by Jim Butcher
"Oh," he said. "Right." WILL'S APARTMENT WAS a wreck. The lock had been smashed, though the door was still in one piece. The furniture was askew. A few things were broken. Paperback books had been knocked off a shelf. A laptop computer lay on its side, a blue screen of death glaring from its monitor. A mug of cocoa had been spilled and lay in a drying puddle on the hardwood floor.
I looked back and forth for a moment, frowning. The spill lay near the laptop, and both were to the right side of a comfortable-looking recliner, which had been bowled over backward. There was a therapeutic contoured pillow lying a few feet beyond that.
"So," I said, "maybe it went like this. The attacker kicks in the door. There's a partial impression of a shoe's tread on it. Georgia's sitting in her chair, there, working on her computer." I frowned some more. "She drink a lot of cocoa?"
"No," Will said. "Only when she's really upset. She jokes about it being self-medication."
So she'd been upset already, even before the attack. She was sitting in the chair with her laptop and her cocoa and… I walked over to the fallen chair and found a simple household wireless phone lying behind it.
"Something besides the prospect of an attack had upset her," I said. "She took the time to make a cup of cocoa, and you don't do that when there's a maniac at the door. She made herself a comfort drink and huddled up in her chair to call you. Do you have any idea what could have upset her like that?"
Will shook his head. "Normally, no. But she's been on a hormone crazy train the past few months. She's overreacted to a lot of things."
I nodded and stood there, just trying to absorb it all, to get an image of how things might have fit together. I pictured Georgia, a long, lean, willowy woman, curled up in the recliner, her face blotchy, her eyes red, almost curling up around her baby and the sound of her husband's voice.
Someone broke the door in with a single kick and rushed her. Georgia was a fighter, accustomed to combat, even if it was mostly when she was in the form of another creature. She used the first defense she could bring to bear-her legs. As her attacker rushed her, she kicked out with both legs, trying to shove him away. But he had too much momentum, and instead Georgia's kick had flung her chair over backward.
A pregnant woman nowhere near as lithe or graceful as she usually was, she turned and tried to get away.
"There's no blood," I said.
The attacker had dragged her out by main force. Either he'd beaten her with his fists and feet-easy, on a pregnant woman, who would instinctively curl her body around her unborn child, so that blows landed mostly on the back, ribs, and buttocks-or else he'd choked her unconscious. Either way, he'd subdued her without, apparently, drawing blood.
Then they left.
I shook my head.
"What do you think?" Will asked.
"I think you don't want to know."
"No, I don't," he said. "But I need to."
I nodded. I repeated my theory and its supporting evidence. It made Will go pale and silent.
"How was her hand-to-hand?" I asked him.
"Fair. She used to teach women's self-defense seminars on campus. I don't think she's ever had to use it in earnest…" His voice trailed off as he stared at the fallen chair.
"What did you find out that I couldn't?" I asked. "I mean, with the whole werewolf thing."
He shook his head. "The human brain isn't wired for serious scent-processing," he said. "Not like a wolf's, anyway. Shifting… sort of turns up the volume in your nose, but it's really hard to sort things out. I can follow a trail if I'm on it soon enough, but when a bunch of scents get mixed together, it's a crap shoot. In here there's new paint, spilled cocoa, the last day or two of meals…" He shrugged.
"Magic never seems to make things any easier," I said.
Will snorted faintly. "Dresden keeps saying the same thing."
I felt an odd pain in my chest. I ignored it. I walked over to the apartment's little kitchen and studied it for a minute. Then I said, "So she's a cocoa junkie."
"Well, she's functional."
"She drink instant?"
"Are you kidding?" The pitch and cadence of his voice changed a little, becoming slightly higher and more clearly inflected, in what was probably an unconscious imitation of his wife. "It's the Spam of cocoas."
I got a pen out of my pocket and used it to lift a second cup, this one with a bit of lipstick smeared on the rim. The bottom of the cup was sticky with the residue of real cocoa, the kind you make from milk and chocolate. Some of it was still liquid enough to stir as the cup shifted. I showed it to him.
"Georgia doesn't wear makeup," he half whispered.
"I know," I said. "And the cocoa in this cup has been sitting out for about the same length of time as the cocoa in the other cup. So the next question we need to answer: Who was drinking cocoa with Georgia when the door broke in?"
Will shook his head. "Either it's the attacker's scent or it's someone we know. Someone who is over a lot."
I nodded. "Redhead, right? The one who likes wearing the tight shirts."
"Andi," Will said. "And Marcy. She moved back to town after Kirby's funeral. Their scents are here, too."
"Marcy?"
"Little mousey girl. Brown hair. She and Andi had kind of a thing in school."
"Liberal werewolves," I said. "Two words rarely seen adjacent to each other."
"Lots of people experiment in college," Will said. "You probably did."
"Yeah," I said. "I tried getting into watching European football. It didn't work out."
"Neither did Marcy and Andi."
"Bad blood there?"
"Not that I know of. They were still roommates after they split."
"But Marcy left town."
Will nodded. "She wanted into the animation business. She pulled a job at Skywalker. Seriously cool stuff."
"So cool that she left it to come back here?"
Will shrugged a shoulder. "She said it was more important for her to be here to help us. And she lived in a cardboard box or something, socked most of her money into the bank. Says the interest is enough to get by on for now."
I decided to remain skeptical on that story. "You happen to remember if either of them wears this color lipstick?"
He shook his head. "Sorry. Not really the kind of thing I notice."
If I remembered right, most guys who looked at Andi wouldn't be entirely certain whether or not she had lips afterward. But she'd probably have back problems at some point. "Okay," I said. "Maybe the cops will be here soon, and maybe not. Either way, I don't think we should wait around for them."
Will nodded. "What are we going to do?"
"This isn't exactly high-dollar soundproof housing. Someone in this building must have heard or seen something."
"Maybe," Will said, though he didn't sound confident.
I turned to leave the apartment and tried not to notice the little crib and changing table that had already been set up just beyond the open door of the apartment's second bedroom. "We won't know until we ask. Come on." CANVASSING A BUILDING isn't particularly fun work. It's awkward, boring, repetitive, and frustrating. Most of the people you talk to don't want to be talking to you and want out of the conversation as quickly as possible-or else they're just delighted to be talking to you, and want to keep talking to you even though they don't know a damn thing. You have to ask the same questions over and over again, get the same answers over and over again, and generally look like you're an idiot without a single clue.
And you pretty much are, or you wouldn't be canvassing the building in the first place. You grow a thick skin fast for that kind of thing when you do police work.
"This is getting us nowhere," Will said after the umpteenth door, his frustration and worry finally boiling over to the point that it was beginning to outweigh his terror for his wife and child. He turned to face me, his stance unconsciously confrontational, his shoulders squared, his chest thrust out, his hands clenched into fists. "We need to do something else."
; Ah, masculine assertiveness-I've got nothing against it, as long as it helps get the job done instead of making it harder. "Yeah?" I asked him. "You think we'd be better off walking down the street calling her name, Will?"
"N-no, but-"
"But what?" I asked him, keeping my tone reasonable while facing him with an equal amount of ready-to-kick-your-ass Martian body language. You do not intimidate me. "You came to me for help. I'm giving it to you. Either you work with me or you tell me you want to go it alone. Right now."
He backed off, unclenching his hands and looking away. I relaxed as well. Will hadn't meant to deliver a threat to me, as such, but he was a hell of a lot bigger and stronger than I was. Stronger isn't everything, but simple mass and power mean a lot in a fight, and Will had the ferocity and killer instinct to make them count even more heavily than most. He'd never considered-hell, probably never noticed-the full depth of the statement he was making with his stance and clenched fists.
It's another in a long list of things that Martians hardly ever think about: Almost any woman knows that almost any man is stronger than she is. Oh, men know they're stronger, but they seldom actually stop to think through the implications of that simple reality-implications that are both unnerving and virtually omnipresent, if you aren't a Martian. You think about life differently when you know that half the people you see have the physical power to do things to you, regardless of whether you intend to allow it-and even implied threats of physical violence have to be taken seriously.
Will hadn't intended to frighten me. He just wanted to find his wife.
"I know it's frustrating," I told him, "but it's the best way to find out something we didn't know before."
"We've been through the whole building," he snapped. "The most we've got is a neighbor a couple of floors up who heard a thump."
"Which tells us there wasn't much of a fight," I said, "or they'd have probably heard it. Fights are loud, Will, even when only one person is fighting. A building like this, everyone knows it when the neighbor beats his wife."
"Somebody should have heard her scream."
"Maybe it wasn't as loud as you thought. It was right in your ear. And it upset you. If it ended quickly enough, it might not even have woken anyone up."
I looked out the hallway window, toward more of the same sort of apartment building across the parking lot. Will wasn't going to be terribly helpful in his current state. "I'm going to check across the lot, see if anyone happened to see or hear anything last night. I want you to call Andi and Marcy. Get them over here if you can reach them. After that, go over your phone's caller ID, Georgia's cell phone's caller ID, her e-mail. See if anyone odd has been in contact with her."
"Okay," he said, frowning-but nodding.
"Control your emotions, Will. Stay calm," I told him. "Calm's the best way to think, and thinking's the best way to find Georgia and help her."
He inhaled deeply, still nodding. "Look, Sergeant… One of the guys in that building… Maybe you shouldn't go over there by yourself."
I smiled sweetly at him.
He lifted his empty hands as if I'd pointed a gun. "Right. Sorry." THREE BUILDINGS HAD apartments in them that faced out on the common parking lot in general, and had a view of the Bordens' apartment in particular. I stood in the parking lot, looking up at the windows for a moment, and then started with the building on the left.
Most of an hour later, I hadn't learned anything else, and I figured out my main problem: I wasn't Harry Dresden.
Dresden would have looked around with a vague expression on his face and wandered around, bumping into things and barely comporting himself with professional caution, even at a crime scene. He'd ask a few questions that wouldn't make much sense on the surface, make a few remarks he thought were witty, and glibly insult anyone who appeared to be a repressive authority figure. Then he'd do something that didn't make any goddamn sense, and produce results out of thin air, like a magician pulling a rabbit out of his hat.
If Harry were here, he could have taken some hairs out of Georgia's hairbrush, done something stupid-looking with them, and followed her across the town or the state or, for all I knew, to the other side of the universe. He could have told me more about what had happened at Georgia's than I could have known, maybe even identified the perp, in general or specifically. And, if things got hot when we went after the bad guy, he would have been there, throwing fire and lightning around as if they were his own personal toys, created especially and exclusively for him to play with.
Watching Dresden operate was usually one of two things: mildly amusing or positively terrifying. On a scene, his whole personal manner always made me think of autistic kids. He never met anyone's eyes for more than a flickering second. He moved with the sort of exaggerated caution of someone who was several sizes larger than normal, keeping his hands and arms in close to his body. He spoke a little bit softly, as if apologizing for the resonant baritone of his voice.
But when something caught his attention, he changed. His dark, intelligent eyes would glitter, and his gaze became something so intense that it could start a fire. During the situations that changed from investigation to desperate struggle, his whole being shifted in the same way. His stance widened, becoming more aggressive and confident, and his voice rose up to become a ringing trumpet that could have been clearly heard from opposite ends of a football stadium.
Quirky nerd, gone. Terrifying icon, present.
Not many "vanillas," as he called nominally normal humans, had seen Dresden standing his ground in the fullness of his power. If we had, more of us would have taken him seriously-but I had decided that for his sake, if nothing else, it was a good thing that his full capabilities went unrecognized. Dresden's power would have scared the hell out of most people, just like it had scared me.
It wasn't the kind of fear that makes you scream and run. That's fairly mild, as fear goes. That's Scooby Doo fear. No. Seeing Dresden in action filled you with the fear that you had just become a casualty of evolution-that you were watching something far larger and infinitely more dangerous than yourself, and that your only chance of survival was to kill it, immediately, before you were crushed beneath a power greater than you would ever know.
I had come to terms with it. Not everyone would.
In fact… it might be for that very reason that someone had put the hit on him. A bullet that strikes from long range and goes cleanly through a human body, and then through the hull of a boat, twice, leaving a series of neat holes, is almost certainly a very high-powered rifle round. A professional rifleman shooting from a good way out was one of the things Dresden had acknowledged had a real chance of taking him out cleanly. He might be a wizard, a wielder of tremendous power and knowledge (as if they're any different), but he wasn't immortal.
Quick, tough, tricky as hell, sure. But not untouchable.
Not in any number of senses. I should know, having touched him-even if I hadn't touched him anywhere near soon or often enough…
And now I never would.
Dammit.
I pushed thoughts of the man out of my head before I started crying again. It's hard enough to pull off an air of authority when you're five feet tall, without also having red, watery eyes and a running nose.
Dresden was gone. His cheesy jokes and his corny sense of humor were gone. His ability to know the unknowable, to fight the unfightable, and to find the unfindable was gone.
The rest of us were just going to have to carry on as best we could without him.
I KNOCKED ON doors and talked to a lot of people, most of them college-age kids attending school in town. I got a whole lot of nothing about Georgia, though I did get tips on some drug sales that had gone down in the parking lot. I'd pass them on to the right people on the force, where they would become more scenery for the endless march of the war on drugs and wouldn't amount to anything. The tips did prove the point I'd made to Will, though: Neighbors see things. Maybe I just hadn't talked to the right neighbor yet.
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br /> When I hit building three, I felt the change in climate as I went through the door. It was more run-down than the other apartments. Some fresh graffiti marked an interior wall. More of the doors had double dead bolts on them. The carpet was old and stained. The pane of a window had been broken out and replaced with a piece of wood. The whole place screamed that unpleasant sorts were lurking about, making the building's super reluctant to maintain the halls and foyer, maybe forcing him to continue dealing with problems and damage over and over again.
I couldn't hear any music.
That's unusual in buildings like that one, mostly inhabited by students. Kids love their music, however mind-numbing or ear-rending it might be, and you can almost always hear at least a beat thumping somewhere nearby.
Not here, though.
I kept my eyes open, tried to grow a new pair for the back of my head, and started knocking on doors. "NO," LIED A small, fragile-looking woman who said her name was Maria, a resident of the third floor. She hadn't opened the door more than the security chain allowed. "I didn't hear or see anything."
I tried to make my smile reassuring. "Ma'am, the way this usually works is that I ask you a question, and then you tell me a lie. If you give me a dishonest answer before I have the chance to ask the question, it offends my sense of propriety."
Her head shook in quick, jerky spasms as her eyes widened. "N-no. I'm not lying. I don't know anything."
Maria tried to shut the door. I got my boot into it first. "You're lying," I said, gently. "You're scared. I get that. I've gotten the same treatment from almost everyone in the building."
She looked away from me, as if seeking an escape route. "I'll c-call the police."
"I am the police," I said. Which was technically true. They hadn't fired me yet.
"Oh, God," she said. She shook her head more and more, desperation in the gesture. "I don't want to be… I can't be seen talking to you. Go away."
I lifted my eyebrows. "Ma'am, please. If you're in trouble…"
I wasn't sure she'd even heard me. I'd seen women like her often enough to know the look. She was terrified of something, probably a husband or boyfriend or a string of husbands and boyfriends, and maybe a father before that. She was living scared, and she'd been doing it for a long time. Fear had ground away at her, and the only way she'd been able to survive was by capitulating.
