by Tom Ryan
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TOM RYAN
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Ryan, Tom, 1977
Tag along [electronic resource] / Tom Ryan.
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First published in the United States, 2013
Library of Congress Control Number: 2013935376
Summary: Friendships are forged on prom night, when four teens help each other
through disappointment, near-arrest, parental interference and panic attacks.
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For my parents, who taught me to live a creative life.
CONTENTS
ANDREA
PAUL
CANDACE
ROEMI
ANDREA
PAUL
CANDACE
ROEMI
ANDREA
PAUL
CANDACE
ROEMI
ANDREA
PAUL
CANDACE
ANDREA
PAUL
ROEMI
ANDREA
CANDACE
ROEMI
ANDREA
PAUL
CANDACE
ROEMI
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
ANDREA
Newton’s third law of motion says that every action has an equal and opposite reaction.
For instance, when I drop six feet from the roof of my garage, the third law tells me that my butt will hit the ground with as much force as the ground will hit my butt. When I land, it feels as if the ground has come out the winner, but you can’t argue with science. Equal and opposite. Thanks, Newton.
I groan and roll over to lie flat on my back. I stay there for a minute, staring up through the soft leafy canopy of the maple tree that marks the edge of our yard. Then I struggle to my feet, brush off the back of my shorts and stand for a moment, trying to figure out what to do. There’s not much to do other than get out of here, so I hurry down the street before one of my parents happens to look out the window.
If you’d told me a month ago that I would go to these lengths to get out of the house, all for the sake of prom, I wouldn’t have believed you. Sure, I was planning to go to prom, but only because that’s what you’re supposed to do. I’m not into clothes the way my best friend Bethanne is, and I think dancing is weird. I’ll never understand what compels people to lose control and shake around like a bunch of maniacs.
Then the Justin Sanchez thing happened.
Justin’s been in most of my advanced-level classes since ninth grade, and I guess you could say I have a bit of a crush on him. He’s quiet and a bit geeky, but he’s really smart and definitely cute, and until a few weeks ago, I didn’t think he knew I existed, let alone knew my name.
It’s not like he’s some ladies’ man or whatever—as far as I know, he’s never even gone out with a girl—it’s just that we’ve never really spoken to each other. Then a few weeks ago I had a dentist appointment and missed my afternoon classes. That night Bethanne called me, practically hyperventilating.
“Guess what?” she said. “Justin was asking about you today!” She’s the only person who knows I’m into him.
“What do you mean?” I asked. “What did he say?”
“He said, Where’s Andrea? and I told him you were at the dentist. Isn’t that awesome?”
“Is that it?” I asked her.
“It’s a start!” she said. It didn’t really sound like much, but the more I thought about it, the more I began to see that she had a point. He’d gone from not acknowledging my existence to noticing my absence. That had to count for something.
“You’ve got to make a move,” she continued. “The ball’s in your court.”
“What ball?” I asked her.
“Andrea,” she said. “He came up to me out of nowhere and asked where you were. That’s the ball.”
“Well, shouldn’t I wait for him to talk to me or something?”
“No,” she said. “Justin Sanchez has no game. If you want something to happen, you have to make it happen.”
Tonight is the prom, which is obviously as good a place as any to make my move. When I woke up this morning, I was genuinely excited. Bethanne had helped me find a great dress, red with black trim and a flared skirt that ends just below the knee. I had an appointment to get my hair done and a plan to go to Bethanne’s house so we could get ready together. Most of all, I had a good feeling about me and Justin. I’m not talking about fate or destiny, just a positive reading of the facts as I knew them.
Of course, the facts as I knew them this morning have changed. As of right now: I’m not going to be talking to Justin tonight; I’m not going to be dancing with Justin tonight; I’m definitely not going to be making out with Justin tonight. As a matter of fact, I won’t even see Justin tonight, because I’m not going to be at the prom.
Everything might have worked out just fine if Bethanne hadn’t convinced me that we should get some alcohol for the dance. I feel the same way about drinking as I do about dancing—why do it?—but Bethanne wouldn’t let up, so I asked my brother Brad if he’d buy some for us.
Brad doesn’t live with us anymore. He’s taking a graphic-design program at the community college in the city, and he has an apartment with his girlfriend, Janelle, who is awesome. She’s very loud and funny, and she’s studying theater at university.
“Yeah, no sweat,” he said when I asked him about the booze. “Just promise that you’ll keep an eye on Bethanne. I don’t want to be hauled off to jail because she gets wasted and streaks the prom.”
About a week ago, he picked up the sugary wine cooler that Bethanne requested, and I hid it in my closet. Probably not the best idea.
This afternoon, I borrowed Mom’s car for my hair appointment. When I got home, she was sitting in the living room waiting for me, the bottle of Raspberry Comet Cooler in front of her on the coffee table. I could tell right away that this wouldn’t end well.
“Where did you get this, Andrea?” she asked.
“What were you doing in my closet?”
“Answer my question,” she said.
“I stood in the parking lot outside the liquor store until some old man agreed to buy it for me,” I told her.
“I have a hard time believing that,” she said. No kidding.
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nbsp; “Well, that’s what happened.” I wasn’t going to rat out Brad. I wouldn’t put it past her to call the cops on him.
“You can lose the attitude, young lady,” she said.
I swear, seventeen years on earth and I’d never done anything to piss her off. It was like she’d been waiting all this time for something to happen, as if she just needed to prove to herself that I’m going to end up like Brad, who barely made it through high school. Never mind that I’ve got six years of straight-A report cards under my belt.
I tried reasoning with her, although I knew it wouldn’t work. “Mom, please just pour it down the sink and forget about it. I won’t drink—I promise.”
“Oh, I know you won’t drink,” she said, in her patented I know what’s best for the world voice. “You’re grounded for a month, Andrea. You can forget about the prom.”
So that’s how I ended up sitting in my room this afternoon, staring at my dress drooping on a hanger in my closet like a sad, headless puppet. After a while, Mom knocked on the door and, without waiting for me to answer, stuck her head in.
“Honey?” When I didn’t answer, she pushed open the door and just stood there, staring at me. I didn’t look at her.
“Pouting isn’t going to help you,” she said. Her voice softened a bit. “You sure you don’t want something to eat? You feeling okay?”
“Are you kidding?” I said. “Of course I’m not okay. I’m grounded.”
“Andrea, choices come with consequences. I don’t want you to end up doing something stupid. I’m not going to do this all over again.”
“You mean like with Brad?” I asked her. “Mom, you know that’s not fair. Brad almost flunked out of school.”
“Exactly,” she said.
“Exactly what?” I asked. “I’m on the honor roll. How perfect do you want me to be?”
“I don’t want you to be perfect,” she said. “I want you to be safe.”
“Safe,” I repeated. “I’m locked up in my room for my own personal safety. Got it. Can you at least leave me alone, so I can be safe in private?”
“What are you going to do?” she asked. “Just sit in here and brood?”
“Mom. Please leave me alone.”
“Okay, fine, but please come out and eat something if you get hungry. I’ll put a plate of supper in the fridge for you.”
When she closed the door, I gave her the finger.
I got off my bed and pulled my dress out of the closet. I stood in front of the mirror and held the dress in front of me, staring at myself, noticing how different I looked with my hair up off my neck, admiring the color of the fabric against my skin, imagining what I would have looked like if I’d actually had the chance to dress up.
Not to be vain or anything, but I thought I would have looked awesome, and I was pretty sure Justin would have thought so too.
I shoved the dress back into the closet and slammed the door, then pulled the bobby pins out of my hair and shook it out so that it hung down to my shoulders again.
It’s not like I planned it, but once the idea hit me, my mind was already made up. I threw on a hoodie and grabbed my wallet and cell phone.
Then, before I had time to talk myself out of it, I jumped out the window.
PAUL
When Lannie Freston and I first started going out last summer, I felt like I’d won the lottery.
I’m still not sure how it happened. I was just minding my own business at the beach with my buddies Jerry and Ahmed when all of a sudden Lannie and her girls showed up and spread their towels a few feet away from us. In no time at all, she was asking me to put lotion on her back. I sure as hell didn’t put up a fight.
It was as easy and as quick as that. Suddenly I was her boyfriend. She told me later that she’d been eyeing me up for a while and that sitting near me at the beach was no accident. It was like she’d just flipped through the yearbook and decided that I was the one she wanted to go out with. And on the seventh day, Lannie looked at Paul and said, ‘Let him be mine,’ and it was so.
Obviously, I wasn’t going to complain. Lannie’s one of the hottest girls in Granite Ridge. She’s smart, athletic, popular and even has her own car. We spent the rest of the summer going to the beach, driving into the city and hanging out with her friends. Every long summer night ended with us parked somewhere secluded, doing what you do when you’re sixteen and Lannie Freston is your girlfriend.
Then the summer ended. We went back to school, and just like that, because I was going out with Lannie, I was at the top of the heap. I know it sounds arrogant, but it’s true. I’m not going to lie—it felt good to walk down the hallway and know that people were turning to look at us. Wishing they were us. For someone who had spent most of his life trying to fly under the radar, I was surprised at how much I liked the attention.
A lot of things changed when we started going out. For one thing, I didn’t see nearly as much of Jerry and Ahmed anymore, except at school. I just didn’t have much free time anymore. Whenever there were other people around, it was usually Lannie’s best friend, Darrah, and her boyfriend, Ryan Penner. I’d never really known Penner all that well, but now I was hanging out with him all the time. Penner’s pretty cool, I guess. Besides, it was easiest to just go with the flow.
So anyway, Lannie had been talking about prom for months. She wanted to go all out. She bought an expensive dress and took me into the city to order a tux, even though we’re juniors and only seniors wear tuxes. She said she wanted us to make a splash. In those last couple of weeks before the big night, it seemed like every conversation we had was about prom. What kind of corsage I should buy her, where we’d get our pictures taken, what restaurant I should take her to beforehand.
I went along with everything—rented the tux, got a haircut, made dinner reservations at the fancy restaurant she suggested. I went along with all of it, because it was no secret how important all this stuff was to her. But yesterday, after we picked up my tux, something shifted. I got home and hung it on the closet door and then sat on my bed and stared at it.
That’s when I felt it, for the first time in years.
At first it came on pretty soft, as if someone was carefully wrapping his fingers around my brain and gently squeezing. It was definitely there though—I could tell the minute it started. I lay down on the bed for a few minutes, taking slow deep breaths, and by the time Mom called me for supper, I felt okay.
I had hoped that was the end of it. But today I woke up super early to the sound of my phone vibrating on my bedside table. I reached over and groped for it. It was a typically early text from Lannie.
Rise and Shine! Big Day!
I groaned and checked the time. Seven thirty AM.
This time it came on instantly, and instead of fingers lightly pressing on my brain, it felt like a belt was cinched so tight inside my head that my thoughts were going to suffocate. My heart started to race and my skin got cold. I snapped off the ringer, tossed the phone onto the floor and pulled the covers over my head. I tried to remember my breathing exercises from a few years ago, and eventually I managed to calm myself down a little bit. It still wasn’t good though. My head was spinning and buzzing, and every slight movement made me want to puke. I couldn’t imagine getting out of bed.
I don’t know how long I stayed like that, but at some point Mom knocked on my door.
“Lannie’s on the phone!” she called from the hallway.
She knocked again, and when I didn’t answer, she stuck her head into my room.
“Paul, Lannie’s on the phone. She says she’s been trying to reach you all morning.” I didn’t say anything. I couldn’t. “Paul?”
I pulled the covers off my head, and when she saw my face, she raised an eyebrow at me.
“Is it back?”
I could only nod.
“Is it bad?”
I nodded again.
“Does Lannie know about this?”
I shook my head.
“Don’t worry, sw
eetie,” she said. “I’ll take care of it.”
She went downstairs, and after a minute I could hear her talking on the phone. I managed to sit up and swing my legs sideways, and somehow I made it down the stairs. I stopped, leaning against the doorway to the kitchen, and watched as she finished her conversation.
“Okay, dear,” she was saying. “I should probably get off the phone and see if Paul needs anything. Okay, I will. Yes, definitely.”
She hung up and looked at me with a concerned expression I hadn’t seen since I was maybe thirteen.
“Is she pissed?” I asked.
“She isn’t a happy camper,” Mom said. “She’ll live though. You okay?”
“I guess so,” I said, shrugging.
“Oh, sweetie,” she said, walking over to reach up and hug me. Not an easy task considering that I’m six foot three and she’s tiny. “I’m so sorry that your prom is ruined this way.”
“What did you tell her?” I asked.
“I told her you’re sick, and that you’ve been in the bathroom with diarrhea all morning.”
“Mom!”
“Trust me,” she said. “She didn’t ask any more questions after that.”
I went back upstairs to my room and picked up my phone from where I’d tossed it. There were already three new texts from Lannie. I didn’t bother reading them. I already knew the gist. I dropped onto the bed, lay flat on my back, closed my eyes and concentrated on my breathing. The thing about a panic attack is that once you get your breathing under control, you’re halfway home. I started to feel a lot better, but I knew it could come back without much warning.
I couldn’t even think about the prom right then. I just lay there, breathing deeply. In and out. In and out. I felt my mind steadily relaxing, tension rising from my body like steam.
When I wake up, my alarm clock tells me I’ve been sleeping for hours. I feel better, a lot better, although a bit groggy. It’s six o’clock, which means we’ve missed our dinner reservation and Lannie is probably on her way to Terry Polish’s house for the pre-party.
I glance across the room at the tuxedo and an uncomfortable shiver goes down my spine. I haul my ass out of bed and shove the tux into my closet so I don’t have to look at it.
