by Zane Grey
“Don't worry, mother,” said Lane, patting her hand. “I'll see through it for you. And if Lorna is—well, running too much—wild as you said—I'll stop her.”
His mother shook her head.
“One thing we mothers all agree on. These girls, of this generation, say fourteen to sixteen,can't be stopped.”
“Then that is a serious matter. It must be a peculiarity of the day. Maybe the war left this condition.”
“The war changed all things, my son,” replied his mother, sadly.
Lane walked thoughtfully down the street toward Doctor Bronson's office. As long as he walked slowly he managed not to give any hint of his weakness. The sun was shining with steely brightness and the March wind was living up to its fame. He longed for summer and hot days in quiet woods or fields where daisies bloomed. Would he live to see the Indian summer days, the smoky haze, the purple asters?
Lane was admitted at once into the office of Doctor Bronson, a little, gray, slight man with shrewd, kind eyes and a thoughtful brow. For years he had been a friend as well as physician to the Lanes, and he had always liked Daren. His surprise was great and his welcome warm. But a moment later he gazed at Lane with piercing eyes.
“Look here, boy, did you go to the bad over there?” he demanded.
“How do you mean, Doctor?”
“Did you let down—debase yourself morally?”
“No. But I went to the bad physically and spiritually.”
“I see that. I don't like the color of your face.... Well, well, Daren. It was hell, wasn't it? Did you kill a couple of Huns for me?”
Questions like this latter one always alienated Lane in some unaccountable way. It must have been revealed in his face.
“Never mind, Daren. I see that youdid .... I'm glad you're back alive. Now what can I do for you?”
“I've been discharged from three hospitals in the last two months—not because I was well, but because I was in better shape than some other poor devil. Those doctors in the service grew hard—they had to be hard—but they saw the worst, the agony of the war. I always felt sorry for them. They never seemed to eat or sleep or rest. They had no time to save a man. It was cut him up or tie him up—then on to the next.... Now, Doc, I want you to look me over and—well—tell me what to expect.”
“All right,” replied Doctor Bronson, gruffly.
“And I want you to promise not to tell mother or any one. Will you?”
“Yes, I promise. Now come in here and get off some of your clothes.”
“Doctor, it's pretty tough on me to get in and out of my clothes.”
“I'll help you. Now tell me what the Germans did to you.”
Lane laughed grimly. “Doctor, do you remember I was in your Sunday School class?”
“Yes, I remember that. What's it got to do with Germans?”
“Nothing. It struck me funny, that's all.... Well, to get it over. I was injured several times at the training camp.”
“Anything serious?”
“No, I guess not. Anyway I forgot aboutthem. Doctor, I was shot four times, once clear through. I'll show you. Got a bad bayonet jab that doesn't seem to heal well. Then I had a dose of both gases—chlorine and mustard—and both all but killed me. Last I've a weak place in my spine. There's a vertebra that slips out of place occasionally. The least movement may do it. I can't guard against it. The last time it slipped out I was washing my teeth. I'm in mortal dread of this. For it twists me out of shape and hurts horribly. I'm afraid it'll give me paralysis.”
“Humph! It would. But it can be fixed.... So that's all they did to you?”
Underneath the dry humor of the little doctor, Lane thought he detected something akin to anger.
“Yes, that's all they did to my body,” replied Lane.
Doctor Bronson, during a careful and thorough examination of Lane's heart, lungs, blood pressure, and abdominal region, did not speak once. But when he turned him over, to see and feel the hole in Lane's back, he exclaimed: “My God, boy, what made this—a shell? I can put my fist in it.”
“That's the bayonet jab.”
Doctor Bronson cursed in a most undignified and unprofessional manner. Then without further comment he went on and completed the examination.
“That'll do,” he said, and lent a hand while Lane put on his clothes. It was then he noticed Lane's medal.
“Ha! TheCroix de Guerre! ... Daren, I was a friend of your father's. Iknow how that medal would have made him feel. Tell me what you did to get it?”
“Nothing much,” replied Lane, stirred. “It was in the Argonne, when we took to open fighting. In fact I got most of my hurts there.... I carried a badly wounded French officer back off the field. He was a heavy man. That's where I injured my spine. I had to run with him. And worse luck, he was dead when I got him back. But I didn't know that.”
“So the French decorated you, hey?” asked the doctor, leaning back with hands on hips, and keenly eyeing Lane.
“Yes.”
“Why did not the American Army give you equal honor?”
“Well, for one thing it was never reported. And besides, it wasn't anything any other fellow wouldn't do.”
Doctor Bronson dropped his head and paced to and fro. Then the door-bell rang in the reception room.
“Daren Lane,” began the doctor, suddenly stopping before Lane, “I'd hesitate to ask most men if they wanted the truth. To many men I'd lie. But I know a few words from me can't faze you.”
“No, Doctor, one way or another it is all the same to me.”
“Well, boy, I can fix up that vertebra so it won't slip out again.... But, if there's anything in the world to save your life, I don't know what it is.”
“Thank you, Doctor. It's—something to know—what to expect,” returned Lane, with a smile.
“You might live a year—and you might not.... You might improve. God only knows. Miraclesdo happen. Anyway, come back to see me.”
Lane shook hands with him and went out, passing another patient in the reception room. Then as Lane opened the door and stepped out upon the porch he almost collided with a girl who evidently had been about to come in.
“I beg your——” he began, and stopped. He knew this girl, but the strained tragic shadow of her eyes was strikingly unfamiliar. The transparent white skin let the blue tracery of veins show. On the instant her lips trembled and parted.
“Oh, Daren—don't you know me?” she asked.
“Mel Iden!” he burst out. “Know you? I should smile I do. But it—it was so sudden. And you're older—different somehow. Mel, you're sweeter—why you're beautiful.”
He clasped her hands and held on to them, until he felt her rather nervously trying to withdraw them.
“Oh, Daren, I'm glad to see you home—alive—whole,” she said, almost in a whisper. “Are you—well?”
“No, Mel. I'm in pretty bad shape,” he replied. “Lucky to get home alive—to see you all.”
“I'm sorry. You're so white. You're wonderfully changed, Daren.”
“So are you. But I'll say I'm happy it's not painted face and plucked eyebrows.... Mel, what's happened to you?”
She suddenly espied the decoration on his coat. The blood rose and stained her clear cheek. With a gesture of exquisite grace and sensibility that thrilled Lane she touched the medal. “Oh! TheCroix de Guerre .... Daren, you were a hero.”
“No, Mel, just a soldier.”
She looked up into his face with eyes that fascinated Lane, so beautiful were they—the blue of corn-flowers—and lighted then with strange rapt glow.
“Just a soldier!” she murmured. But Lane heard in that all the sweetness and understanding possible for any woman's heart. She amazed him—held him spellbound. Here was the sympathy—and something else—a nameless need—for which he yearned. The moment was fraught with incomprehensible forces. Lane's sore heart responded to her rapt look, to the sudden strange passion of her pale face. Swiftly he divined that Mel Iden gloried in the prese
nce of a maimed and proven soldier.
“Mel, I'll come to see you,” he said, breaking the spell. “Do you still live out on the Hill road? I remember the four big white oaks.”
“No, Daren, I've left home,” she said, with slow change, as if his words recalled something she had forgotten. All the radiance vanished, leaving her singularly white.
“Left home! What for?” he asked, bluntly.
“Father turned me out,” she replied, with face averted. The soft roundness of her throat swelled. Lane saw her full breast heave under her coat.
“What're you saying, Mel Iden?” he demanded, as quickly as he could find his voice.
Then she turned bravely to meet his gaze, and Lane had never seen as sad eyes as looked into his.
“Daren, haven't you heard—about me?” she asked, with tremulous lips.
“No. What's wrong?”
“I—I can't let you call on me.”
“Why not? Are you married—jealous husband?”
“No, I'm not married—but I—I have a baby,” she whispered.
“Mel!” gasped Lane. “A war baby?”
“Yes.”
Lane was so shocked he could not collect his scattered wits, let alone think of the right thing to say, if there were any right thing. “Mel, this is a—a terrible surprise. Oh, I'm sorry.... How the war played hell with all of us! But for you—Mel Iden—I can't believe it.”
“Daren, so terribly true,” she said. “Don't I look it?”
“Mel, you look—oh—heartbroken.”
“Yes, I am broken-hearted,” she replied, and drooped her head.
“Forgive me, Mel. I hardly know what I'm saying.... But listen—I'm coming to see you.”
“No,” she said.
That trenchant word was thought-provoking. A glimmer of understanding began to dawn in Lane. Already an immense pity had flooded his soul, and a profound sense of the mystery and tragedy of Mel Iden. She had always been unusual, aloof, proud, unattainable, a girl with a heart of golden fire. And now she had a nameless child and was an outcast from her father's house. The fact, the fatality of it, stunned Lane.
“Daren, I must go in to see Dr. Bronson,” she said. “I'm glad you're home. I'm proud of you. I'm happy for your mother and Lorna. You must watch Lorna—try to restrain her. She's going wrong. All the young girls are going wrong. Oh, it's a more dreadful timenow than before or during the war. The let-down has been terrible.... Good-bye, Daren.”
In other days Manton's building on Main Street had appeared a pretentious one to Lane's untraveled eyes. It was an old three-story red-brick-front edifice, squatted between higher and more modern structures. When he climbed the dirty dark stairway up to the second floor a throng of memories returned with the sensations of creaky steps, musty smell, and dim light. When he pushed open a door on which MANTON &CO. showed in black letters he caught his breath. Long—long past! Was it possible that he had been penned up for three years in this stifling place?
Manton carried on various lines of business, and for Middleville, he was held to be something of a merchant and broker. Lane was wholly familiar with the halls, the several lettered doors, the large unpartitioned office at the back of the building. Here his slow progress was intercepted by a slip of a girl who asked him what he wanted. Before answering, Lane took stock of the girl. She might have been all of fifteen—no older. She had curly bobbed hair, and a face that would have been comely but for the powder and rouge. She was chewing gum, and she ogled Lane.
“I want to see Mr. Manton,” Lane said.
“What name, please.”
“Daren Lane.”
She tripped off toward the door leading to Manton's private offices, and Lane's gaze, curiously following her, found her costume to be startling even to his expectant eyes. Then she disappeared. Lane's gaze sought the corner and desk that once upon a time had been his. A blond young lady, also with bobbed hair, was operating a typewriter at his desk. She glanced up, and espying Lane, she suddenly stopped her work. She recognized him. But, if she were Hattie Wilson, it was certain that Lane did not recognize her. Then the office girl returned.
“Step this way, please. Mr. Smith will see you.”
How singularly it struck Lane that not once in three years had he thought of Smith. But when he saw him, the intervening months were as nothing. Lean, spare, pallid, with baggy eyes, and the nose of a drinker, Smith had not changed.
“How do, Lane. So you're back? Welcome to our city,” he said, extending a nerveless hand that felt to Lane like a dead fish.
“Hello, Mr. Smith. Yes, I'm back,” returned Lane, taking the chair Smith indicated. And then he met the inevitable questions as best he could in order not to appear curt or uncivil.
“I'd like to see Mr. Manton to ask for my old job,” interposed Lane, presently.
“He's busy now, Lane, but maybe he'll see you. I'll find out.”
Smith got up and went out. Lane sat there with a vague sense of absurdity in the situation. The click of a typewriter sounded from behind him. He wanted to hurry out. He wanted to think of other things, and twice he drove away memory of the girl he had just left at Doctor Bronson's office. Presently Smith returned, slipping along in his shiny black suit, flat-footed and slightly bowed, with his set dull expression.
“Lane, Mr. Manton asks you to please excuse him. He's extremely busy,” said Smith. “I told him that you wanted your old job back. And he instructed me to tell you he had been put to the trouble of breaking in a girl to take your place. She now does the work you used to have—very satisfactorily, Mr. Manton thinks, and at less pay. So, of course, a change is impossible.”
“I see,” returned Lane, slowly, as he rose to go. “I had an idea that might be the case. I'm finding things—a little different.”
“No doubt, Lane. You fellows who went away left us to make the best of it.”
“Yes, Smith, we fellows 'went away,'“ replied Lane, with satire, “and I'm finding out the fact wasn't greatly appreciated. Good day.”
On the way out the little office girl opened the door for him and ogled him again, and stood a moment on the threshold. Ponderingly, Lane made his way down to the street. A rush of cool spring air seemed to refresh him, and with it came a realization that he never would have been able to stay cooped up in Manton's place. Even if his services had been greatly desired he could not have given them for long. He could not have stood that place. This was a new phase of his mental condition. Work almost anywhere in Middleville would be like that in Manton's. Could he stand work at all, not only in a physical sense, but in application of mind? He began to worry about that.
Some one hailed Lane, and he turned to recognize an old acquaintance—Matt Jones. They walked along the street together, meeting other men who knew Lane, some of whom greeted him heartily. Then, during an ensuing hour, he went into familiar stores and the postoffice, the hotel and finally the Bradford Inn, meeting many people whom he had known well. The sum of all their greetings left him in cold amaze. At length Lane grasped the subtle import—that people were tired of any one or anything which reminded them of the war. He tried to drive that thought from lodgment in his mind. But it stuck. And slowly he gathered the forces of his spirit to make good the resolve with which he had faced this day—to withstand an appalling truth.
At the inn he sat before an open fire and pondered between brief conversations of men who accosted him. On the one hand it was extremely trying, and on the other a fascinating and grim study—to meet people, and find that he could read their minds. Had the war given him some magic sixth sense, some clairvoyant power, some gift of vision? He could not tell yet what had come to him, but there was something.
Business men, halting to chat with Lane a few moments, helped along his readjustment to the truth of the strange present. Almost all kinds of business were booming. Most people had money to spend. And there was a multitude, made rich by the war, who were throwing money to the four winds. Prices of every commodity were at
their highest peak, and supply could not equal demand. An orgy of spending was in full swing, and all men in business, especially the profiteers, were making the most of the unprecedented opportunity.
After he had rested, Lane boarded a street car and rode out to the suburbs of Middleville where the Maynards lived. Although they had lost their money they still lived in the substantial mansion that was all which was left them of prosperous days. House and grounds now appeared sadly run down.
