by Ivy Jordan
Xander’s mouth lowered to my neck, sucking my sensitive flesh as he buried his large cock between my legs. I let out a moan, loud and hungry into the room. My fingers dug deeper into his back, penetrating his hard flesh with my short, manicured nails. His thrusts became harder, deeper, and with each one I exhaled hard, only a slight moan able to escape my throat from the shattering pleasure. My fingers rolled down his back, stopping on the hard muscles of his buttocks. They flexed with each push into me, raising up just high enough to allow me the enjoyment of his total length.
I couldn’t believe I was doing this, fucking this mountain man that I didn’t even know. His body pressed against mine made me feel safe, and his masculine scent kept me hungry for more. I wasn’t sure if this was something I would’ve done before my accident, before I forgot everything about myself.
Deeper, harder, and with more aggression, he plunged into my tight cunt. My body shook with excitement as sweat dripped from his forehead onto my shoulder. I had an urge to turn my head and lick up the salty substance, but his eyes on me delayed my response. My pussy started to throb, the friction of his penetration becoming too pleasurable to deny. Moans grew louder as they pushed past my lips, and muscles tightened in my body that I didn’t even know I had.
Xander’s arms flexed as they worked to hold his weight from me, and suddenly his cock began to throb in the same rhythm as my pussy. Our orgasms exploded together, unstoppable, wild and delicious as our eyes locked. Something about this man brought this out in me. I knew this wasn’t who I was, who I’d been. It all felt too new.
His weight fell onto me, crushing me into the mattress. I didn’t mind. I actually enjoyed it. My arms wrapped around him, squeezing him into me as his lips delivered delicate kisses to my chest.
The rough exterior, the hard core shell that kept this man away from civilization, crumbled away like melting ice from a glass. My heart filled with an array of powerful emotions as I felt grateful, lucky, that this man had found me.
Chapter Nine
Xander
I couldn’t believe what just happened, how bold she’d been. Even still, there was innocence about her, something so sweet I could taste it on my tongue. I rolled to my side, lifting my weight from her petite body, suddenly worried I’d hurt her. “Are you okay?” I sighed, scanning her expression for any signs of pain.
“I’m great,” she smiled.
Damn, that smile. She was beautiful, too beautiful to be stuck in the woods with the likes of me. Someone had to be looking for her, desperate to know she was safe. “Do you need anything?” I asked, starting to work my way out of the bed. Her thin arms reached around me, pulling me back to her, by her side. I didn’t fight it, even though I wasn’t certain how I felt about lying next to her, to anyone. I hadn’t slept with a woman in years, and even then, it felt odd.
“Stay with me,” she whispered in my ear.
My body relaxed back onto the mattress, my arm curled under the warmth of her body to hold her into my chest, and suddenly, I was content right where I was.
The wind blew wildly outside the window, bringing more white snow to barricade us inside the warm cabin. The fire was strong, several logs still situated near the fireplace, and I knew it would be a couple hours before I needed to tend to it. I didn’t want to move, to leave my spot snuggled up beside Bailey, if that was her real name. I worried about who was out there looking for her, but worried more about them finding her as I drift into a calm sleep.
The wind took me back to the ship, and the darkness filling my mind turned into the violent sea. Aboard the ship, along with my men, we guarded pirates taken hostage from their ship. At first, the dream was soothing, watching the smiling faces of the brothers I loved. Liam, short and stocky, but made of steel, grunted as he lifted the heavy lock from the main door to the deck. A couple stayed behind, but not Elijah, not Isaac, and not Tommy. My heart raced at the realization of my dream, and suddenly it was no longer soothing. I watched helplessly, knowing I was unable to alter the nightmare I’d relived time and time again, as the men climbed the small metal staircase to the upper deck where I waited. A wave blasted over the deck just before Liam could close the heavy door, letting the bitterly cold salt water run down the steps to the hostages and the men who stayed to guard them.
Sirens shook me, calling me to duty as an approaching ship was spotted up ahead. I ran the stairs, spiraling around and around until reaching the top where I quickly loaded the cannon, pushing a young SEAL from his position. My hands were shaking as the first blast rocked our massive ship. The men below scrambled to their positions, none of them concerned for their own safety, only the safety of their brothers, their ship. I sent the blast towards the coordinates yelled in my ear by the younger boy to my right. I knew what the next blast would bring, and I wanted to look away, but I couldn’t. It was like I was being punished, forced to watch the painful memory over and over again. My eyes watched Elijah and Tommy, red lights flashing around them, then a fiery blast surrounding them, tearing through the metal of the deck. That scream, I’ll never forget that scream. “Nooooo!” Elijah yelled to the night, holding Tommy in his arms while Isaac rushed to their side. I wanted to scream out, but nothing, just silence and an ache in my throat. The darkness swallowed me, like an angry wave of the sea pulling me in as I thrashed around to pull from its grasp.
“Xander?” a sweet voice woke me, but it didn’t shake the feeling of being back there on that ship, on that dreadful night.
My eyes stared into Bailey’s. She looked frightened, and I wasn’t sure what I’d said in my sleep, what I’d done. “I’m okay,” I assured her, even though I wasn’t. But I would be. I’d been through this before, many times, and I knew it wouldn’t be the last. This was part of my punishment for not saving the men, for not saving Tommy.
Bailey’s hand slid up my arm, causing me to jerk away. I wasn’t ready for condolences, not yet, maybe not ever.
My hands were shaking. I quickly shoved them behind my back, not willing to show Bailey any vulnerability. I was supposed to be the strong one, the hero, the one who would look after her and keep her safe. I pulled from the bed with her hand clasping at my arm. She pulled me back towards her, her eyes filled with confusion, concern, and maybe pity.
“Stay with me,” she whispered, tightening her grip on my arm.
A part of me wanted to, but I pulled away anyhow, hard, and without concern for her feelings.
I grabbed a log, shoved it on the fire and poked around while I felt her eyes piercing into my back. I didn’t even look back as I moved to the couch. I pulled the blanket over me that was neatly folded on the arm, and stared up at the ceiling until my eyes grew heavy enough to close once again.
When I woke in the morning, Bailey was still sound asleep. I placed another log on the fire, and then started the coffee. I felt like a piece of shit for jerking away from her last night. I knew she wouldn’t understand, and I really didn’t feel like explaining it to her. Hell, I didn’t truly understand it all myself.
Bailey squirmed under her blankets, turning towards me with open eyes. She watched me silently while I lifted the coffee pot over the fire. “Coffee?” I asked.
She nodded with a slight smile growing on her face. Her eyes were bright and cheerful, especially for such an early morning hour. “How’d ya sleep?” I asked, hoping to kill some of the awkwardness I felt from the night before with small talk. How could’ve I just left her like that, after making love?
“It was a little chilly without you beside me,” she purred.
“I’m really sorry,” I apologized, hanging my head humbly in front of me.
“PTSD?” she questioned.
I turned to her, my eyes curiously searching for judgement, but found none. “Yes. My lovely parting gift from the SEALS,” I chuckled half-heartedly.
Bailey sat up, and scooted to the edge of the mattress. “You must’ve had some bad experiences mixed in with all those good memories,” she observed.
> I shrugged, trying to offer up a smile, even though faint. “I guess.”
“Do you have nightmares a lot?” she pushed into my personal life without invitation.
I wasn’t used to talking about my life, let alone my nightmares. Hell, even us guys knew better than to discuss our nightmares. I assumed the others had them, at least most of them, but we never spoke about it to each other. “Here and there,” I replied, hoping to cut the conversation short.
Bailey’s eyes were wide and bright, so green they reminded me of an open meadow of tall grass. It was obvious she wasn’t willing to let the topic go, at least not yet.
“I wish you would’ve stayed with me. I could have held you,” she presented.
Held me? Was I a child?
I chuckled without meaning to, something that turned Bailey’s bright eyes dim. “I’m sorry. I’m just not used to sharing that part of my life with anyone,” I admitted.
“Is that why you stay out here all alone?” she questioned.
My heart raced at her question. Maybe. I wasn’t sure. I just knew I liked it away from everyone, away from the normality of a world I didn’t feel I belonged to. “I never really thought about it,” I mumbled as I handed her the coffee I’d poured for her. I returned to the pot, focusing on filling my cup to the rim.
“Being alone only makes your nightmares worse,” she sighed as if she were suddenly an expert on PTSD or on me.
“I doubt that. It’s quiet up here. That seems to help,” I smirked.
“What was the nightmare about? Something you’re reliving or something new?” she inquired.
I moved to the bed, sitting on the edge while sipping my coffee and pondering her question. It wasn’t something I wanted to share or have her analyze, but something in her eyes told me it couldn’t hurt to indulge her.
“We lost someone. I relive the night a lot. I was supposed to look after him, after all of them. I let them down,” I choked out, avoiding eye contact with Bailey as I spoke.
“There was plenty out there that was out of your control. It’s not your fault,” she offered sweetly.
How could she know that? She wasn’t there. I was. I was there, and I didn’t save Tommy.
I shrugged, offered a quick smile, and moved from the edge of the bed. “Liam, the one I contacted, he hasn’t responded yet,” I informed her, changing the topic whether she wanted to or not.
“How’s the weather?” she asked.
“It doesn’t look good. The snow’s piled up from five days, and from the way it looks out there, more snow is headed our way,” I explained.
My eyes watched hers, looking for the expected sign of disappointment. She smiled, her eyes remained soft and bright, and she didn’t appear to be upset.
“That’s okay. I’m enjoying my time here with you,” she flirted.
My dick shifted in my jeans at her words, and a smile crept up on my face without warning or control.
“I don’t know how long it will be,” I expressed.
“I don’t care,” she smiled, leaning back against her pillows with her hands behind her head.
Wow!
“Don’t you care that there are people probably out there frantically looking for you?” I questioned, still unable to smear the smile from my face, even with the seriousness of the question.
Bailey didn’t budge. She let out a long, soft sigh, and then let her eyes lock onto mine. “If they are searching for me, they’ll find me eventually. Until then, it’s just you and me, and I’m not ready for that to end,” she concluded.
I was stunned. I couldn’t imagine the appeal to her in this dingy cabin with no electricity and with the likes of me. Still, I couldn’t help grinning like a cat that just caught its first mouse.
Chapter Ten
Bailey
I pulled my knees to my chest, happy that the pain had subsided in my hip and ankle. Staring out the window, I watched Xander split logs effortlessly with his strong arms and back, sighing at the thought of being with him again. It had been a week since we were together, there was still no word from his buddy Liam, and there was no attention from him. Had I put him off in some way?
Goosebumps formed on my arms as the chill from the thin window rolled in. The cabin was warm, kept warm by Xander, but near the window, the draft was almost unbearable. I couldn’t take my eyes from Xander, so I pulled a wool throw around my arms and snuggled against the back of the large chair.
His long hair curled out of his toboggan, and snow crested his goatee shades of white. Heat exploded between my legs remembering our night together. His strong arms, gentle touch, and piercing blue eyes penetrating through me pulled me back to that night, beneath him, and filled me with a longing for more. Why hadn’t he made a move? I was determined that he would again.
With a swift swing of the axe, Xander’s head turned towards me, his eyes stopped on mine, and his lips rolled into a flirty smile. Fuck, I wanted him so bad!
His head shook slightly, as if he was amused by my spying, and then went back to his log splitting. I jumped up, a new mission on my mind. I was going to get noticed, and he was going to make a move.
I slid out of the baggy jogging pants he’d given me to wear, pulled my hair from its tight ponytail, and fluffed it up with my fingers just as he walked in the front door. As I stepped out into the room, the blast of cold air from outside nipped at my bare legs. Xander’s eyes immediately fell on my exposed flesh, lingering, but only for a moment. He walked towards the fire, dropping the logs he’d split beside the stone fireplace, and knelt down, warming his hands in front of the flame.
“How’s the weather?” I asked, trying to act nonchalant as I moved to the couch.
“It’s still pretty rough out there. I can see barely twenty feet down the mountain side,” he responded without turning around.
“So, I guess we are still stuck?” I smirked, beaming inside that I got to stay in the cabin with Xander.
He turned to me, his eyes widened, and his lips parted to allow an escaped sigh. I watched as he appeared to drift off somewhere else, somewhere other than this cabin with me.
“I mean, you seem to be feeling better. We could try to make it down,” he offered.
I couldn’t tell if he was reluctant because he didn’t want to try to make it down, or if he was reluctant because maybe he did. Maybe he was ready to get rid of me. Maybe that’s why he wasn’t paying attention to me anymore. My heart sank into my chest at the realization that I may be able to leave this mountain. Where would I go? What was waiting for me, who was waiting for me?
“I’m not sure I could make it down,” I hesitated.
Xander’s smile spread across his face, causing my heart to lighten. He didn’t want to get rid of me.
“I could make it down, maybe find out who’s looking for you,” he suggested.
“And leave me here alone?” I panicked.
“It would just be a couple days,” he explained.
I pulled my legs onto the couch, tucking them beneath me, and covering them with Xander’s long t-shirt I wore. I hated that idea almost as much as the one where I climbed down the mountain.
Xander laughed, his eyes filled with amusement as he stared at me. “Are you afraid something will get ya?”
“I’m not afraid,” I lied. “I just don’t want you to leave me,” I whined.
He shoved a log onto the fire, and then poked it a couple times to position it before getting up and moving towards the couch. He sat beside me, his body still exuding the cold outside air. “I won’t leave you,” he promised, pulling me into his arms.
My legs filled with goosebumps, and I shivered from the cold.
“Why aren’t you wearing pants?” he chuckled.
“It was hot in here,” I smirked, knowing the real reason was to get noticed.
“I’m gonna wash up,” he smiled, releasing me from his grip. I watched as he got up, walked into the bathroom, and shut the door. What the fuck?
I reached
up, pulled the blanket from the side of the couch onto my legs, and snuggled into the cushion. I watched the flame flickering as I thought about Xander and his distance. There had to be a reason why he’d been so uninterested all week.
The water squealed from the faucet as Xander took his time washing up. My eyes grew heavy as I waited for him to exit the small room, eventually falling closed to darkness.
“You hungry?” Xander’s voice pulled me from my sleep. It was still daylight, but it felt as though I’d slept for hours.
“What time is it?” I asked, wiping the sleep from my eyes.
“Around four,” he responded.
He was sitting beside me, and the cabin smelled of garlic and lemon. I pushed myself up, feeling the grumble of hunger roll in my belly. “I’m starved,” I admitted.
“Good. I made an early dinner,” he announced, getting up abruptly from his spot next to me on the couch. “Stay there. I’ll bring you a plate,” he insisted.
I hated, and loved, that he took such good care of me. Maybe that was the problem; he didn’t want to make a move on someone so helpless. I had to show him I was fine, that I could take care of myself.
My hip ached from the way I’d fallen asleep on the couch, but not bad enough to stop me from my mission. I pushed myself up, stretched out the kinks in my back and neck, and moved towards the kitchen. Xander was unwrapping a foil package that released more of the delicious aroma into the air when opened.
“I told you I’d bring you your plate,” he smiled softly.
“I can take care of myself,” I smirked.
The satellite radio he’d gotten weather reports from was on low, and a reporter was heard announcing yet another burst of bad weather. I reached across Xander to the small radio, and turned the small dial. Static blasted through the tiny speakers, until finally music played. I turned it up, immediately noticing Xander’s surprise. My hip hurt, and my ankle felt weak, but I started dancing anyway. His eyes widened, and his smile spread quickly up his cheeks.
