ever seen.”
“That’s not what I meant.”
“How the hell should I know how she seemed?”
“ Oy vey iz mir. Forget it,” I said, rubbing my eyes in frustration. “Carmella said she had something for me.”
“She did?”
“Oh, for chrissakes! Doesn’t anybody in this fucking place-”
Doyle was laughing so hard, he started gasping for air. Even Devo came out of his office with a wide grin on his face.
“Okay, gentlemen, you got me. Now can someone around here tell me what the fuck is going on?”
Brian and Devo looked at each other.
“You first, Devo,” Brian said, still wiping tears from his eyes.
Devo’s office looked like a cross between a recording studio and the cockpit of a B2 bomber. I had been wise enough never to ask who paid for all the equipment.
“Before we get started, take these.” I handed him the surveillance tape from the PrimeOil station and the little cassette from Katy’s answering machine. “Once you’ve had a look and a listen, you’ll know what I want from you.”
He took the tapes, laid them down on a shelf, and asked me to take a seat in front of a computer monitor.
“Here,” he said, a newspaper ad flashing up on the screen, “is a notice for an audition that appeared in the New York Minute six months ago.” CASTING CALL Male Caucasians between the ages of 18–22,
150-160 lbs., 5’8” to 5’10”. For leading role in an indie docu-drama. Experience a plus, but not required. Must be willing to travel. February 16th, 11:00 AM.
LaGuardia Runway Inn, Ballroom B.
Tilliston Casting.
“The New York Minute? Never heard of it.”
“It is one of those free weeklies you can pick up in newspaper boxes on corners around the city. Very popular for advertising bands, selling cars, subletting apartments, promoting clubs and such.”
“Yeah, okay, but what’s the big deal about this ad? I don’t know shit about casting calls, but there’s got to be notices like this all the time.”
“Look at the screen.” He clicked the mouse. “This is that same notice in the LA Freeway. He clicked again. “In the Second City Loop. I found this notice in about twenty places in publications of this type dating back six to eight months. Only the location of the auditions is different.”
“Someone was casting a wide net, so what?”
“Yes, a wide net, but a shallow one. One notice in Variety would get more turnout than one hundred of these type ads in smaller free presses. My supposition is that they were looking for a non-union, inexperienced actor. In fact, they weren’t necessarily even looking for an actor. If one reads carefully between the lines, one might conclude they were looking for someone they might be able to manipulate.”
“One might. Good points.”
He bowed slightly. “Also, I did some checking. I found someone who went for the audition at LaGuardia.”
“How’d you manage that?”
Devo smiled slyly. “Come now, Moe, need you ask?”
“I know, I know, that’s why we pay you the big money. So what did this guy you found have to say?”
“He said it was the oddest audition he ever attended. They didn’t ask him to run lines, to do a scene or to discuss his training or experience. Apparently, it truly was like a cattle call. Appearance… everything was about appearance. They had a very specific set of parameters even beyond what was listed in the ad. You had to have a certain type of complexion and visible tattoos were strictly verboten.”
“That’s odd,” I said. “I thought movie makeup could cover anything.”
“It can… on film, but what if the role required-”
“-live appearances?”
“Precisely.”
“Moe, pick up line two. It’s your daughter.” Brian’s voice came loud over the intercom.
“Excuse me a second, Devo.” I picked up. “Is everything okay with-”
“Mom’s fine, Dad. I mean, as fine as can be expected. I just saw her and I think she’s more embarrassed than anything else.”
“Good. I’ll be coming back up there tonight to check on you guys. Is the deputy still outside the door?”
“The cute one, Robby? Yeah, he’s still there.”
“Too much information, kiddo. Way too much.”
“Oh, Dad, grow up. Besides, I have something I want to tell you.”
“What?”
“Remember when we were watching that video of Uncle Pat-I mean, of the guy posing as Uncle Patrick?”
“I remember.”
“I said something wasn’t right about him even though he looked just like the pictures of Uncle Patrick.”
“Yeah.”
“I know what it is,” she said. “He was too comfortable on camera, too much at ease.”
“I’m not sure I’m getting you.”
“Look, Dad, think about those old pictures of your family from Russia. You know how they’re all so stiff and unsmiling and their eyes have that deer in the headlights thing going on. Then think about your folks’ generation and then yours. People got more and more comfortable with having their pictures taken, but not necessarily with being videotaped. My generation is really the first generation that’s grown up on video. Births, our first steps, first baths, birthday parties, bat mitzvahs, weddings, sweet sixteens, baseball games, dance recitals, almost everything my generation has done our parents taped. We’re really used to being in front of the camera. We like it. Being on tape is… for us, it’s affirmation. All the people I go to college with have cameras on their computers. And Uncle Patrick was killed in what, nineteen seventy-sev-”
“-seventy-eight,” I corrected.
“But you get my point. That was way before the ever present, all-seeing eye. That guy on the tape is no ghost, he’s my age.”
“Funny you should say that. I think Devo’s arrived at the same conclusion. Thanks for the assist, I’ll see you later.” That was met with a very loud silence from the other end of the phone. “Okay, Sarah, what is it?”
“I think you should leave Mom alone for a little while. Like I said, she’s pretty embarrassed and feeling kinda stupid about this. If she feels you’re there to judge her or…I ju
st think you should give her some time. I can look after her for now.”
It bugged me that Sarah twice mentioned Katy being embarrassed, but I couldn’t say why exactly. There seemed to be a lot of things I didn’t have answers for just lately. In any case, I didn’t pursue it.
“I’m very proud of you, Sarah. I think I’ll take your advice, at least for a day or two. But I want to know if anything happens with your mother. I mean anything. Deal?”
“Deal.”
“Love ya.”
“Love you too, Dad.”
I put down the phone and recounted Sarah’s theory to Devo, after first explaining what was on the videotape I had given him.
“My guess,” I said, “is that the guy you’ll see on that tape is the guy who got the part.”
“Yes, personal appearances and all. Why don’t you go talk to Brian while I get started with the tapes?”
I hesitated. “Just one more thing. This Tilliston Casting, they legit?”
“I am afraid not. They were a post office box and a phone number. The phone number has been disconnected and the P.O. box closed.”
I made a move for the door. Devo called after me.
“One last thing, Moe. Judas Wannsee.”
“What about him?”
“Here.” Devo handed me a folder. “I have tracked him down, He was a difficult man to find.”
“He would be.”
“He has changed his name several times in the past decade, but you should be able to contact him there.”
“Thanks.”
When I stepped back out into the main office, Brian nodded at Carmella’s office.
“She’s back, in case you’re interested.”
“Okay, but first, show me what you got.”
Brian slid a Polaroid across the desk to me. It was of a freshly done tattoo. The tattoo was of a rose threaded through the Chinese character for eternity, and 4/7/00 was written neatly across the bottom in black marker.
“By the way, boss, that ain’t one Chinese character, but two that have been superimposed on each other. My bud tells me that even that’s a sorta shorthand and that this one here means,” he said, pointing at the back of one of his business cards, “long or no change. This one here means never eroding.” He showed me the back of two more business cards. “The proper way to write it is like this or this here. These four mean forever and those four there stand for eternity.”
“Thanks for the Chinese lesson. I don’t know, Doyle, maybe we should can your ass and hire your friend.”
“Maybe, but he ain’t half as charmin’ as me.”
“I’d like to meet him. I’ve never met anyone completely devoid of charm before.”
“Huh?”
“Forget it. Who’d you get the Polaroid from?”
“Mira Mira,” he said, as if that were explanation enough.
It wasn’t. “I’m listening.”
“She’s a tattoo artist. Works by appointment only and charges an arm and a fuckin’ leg.”
“Nice pun.”
“Pun?”
“Never mind.”
“Anyways, an old snitch of mine turned me onto her. When I showed this Mira Mira what I was lookin’ for, she pulled that Polaroid right out of her… whachumacallit… her-”
“-portfolio.”
“Yeah, her portfolio. She does Polaroids of every one of her creations. She even has photo portraits done of some of her work. She says those photos sell in galleries for thousands of bucks. Me myself, I don’t see it, paying for a picture of a fuckin’ tattoo.”
“I don’t think you’re her target audience, Doyle. She tell you anything about the client?”
“White kid, twenty, maybe younger. Came in with a heavyset guy in his late sixties.”
“Did she think they were lovers?” I asked.
Doyle cringed. “I didn’t ask. She did say that the old guy had an eye patch over his left eye. Here’s her contact info. I told her you might wanna talk to her.”
I slid the Polaroid and the contact info into my jacket pocket. “I’m curious. Why’d she give you the Polaroid?”
“Because she said she was embarrassed that she had even done the job and…” He hemmed and hawed.
“And… I’m waiting.”
“I paid her for it.”
“Don’t tell me how much. I don’t want to know, not now, not when I’m thinking of telling you you did good. Just put in your reimbursement request to Carmella.”
“Thanks, boss.”
“And Brian…”
“Yeah?”
“Don’t pad the request because I’m going to ask this woman how much she charged you.”
He opened his mouth to say something and thought better of it.
Carmella was once again sitting and staring out the office window. Only this time there was fire in her eyes and no tears to contain the flames.
“What an asshole!” she growled.
“Which one?”
“Me. The father. Take your pick.”
“The father?”
“The baby’s father. I told him that I was pregnant. That’s where I was, meeting him for a drink. He didn’t even ask me why I wasn’t drinking. When I explained it to him anyway, you know what he asked me?” She didn’t wait for my answer. “He asked if I was sure it was his. Like I’m out there soliciting sperm donations. What an idiot!”
“Him?”
“No, me. I sure as hell can pick’em, can’t I, Moe? What am I gonna do?”
“Just tell me who he is and I’ll show him the error of his-”
“No. I wouldn’t let him within fifty yards of this baby, the selfish, self-centered prick. Not now.”
“Isn’t there anybody you can talk to?”
“I’m talkin’ to him.”
“I mean a girlfriend, someone in your family.”
“Someone in my family! Are you nuts? You know what they would tell me? Go talk to the priest. Yeah, like a priest’s gonna help me make a decision about an abortion. After… you know, after what happened to me as a girl, my mother took me to a priest to have him bathe me in holy water, to wash away the stink and shame. You know what the priest said? He said that my mother should pray for God to forgive me. Forgive me, a little girl! What did I do wrong, Moe?”
“Nothing. Your mother was a foolish woman. And priests… What can I say? But I’m sure your brothers and sisters would-”
“No, they wouldn’t. I hate this fuckin’ baby,” she hissed, her face belying her words.
“Sure you do, that’s why you’re so torn up about it. That’s why you said you wouldn’t let the father get near it.”
“Who asked you?”
“You did.”
“I shouldn’t’ve.”
“Would you think about giving the baby up?”
That stunned Carmella, the air going out of her as if I had caught her solid in the solar plexus. I don’t think the notion of giving the baby up was a possibility she had ever wanted to consider. It was the hardest option for a reluctant mother. Though I believe the concept of closure is complete bullshit, I have to think that carrying a baby to term and delivering it only to hand it over to strangers has got to be a vicious form of living hell. I’m not sure I could handle the uncertainty of it or the second guessing.
“I couldn’t do that, Moe. How could I do that?”
Now the tears came. The fire was out. I took a step toward her.
“Leave me alone. Just leave me alone to think, okay?”
“Sure.”
In contrast to her name, Mira Mira was as exotic as whole wheat toast. Oh, she was pretty enough-Italian, early thirties, svelte and dark-but with a Brooklyn accent that made mine seem minted on the Thames. And if her loft in SoHo was indicative of how lucrative tattoo artistry was, I was going to tell Sarah-a gifted painter-to lose the brush and oils in favor of the ink and needle. You could have played full-court basketball in the place and have had room for bleachers and concession stands. The expos
ed brick walls were covered in enormous photographs of body art. Some were rather stunning and done in colors you were more apt to find in a Klimt than on a teenager’s bicep.
“So, you wanna to tawk about an original Mira Mira creation.”
“Not original, really,” I said, sliding my business card and the Polaroid across the table to her. “I believe you already spoke to my employee about it.”
“That Brian Doyle works for you, huh? A real freakin’ charma, that guy.”
“Charm is a funny thing. Depends on taste.”
“Yeah, well, just because some assholes who are drownin’ think they’re just slow swimmers, don’t make it so. You know what I mean?”
I didn’t, but I wasn’t here to argue with her. “Exactly. So what can you tell me about that tattoo?”
“Nothin’. I mean, nothin’ I didn’t already tell Prince Charmin’.”
“Amuse me, okay?”
“Sure. Whaddya wanna know?”
“Everything. Anything. How were you contacted? Who did you deal with? Did they leave a contact number or address? What was the kid like and the guy with him?”
“Nothin’ unusual in how he got in touch. Got a call from a guy sayin’ he’s seen my work and that he’s got a friend that he wants to get inked. I asked him if him or his friend wanna come in to tawk about what kinda design they’re lookin’ for, but he says they already got somethin’ specific in mind. I told him I didn’t do crap. No Christ heads or hearts or dragons, you know, that kinda crap and that I don’t negotiate price. He says that ain’t no problem and when can he come in.”
“So you spoke to the older man, the one with the eye patch.”
“Yeah, it was Cyclops I tawked to.”
“Do you have names, addresses, phone numbers?”
“Sure do, for what it’s worth. I mean, I don’t like check references or nothin’, but I make people sign all kinda fuckin’ releases before I put ink to skin. You have buyer’s remorse with a house, you can sell it. Body art, the way I do it, it’s kinda hard to give back.”
“Could I see the paperwork?”
“Nope.”
“Why not?”
“My studio got busted into in May. All the files got trashed.”
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