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by Wendy Corsi Staub


  God, I wish she had. I wish I’d never been born. My own mother didn’t want me.

  Her sister’s face flashes in her mind, clear as that photo of her on the wall above the stairs.

  Carleen is getting her undressed for her bath, smiling, patiently touching each of Molly’s bare toes.

  “This little piggy went to market . . . This little piggy stayed home . . . This little piggy had roast beef . . . This little piggy had none . . . And this little piggy cried ‘wee wee wee wee,’ all the way home.”

  “Do it again, Carleen! Please, please, do it again!”

  “All right, you little munchkin. Just one more time, though. This little piggy . . .”

  Tears sting Molly’s raw, burning eyelids and she swipes at them with her pillowcase, not caring that another smudge of black makeup appears along the ruffled edge.

  I have no one.

  Not a single soul in this world who’s there for me.

  Her thoughts drift to Ryan, and for a crazy moment, she wonders if she can confide in him.

  She quickly dismisses the notion.

  After all, what’s she supposed to do? Call him and say, “Remember me from last night? Well, I just found out my whole family has lied to me all my life, and my missing sister is really my mother, and nobody has a clue who my father is, and can you please help me sort out this mess, because I have nobody else to turn to?”

  They’ve all left, she thinks again, images of her family running through her mind.

  Kevin.

  Carleen.

  Daddy.

  Mom.

  Rory’s face sticks there, though.

  Yeah, she left, too, Molly reminds herself stubbornly. Just like the rest of them.

  But she came back.

  She’s here now.

  She’s worried about you.

  So what? She’s the one who ruined my whole life by telling me all this. Why didn’t she just leave it buried, where it belongs? Why did she have to throw it in my face? I didn’t need to know. I didn’t want to know.

  She hides her face in the pink-­checkered pillowcase again, clinging to it as though it’s a life raft, soaking it once again with a torrent of bitter tears.

  Barrett Maitland stands at the edge of Lake Charlotte, eyes fastened on the narrow, paved bike path several yards away, separating the beach from winding Lakeshore Road, which traces the shore.

  So. A decade ago this very day, according to local legend, Kirstin Stafford rode her bike along that very path . . . and vanished.

  Barrett would have known the particulars by heart even if they hadn’t been neatly laid out in this morning’s edition of the local paper, the Foothill Gazette.

  TEN YEARS SINCE FIRST DISAPPEARANCE screams the front-­page headline, accompanied by four grainy photos of smiling, unsuspecting teenaged girls.

  It’s all there, in a detailed chronicle that takes up a good part of the front page, sharing space with the latest White House scandal. The story is continued on page two, where the enterprising reporter tells precisely how Kirstin Stafford got on her bike as she often did after supper, apparently unworried about tires that her father later said had needed air.

  How several reliable witnesses had seen her riding along the path as the sun set on the horizon.

  How she had waved cheerfully at those she knew, and reportedly even at those she didn’t, with characteristic breezy friendliness that might have somehow led her into trouble.

  Because Kirstin Stafford never came home.

  Not a trace of her was ever found.

  Not even her pretty lavender bicycle with the personalized license plate, Barrett mentally echoes the last line of the article that is, in his opinion, on the melodramatic side.

  I could have done much better, he thinks somewhat smugly, walking slowly along the beach, sidestepping a pair of sunsuited towheads busily digging in the sand.

  But you aren’t in Lake Charlotte to write articles for the Foothill Gazette, are you?

  He makes his way up to the bike path, then crosses it. He glances up and down winding Lakeshore Road; sees that it’s momentarily devoid of any traffic. Despite the humidity and blazing sun, it’s still a little early for the locals to head for the beach. Most Lake Charlotte residents hardly seem to be early risers like the New Englanders he’d encountered while in college up in Vermont. This is your classic sleepy little town, he reminds himself, knowing from experience that by midafternoon, the sand and water would undoubtedly be dotted with sunbathers and swimmers—­

  That is, if that thunderstorm they’re predicting doesn’t hit sooner than expected.

  Barrett crosses the road and stands on the narrow patch of grass on the opposite side. In front of him is a bank of woods that rises fairly steeply, obscuring any view of the town nestled above. There’s a faint trail leading upward.

  After glancing over his shoulder to see that the few ­people dotting the beach aren’t even facing in his direction, Barrett steps into the woods. He expertly makes his way along the overgrown trail, skirting fallen logs and large boulders, hearing birds chirping overhead and small animals darting away in the underbrush as he passes.

  It’s peaceful, here. The foliage is so dense that it absorbs any sound from the beach below and the town above.

  Finally, Barrett reaches the top of the incline and the trees give way to a tangled hedge of briars that stops him from going any farther. He peers past them, past the patch of dirt and an orange plastic shovel, past the large yard with its tire swing and picnic table, narrowing his eyes thoughtfully at the big, familiar rose-­and-­plum house looming beyond.

  “Mom? Have you seen Sebastian?”

  Cheryl Wasner looks up from the petunia plant she’s busily dead-­heading in a container on the brick patio. “No, not this morning.”

  Rebecca’s heart sinks. She stands on the back porch, absently watching her mother. She’d been so certain poor Sebastian would have made his way home by now.

  But when she’d awakened, much later than usual thanks to a mostly sleepless night, he hadn’t been in the space where he usually sleeps at the foot of her bed. Her father and Casey, engrossed in a computer game in the den, said they hadn’t seen him.

  “Did you eat breakfast yet?” her mother asks, straightening and tossing a handful of faded petunia blossoms into a wheelbarrow full of weeds.

  “No. I’m not hungry,” Rebecca says glumly.

  “Worried about your kitten?”

  She nods.

  “Don’t worry, ’Bec—­cats always take off gallivanting at this time of year.”

  “Ralphi never did.”

  “Ralphi is an exception. She’s the laziest animal on the face of the earth. Besides, she’s a female.”

  “But we had Sebastian fixed, Mom.”

  Her mother smiles faintly. “That doesn’t mean he’s lost all his instincts to roam and mate.”

  “But he doesn’t have any claws. He’ll get slaughtered out in the woods.”

  “He’ll be okay,” her mother says, running a hand through her short, colored blond hair with maddening assurance. “Come on, let’s go in and have some cinnamon toast before I start the weeding. I wanted to talk to you about Molly.”

  Rebecca shoots a glance at her mother. “What about her?”

  “Her sister called here late last night, looking for her. She seemed to think she was with you.”

  “Well, she wasn’t.”

  “Obviously. Do you know where she was?”

  “No.” Rebecca hates lying. She’s terrible at it.

  “Where was she, Rebecca?”

  “I told you, I don’t know.” She averts her eyes from her mother’s probing gaze, staring intently at a pot full of geraniums as though they’re the most fascinating thing she’s ever seen.

  “Rebecca,” her moth
er says after a moment, “I know Molly is your friend. But it’s not a good idea to lie for her. If she’s doing something or going someplace she shouldn’t be, her family needs to know.”

  “Her mother doesn’t even care where she goes.”

  “I don’t think that’s the case. That poor woman has been through a lot. And anyway, her sister obviously cares and is worried about her.”

  “I’m sure Molly’s fine. She knows how to take care of herself.”

  “Not necessarily. Terrible things can happen to young girls if they aren’t careful.”

  Her mother’s words send a chill down Rebecca’s spine, but she merely shrugs and says, “Don’t worry about Molly, Mom.”

  Mentally, she adds, What she does is none of my business anymore.

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  The cafe on Front Street is no Starbucks, but clearly Lake Charlotte has come a long way since Rory left town.

  She’s pleased to see that the cafe offers a number of hot and cold espresso drinks, along with a glass case filled with pastries, bagels, and rolls. The place is pleasantly crowded with fairly well-­dressed, youngish ­people, none of them recognizable. Rory figures they must be mostly summer ­people, though it strikes her that they could be locals. After all, she doesn’t know everyone in town the way she once did, and Lake Charlotte is apparently becoming a little more upscale.

  She self-­consciously tucks her sleeveless coral turtleneck into her white denim shorts, feeling underdressed. She’s glad she took the time to put on makeup and paint her toenails, bared in white leather sandals, a matching shade of coral. She had considered putting on a madras plaid sundress, but deliberately decided against anything so formal. She doesn’t want Barrett Maitland to think she got all dressed up for him, since this is hardly a date.

  I should never have agreed to meet him, she tells herself as she waits at the counter for her iced cappuccino and chocolate biscotti, which she couldn’t resist. She didn’t eat supper. It’s just too damn hot, and besides, she’s getting tired of eating alone. She’s used to meeting a date or a group of friends for dinner, or cooking for a bunch of ­people at whatever apartment she’s currently calling home.

  Now, after nearly a week with her family in Lake Charlotte, she knows that she’s going to lose it if she doesn’t start getting out and doing something, or at least having a decent conversation once in a while.

  No chance of that at home, she thinks grimly. Her mother and Molly don’t exactly qualify as good company.

  “Rory?”

  A hand on her bare elbow.

  She turns to see Barrett Maitland standing behind her.

  “Oh, hi.” She’s glad to see he’s wearing jeans, a plain navy polo shirt, and those same docksiders, again without socks. He looks as casual as she does.

  Damn good-­looking, too, she can’t help thinking, noticing that he’s picked up a ruddy suntan since she saw him last.

  “Did you go to the beach today?” she asks, on a hunch.

  He hesitates. “Yeah, for a while.”

  Why does he always do that? she wonders. Why does he seem to carefully measure his responses to the most inane questions, as though he has something to hide?

  Because he must, she concludes. And that’s why I can’t trust him, even for a second.

  “Am I late? Have you been here long?” he asks, checking his watch.

  “No, I just got here a few minutes ago. And you’re not late.”

  “Good. I thought I was early.”

  Actually, he is. She had intentionally arrived before Barrett, needing to be used to the territory and settled in before he showed up and churned up all her emotions with his probe into her sister’s disappearance.

  Not that she plans to tell him anything about that.

  “Did you already order?”

  Rory nods.

  “But I wanted to treat you.”

  “It’s no big deal.” Besides, she thinks, if she pays her own way, this isn’t a date.

  Not that he ever called it one. They’re simply meeting so that she can ostensibly help him with his research for his book. The fact that she’s attracted to him doesn’t automatically transform it into a date.

  “Grande skim iced cappuccino, no cinnamon?”

  “Right here,” Rory tells the barista, grabbing the tall cup from her outstretched hand.

  “I take it you’re a woman who knows exactly what she wants, and likes things a certain way,” Barrett comments.

  “Why is that?” She knows what he’s getting at, and she doesn’t intend to flirt with him. This isn’t a date.

  “Your drink sounds pretty complicated.”

  She shrugs, telling herself it’s corny of him to use her beverage order to interpret her personality. “Aren’t you going to order?”

  “Sure.” He turns to the girl waiting behind the register. “I’ll have a coffee.”

  “What kind?”

  “Just plain old coffee.”

  “Iced?”

  “Nope.”

  “What size?”

  “Regular.”

  “You mean tall?”

  “Whatever.” He grins and turns to Rory, saying in a low voice, “I think she’s thrown by that. Maybe I should have made it a skim decaf with extra cinnamon.”

  She can’t help smiling. He’s so laid-­back, it’s hard not to let go of some of her tension around him. Still, she can’t help wondering if his relaxed demeanor is just an act—­if he’s acting so easygoing in an attempt to get her to put her guard down, so she’ll spill some family dirt he can use for his book.

  “I thought you were going to have an espresso,” she tells him while they wait.

  “Why is that?”

  “When you asked if I wanted to meet you here, that’s what you said.”

  “That’s because I figured you for an espresso-­type woman and I wanted to lure you here. Me, I happen to be a plain old coffee kind of guy.”

  She bristles at his blatant use of the word “lure,” though he used it in a teasing tone. She isn’t the kind of woman who allows herself to be lured by anyone, particularly a nosy true-­crime writer.

  The tables are all filled when they turn to find a place to sit. The only available spot appears to be an overstuffed maroon velvet couch in a nook by the plate-­glass window overlooking the street. It’s too intimate as far as Rory is concerned, but what can she do except follow Barrett over and sit beside him?

  “So what have you been doing with yourself since you got to town?” Barrett asks after dumping three packages of sugar into his cup and stirring it. “Besides painting the kitchen, I mean.”

  “Not a whole lot. Mostly just catching up on family stuff.”

  Where did that come from? she wonders. It sounds so normal . . . and what she’s been going through with her family is anything but.

  “Your mother must be glad to have you home.”

  “Mmm,” Rory says noncommittally, wondering how much he knows about her mother.

  “What about your sister? Molly, isn’t it?”

  “Right.” She volunteers nothing more.

  “How old is she?”

  “Thirteen.”

  Under any other circumstances, she’d find his questions harmless. They could be likened to the usual first-­date chitchat, getting to know someone. But Rory can’t help but balk when it’s this particular man asking these particular questions.

  “Look,” she says directly, “I shouldn’t have come here tonight.”

  He raises an eyebrow. “Why not?”

  “Because I’m just not comfortable with some . . . stranger prying into my family. We’ve been through enough already. All we want is to be left alone.” She plunks her untouched foamy drink onto the low, magazine-­covered coffee table in front of them and starts to rise.

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p; “Wait, Rory, please. We don’t have to talk about what happened to Carleen if you don’t want to.”

  She stops, surprised. “We don’t?”

  “Not if it bothers you.”

  “But . . . I thought that’s why we were here.”

  “It was supposed to be. But after a week with no one to keep me company but Mrs. Shilling, I’m glad just to be here with someone like you.”

  “I know what you mean,” she hears herself say.

  “Family stuff getting to you?”

  “Not really.” She knows she shouldn’t tell him anything. Anything. She should stand up and walk out, as she’d been about to do.

  Instead, she finds herself saying, “It’s only been a week since I’ve been here, too, but I really miss . . . doing things. Talking to ­people who aren’t . . . related to me.”

  There, that’s harmless enough, she tells herself, realizing she’s been clenching her jaw, and letting it relax. You can chat a little with him, and it doesn’t have to be disastrous. Just because you blurted the truth to Molly last night doesn’t mean you’re going to get yourself into trouble talking to this man for a short while.

  “Where do you live . . . when you’re not here, I mean?” Barrett asks.

  “Miami. I mean, that’s where all my stuff is.”

  “But it isn’t home?”

  “Nah. Too hot and humid.”

  “Just like here,” he says, with a nod at the sunny sidewalk beyond the comfortable air-­conditioned climate of the cafe.

  “Yeah, but this weather is unusual for Lake Charlotte. In Miami it’s steamy all the time.”

  “So you’re planning to move back up North?”

  “Maybe,” she surprises herself by saying. Until this moment, she didn’t realize she’d ever consider it, but now that she’s said it, she realizes she kind of likes the idea.

  “Where? Here?”

  “No,” she says quickly. “Not here.”

  “Too small-­town?”

  “I don’t mind small towns. I grew up here, remember? And I like small towns.” That, too, is news to her. But as she hears herself talking, she realizes that there’s something to it. She just never stopped to think about it before. About finding a place to belong. “I like the laid-­back ­people in small towns,” she muses. “I like the slow pace.”

 

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