“Okay. I was just going to check on some of the sea life around here. Have you ever gone snorkeling before?”
He shook his head that he hadn’t and it didn’t surprise me. If I had grown up there, you couldn’t have gotten me out of the sea, but the natives took it for granted in a way. “Well I have some extra equipment. Let me go get it.”
Rocco nodded and the followed me into my room. I was very aware of his presence and his eyes on the messy room that I hadn’t picked up the day before. His eyes landed on a bra that was on the dresser and I felt my face growing hot from embarrassment. “Sorry. I should have picked up this morning.”
He just waved me off, watching me pick up the undergarment causing me discomfort. He liked having me disconcerted and I would have stopped if it wasn’t so easy to be bothered by him.
“It’s okay. I never clean mine.”
“Then who cleans up around here?”
“Carl’s girlfriend.”
“Do you have a girlfriend?”
He shook his head. He had many girlfriends, but apparently he didn’t count them. He asked if I was seeing anyone, but I think we both knew that I wasn’t. They knew everything about me from living together and whether they could see it or not, the dry spell was driving me crazy.
“No, I don’t have time for boyfriends. The classwork is harder than I expected.”
“You know what they say about too much work and no play.”
“Yeah, I may actually graduate. I don’t know how you guys do it. I would be useless with all of the partying you do.” It was clear he was smart though. Rocco had a little of everything and it was hard not to see that. I say what every other girl saw in him. The man had a lot to offer someone, but he was more worried about quantity than quality.
“I always make time for pleasure.”
I shivered with his words and the look in his eyes. He was suddenly too close and I took a step back from him. Grabbing up the masks and extra flippers, I didn’t look back at his dark needy eyes. He knew exactly what he was doing and though I knew that, I still wished that he had given me a kiss. His lips had been so close and looked so soft. But then it was over and I was left breathing a little heavier than usual.
Chapter 6
Nicole
Something I had learned about Rocco was that he was a charmer when he wanted to be. We spent most of the day together and he was rather adept at using the mask. He helped me get some starfish to the surface to look at their colors and though I doubted he could have cared less about any of it, he at least pretended to care for my benefit and it was hard not to be pleased with him.
The shorts had gone see through and paired with no shirt, it was hard to breathe around him. Rocco didn’t seem to try much more to seduce me and I was torn on it. While I had told myself that his gaze was bothersome, it was even more so with the absence of it.
At the end of the day, I felt differently about Rocco. He wasn’t just the dumb jock that I thought he was. There was more to him than what met the eye and I was starting to feel myself having feelings for him. It was what I had feared and now he was the one that didn’t seem interested. Aggravated I went into my room and made a call to Annie. I wished she was there with me. She always knew just what to say.
“I don’t know what you are even talking about Nicole. You were the one that told me he was just a jock. You know, the kind of guy that you hate? Full of himself and thinking he is God’s gift to women.”
“I know. You are right.” But I wondered then if he actually had been sent down for all of womankind. I smiled to myself and listened to my friend telling me all of the right things. She was telling me the same thing that my head was telling me, but I didn’t want to hear it.
“Nicole?”
“What?”
“You aren’t even listening to me, are you?”
I told her that I was. I just had a lot on my mind. I didn’t want to talk about me anymore and I asked her how her classes were going. Thankfully that got her started on her own dilemma and then she dropped a bombshell that I wasn’t prepared for.
“So I went out with this girl last week.”
“Wait, what?”
“Come on Nicole. We both know that I was in love with you for the last couple of years we stayed together. I know now that you just weren’t interested, but it also made me realize that I am just not that into guys.”
I nodded to no one else in the room. I had always known, but I felt happy for her for finally accepting it. She came from a good family, one that would not understand the way she felt and if they did understand, they would not understand why she couldn’t just pretend for the rest of the world like they did.
“I am so happy for you Annie. You deserve to be happy.”
“Thanks Nikki. I didn’t know if I was ever going to get over you.”
“You seemed to have done so pretty quickly.” I stopped, wondering why I felt a weird feeling over her getting over me. I didn’t want her for more than a friend, but I didn’t want to lose her as that. The distance was further away and it also made me realize that I wasn’t fitting in as well as I would have liked. I certainly hadn’t gone on any dates. With the two roommates that I had, it was hard to think of another guy.
“Are you jealous?”
“A little. I am not fitting in the same here. I have met a couple of friends, but the guy situation is a mess.”
“Well if you keep drooling after your jock roomie, you are never going to find a guy.”
I knew she was right. I had to stop thinking about Rocco, but there was something that pulled me to him. I started to wonder what would happen if I just went to him, just once. I knew that he didn’t want a relationship, all he wanted was those few minutes of bliss and then he would forget about me. But would I forget about him? That was the real question and I wasn’t sure of the answer.
“I am not drooling at him, but I swear, the guys here are built different. He is so hard and…”
She started laughing a little and I felt my face getting red. It was so unlike me that I couldn’t believe I had fallen into such debauchery. “You’ve got it bad. I want to meet the man that has my friend hyperventilating.”
I denied it, but we both knew that I was wasting my breath. She knew me far too well.”
“Well I am not the one that sounds like she is in love.”
Another chuckle. “No I guess not. You sound like you are in just pure lust. You should go for it Nicole. Get that guy out of your head so you can focus on finding you a good man.”
“Alright, well I got to get off of here. I got work in a little bit until ten.”
“Don’t work too hard Nicole and tell me all about it.”
I said that there would be nothing to tell, but I suddenly wished there was. Why couldn’t I just do as she said? I wanted him and I knew that he wanted me. Why couldn’t it just be that easy? I tried to convince myself that I wouldn’t get attached. And I tried to convince myself that it was all that I needed. All I needed was for him to take me like his eyes promised to just once and I was sure then that I could get him off my mind.
“I don’t think there will be anything to tell you, but if there is, you will be the first to know.”
“You better Nikki. Don’t wait so long to call me next time. It’s been a week and I miss talking to you.”
“I miss you too. I am really happy to hear from you and hear that you finally are being true to yourself.”
“I would drop this girl and take you in a heartbeat. You know that Nicole.”
I paused. She had never really come out and said it before and I wasn’t sure how I felt about it. Annie would always be my friend, but there was no attraction there on my side. “If I was into girls, you would be the first one on my list.”
She giggled a little. “I know Nicole. You never once gave me a look that I thought was anything more than friendship. But I always hoped. Maybe this Rocco jock will break your heart and send you to my side.”
I h
ad to laugh at that. It was the way she thought and no big deal to have my heart broken I suppose. “Well I guess we will have to see. Take care of yourself Annie. I will talk to you soon.”
Hanging up I just shook my head and sighed to no one in particular. I missed her and sometimes I wondered if the small quaint town was worth it. I liked my job and new school, I even didn’t mind the roommates that partied more than they slept. But I missed having someone who knew me like Annie did. I didn’t have to explain things to her like I had to everyone else.
Thinking about what she said, I thought about the man in the other room. I didn’t know what his plans were but I had some plans that involved something I knew I wasn’t supposed to be doing. Why couldn’t I just try and see what happened? Maybe Annie was right and I just needed to seek out the lust that I was feeling for him.
After a time, Rocco was all I could think about and I decided to put something tight and short on to get his attention. I just needed one time, a few moments with the devilishly handsome man and I was sure it would all be better. I just needed to feel that hard body I had been seeing around the house on me, in me, just once.
Chapter 7
Rocco
“Why do you keep looking down the hallway?”
I looked back to Julie on the sofa. I certainly wasn’t going to tell her I was waiting for the hot blonde to come out of her room. Julie and me were supposed to be on a date, but I wanted to stay in instead. It wasn’t because I wanted to take her to my room, what Julie thought she was there for, but because I was hoping to run into Nicole. She had made it clear that she didn’t want to be around me as much and I missed her.
It was a strange feeling because it wasn’t her body I missed. I don’t even remember missing a woman like that before. I had never even felt her wrapped around me yet. Nicole’s personality and quick wit was what I missed most and as Julie looked at me with the vaguely aware look, I sighed to myself. “I thought I heard something is all.”
“Well I think you need to stop worry about noises and take me to bed. When you asked me over, I thought that was what you wanted.”
It was exactly what I wanted, but there was something stopping me from taking her back to my room. Nicole was there and I didn’t want her to think I was taken. I wanted her to think that there was a chance for us and I was becoming more aware of how she must see me. Never thinking that way before, it was a bit alarming. I knew that one time with Nicole would not be enough. But that one time with her seemed almost impossible. She had already told me more than once that I wasn’t her type and a man had needs.
“Don’t you want to talk or something? You can tell me how your day was.”
As soon as I said the words, I wondered what the hell was wrong with me. When had I ever asked a girl to talk? Julie was looking at me as if I had lost my mind. “You want to talk?”
She looked at me so incredulously I felt embarrassed. Was I really that bad?
“Yeah, I mean we have known each other for a couple of years and I don’t think that I even know all that much about you.”
“That’s because you told me that there was only one thing that my mouth was good for. If I remember right, it wasn’t talking that you were alluding to.”
I kind of winced at her words. I really was a jerk sometimes. I couldn’t imagine saying that to Nicole and the idea made me realize that I hadn’t been the best man to women like Julie either. When she put her hand on my chest and started to move down to the ground in front of me, I still didn’t have the decency to stop her. I may not have known much about her, but Julie was very good at using her mouth in that way.
My head fell back and I forgot about the hallway and my new found awareness of being a jerk to women. All I could think about was the feeling of her mouth on my sensitive tip. I couldn’t think of anything else. Of what could happen, who could just walk in as we were just sitting in the living room. It wasn’t what I had planned, but there was no way I could stop her now.
Moving my hand to the back of her head, I heard her struggle a little with my girth. She was soon sucking hard and I was so close to losing it that my grip was getting harder in her hair. Pushing up with my hips to meet her hungry mouth, I suddenly heard a noise over my own slamming heart. It was the sound that I had been waiting for and I opened my eyes in time to see the shocked look on Nicole’s face. It wasn’t just that she was surprised, but she actually looked like she was getting her feelings hurt at the same time. She looked at me as if I had betrayed her in some way.
It was in that moment that I lost it. I don’t know why. Maybe it was because I was looking at Nicole while Julie had her way with me. I wished it was her, but when I opened my eyes back up, she was gone. I didn’t have to hear her and see her up close to know that I had hurt her somehow. Pushing the sucking mouth from my length, Julie whimpered at me. “Do you feel better now Rocco?”
I nodded that I did, but there was nothing good in my heart. I had messed it all up. It didn’t matter that I was single and not even with Nicole, the fact was that I had lost her without even having her. She would never give me the time of day now. The thought bothered me far more than it was supposed to. I had Julie leave quickly after that and she was just another woman that I had offended that night. I shouldn’t be worried about Nicole, but why was I so eager to go see if she was okay?
Why wouldn’t she be okay? I wasn’t her type anyways.
***
Things in the house got weird. Even Carl had noticed the friction between me and Nicole. She had practically ignored my very existence since she had walked in on me and Julie. I could have told Julie no or at least took her into my bedroom. I see that now, but at the time it was impossible to think. I got mad at Nicole, sure that it was her fault for the way I was feeling in the first place. It was all her fault. She had moved into town and changed everything.
I wasn’t the same since meeting her. It was strange ways that I had changed. When I saw the ocean in the background and smelled the sea air, all I thought of was Nicole. Every blonde I saw, was her and every girl’s laugh I heard was her. I was obsessed and the more certain that I was that I couldn’t have her, the more certain I was that I did in fact need her in my life. I was torn between her and reality. It didn’t matter anyways, I thought to myself, she wanted to have nothing to do with me. That much was clear.
A few weeks after the incident, as I was now referring to it in my head, she walked into the kitchen early and stopped in her tracks when she saw me standing there. Her eyes took in my hard body and for an instant, I could have sworn I saw need. It was quickly gone and she was about to leave the room.
“We can’t keep doing this Nicole. We live together.”
“I don’t know what you are talking about Rocco. I just needed to grab a few waters before I took off for the day.”
It was Saturday and she was looking great. I could tell by the lack of makeup and the oversized shirt that she was going to be going to the beach. The pink string from her bikini was showing and I wanted to ask her if I could come, but she wasn’t looking like she ready to give an invitation.
Nicole was about to walk out of the room when I stopped her with a light hand on her arm. She looked down at where I touched her and then slowly brought her blue eyes up to me. “What Rocco?”
“Look I am sorry that you walked in on that the other day. I shouldn’t have done that out there. I just wasn’t thinking.”
She nodded and side stepped me. “It’s okay Rocco, really. I have learned that I need to prepare myself when I am out of my room. I knew it was going to be different living co-ed, but I think we both know that it isn’t working. I have been looking at a couple of places and should be out of your hair soon.”
I didn’t want to be rid of her. It was working just fine until I acted like an idiot and made her feel uncomfortable. There was something in the way that she looked at me then, I couldn’t believe that I had been so stupid. Why was I so worried about her staying? I wasn’t sure, but it
was the last thing that I wanted to think of, her not living there anymore.
“I think it is working. I don’t want you to go anywhere.”
It didn’t have to do with the extra rent or the fact that I was going to catch hell from Carl about chasing off another roommate off. It came down to the fact that I felt like she completed me. It may have sounded corny, but it was true. I needed Nicole and I was almost to the point of wanting her whether she was just my friend or something more. I knew that not having her in my life would be worse.
She looked away and pulled her arm back to her body. “I just think we would all be more comfortable if we could live the way we want to.”
There was no arguing with her. She was the type that made a decision and stuck with it. There wasn’t much I could say, but she was still so close to me, looking up at me in that way. I leaned in and brushed my lips against hers. I didn’t even think about it in the beginning and once she made a soft sound in her throat and leaned in against me, I was no longer worried about anything.
Pulling her to me with a strong grip on her waist, Nicole moaned against me and I felt her resolve and body melding with mine. I didn’t want it to end, but then we both heard Carl coming in from down the hall and she pushed me away quickly. “I’ve got to go. See you later.”
I watched her skit away and I was scowling when I saw Carl. “What?”
“You have the worst damn timing. You know that right?”
He looked at me as if I had lost it, maybe I had. I couldn’t forget her soft lips and soft sounds. I had been so close, I was sure of it.
Nicole left me needy, but she also left me with just the slightest bit of hope. Maybe there was a chance for us yet.
Chapter 8
Nicole
My face was burning when I got out of the house. I hoped that Carl hadn’t seen us kissing, but it wasn’t the first thing that I was worried about. I was worried about the kiss that felt too good and the man that I wasn’t supposed to want. I wasn’t supposed to want or need a man like Rocco. He was bad for me. He was the type of man that a woman didn’t get over. If his kiss had anything to judge off of, I had actually been saved from something far worse by seeing him with the other girl from one of my classes.
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