“Give her some space man.” Jesses says and Jace nods in agreement. “No. I need to see her now.”
“So get the fuck out of my way.” I demand.
We stood there in a standoff for what felt like hours. Ella had crept out while I fought with the two assholes in front of me.
I tried calling Tessa repeatedly and just got voice mail. My fear started to spike. Who the fuck was with her? If both Jesse and Jace were here. Who was watching Tessa?
Chapter 47
Tessa
Ugh, I feel like shit. Poor Jesse is out there, sitting in the waiting room with Brandon. As soon as the doctor mentioned clothing removal. They disappeared like a puff of smoke.
I wouldn’t have believed they were there a minute ago, if not for the fact Jesse has been my shadow for the last year. Well, almost a year.
“Tessa. Are you ready?” the doctor pokes her head back into the room. “Mm hmm.” I respond. I fucking hate hospital gowns. They’re the worst creation known to man. I swear a man must have been the one to come up with the design.
“I would like to get a quick look down below.” she has this smile on her face. I would be smiling too if I wasn’t on the receiving end of said examine.
I hate this part. She stares up at me from the stirrups. They had these covers on them that had that printed on it. I laugh. I can’t help myself. It’s true. I absolutely hate this part of being a woman.
I have yet to meet someone who does. I guess it’s normal to hate some strange person shoving fingers and instruments up your whoha.
Laying back, I place my feet into the stirrups. Scooting down to the edge. I let my legs fall open. First, she walks up to the top of the table.
She reaches under the gown and presses on my breast. I hiss in discomfort. Sure, it normally is uncomfortable. But this, this is the worst I’ve ever had it been.
“Does this hurt?” she asks. Almost like she’s asking about the weather. I resist the urge to grab a handful of her hair and punch her in the boob. Then I’d ask her if it hurt.
“No shit” I reply. Guess I couldn’t keep it pleasant.
“Just as I thought. Okay Tessa I want to check your uterus really quick.” she’s already bending over in her chair. I feel her fingers slip inside and a shudder of revolution runs up and down my body.
“Mm hmm. Okay. Mm hmm.” she mumbles to herself.
“Alright, Tessa let’s go over your test results.” she sounds solemn. If that son of a bitch Axel gave me an Amber disease I was going to cut his balls off and make them into a necklace.
“There’s no easy way to say this. You’re Pregnant.” she says.
The world freezes. “No fucking way. You’re lying, It’s a big fucking joke. Where are the cameras? Am I on candid camera?” the words just spew from me.
Shock. I’m in shock. “There is options Tessa.” she starts and I finish “No fucking way. There are no options. I don’t believe in abortion. There are cases that yes, I feel should. But only under dire circumstance and I won’t put my child in foster care.”
Looking at the floor, my eyes fill with tears. Pregnant. I’m fucking pregnant. My hand presses into my tummy. There’s a baby in there. Mine and Axel’s baby.
“By the looks of things, it's possible there are more than one child in there. You’ve gained a good amount of weight since we had last seen you. And don’t look at me like that Tessa. You’re not fat. I in no way meant it that way.” she says in a motherly tone.
“I would like to bring in an ultrasound cart and have a look at the baby or babies if you okay with that?” she asks sweetly.
See the baby or babies right now. Like in this very minute. No words would come so I nod quickly.
That shows. I find myself here once again laying down. My legs in the stirrups as she coats my stomach in this cold jell.
She informs me I got lucky. If I was here just a few weeks earlier, it would have been an internal ultrasound. I guess they put some sort of wand up you whoha. Yikes.
She places the wand that reminds me of the scanner they use with big items at checkout. She smears the gel all over me as she moves the wand.
“Do you see this here?” she pauses and points at the screen. I give a nod. Absolutely clueless about what I’m seeing.
“That is your baby. Oh, and it looks like there are two. Congrats! Tessa!” She gives me a sweet happy smile.
Two! There are two babies in me. She hands me some print outs. My hands shake as I look at the black and white grainy pictures of my two babies.
They resemble peanuts. Mommas little peanuts. I take my time dressing. Trying to collect my composure.
I have no idea what I’m going to tell Axel. Reaching into my purse I call Ella. I feel like I’m on auto pilot.
“Tessa? Hey. How are you feeling?” the words are rushed. “Okay, I guess. No, not okay. I need you Ella. Please. Can you meet me at the house? Don’t tell anyone I wanted you. I don’t want Axel to know and worry.” I finish in a confused rush.
“I’ll be there soon. Just need to get Jace.” her voice gets lower when she says the next part “I’m with John.”
I know how she feels about John. I feel the same way. He gives me the fucking creeps. The way he watches us when no one else is looking. I feel almost violated.
“I’m headed that way in a few minutes.” I tell her.
“Are you still at the doctor?” she asks in surprise.
“Yes” that’s all I can say out loud at the moment.
“I’m on my way.” the worry in her voice was loud and clear.
Rushing home, I went to our bedroom to wait for Ella to come home. Clutching the delicate photos in a death grip. Careful not to wrinkle them, I stare at them.
I’m going to be a mommy. I’m going to be a fucking mom. I’m going to be someone’s mama. I’m going to one bad ass mommy.
Ella doesn’t even knock she just rushes into the room. She draws up short when I hold out the hand holding the photos.
She looks from my hand to the photos and back again. She resembled a puppy looking at a ball, then begging you to throw it.
Laughing. I’m laughing. Puppy, Ella I can’t help it. “Is that what I think it is?” she asks quietly.
I nod my head as tears fill my eyes again. God, I’m turning into a weepy baby.
“I’m going to be an auntie?” she asks in excitement.
“Yes.” I hand her the photos. “There are the peanuts.” I point them both out. “I’m three months along. Figures your brother would hit it the first try.” I joke.
“Two? There are Two, Tessa.” she asks and at the same time doesn’t.
“I don’t know what to do Ella” I say. She glares at me. “Not that. I meant with your brother. What if he doesn’t want our little peanuts? I’m not getting rid of them.” I say firmly.
“Oh Tessa. He’s going to be so happy. He loves you.” she says kindly.
I’m not so sure. He has not once said the words. He hasn’t even said we’re exclusive. Panic starts to rise. What if he’s with someone else. No, Tessa. Don’t do this to yourself.
Ella throws herself at me. “Oh, god, I’m sorry. Did I hurt, then you? The babies?” “It’s okay Ella. I promise no harm.”
“I was just so excited.” she says. Honestly, I’m glad she’s happy and excited. Maybe Axel will be as well.
I think Jesse was a little suspicious. My behavior was odd. I refused to tell him anything. I know it hurt his feelings. Axel should know before Jesse though.
“Let’s go find that brother of mine. I can’t wait to see the look on his face when you tell him.”
I know I need to do this. It’s like ripping off a band aid. Best to do it quick. Less painful that way.
We go in hunt of Jesse and Jace. Finding them was easy enough. They were both in the kitchen devouring cookies. Mm cookies.
Reaching over I grab both cookies out of Jace’s hand. The poor guy looked from his hand to mine. Then my face. He smiles and gets him
self some more.
Ella informed me a while ago that Jace seemed to have a soft spot for me. The man is typically all death, murder and mayhem.
After I eat ten cookies I convince Jesse and Jace to take us to the clubhouse. I guess Axels been there all day. At least that’s what John told Jace.
Riding on the back of anyone’s bike, but Axel’s doesn’t feel right, so Ella and I take my car. The boys, of course, rode behind us on their bikes.
The clubhouse was an old warehouse surrounded by steel fence. There were cars and bikes everywhere. I notice Axel’s right away and feel my body give a sigh of relief then floods with tension. I need to go in there and tell him something life altering. He may not be too happy about it.
Ella all but skips to the door. My pace is a little more sedate. She frowns when she realizes I’m slowing her down.
Patting my purse. The purse holding pictures of my future. Gives me strength. I hold my head high as I walk to his office.
The door opens fast. Faster than I anticipated. I guess the occupants were also surprised. If the look on Axel’s face was anything to go with.
Amber was sitting in his lap. A very fucking naked Amber was sitting in his lap. My eyes fill with tears. I fight them back, but more replace them. She’s sitting in his lap naked repeats in my head over and over.
I can’t do this. The image is burned into my brain. The next thing I know. I’m behind the wheel of my car peeling out of the lot.
I go right to the house. Right past go and did not collect the two hundred dollars. I rush up to our room. Grabbing a bag, I start shoving my shit into it. Clothes, underwear, deodorant, shampoo, razor, everything. I even packed a shirt or two of his.
He won’t miss them. Just like he won’t miss me. Seems he’s already moved on. I open my purse and pull out the photos.
Selecting one with the both of them that I seem to have doubles of. I cut it off the strip and set it down on the bed.
I have no idea where I’m going. Mom moved again six months ago, So, going home wasn’t an option. I already graduated so there’s no need for me to stick around here.
Mind made up I walk back to the car and calmly get into the driver’s side. I’m leaving this town. I probably won’t go too far. I want Ella to be a part of their lives I just need some space.
Starting the car, I put it into reverse. Then Ella’s there climbing into my window. “Please Tessa Don’t go.” she cries.
“I need to Ella. Please understand. I just can’t stay here right now. I’m not leaving forever. Just for now okay.”
She backs away from the car and I back out of the driveway. Giving her one last look I take off down the road. Destination unknown.
Chapter 48
Axel
Pulling my gun, I hold it to Jesse’s head. “Get the fuck out of my way.” my voice is cold. I’m done with this shit.
Jesse stands his ground for about thirty more seconds. At least until I cock it and placed it back against his head. “Fucking Move.”
Jace and Jesse part like the red sea. I charge past them. I don’t stop until I was at the house. Ella’s car is there. But Tessa’s is gone.
I rush up the stairs and into our room. The closet was open, and the dresser drawers were open. Looking around, I realized Tessa’s stuff was gone.
Ella was sitting on the floor clutching something to her chest. Her sobs were loud in the quiet of the house.
No more singing off key. No more laughing. No more Tessa. My knees buckle and I hit the floor hard. She’s gone. She took everything and left me.
I look over at Ella. She’s looking at me with so much hate in her eyes. It was like a physical touch.
“How fucking could you!” she shouts at me.
“It wasn’t what it looked like Ella.” I whisper. My voice has left me as well.
“Wasn’t what it looked like. Are you dumb? There was a naked whore in your lap. The same naked whore who at every opportunity rubbed all the details of your affair with her in Tessa’s face.” her anger is like a whip.
“She wanted to tell you. Such good news. Such a happy moment. You ruined everything!” she shouts at me. She looks lovingly at whatever she had clutched to her chest. A piece of paper.
“I told her you would be so happy. That you loved her. The look of disbelief on her face makes sense now. She knew you didn’t love her.” she finishes as another sob leaves her chest.
“It wasn’t what it looked like. I swear Ella.” her look says it all. She doesn’t believe me. I don’t know if there is anything I can say to make her.
“She can’t do this alone Axel.” she whispers.
“Can’t do what Ella?” I feel panic seep in. What if she tries to get back at Trevor?
“She can’t do this.” she hands me the paper in her hand.
“What the fuck am I looking at Ella?” I ask. I keep scanning the grainy picture. Tessa’s name was on it.
“Don’t you see them?” she asks.
“See who?” I ask her.
“The peanuts?” she replies.
The what? Is my sister okay. Shit are these tumors?
“Is she dying?” I screamed
“No. You fucking dumbass. She’s pregnant with your twins.” her voice was full of disgust and heartbreak.
I did this. My sister fucking hated me. My old lady left me. I was going to make it official on graduation. I was going to ask her to marry me. To be my old lady.
The words pregnant and twins register. Happiness flooded me. I’m going to be a daddy. Then fear, anger, sadness and finally desperation.
My old lady was out there alone and pregnant. And It was all my fault. I broke her heart, so she ran.
Climbing to my feet I walk out of the room. I can’t stay in there without her.
Putting my phone to my ear I wait for Jace to pick up. “Call everyone. Meet me at the clubhouse now!” I shout into the phone. Hanging up on him I take off running down the stairs out the door and to my bike. She has a head start. Time was of the essence.
It takes me no time and forever to get to the club house. The slamming of the door has everyone looking at me. My feet hit the concrete with loud thuds. Anger surges through me. I look at Jace and Jesse with pure anger.
As soon as I was in arms reach, I punch them both in the face. They hit the floor with a thud. Neither expected the hit so they couldn’t stop their fall.
Looking at the rest, I scan the faces. My eyes swing back to Amber and stay there. Her eyes widen in surprise and hope. I shut that shit down. “We need to talk.” the anger was clear to hear in my voice. This talk has been a long time coming.
Looking at the rest of the group I make sure they see how serious this situation was. “Tessa’s gone.” I say quietly. I couldn’t bring myself to say it louder than that. Just voicing it makes it that much more of a reality.
Murmurs sweep through the room. “Did someone take her?” Brandon shouts to be heard over the crowd.
Shaking my head in a negative. My voice carries through the room. “She left me. She’s out there alone.” I swallow as the room goes silent. You could hear a pin drop.
“She’s pregnant with my twins. That means she’s even more vulnerable.” I choke the words out. I don’t give a shit if this makes me look weak.
More murmurs sweep the room. “I need everyone on this. Find her. I don’t care what it takes. Just fucking find her.”
Everyone shouts in agreement. I got some looks of disgust and some of anger. Tessa was liked by all. Some even loved her.
It bothered me at first. Other men loving my Tessa. Until I noticed it was a brotherly love. They would lay their lives down for her. I wouldn’t want it any other way.
Amber has disappeared and so has John. I’ll deal with that shit later. Tessa comes first. Walking out of the room I make my way to my office. I need to put in some calls.
Chapter 49
Tessa
I’ve been driving for hours. The numbness was going to wear of
f soon. I need to find a place to sleep tonight. Then go hunt for some food. Mainly ice cream.
After, driving for thirty more minutes I pull into a hotel. The Sea Side Motel. Climbing out of my car I take in the ocean just a few feet away.
Old Orchard Beach is a beautiful place. I’ve always wanted to come down here. When we moved to Bangor last year I had heard about this place.
Sighing, I climb out of the driver’s seat and give a big stretch. My jeans are getting a little snug. Grabbing my purse, I walk into the office.
“Room for one, please.” the clerk some old man looks up at me from his crossword. “How long dear?” I think about it for a minute. “A week, I think.” A week seemed like a good idea. I’ll use a different name.
Maybe I’ll like it enough here to stick around. Get a job. “Name?” “Ella” I reply. Sorry Ella. “Last name?” “Mackworth” I pause “Ella Mackworth.” I say with a nod. It will do.
“Okay, dear. Room number twenty-two. Go right out this door take a left and it’s around the back. I gave you an ocean front corner room. Those have sliding glass doors. Real nice.” he smiles.
Placing my hand on my belly I smile back and thank him. Key in hand, I walk out the door and collect my car. After driving the small distance up to the parking lot, I grab my bag and walk to the door, opening it I take in the room before me.
There are two double beds, a small table with two chairs, a TV was facing the beds, there was a small kitchenette with a small fridge, and on the very back wall to the left right next to the kitchen was a set of two doors.
Setting my bag down on the first bed I wonder further into the room to investigate. One was a good-sized closet. The other was the bathroom.
The bathroom was small. Hosting a full-size tub shower combo. A small sink and a toilet. The mirror was flat to the wall. No medicine cabinet I guess.
I take in the room from this angle. Right next to the TV was the sliding glass doors he boasted about. I feel a smile come across my face. They faced the parking lot. That makes it easier. Another escape route.
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