A good-looking young woman put her head into the room.
Wholesome, not striking, Major Pickering thought. But, all in all, a very at-tractive package.
"Major Pickering?" she asked.
"Guilty," he said.
"I'm Barbara Mitchell," she said.
"Yes, ma'am?"
"Dick's wife," she said, and then corrected herself: "Dick's widow."
Oh, shit! Jesus Christ, did that fucking McGrory know this? Is this his idea of therapy?
"I was sorry to hear about Dick," Pick said as he got to his feet. "He was a fine man."
"May I come in?"
"Of course," Pick said. And then his mouth ran away with him. "I'll even let you sit in the upholstered chair."
She gave him a strange look.
"I'm sorry," he said. "I guess you noticed this is the lunatic ward. I'm afraid you'll have to take that into account."
"It's all right," she said. "And that doctor-McGrory?-said that you were in here only for evaluation, that you were..."
"Harmless? True. Ill-mannered, but harmless."
She walked past him and sat down in the armchair.
Nice tail.
What the fuck's the matter with you?
This is not a potential piece of tail; this is a lady whose husband just went in.
And what would you do with apiece of tail if one jumped at you?
Even one not the widow of a fellow Marine officer and Naval aviator fallen in honorable combat?
Being the prick you know you are, you'd probably nail it.
"I got a very nice letter about Dick from Colonel Dunn," Mrs. Mitchell said. "Actually, I got a letter about a week ago, and then yesterday there was an-other letter from Colonel Dunn, with a carbon copy of the first letter. He said that he wanted to make sure I had gotten the first. He said he'd given it to you to mail when you were taken off the Badoeng Strait, but that you were in pretty bad shape and it might have been... misplaced."
He didn't reply.
"Anyway, somewhere in his second letter he said that you were being sent here, so I had the impulse, and gave in to it, to come see if there was anything I could do for you. Bad idea, huh?"
"Not at all," Pick said. "I very much appreciate your coming."
"Really?"
"Really. Dr. McGrory is a fine fellow, but he's not much to look at."
She smiled uneasily.
Your fucking mouth is out of control. There was a clear implication there that you like looking at her.
What a fucking insensitive thing to say to a widow!
I hope she thinks I am nuts.
"Is there?" she asked.
"Is there what?"
"Anything I can do for you? Anything you need?"
Don't even start to think what you started to think. You sonofabitch!
"I'm really in pretty good shape. I really think I should be asking you that question. How are you doing?"
"Well, you tell yourself over and over that you married a Marine pilot, and that sometimes they go away and don't come back. But when it happens, you just don't believe it for a while. It's unreal."
Yeah, I know. When it happens, you just don't believe it for a while.
"I think I understand," Pick said.
She didn't challenge the statement, but he saw in her eyes that she simply thought he was being nice.
She doesn't want to hear your problems. She's got a load of her own.
"The same day I was rescued," he heard himself saying, "my girlfriend-we were talking about getting married-was in an Air Force medical supply Gooney Bird that went down in Korea."
"Oh, how terrible for you!" she said.
"You're right, you just don't believe it for a while," he said.
"She was a nurse?"
"A war correspondent," he said. "Jeanette Priestly. Of the Chicago Tribune."
"Oh, I saw that in the paper," she said. "I'm so sorry."
"Thank you," he said.
"I didn't believe it when the notification team came," she said. "I guess I didn't believe it until yesterday, when they called up to ask 'what my wishes were with regard to funeral arrangements.' Then it really sank in."
"What were they talking about?" Pick asked.
"Well, they've recovered what they call Dick's 'remains.' Why can't they say 'body'?"
"I don't know," Pick confessed.
"And they wanted to know 'my wishes.' "
"What about? Where to... bury him?"
"Uh-huh. And when did I want to accept his Distinguished Flying Cross? At the funeral, or separately?"
"What did you decide?"
"Well, he's not going back to Arkansas. He hated Arkansas."
"That's where his family is?"
She nodded. "Mine, too."
"Are you going there? What are you going to do?"
"I don't know. The only thing I know is that I'm not going to go back to Arkansas. I'm going to bury Dick here. We were happy here."
"You mean in San Diego?"
"At the National Cemetery, on Point Loma?"
"I know it."
"It overlooks the ocean. Dick loved the ocean. I do, too. Maybe because there's no ocean in Arkansas."
"I grew up on the ocean," Pick said. "And I love it, too."
"Where?"
"San Francisco," Pick said. "My parents have a place on the ocean a little south of San Francisco."
"You're not a regular, are you?" she asked.
He shook his head no.
"Just a weekend warrior," he said.
"What did you do as a civilian?"
"I flew for an airline," he said. "Trans-Global."
"That's what I'd like to do," she said.
"Fly for an airline? I don't think they have lady pilots."
She giggled, and smiled at him. Jesus Christ, I could fall into those eyes.
"No, silly. I meant see if I could get a job as a stewardess. Maybe I could get a recommendation from you at Trans-Global? Absolutely no experience, but willing to learn. Free to travel. No family ties."
"I thought you said your family was in Arkansas."
"They were annoyed-Dick's family and mine, both-when I wouldn't go 'home' when Dick shipped out. There were words then. And when I wouldn't go home... after Dick died, there were more words."
"I'm sorry to hear that," Pick said.
"And I'm sorry I told you," she said, and stood up. "I really am. I came here to see what I could do for you, and here I am, telling you all about my woes." "Haven't you ever heard 'misery loves company'?"
"Yeah, but I don't think it means what you're suggesting."
"What do you think it means?"
"It means that people that complain, whine a lot, like to be around people who complain and whine a lot."
"I think people like you and me, Mrs. Mitchell, who have lost the most im-portant person in our lives, have every right to feel a little sorry for ourselves. This miserable person, Mrs. Mitchell, hopes that your standing up doesn't mean you're going to leave."
She met his eyes again.
Jesus, she looks right through me!
"I was about to say 'I have to run,' " she said. "That would have implied I have somewhere to go. I don't, really. So if you'd like me to stay awhile, Major Pickering, I'd like to."
"Pick," he said. "My name is Malcolm, but nobody calls me that."
She put out her hand.
"Babs," she said. "How do you do?"
"You mean aside from being in the loony bin?"
She giggled and looked at him again and smiled, and Pick realized he was holding on to her hand longer than he should be. He quickly let go. He saw a faint blush on her face, and decided that proved she had picked up on the hand-holding.
You may relax, Mrs. Babs Mitchell. The one thing this miserable sonofabitch is not going to do is one fucking thing that will give you any reason to suspect that I'm even thinking of anything that could resemble a pass.
[SEVEN]
Room 39A, N
euro-Psychiatric Ward
U.S. Naval Hospital
San Diego, California
13OS 31 October 195O
"I was wondering when you were going to show up," Major Malcolm S. Pick-ering said to Lieutenant Patrick McGrory, MC, USN, when McGrory came into the room.
"I'm flattered," McGrory said. "I didn't think you cared. Especially after I saw you and your visitor in the O Club."
"It was lunchtime, I offered to take her to lunch," Pick said. "That's all there was to that. No, that's not true. Tell me how much I have to tell you about my terrible ordeal to get a six-hour pass the day after tomorrow."
"What the hell was it, lust at first sight?"
"The lady is burying her husband. She asked me to attend the service and the funeral. Jesus Christ, McGrory!"
"She told me she was a Marine pilot's wife. She didn't say he was dead."
"He flew a Corsair off the Badoeng Strait and then into the ground," Pick said. "He was a very nice guy. She doesn't have any family, and I intend to be there with her when she buries him. Don't fuck with me on this, Doc."
"I won't even demand that you describe your ordeal, Pick," McGrory said. "You probably wouldn't tell me the truth anyway. I want you to talk about it with me when you want to, not before."
"I get the pass?"
McGrory nodded. "Thank you."
"I don't know if I'm saying this as your friend or your physician, Pick, but either way, I think it has to be said."
"What has to be said?"
"There's what I call the boomerang syndrome in the relations between men and women. Most commonly it's when a divorced guy, after lifting the skirts of every bimbo in town, finds and falls in love with a twin-physically or psy-chologically, and often both-of his detested ex-wife. When there is a death- in this instance, there are two deaths-the woman, whether she's aware of it or not, hungers for a strong male shoulder to lean on, and the man-although he may hate himself for it-starts looking for a replacement for his lost love."
"It's not like that here, Doc," Pick said.
"You're on goddamned thin ice, Pick, in a situation like this. If you don't want to hurt the woman, keep your distance. If you don't want to get kicked in the balls again-this widow is not your late girlfriend-keep your distance."
"How did you hear about my late girlfriend?"
"In my first transoceanic telephone call," McGrory said.
"Your father told me. They're sending her body back, too, and he thought I should know." "Were you going to tell me about that, McGrory?" Dr. McGrory chose to ignore the question.
"If you're going to be going on pass the day after tomorrow," Dr. McGrory said as he took his notebook from his shirt pocket, "you'll have to have a uni-form. I'll give you an authorization for the officers' sales store, and to prove what a really good guy I am, I'll call the manager-a Jewish boy named Francis Xavier O'Malley- and tell him you're a friend of mine, and really need the uni-form tailored by tomorrow at seventeen hundred."
"Were you going to tell me about Jeanette's body, McGrory?"
"That was then, no. This is now, and I just did. They're going to have a formal-what the hell is the word?-'reception ceremony' for it at North Is-land Naval Air Station in three, four days."
"And am I going to get to go to this 'reception ceremony'?"
"That depends on how you behave when you bury the lady's husband," Dr. McGrory said.
He tore a page from his notebook and handed it to Pick.
"Give that to O'Malley," he said. "And don't let them cut the material too much when they take it in. I have every hope that you'll soon be a little heavier."
Pick chuckled. "I didn't think about that," he said. "I guess I'm now a 42-Skeletal, right?"
"Something like that. I also am entertaining boyish hopes that when we're through burying people, you'll understand that I really am trying to be a friend, and that you'll start talking to me."
"Life is funny, McGrory," Pick said. "The one thing you can be sure of is that you can't predict the future."
Chapter Seventeen
[ONE]
8O23d Transportation Company (Depot, Forward)
Wonsan, North Korea
1335 31 October 195O
"You can look at it now, sir," First Sergeant Jackson J. Jamison said to Captain Francis P. MacNamara. "It's just about done, and I think we have the finest crapper in Wonsan."
"Well, let's have a look at it," MacNamara said, and left his tent and fol-lowed Jamison past a long line of three-quarter-ton trucks to the edifice to which Jamison had made reference.
It sat on a small rise in the compound close to-but not too close to; Mac-Namara had selected the site himself-the men's tents. It had a wooden frame, to which canvas had been nailed.
There was a door at each end, for ventilation. Inside was a four-holer of smooth, unpainted wood. There was a sort of center pole, a sturdy six-by-six timber, to which a box had been nailed. The box held a dozen rolls of toilet paper, half a dozen spray cans of DDT, which would both kill the flies and sort of serve as a deodorant, and a box of candles.
MacNamara walked to the rear of the structure and examined his person-ally designed waste-disposal system. This consisted of cut-in-half fifty-five-gallon fuel barrels to which handles had been welded. A wooden shelf structure permitted the half-barrels to be slid under the holes in the four-holer. They would be changed twice a day.
Five minutes later, just as Captain MacNamara decided he was very pleased with the latrine he had designed and ordered constructed for his men, First Sergeant Jamison touched his arm and directed his attention to the line of three-quarter trucks down which they had recently walked.
A jeep was now coming down the line. Standing up in the front seat was Colonel T. Howard Kennedy, the X Corps Transportation Officer.
Captain MacNamara had three thoughts.
He's looking for me. I wonder what he wants?
Who does he think he is? Patton?
If I handle the sonofabitch right, he might be helpful in me getting to stay on active duty when the war is over, as it looks like it's going to be any day now.
MacNamara said, "Damn good job, First Sergeant. Tell the men."
"Yes, sir."
MacNamara then hurried around to the front of the latrine, and saluted crisply as Colonel Kennedy drove up.
"You weren't in your office, MacNamara," Colonel Kennedy said, more of an accusation than an observation.
"I was having a look at the new latrine, sir. Perhaps the colonel would like to have a look?"
Kennedy gave him a strange look.
"Perhaps some other time, MacNamara," Colonel Kennedy said.
"Yes, sir. I realize the colonel's a busy man."
"You have no idea how busy," Kennedy agreed, then turned to the business at hand. "MacNamara, I want you, right now, to start moving your vehicles up around Hamhung. You're too far south to do anybody any good here."
"Yes, sir. Where in Hamhung would you like me to set up, sir?"
"Anyplace you can do your job, Captain," Colonel Kennedy said, somewhat abruptly. "But start moving now. Not after supper, not tomorrow morn-ing-now."
"Yes, sir," MacNamara said.
Colonel Kennedy looked at him for a moment, then said: "It's important that we get your vehicles north, MacNamara. X Corps is attacking north, and we'll be moving rapidly. If you have any trouble, let me know. Can you think of any problems right now?"
"Yes, sir."
"Well?"
"Drivers, sir," MacNamara replied.
"What about drivers?"
"Sir, I have right at six hundred vehicles to move. I have four officers and one hundred thirty-seven men-I have eight in hospital-and with just that many men, I'll have to make a lot of trips. Four, at least."
"You know, I didn't think about drivers," Colonel Kennedy confessed. "Let me get back to you, MacNamara. In the meantime, get off the dime."
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