“Would you like a cup of tea?” I say with exaggerated formality as I put the last packet away.
“No, thanks,” she replies with equal formality.
“I’ll just busy myself in the kitchen, if you can amuse yourself for a while.”
“Fine.”
She disappears into her room and the next moment comes out again holding a book called Petrography of British Igneous Rocks.
Boy, she really knows how to have fun.
As she sits down on a bar stool I flick on the kettle and get down a couple of mugs. A few moments later Luke wanders in, looking harassed.
“Hi, darling!” I say, injecting even more warmth into my voice than usual. “I got us a lovely waffle-maker! We can have waffles every morning!”
“Excellent!” he says distractedly, and I shoot a glance of vindication at Jess.
“Would you like a cup of tea?”
“Er… yes. Thanks.” He rubs his brow and peers behind the kitchen door. Then he looks on top of the fridge.
“Are you OK?” I say. “Is anything wrong?”
“I’ve lost something.” He frowns. “It’s ridiculous. Things can’t just vanish.”
“What is it?” I say sympathetically. “I’ll help you look.”
“Don’t worry.” Luke shakes his head. “It’s just a work thing. It’ll turn up. It can’t have disappeared out of the apartment.”
“But I want to help!” I run an affectionate hand along his shoulders. “I’ve already told you that, darling. Tell me what you’re looking for, and we’ll search as a team. Is it a file… or a book… some papers…”
“That’s kind of you.” He kisses me. “Actually, it’s nothing like that. It’s a box of clocks. From Tiffany. Ten of them.”
My breath catches in my throat.
Across the room I’m aware of Jess lifting her head out of her book.
“Did you say… Tiffany clocks?” I manage.
“Uh-huh.” He nods. “You know we’re hosting a big dinner with the Arcodas Group tomorrow night? It’s all part of the pitch. We’re basically trying to butter them up. So I bought a load of clocks as corporate gifts — and I don’t know what the fuck has happened to them. One minute they were here… the next, they’d vanished!”
I can feel Jess’s eyes on me like laser beams.
“That’s a lot of clocks to go missing,” she says tonelessly.
I’m swallowing hard. How can I have sold Luke’s corporate gifts? How can I have been so stupid? I mean, I thought I didn’t remember buying them on honeymoon…
“Maybe I put them down in the garage.” Luke reaches for his keys. “I’ll go and have a look.”
Oh God. I have to confess.
“Luke…” I say in a tiny voice. “Luke, please don’t get angry… ”
“What?” He swivels on his heel — and as he sees my face he’s suddenly alert. “What is it?”
“Well.” I lick my dry lips. “I might possibly have…”
“What?” His eyes are narrowing. “What might you have done, Becky?”
“Sold them,” I whisper.
“Sold them?”
“You wanted me to declutter the place! I didn’t know how to do it! We had too much stuff! So I’ve been selling everything on eBay. And I… I sold the clocks too. By mistake.”
I’m biting my lip, half hoping Luke might smile, or even laugh, but he just looks deeply fed up.
“Jesus Christ, Becky. We are up to our fucking eyes. We really need this kind of hassle.” He reaches for his mobile, jabs in a number, and listens for a few seconds. “Hi, Marie? We’ve got a small problem with the Arcodas Group dinner tomorrow night. Call me back.” He snaps his phone shut and the only sound in the kitchen is the kettle coming to the boil.
“I didn’t know!” I say desperately. “If you’d told me they were corporate gifts… If you’d let me help—”
“Help?” Luke cuts me off. “Becky, you have to be kidding.”
Shaking his head, he stalks out of the room.
I look over at Jess. I can see “I told you” in a big thought bubble above her head. A moment later, she gets up and follows him into the study.
“If I can do anything,” I hear her saying in a low voice, “just let me know.”
“It’s fine,” he replies. “But thanks.”
Jess says something else, but now her voice is muffled. She must have closed the door.
Suddenly I have to know what she’s saying. I tiptoe to the door of the kitchen, then creep out to the hall, edging as close as I can to the study door, then press my ear against it.
“I don’t know how you can live with her,” Jess is saying, and I feel a jolt of indignant shock. How can she say that? She’s only just met me!
I can’t move, I can’t breathe, waiting for Luke’s response.
“It’s difficult,” comes Luke’s voice at last.
Something cold plunges into my heart.
Luke finds it difficult to live with me.
There’s a noise as if someone’s coming toward the door, and I leap back in fright. I hurry back to the kitchen and close the door, my eyes hot with tears.
We’ve only been married eleven months. How can he find it difficult to live with me?
The kettle’s come to a boil, but I don’t want tea anymore. I open the fridge, get out a half-open bottle of wine, and slosh some into a glass. I drain the entire thing in three gulps, and am refilling the glass as Jess comes back into the kitchen.
“Hi,” she says. “It seems like Luke’s sorted out the gift problem.”
“Great,” I say tightly, and take another swig of wine.
So she and Luke sort everything out now, do they? She and Luke have little conversations which I’m not invited to. As I watch her sit down and open her book again, a great tide of anger and hurt starts welling up inside me.
“I would have thought you might take my side.” I’m trying to sound calm. “We are supposed to be sisters, after all.”
“What do you mean?” Jess frowns.
“You could have defended me!”
“Defended you?” Jess looks up. “You think I’m going to defend you when you’re that irresponsible?”
“So I’m irresponsible,” I say, a little savagely. “And you’re perfect, I suppose.”
“I’m not perfect! But yes! You’re irresponsible!” Jess claps her book shut. “Frankly, Becky, I think you need to get your act together. You seem to have no idea of personal duty… You’re obsessed with spending money… you lie—”
“Well, you’re a misery!” My words come out in a roar. “You’re a skinflint miserable cow who doesn’t know how to have a good time!”
“What?” Jess looks utterly dumbfounded.
“I made every effort this weekend!” I cry. “I did everything I could to make you welcome, and you wouldn’t join in with anything! OK, so you don’t like When Harry Met Sally. But you could have pretended!”
“So you’d rather I was insincere?” says Jess, folding her arms. “You’d rather I lied? That just about sums you up, Becky.”
“It’s not lying to pretend you like something!” I shout in frustration. “I just wanted us to have a good time together! I did research, and I planned your room and everything… and you’re so cold! It’s like you don’t have any feelings!”
Suddenly I feel close to tears. I can’t believe I’m yelling at my sister. I can’t believe things have disintegrated this badly. I break off and take a few deep breaths, trying to regroup. Maybe I can retrieve things. Maybe we can still make it work.
“The thing is, Jess… I did it all because I wanted us to be friends,” I say. And it’s true. I really did. “I just wanted us to be friends.”
I expect to see her face softening, but if anything she looks more contemptuous than before.
“And you always have to get what you want,” she says. “Don’t you, Becky?”
I feel my face flame.
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“I mean you’re spoiled!” Her harsh voice cuts like a knife. “What you want, you get! Everything’s handed to you on a plate. If you get into trouble your parents bail you out, and if they don’t, Luke does! Your whole life makes me sick.” She gestures with her book. “It’s empty! You’re shallow and materialistic… and I’ve never met anyone so obsessed with their own appearance and shopping—”
“Talk about obsessed!” I shriek. “Talk about obsessed! You’re obsessed with saving money! I’ve never met anyone so bloody miserly! You’ve got thirty grand in the bank and you go around like you’re penniless! Getting free bubble wrap and horrible bruised bananas! Who cares if washing powder costs forty pence less?”
“You’d care if you’d been buying your own washing powder since the age of fourteen,” Jess snaps back. “Maybe if you took a little more care of the forty pence here and there you wouldn’t get into trouble. I heard about how you nearly ruined Luke in New York. I just don’t understand you!”
“Well, I don’t understand you!” I yell, in tears. “I was so excited when I heard I had a sister, I thought we’d bond and be friends. I thought we could go shopping, and have fun… and eat peppermint creams on each other’s beds… ”
“Peppermint creams?” Jess looks at me as though I’m crazy. “Why would we want to eat peppermint creams?”
“Because!” I flail my arms in frustration. “Because it would be fun! You know, ‘fun’?”
“I know how to have fun,” she snaps.
“Reading about rocks?” I grab Petrography of British Igneous Rocks. “How can rocks be interesting? They’re just… rocks! They’re the most boring hobby in the world! Which just about suits you!”
Jess gasps. “Rocks are… not boring!” she lashes back, grabbing her book. “They’re a lot more interesting than peppermint creams and mindless shopping and getting yourself into debt!”
“Did you have a fun bypass operation or something?”
“Did you have a responsibility bypass operation?” yells Jess. “Or were you just born a spoiled brat?”
We glare at each other, both trying to collect ourselves. The kitchen is silent apart from the whir of the fridge-freezer.
I’m not entirely sure what the Gracious Hostess is supposed to do in this situation.
Jess’s chin tightens. “Well… I don’t think there’s any point in my sticking around. I can catch a coach back to Cumbria if I leave now.”
“Fine.”
“I’ll get my stuff.”
“You do that.”
She turns on her heel and leaves the kitchen, and I take another swig of wine. My head is pounding.
She can’t be my sister. She can’t be. She’s a miserable, tightwad, sanctimonious cow, and I never want to see her again.
Never.
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Mrs. Rebecca Brandon
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May 27, 2003
Dear Mrs. Brandon:
Thank you for your message. I have altered your will according to your instructions. Clause 5, section (f) now reads:
“And nothing at all to Jess, since she’s so mean. And anyway, she’s got heaps of money.”
With kind regards,
Jane Cardozo
Fifteen
I DON’T CARE. Who needs a sister? Not me.
I never wanted one in the first place. I never asked for one. I’m fine on my own.
And anyway, I’m not on my own. I’ve got a strong and loving marriage. I don’t need some crummy sister!
“Stupid sister,” I say aloud, wrenching the lid off a pot of jam. It’s nearly two weeks since Jess left. Luke’s got a late meeting in town, and Mum and Dad are coming over on their way to the airport, so I’m making breakfast for everyone.
“Sorry?” says Luke, coming into the kitchen. He looks pale and tense, as he has for the last few days. The Arcodas Group are making their decision about the pitch and now all he can do is wait. And Luke’s not that good at waiting. Plus, he’s stressing about this pitch more than usual, because it’s the first mainstream account he’s gone for. I heard him talking to Gary on the phone last night, saying if they didn’t get it, what kind of message would it send out?
The trouble with Luke is, he always has to succeed straightaway. Maybe I should tell him the story about the plucky little spider trying to build its web over and over again.
On second thought, maybe not.
“I was just thinking about Jess,” I say. “You were absolutely right about her. We were never going to get on in a million years! I’ve never met such a misery-guts!”
“Mmm,” says Luke absently, pouring himself some orange juice.
He could be a little more supportive.
“Next time I’ll take your advice,” I say, trying to engage his attention. “I should never even have invited her here. I can’t believe we’re actually supposed to be related!”
“I thought she was all right in the end,” says Luke. “But I can see why you two wouldn’t get on.”
He wasn’t supposed to say “I thought she was all right.” He was supposed to say “What a total bitch, I can’t believe you put up with her for even a minute!”
“Becky… what are you doing?” Luke’s gaze lands on the crumbs and plastic packaging littering the granite work-top.
“Making waffles!”
And that just proves another thing. Jess was totally wrong. I’ve used the waffle-maker practically every day. So there! I almost wish she were here to see it.
The only tiny thing is, I’m not very good at making the mixture. So my method is: buy ready-made waffles, cut them into heart shapes, and put them in the waffle-maker to heat up.
But what’s wrong with that? I’m using it, aren’t I? We’re eating waffles, aren’t we?
“Waffles… again?” says Luke, with the tiniest of grimaces. “I think I’ll pass, thanks.”
“Oh,” I say, discomfited. “Well, how about some toast? Or eggs? Or… muffins?”
“I’m fine on coffee.”
“But you have to have something!” I say, regarding him with sudden alarm. He’s definitely gotten thinner, worrying about this pitch. I need to feed him up.
“I’ll make you some pancakes!” I say eagerly. “Or an omelette!”
“Becky, leave it!” he snaps. “I’m fine.” He strides out of the kitchen, snapping open his mobile phone. “Any news?” I hear him say before the study door closes.
I look down at the broken waffle in my hand, trying to keep my spirits up.
I know Luke’s really tense about work. And that’s probably why he’s being a bit short-tempered with me at the moment. It doesn’t mean there’s any bigger problem or anything.
But deep down inside, I keep remembering what I heard him say to Jess that night. That he finds it difficult to live with me. In fact, I’ve been thinking about it for the last two weeks, trying to make sense of it.
How can I be difficult to live with? I mean… what do I do wrong?
Abruptly I reach for a pencil and paper. OK. I’ll look deep down inside myself and be really, really honest. Becky Bloomwood: Difficulties of Living With1.
My mind is blank. I cannot think of a single thing.
Come on. Be truthful and unsparing. There must be something. What are the fundamental problems between us? What are the real issues?
Suddenly it hits me. I always mix and match my shampoos in the shower, and Luke complains I leave all the lids off and he steps on them. Becky Bloomwood: Difficulties of Living With1. Leaves shampoo lids off
Yes. And I’m scatty. I’m always forgetting the number for the burglar alarm. There was the time I had to phone the police and ask them, and they sent two squad cars round. Becky Bloomwood: Difficulties of Living With1. Leaves shampoo lids off2. Forgets alarm number
I consider the list uncertainly. There must be more to it. There must be something really significant and profound.
Suddenly I gasp and clap my hand to my mouth.
The CDs. Luke always complains that I take them out and don’t put them back in their cases.
Which I know doesn’t sound that profound — but maybe it was the last straw in the haystack. And besides, I read an article in Marie Claire yesterday which said it’s the little, niggling things which count in a relationship.
I hurry to the sitting room and head straight for the jumbled pile of CDs by the music system. As I sort them out I feel a kind of lightness. A liberation. This will be the turning point in our marriage.
I stack them neatly and wait till Luke walks past the door on his way to the bedroom.
“Look!” I call out with a note of pride in my voice. “I’ve organized the CDs! They’re all back in their proper boxes!”
Luke glances into the room.
“Great,” he says with an absent nod, and carries on walking.
Is that all he can say?
Here I am, mending our troubled marriage, and he hasn’t even noticed.
Suddenly the buzzer goes in the hall, and I leap to my feet. This must be Mum and Dad. I’ll have to get back to our marriage later.
I knew that Mum and Dad had really got into their counseling, but somehow I wasn’t expecting them to turn up with slogans on their sweatshirts. Mum’s reads I AM WOMAN, I AM GODDESS and Dad’s says DON’T LET THE PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE BASTARDS GET YOU DOWN.
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