‘Wife, partner, whatever . . .’ I shrug. ‘Why would I? I hadn’t seen her in years and Jen can’t remember anything. Have you been to see her?’
‘Briefly. She was off her head on some cocktail of painkillers.’ He sounds resentful rather than sympathetic. ‘Same old Jen. Always the victim.’
I stare at him. ‘She was attacked.’
‘Yeah. So she says.’
Is he for real? ‘You’d have to be a contortionist to self-inflict those injuries,’ I say, sharply.
He sighs. ‘Sorry. I’ve spent the last two hours being bombarded with questions by the police.’
‘Abbie Rose,’ I offer.
‘Yes. Her – and this young sergeant. Jen and I parted somewhat acrimoniously. Excuse me if I’m less than sympathetic. I never expected to see her again, but then I get dragged into yet another of her dramas.’
The picture of Jen he paints doesn’t sound at all like the confident, controlled girl I remember from school. ‘What about your daughter?’ I ask, trying to deflect him.
An odd look comes over his face. ‘As I told that policewoman; as far as I know, there isn’t one.’
I feel the blood draining from my face. ‘You’re kidding.’
But he’s clearly not. ‘Look, I’ve had a long drive and a difficult afternoon. I’d really like a sandwich and a coffee. Do you know anywhere?’
We walk down a couple of streets to a little cafe I know that does good coffee. He orders a double espresso and a cheese sandwich while I order a skinny latte. Sitting at the small table, he’s less aggressive.
‘So, let me get this straight.’ He looks directly at me. ‘You knew Jen at school, you obviously know nothing about me, yet you’re going to see her and now you’re sitting here with me.’
‘When you put it like that . . .’ I hesitate, slightly awkward at his directness. ‘It probably sounds strange, but the thing is, people don’t get attacked round here. Cornwall’s safe. It makes what happened more shocking. I suppose, also, I’ve lost touch with everyone from my past. Seeing Jen again has stirred up all kinds of memories. But the main reason is that Abbie Rose thinks seeing me might help her,’ I add, as the waitress brings our coffees over. But I’m still shocked at what he said about Angel. ‘And apart from you, I’m the only person who’s recognized her.’ I change the subject. ‘You said you don’t have a daughter. After what Jen’s said, I’m not sure what to think.’
‘I couldn’t believe it when the police told me. But thinking about it, I suppose she could have been pregnant when we split up, or got pregnant shortly after – I wouldn’t have known. If it was mine, you’d think she would have told me, but like I said, we didn’t part on good terms. Jen doesn’t give a fuck about anyone other than herself. I’ve told the police that if – when – they find the child, I want a DNA test. But there’s another possibility.’ He stares at his mug, frowning. ‘She had a late miscarriage a few years ago. It really upset her. She was six months pregnant – it was a girl. With her injuries and obvious amnesia, I wouldn’t be surprised if she’s confused.’ He pauses. ‘Anyway, I’ve told the police about it. It’s up to them who they believe.’
His callousness leaves me flabbergasted. ‘She’s been through so much. If she has a daughter, and the police seem to believe she has, then this attack after the miscarriage, on top of what happened to Leah all those years ago—’
He interrupts me. ‘Leah?’
‘Leah Danning.’ I stare at him. The entire country knew what had happened to her. It was in the national papers, on the TV news, for weeks. ‘She disappeared in broad daylight from her garden – while Jen was looking after her. Leah was three.’
For the first time, he’s lost for words. His mouth opens and closes again. ‘I think I remember it. I’d never been to Cornwall so I didn’t pay too much attention, I suppose. But . . .’ He shakes his head slowly. ‘Why the hell didn’t she tell me about it?’
I shrug. It’s a good question, and I’m amazed Abbie Rose didn’t mention it. Maybe she’s saving it for another day. But it’s hardly a secret.
‘She hinted that something had happened – in the past.’ He’s thoughtful. ‘Jen had a habit of glossing over what she’d rather not talk about. If I pushed her, she got angry. She said that things happen to people – not always good – but that was life. If you couldn’t change them, there was no point obsessing over them. It was better to move forward.’
I remember, dimly, how Casey used to hide her past. But life was really cruel to her, while Jen had led a charmed life – or so it seemed to everyone else. After Leah disappeared, Casey hadn’t been able to move forward. It seems unfair that, eventually, Jen had.
I change the subject. ‘Are you staying long?’
‘No longer than I have to,’ he says firmly. ‘I’m planning to leave after I’ve been to the hospital tomorrow. If necessary, I can always come back.’
‘What went wrong between you?’ Sitting back, I stare at him, curious.
‘Too many differences. I thought we wanted the same things. It turns out we didn’t. Nothing was ever enough for her – not me, not the farmhouse we moved to . . . not even being pregnant. She’s one of those people who’s always searching for something, only she hasn’t figured out what it is.’
He makes no reference to the trauma of Jen’s miscarriage – or the fact that she must have been unhappy. He’s clearly one of those men who can see things only from his own point of view. Maybe Jen hadn’t got over Leah, after all, but wasn’t able to turn to him. I can understand that, now that I’ve met him. ‘Relationships can be tough.’ I raise my eyebrows. ‘Speaking from experience. But it must have been good between you once. You were engaged.’ I add, by way of explanation, ‘It was announced in the local paper – the police found it. It’s how they learned your full name.’
He stares at me, then shakes his head in disbelief. ‘We were going to get married. We’d decided we’d move first. We looked at dozens of houses, but nothing was right. We knew exactly what we were looking for . . .’ He glances at me. ‘You don’t want to hear all this.’
‘No, go on.’ I wait for him to continue.
‘I’d found this rambling old place in the country. Our forever home.’ He says it sarcastically. ‘We were living in London, so it was a big change for both of us. I was going to commute, and Jen was going to work from home. We were excited about it. Jen got pregnant – sooner than we’d planned, but it didn’t matter. We decided to put the wedding off until after the baby was born. Then she had a miscarriage.’ He falls silent.
‘That must have been terrible – for both of you.’
He shrugs. ‘Jen was devastated. She didn’t really think about how it affected me – it hit her really hard. It didn’t matter what I said, she cut herself off from me. I don’t know . . . Maybe she had some kind of breakdown. Whatever, she was impossible. It was all downhill from there.’ His voice is bitter. ‘When someone shuts you out like that, it’s the final nail in the coffin.’
So there were other nails – I wonder what they were. ‘Was that why you split up?’
He laughs, cynically. ‘To this day, I don’t really know. She never tried to talk it through or explain. I came back from work one day to find she’d turned the house upside down and moved out. It was the last straw. I couldn’t get through to her. In the end, I let it go.’ He shakes his head. ‘I didn’t have much choice.’
What he’s saying doesn’t ring true. He doesn’t seem like someone who’d give up that easily. ‘When are you planning to see her?’
‘The police suggested tomorrow morning. Suits me – I’ll have plenty of time to drive home.’ He looks as though he can’t wait to get away from here. He frowns at me. ‘I’d stay away from her, if I were you. She’s bad news.’
I glance at the clock on the wall. ‘Look, I’m sorry, but I have to go.’ Pushing my chair back, I get up, leaving a few coins on the table for my coffee.
‘You’re off?’ He looks surprised at my r
apid departure.
‘Places to go, people to see,’ I say dismissively, pulling on my jacket. ‘It’s been nice meeting you, Nick Abraham. See you around.’
As I walk away, I’m trying to imagine him and Jen together – and failing. He’s cold, with an anger under the surface that he doesn’t hide very well. I hope Abbie Rose has seen that side of him. But I also wonder just how well he keeps his anger under control.
‘It just seemed like the thing to do,’ I say to Abbie Rose the following afternoon, when I go to the hospital. ‘I came to pick up some art materials and happened to see him walking along the street.’ I’m talking about Nick, wanting to find out what she thought of him. She already knows we’ve talked. ‘We had a coffee. I felt a bit sorry for him.’
It’s true. He wore the jaded bitterness of someone who didn’t know how to roll with life’s punches. What happened with Jen had clearly stayed with him – unless he’d always been like that. ‘You can’t tell, can you?’ I add, looking at her.
‘Tell what?’ She looks confused.
‘About Nick. Have you thought, Detective Inspector, that he could say absolutely anything about her and we wouldn’t know if he was lying, because Jen can’t remember a thing.’ Personally, I don’t trust him an inch.
Abbie Rose frowns. ‘What exactly did he say?’
I shrug. ‘Not much. Just that she lost the plot after she miscarried at six months. He made some remark . . .’ I pause, trying to remember what he’d said. ‘Yes. “Same old Jen. Always the victim.” Those were his words. And that he didn’t know he was a father.’
‘It’s possible he isn’t. And it’s only one half of the story,’ Abbie Rose says. ‘That’s the problem.’
‘I thought after what she’s been through, he’d have a shred of sympathy for her, but there was none. Not a shred. How is Jen?’
Abbie Rose stares at me, a frown on her face. ‘After Nick left, she was quite upset. She might be pleased to see a friendly face. But it’s probably best not to stay too long today. She’s tired.’
‘Sure.’ I pause. ‘Isn’t it confusing for her? I mean, Nick calls her Jen, but we’re all calling her Evie.’
Abbie Rose’s eyes meet mine. ‘Maybe you should ask her which she’d prefer.’
10
Abbie Rose is right. Maybe it’s because of the visit from Nick, which I can imagine was anything but friendly, but Jen’s pleased to see me.
‘How are you feeling?’
She looks up at me with anxious eyes. ‘Tired. Frightened. Unsure about everything. There’s this voice inside me that tells me to trust no one.’ Her voice wobbles.
‘I bumped into Nick,’ I tell her. ‘I recognized him from the photo. We talked for a bit.’ I don’t tell her how angry he seemed, nor do I tell her I know about her miscarriage.
A haunted look comes over her. ‘I don’t know why he had to come here,’ she whispers.
‘I think the police hoped he might know where Angel is.’
‘I never told him about her.’ Jen looks petrified.
‘So he said. But why?’ I’m intrigued. Maybe my misgivings about Nick are warranted.
‘He’s bad, Charlotte. He would have taken my baby away.’
‘But he couldn’t. You’re her mother.’ I can’t believe she’d even think that. You can’t just take a baby from its mother. I wait for her to go on, but her eyes are wide with fear.
‘You don’t know Nick. He’d tell the doctors I wasn’t a fit mother. What if he’d found us? What if he’s the one who’s taken her?’ Her voice is becoming more and more frantic.
‘I don’t understand . . . Why would he do that?’
‘I had a breakdown. I had a miscarriage, Charlotte. I was six months pregnant.’ Her voice wavers and her eyes glitter with tears. ‘I gave birth to my dead baby . . .’
I swallow the lump in my throat. ‘You’ve told the police this, haven’t you?’
She nods.
‘You mustn’t worry. They’ll check him out. You have to trust them. They know what they’re doing.’
‘They want to talk to his mother.’ Her voice is unsteady.
‘Is that a bad thing?’
‘You don’t know her. She’ll say anything to make him look good. She hated me, Charlotte.’
‘Look, let the police worry about Nick’s mother. They won’t be fooled for one minute.’ I pause. ‘Can I ask you something else?’
She nods.
‘I know Nick calls you Jen, and I remember you as Jen, but would you rather be called Evie?’
She nods, but at the mention of Nick, fear flashes across her face again. ‘That’s why you changed your name, isn’t it?’ I say slowly. Having met him and seen his aggressiveness for myself, suddenly I get it. ‘You didn’t want Nick to find you. You were hiding from him.’
On my way out, Abbie Rose catches me up.
‘Charlotte, I wanted to ask a favour. Evie seems to trust you and I need to have a difficult conversation with her – probably tomorrow. Would you be able to come back? Only if you’re not busy, that is.’
‘I could . . . What’s it about?’
‘I’d rather keep it for tomorrow, if you can come back then?’
I nod. ‘What time?’
She thinks for a moment. ‘I’ll try to get over here by two.’
I turn to go, but then I hesitate. I wonder if Abbie Rose saw the same fear in Evie that I did, just now. ‘You do know she’s frightened of Nick? She said she was hiding from him.’
Abbie Rose hesitates. Then she says, ‘I’m sorry, but I can’t really discuss this right now. But rest assured, we’ve talked to him. I’ll see you tomorrow?’
Irritation flares up in me; she wants my help, yet she’s keeping me at arm’s length. I don’t answer, just turn away.
I drive the long way home, taking the road along the coast to Padstow, detouring towards the beaches, keeping half an eye out for a Rick-like figure. He could be anywhere. The roads are quiet. Out to sea, the sky is monochromatic. The grey clouds rolling in make for a dramatic landscape.
Driving this way takes twice as long, but I’m not in a hurry. It’s a part of the coast I’ve always loved. In summer the wide beaches are filled with tourists, but at this time of year the sands stretch wild and empty.
By the time I get home, the last of the light is fading and the house is in darkness. I hadn’t planned to get back so late, and as I go inside I’m aware for the first time of how empty it feels. It’s a big house for one person. Reaching into my pocket, I pull out my mobile to call Rick, pausing for a moment while I think about what I want to say. I dial his number but, whether by accident or design, the call goes to voicemail.
The following day, I think about not going to the hospital. But in the end, I go, for a number of reasons – because of Jen, and because it’ll make Rick see me differently when he comes back. But also, I’m driven by my own curiosity. I don’t know what the police are thinking, but surely, after what Nick said, Angel’s existence is suddenly questionable. But then, even after a head injury, you couldn’t invent a daughter – could you?
It’s two thirty when I reach the critical care unit.
‘So sorry,’ I say to Abbie Rose. ‘I got held up.’
‘I need to talk to her,’ Abbie Rose says, as we walk towards Jen’s room. ‘We’ve had some forensic reports back and I’m not sure how she’s going to respond.’
She doesn’t elaborate. There’s another new police officer I haven’t seen before outside Jen’s door as Abbie Rose knocks, then pushes it open. ‘Hello? Evie? Charlotte’s with me.’
From over Abbie Rose’s shoulder, I see Jen turn towards us.
‘How are you today?’ Abbie Rose asks.
But Jen doesn’t answer. Abbie Rose walks over to the hospital-issue plastic chair in the corner, pulls it close to the bed and nods towards another beside the door. ‘Why don’t you get that, Charlotte?’
As if she senses something, Jen glances at me, then back to Abbie Ro
se, as I pull the chair over and sit next to her.
‘Evie, there’s another case we need to talk to you about. Another little girl, who disappeared. Fifteen years ago.’
‘What does it have to do with Angel?’ Jen’s face is pale. Suddenly I’m dreading what this newest revelation will do to her.
‘We don’t know if it’s connected, but at the moment, we have to consider the possibility.’
‘Why? What happened?’ Jen’s voice trembles.
‘She went missing from her home on a Saturday morning. The police were called straight away. Dogs were brought in, an extensive search carried out. It was only a few miles from here, on the road to Chapel Amble.’
The Dannings’ family home was a Cornish farmhouse about a mile from Chapel Amble, up a long track with a rambling garden that backed on to trees and farmland. I can just about picture it; slightly shabby and unloved. Casey rarely had anyone over, and by the time we were friends, all she wanted was to escape. I wonder if Jen remembers it.
‘How long before they found her?’ Jen’s hands are clenched, her knuckles white.
It’s the question she was always going to ask. I’ve no idea how Abbie Rose will handle this, because Jen’s already fragile. The more she learns, the more her fear visibly escalates. Abbie Rose pauses, then takes a deep breath. ‘They didn’t.’
‘No . . .’ Jen’s mouth falls open as she breathes the word. The reality is too much for her. ‘They must have. You said they had dogs. She couldn’t just disappear.’
‘We never got to the bottom of what happened.’
‘How old was she?’ What little colour Jen has drains from her face.
‘Nearly four.’
Jen’s eyes are riveted to the policewoman’s, her voice tiny as she says, ‘Tell me.’
Abbie Rose speaks slowly, quietly, and Jen flinches at each sentence. But even if she hadn’t asked, Abbie Rose would have had to tell her, trying to trigger a hair’s-breadth memory of the smallest detail that might be relevant. ‘It was a Saturday. A teenage girl was babysitting while the child’s mother was at work. It seems the little girl let herself out of the garden, which backed on to farmland. She could only have been out of sight for minutes. The babysitter saw the open gate and went running after her, but there was no sign of her. The most likely explanation is that someone abducted her, but it was never proved.’
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